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Paris Byrum | Between Grief + Glory
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There is a place most of us were never taught to stay in. Between the grief and the glory. This podcast is for the Christian who is still believing, still showing up, still carrying more than anyone around them knows. Host Paris Byrum — spiritual mentor, trauma-informed soul guide, and founder of Between Grief & Glory — creates space to slow down, tell the truth, and walk with God through the places that don't resolve quickly. Healing is not meant to be rushed. And you were never meant to walk this alone. www.betweengriefandglory.com

Episodes

  1. 1d ago

    Episode 7: Ancient Company — You Are Not the First to Feel This

    🎨 Join Paris for Giving Shape to Sorrow — a guided grief art retreat, June 13 (online, 90 min) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ One of the cruelest things about the wall is what it whispers: everyone else's faith is working. Yours is the one that broke. The historical record says otherwise. In this episode, Paris introduces you to the people who have been here before you. Elijah under the broom tree, asking God to take his life. Paul, writing that he despaired of life itself. Jesus in Gethsemane, sweating blood. John of the Cross, writing about the dark night from a prison cell. Julian of Norwich, whispering all shall be well from inside her own suffering. The Desert Fathers and Mothers, who went into the wilderness not to escape — but to find. They were not weak. They were not faithless. They were faithful people who hit the wall and wrote it down — so that someone like you could find it one day and exhale. You are not crazy. You are not uniquely broken. You are not the first. You are in ancient, holy, hard company. And you are held.

    25 min

  2. 4d ago

    Episode 6.5: When You Can Name the Trigger Before It Names You

    The Story That's Been Shaping You Behind the Scenes Something happened this week in a relationship that matters to me. A trigger surfaced. My body felt it before my mind had words for it. And for the first time in a while, I could name what was happening before it named me. In this episode we talk about the difference between head faith and embodied faith, how the brain stores and recalls patterns from your past, what bodily resistance actually is and why it feels almost uncontrollable, and what becomes possible when the story that has been shaping you behind the scenes finally comes into the light. Referenced in this episode: Geoff and Cyd Holsclaw, Landscapes of the Soul: How the Science and Spirituality of Attachment Can Move You into Confident Faith, Courage, and Connection (Tyndale, 2025) Center for Embodied Faith: embodiedfaith.life Attaching to God podcast: available on all podcast platforms Bessel van der Kolk, The Body Keeps the Score BGG Episode 4.5 (the war zone and disorganized attachment) Free resource mentioned: What Are You Really Feeling? — Free guided workbook https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/What-Are-You-Really-Feeling-Opt-in Embodied Integration Practices: https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/offers/4mrQghrR/checkout

    26 min

  3. May 25

    Episode 6: The Two Spiritualities — When the Faith You Were Taught Stops Being Enough

    🎨 Join Paris for Giving Shape to Sorrow — a guided grief art retreat, June 13 (online, 90 min) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You did everything right. You showed up. You pressed on. You did the Bible programs, the prayer lists, the accountability. And somewhere along the way — it stopped working. Not because your faith is broken. Because the container you were given was never built for what you are now carrying. In this episode, Paris introduces one of the most clarifying concepts in this entire series — the two spiritualities. The first half of faith and the second. And why the wall between them is not a punishment, a failure, or the beginning of deconstruction. It is a doorway. If you have been wondering why trying harder keeps making things worse — this episode will give you the language you have been missing. You are not losing your faith. It is going deeper than it has ever gone.

    23 min

  4. May 21

    Episode 5.5: Your Body Is Not Your Enemy: What the Psalms Actually Do to Your Nervous System

