Power Back Here

Megan Conrad Anaya, MSW, RM

Power Back Here is a gently Christ‑centered, trauma‑informed podcast for survivors and couples healing from abusive and high‑control relationships, including harmful therapeutic, religious, spiritual and cult experiences. This is not “in your face” Christianity or clinical diagnosis language. Instead, each episode weaves nervous‑system science, honest spiritual experience, and the CASCADE framework to help you come back into your body and the present, receive Christ’s love without shame or fear, and reclaim your power to choose love—in your relationship with God, with yourself, and in the real‑life relationships and marriages you’re building now.

Episodes

  1. Jun 17

    S1E2: Your Nervous System Isn't Broken, It's Brilliant

    Send us Fan Mail Summary: You've been told you're too reactive, too sensitive, too much. But what if everything your nervous system is doing right now is exactly right — a brilliant, precise, protective response to what you've lived through? In this episode, Megan walks you through what's actually happening in your body when you freeze, fight, flee, fawn, or fracture — and why understanding your nervous system is the first step to coming home to yourself. Show Notes: If you've ever looked at your own reactions — the shutdown, the panic, the hypervigilance, the exhaustion you can't explain — and wondered what is wrong with me, this episode is for you. Nothing is wrong with you. But something happened to you. And your nervous system has been faithfully protecting you from it ever since. In this episode, Megan breaks down: Why your nervous system wired the way it did — and why that wiring was not a mistake, it was brillianceThe full spectrum of nervous system responses — fight, flight, freeze, fawn, and fracture — and what each one is actually protecting you fromWhy physical symptoms like anxiety, chronic fatigue, digestive issues, and panic attacks are often the body's last language for a nervous system that never learned it was safe to restWhy getting out of a harmful situation doesn't automatically reset the wiring — and why you may find yourself in the same dynamics again, not because your picker is broken, but because your nervous system is doing exactly what it learned to doWhy the solution is new experiences, not more understanding — and what that actually means for your healingMegan also shares from her own experience of working with clients' energy systems — and how the body, the nervous system, and the energy field tell the same story in different languages. Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    18 min
  2. Jun 17

    S1E3: The Movie Your Mind is Still Playing

    Send us Fan Mail Summary: When intrusive images, flashbacks, and worst-case scenarios flood your mind, it can feel like proof that you're broken — or that you can't trust your own perception. But those images are not your enemy. In this episode, Megan reframes the images your nervous system projects as one of the most powerful tools available to you — a map back to your own clarity, your own discernment, and your own power to choose. Show Notes: Have you ever been in a situation — maybe one that looked fine on the surface — and had your mind flood with images from the past? Flashbacks. Worst-case scenarios. Intrusive memories that arrive before you have words for them? And then came the second layer of confusion: Am I overreacting? Am I projecting? Is this old stuff coming up, or is this actually happening again? If you've been told you're too sensitive, too triggered, too shaped by your history to be trusted — this episode is a direct reframe of that lie. In this episode, Megan covers: Why your brain projects images before you have words — and why this is a protective mechanism, not a malfunctionHow to begin discerning whether your trauma response is old wiring being triggered by something neutral — or a legitimate signal that something is genuinely not safeThe single most important data point when you bring a concern to someone close to you — and what their response tells you about whether the relationship is safeHow intrusive images and recovered memories connect to the fractured, shattered pieces of yourself that went underground to survive — and how sitting with them, rather than running from them, becomes the path to integrationThe most stabilizing reframe for working with triggering images — not as evidence that you're broken, but as a doorway back to your own clarity, wisdom, and power to chooseMegan also shares her own journey through EMDR, recovered memories, and the disorienting process of learning to trust her own perception again after years of being told she couldn't. Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    9 min
  3. Jun 17

    S1E4: The Story that Kept You Safe (And is Now Keeping You Stuck)