    Most of us were taught the Psalms as inspiration. Beautiful, ancient poetry to lift us when we feel low. But David was not writing inspiration. He was processing. He brought his fear, his rage, his grief, his abandonment — raw, unfiltered, completely unpolished — and he voiced it to God. Not the cleaned-up version. The real one. And what modern neuroscience is now confirming is that what David was doing in those Psalms was not just spiritually significant. It was physiologically significant. He was metabolizing his pain — moving it through his body and his soul with God — in a way that actually changed him from the inside out. In this episode, I am sitting with something that surfaced powerfully in the last two Seen in the Wilderness sessions. Many of the women in that room could not name what they were feeling. Some felt shame about that. And I want to address it directly — because what was happening in that room was not a spiritual failure. It was a nervous system doing exactly what it was designed to do. We are going to talk about: Why so many of us disconnected from our bodies in the first place, and why that was never weaknessWhat actually happens when your body starts to wake up during healing, and why it feels like your body is attacking youThe theology underneath all of this: Incarnation, embodied resurrection, image-bearing, and why your spirituality cannot be separated from your physical bodyWhat your nervous system actually needs to heal, and why thinking your way through is not enoughWhy the Psalms were written to be sung, not just read, and what music does to your nervous system at a cellular levelHow a contained music practice became one of the most faithful things I did for three years of my lifeYour body is not your enemy. It never was. This episode is for the woman who has been treating it like one. Books: The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der KolkThe Boy Who Was Raised as a Dog by Bruce D. PerryScripture References (NASB95): Psalm 22:1Psalm 42:1Psalm 62:1Psalm 139:13-14Ephesians 5:31-32Work with Paris: Storyline: Seen, Known & Restored — a 9-week trauma-informed formation journey for women ready to do the deep work of healing, story, and reconnection with God. betweengriefandglory.com/storyline Instagram: instagram.com/betweengriefandglory Website: betweengriefandglory.com You do not have to keep carrying this alone. Storyline: Seen, Known & Restored is a space for women who are ready to stop performing their healing and start actually doing it — in their bodies, their stories, and their faith. Learn more at betweengriefandglory.com/storyline

    33 min

  5. May 18

    Episode 5: When You Don't Know Where You Are — Finding Solid Ground in the Disorientation

    💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You are at the wall. But which one? Because not all darkness is the same. And if you have been treating your wall like something it is not — applying remedies that don't fit, wondering why nothing is working — you may have been wandering in the right territory with the wrong map. In this episode, Paris walks through the six types of walls that show up in the Christian life — burnout, spiritual burnout, blowout, personal crisis, faith crisis, and the dark night of the soul — and why knowing which one you are in is the beginning of knowing how to stay. This is not a clinical checklist. It is a pastoral map. And it might give you the first language you have had for something you have been carrying alone for a very long time. You are not lost. You are going deeper.

    29 min

  6. May 15

    Episode 4.5-- You Were Not Made to Find God Alone: How Your Attachment Story Shapes the Way You Experience Him

    You know attachment theory. But have you considered that the same patterns shaping how you relate to people are also shaping how you experience God? In this bonus episode — a bridge between the Wilderness series and the Dark Night of the Soul — Paris explores how our early attachment environments form templates we then press onto God. Why you can believe He is good and still not feel it. Why prayer can feel like talking to a ceiling. Why some of us deconstruct, some of us stay angry, and some of us quietly settle into the belief that warmth from God is simply not available to us. Drawing on Cyd and Geoff Holsclaw's framework from Landscapes of the Soul, and grounded in the theology of the Imago Dei, this episode makes the case that healing your relationship with God requires more than better theology — it requires being seen, known, and held by safe people. Because you were not made to find Him alone.  → Storyline: Seen, Known, and Restored: ⁠https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/storyline⁠ → Pre-Evaluation: Attachment to God Inventory: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSccVjB_CYwyzUOZSes6BfVks5iqHTAlKLrSCcb46Rsww8saxQ/viewform?usp=header  → Pre- Evaluation: Loneliness & Community https://forms.gle/xNFyg5vBK6bPtZr79

    24 min

  7. May 11

    Episode 4: When God Goes Quiet — What the Church Forgot to Tell You

    🤍 Join us for ⁠⁠⁠Seen in the Wilderness — May 13 & 14 ⁠⁠⁠(free, live)  💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ If prayer has felt hollow lately. If Scripture feels like words in a foreign language. If you have gone through the motions of your spiritual life for months — feeling nothing. Not peace. Not warmth. Not the quiet assurance you used to know. You have not lost your faith. You have hit a wall. And the church largely forgot to tell you this was coming. In this episode, Paris opens a brand new series — Through the Wall — exploring one of the most disorienting seasons in the Christian life. The season where the old ways of praying stop working. Where God feels distant or worse — unkind. Where trying harder only makes it worse. This season has a name. It has ancient company. And you are not failing. The shepherd does not remove the valley. He walks through it with you.