    Send us Fan Mail Your beliefs aren't broken. They're brilliant — and they're keeping you stuck. In this episode, Megan Conrad Anaya, MSW goes deep into one of the most misunderstood dynamics in trauma recovery: the survival stories we build to protect ourselves that eventually become the ceiling we keep bumping into. This isn't about positive affirmations or rewriting mantras that don't feel true. It's about going back to the moment the belief was formed — and bringing love to the part of you that created it to survive. Megan shares a raw, personal story from age six — witnessing devastating harm inside a family system and making a split-second, unconscious choice to align with the harmers in order to survive. She unpacks the shame, confusion, and disorientation of realizing, years later, that she had acted out the very dynamics she was trying to escape — and how working with that image, that memory, and that six-year-old self became one of the most liberating pieces of her healing. Drawing on Dr. Edith Eger's The Choice, Megan closes with the one thing that cannot be taken from you even when everything else is: the power to choose your response, your story, and where you place your attention next. You'll leave this episode with: A new framework for working with limiting beliefs — without toxic positivityA process for locating where a survival story startedPermission to hold accountability, grief, and compassion for yourself at the same time Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    14 min
  4. Jun 17

    S1E7: The Medicine is in the Shadow

    Send us Fan Mail There is a stage of healing that nobody warns you about. After you get out. After you name the abuse. After you've done the work of saying that was wrong and meaning it. There is a next thing. It's messy. It's humbling. And it's where the real treasure is. In this episode, Megan talks about the shadow — not as a concept, but as a lived experience she's had to navigate herself. She opens up about a pivotal moment from her own childhood, and what it meant to realize that in surviving harm, she had absorbed some of the very patterns she had worked so hard to name and leave behind. This episode is for you if: You've done the early work of naming your abuse and you're ready for the next layerYou've asked yourself, "Does that mean I'm an abuser too?" — and the question scared youYou're ready to stop just analyzing what was done to you and start excavating what lives inside youYou want your healing to be the thing that stops the pattern from passing to the next generationWhat Megan covers in this episode: Why the early stage of recovery requires black-and-white thinking — and why it also has to evolveThe difference between using your abuser as a mirror vs. excusing what they didWhat "hurt people, hurt people" gets right — and how it can also be weaponizedThe connection between shadow work, Jungian depth psychology, and what every major faith tradition names as the "natural man"The Montessori mindset that became Megan's framework for looking inward instead of outward when something goes wrongThe dragon's lair: why the most terrifying things in your shadow are also where the treasure livesHow practicing creator mindset — even in small ways — builds your capacity to face your own shadow without shameA note on who this episode is for: If you are still in active abuse or harm, this episode is not your next right step. Get safe first. This one is for those who are already out, already rebuilding, and ready for the deeper excavation that makes the healing stick. Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    19 min
  5. Jun 17

    S1E9: After the Dark: What Rupture, Repair, and Real Love Actually Look Like

    Send us Fan Mail Last episode, we went somewhere heavy. If that episode cracked something open in you, this one is the exhale. This is not a pivot away from the hard truth — it's proof of what the hard truth makes possible. What This Episode Is About Drawing on Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.'s philosophy of nonviolent protest, Megan explores one of the most quietly radical relationship skills: holding someone accountable without stripping them of their humanity — and offering yourself the same grace. From there, she gets personal. A significant rupture in her own marriage. The fear it might not survive. And what happened when both partners chose to show up fully — with their pain, their love, and their whole humanity intact. This episode is for the woman who survived the worst and still wonders: Is something genuinely good even possible for me? The answer is yes. You're listening to living proof. In This Episode: Dr. King's nonviolent philosophy as a relationship frameworkRupture and repair (attachment theory) — and why so many couples never reach true resolutionThe shame-collapse spiral and what actually breaks itThe key to real repair: sitting in the impact togetherMegan's raw, personal story of a rupture she wasn't sure her marriage could survive — and what it became on the other sideA direct message to the woman still inside something destructive, the woman in the messy in-between, and the one who has almost stopped hoping"The rupture was the very thing that built the safety, trust, and intimacy I desperately wanted. What we had before was beyond my wildest dreams. This is something I never even dreamt of. I'm living proof it's possible." If that stirs something you haven't touched in a long time — drop a comment or send a message. You are not alone. Resources: 🌿 The Passage — three-phase healing program → MeganConradAnaya.com 💑 Cascade for Couples → MeganConradAnaya.com Know a woman who survived something hard and doesn't yet believe something good is coming? Share this episode. It was made for her. Until next time — keep the power back here. Timestamps 00:00 — Intro 00:36 — Dr. King & nonviolent accountability ~02:30 — Rupture and repair ~05:00 — The shame-collapse spiral ~06:30 — Megan's personal story ~10:00 — Sitting in the impact together ~12:00 — The other side ~13:30 — Message to the woman still in it 14:53 — Outro + resources Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    15 min
  6. Jun 17

    S1E12: Season One Wrap Up

    Send us Fan Mail If you've been here from the beginning, this episode is for you. Megan brings Season One full circle — returning to the foundational image of the peach and the deeper truth it's always been pointing to: you get to choose. In this episode, Megan covers: The core throughline of Season One — from trauma response to conscious choiceWhy trauma takes away your choice on purpose (it's keeping you alive) — and what becomes possible when you slow down enough to reclaim itThe full spectrum of what you get to choose: how you respond, what you risk, how you narrate your story, who you share your vulnerability with, and how you relate to GodThe fine but real line between devastation with hope and devastation without it — and what makes the differenceThe peach image revisited: what it means to share your heart without losing it, and why reciprocity is the antidote to lonelinessWhy the current epidemic of loneliness isn't a mystery — it's a disconnection from the intimate, mutual rhythm of I share, you receive; you share, I receiveA preview of Season Two and what's coming nextQuote from this episode: "You get to choose how you relate to a higher power, or if you do. You get to choose all of those things. And our trauma responses are designed to protect us — they take away our choice — until we can slow down and choose what we're going to think, experience, or do with those experiences instead." Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    6 min
  7. Jun 17

    S1E11: Rebuilding Love and Trust After Being Burned

    Send us Fan Mail Every survivor eventually asks the question: How do I know this isn't just the old thing wearing a new face? In this episode, Megan goes deep on how she answered that question for herself — in her marriage, in her faith community, and in her own internal world. In this episode, Megan covers: The difference between intentional harm and normal human imperfection — and the single accountability question that reveals which one you're dealing withWhy looking back at past red flags doesn't mean you'll automatically spot the next ones — and what to do about thatThe "glass box" concept: how control-based relationships actually work at the felt, body levelWhy willingness to risk is the clearest evidence that you are no longer operating from survival modeThe personal story of walking into a new church — nervous system on full alert — and choosing radical transparency anywayWhat happened in her own marriage when her body was 100% certain she was back in an old trauma pattern — and what shifted itHow curiosity and compassion (rather than certainty and control) are the tools that allow deep commitment to actually deepenWhen to step out of the dynamic (not the relationship) — and how to tell the differencePersonal Story Highlight: Megan shares the moment she and her husband sat down with church leadership — still not knowing if they were safe — and chose to put it all on the table anyway. That act of surrendering control of the outcome became a defining turning point not just for their community belonging, but for how she now coaches clients through the same crossroads. Quote from this episode: "When you're in survival mode, you don't risk like that. You would bend or break yourself into pieces first before taking that risk." Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    16 min
  8. Jun 17

    S1E10: Finding Power in Faith — Choosing Healing When the World Can't Promise Safety

    Send us Fan Mail In this deeply personal episode, Megan Conrad Anaya, MSW, explores the intersection of faith, spiritual abuse, and the radical power of choice in the healing journey. Drawing from over two decades of trauma work and her own lived experience, Megan shares how a pivotal moment in a therapy session — realizing no human being could truly guarantee her past pain would never return — became the turning point that sent her toward a personal relationship with the divine. In this episode, Megan covers: Why human reassurance alone often isn't enough to sustain deep trauma healing — and what to turn to insteadHow organized religion can be both a source of profound spiritual experience and a vehicle for spiritual abuse — and how to navigate that dualityThe role of personal choice in healing, even when nearly everything else has been stripped awayReflections on the life and passing of Holocaust survivor and psychologist Dr. Edith Eger (1927–2026), whose memoir The Choice profoundly shaped Megan's healing philosophyHow the CASCADE journaling exercise was born out of Megan's own raw conversations with GodWhat it means to carry safety within yourself rather than depending on outside sourcesWhy connection to a higher power — beyond any specific religion — may be the missing piece for people stuck in cycles of distressResources & People Mentioned: The Choice by Dr. Edith Eger Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl The CASCADE Framework (Megan's proprietary coaching process)Key Quote from this episode: "I could start carrying that safety with me everywhere I went, instead of having it come from the outside." Dr. Edith Eger passed away on April 27, 2026, at age 98. Her legacy — that we always retain the power to choose our response — echoes powerfully throughout this episode. If this conversation resonated with you, stay tuned for more on how Megan integrates directed coherence and subtle body work into her coaching programs to help clients develop their own connection to something greater than themselves. Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    20 min
  9. Jun 17