    22 min

  8. May 9

    Episode 3.5: I Am Still in the Wilderness Too: On Triggers, Trust, and Learning to Stay With Yourself

    A bonus episode before the series continues — because too many messages have been arriving that could not wait. In this episode, Paris gets honest about where she is right now — not from a place of having arrived, but from the middle of something tender and unresolved. She talks about what it actually looks like when a trigger hits, why the spiral of "I should feel differently by now" is not the same as faithlessness, and what it means to learn how to name your pain without collapsing into it. This conversation is for anyone who has found themselves reacting before they could think, spiraling into self-accusation, or wondering why God feels far when their body feels loud. Also: one final invitation to Seen in the Wilderness — a free, live, two-day guided experience on May 13th and 14th — before the next series begins. Not fixed. Just further. And further is enough. → Register for Seen in the Wilderness: https://www.betweengriefandglory.com/Seen-in-the-Wilderness → Between Grief & Glory: betweengriefandglory.com

    21 min

  9. May 4

    Episode 3: This Is Why Nothing Has Worked Yet—and What's Different About This

    🤍 Join us for ⁠⁠⁠Seen in the Wilderness — May 13 & 14 ⁠⁠⁠(free, live)  💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You have tried the programs. Done the Bible studies. Sat in counseling. Pressed through. And something still has not moved. This is not because healing is impossible for you. It is because the approach was never matched to the actual problem. In this episode, Paris gets honest about why most of what we have been given — good, well-intentioned, even scripturally sound — has not reached the places that actually need to be reached. And what is genuinely different about slowing down, being accompanied, and letting something be seen for the first time. If you have been tired of trying things that almost work — this one is for you. The shift does not come when your circumstances change. It comes when the question you are asking changes.

    23 min

  10. Apr 27

    Episode 2: It's Not That You Don't Want to Heal… It's That You Don't Know What Will Happen If You Look

    🤍 Join us for ⁠⁠Seen in the Wilderness — May 13 & 14 ⁠⁠(free, live)  💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠Notes from the In Between⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You heard last week's episode and something in you exhaled. Yes. That is exactly it. And then — quietly, almost immediately — something else showed up alongside that recognition. A hesitation. A pulling back. A part of you that thought: I want this. And I am not sure I am ready to look. That is exactly where we are going today. Because the thing keeping you from healing is not weakness. It is not a lack of faith. It is not stubbornness or resistance. It is protection. And it deserves to be understood — not pushed through. In this episode, Paris walks gently into one of the most honest questions in this work: What if I open something I cannot close? If you have been circling this for a long time — wanting to heal, but afraid of what looking might cost you — this episode is for you. You do not have to be ready. You just have to be willing to be present.

    20 min

  11. Apr 21

    Episode 1: I Did Everything I Was Taught… and It Still Didn't Change Anything

    🤍 Join us for ⁠Seen in the Wilderness — May 13 & 14 ⁠(free, live) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠Notes from the In Between⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You have been praying. Showing up. Doing everything you were taught to do. And something still hasn't moved. This first episode of Lament & Light is for the woman who is not burned out from giving up — but from keep going. The one quietly asking: what is wrong with me? Host Paris Byrum opens the space with honesty — naming why this podcast exists, what Between Grief & Glory was built for, and why the patterns you keep living aren't evidence of weak faith. They're evidence that something in you has never been fully seen. Because the gap between what you believe and what you're living isn't failure. It's an invitation. If you've been sitting in what feels like Saturday — and no one around you has language for it — you're in the right place. Come as you are. Healing is not meant to be rushed.

    23 min
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There is a place most of us were never taught to stay in. Between the grief and the glory. This podcast is for the Christian who is still believing, still showing up, still carrying more than anyone around them knows. Host Paris Byrum — spiritual mentor, trauma-informed soul guide, and founder of Between Grief & Glory — creates space to slow down, tell the truth, and walk with God through the places that don't resolve quickly. Healing is not meant to be rushed. And you were never meant to walk this alone. www.betweengriefandglory.com

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