    S1E8: The Wounds Become the Way

    Send us Fan Mail Powerback Here — Season One, Episode 8 "The Wounds Become the Way" TRIGGER WARNING.  In this episode, Megan opens up about being born into a family with a generational pattern of ritualistic cult involvement — and how those earliest experiences quietly shaped everything that followed: her marriage, her faith, her nervous system, and ultimately the CASCADE framework itself. She shares how the same mechanisms she experienced in childhood cult environments were operating inside her own home, how she discovered this connection through Steve Hassan's work on cult dynamics mid-divorce, and how COVID became the unlikely crucible where CASCADE was born — doing deep, solo trauma work while triggered from every direction, every single day. With rare honesty, Megan walks through choosing between two kinds of death, a court outcome worse than her worst-case scenario, and what she found on the other side: a self-trust no one could take from her. If you're ready to go deeper, The Passage — Megan's three-phase healing program for women — and CASCADE for Couples are both at meganconradanaya.com. And scroll below for the link to her free live CASCADE workshop. Show Notes Growing up inside a generational cult system — and why survivors were dismissed for decadesHow the Epstein files have begun to validate what survivors have long been sayingDiscovering Steve Hassan's cult framework and recognizing her marriage in itSolo trauma processing during COVID — and how CASCADE was built from daily necessityThe physical cost of unprocessed trauma: thyroid collapse, emergency gallbladder surgeryThe moment she told her husband: therapy or divorce — and his responseChoosing between two kinds of death, and what that choice made possibleA court outcome worse than worst-case — and the unshakeable self-trust it builtWhy new experiences — not just new insight — are what actually heal the patternPower Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    35 min
  10. Jun 17

    S1E6: Surrender is Not Submission

    Send us Fan Mail What if letting go isn't losing — it's the only way to win? In this episode, Megan Conrad Anaya, MSW unpacks one of the most misused words in trauma and spiritual recovery: surrender. In coercive control and high-control religious systems, surrender is often weaponized to mean submission — give in, go along, stop fighting. That's not what Megan is talking about. Surrender, in the way she means it, is putting down the rope in an unwinnable tug of war so you can finally use your hands for something else. Megan shares two raw, visceral stories. The first: the day she was court-ordered to hand her children to their father for the first time — and the vision she received in her car at a stop sign that would take four years to fully understand. The second: sitting in a courtroom watching her ex-husband testify, feeling rage rising through her body, and finding unexpected calm in a single mantra: He has the right to choose how he sees things. And I have the right to choose how I see things. She also shares a dream that arrived before the trial — one that ended with her hand on her husband's cheek and the words: "You are worthy of love and belonging. And so am I. And that's why I have to leave." You'll leave this episode with: A clear distinction between surrender and submissionA grounding mantra for staying regulated when someone else's choices feel unbearableA real story of what it looks like to let go — and what became possible on the other sidePermission to surrender to what you cannot control without losing yourself in the processPower Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    17 min
  11. Jun 17

    S1E5: "No Victims- Only Volunteers" - The Most Misunderstood Idea in Healing

    Send us Fan Mail Being victimized is real. Staying in victim identity is a choice — and knowing the difference is everything. In this episode, Megan Conrad Anaya, MSW unpacks one of the most nuanced and necessary conversations in trauma recovery: the line between being fully held in your pain and getting stuck in it. Drawing on David Emerald's Drama Triangle from The Power of TED and her mentor's provocative claim that "there are no victims, only volunteers," Megan carefully untangles victim-blaming from victim identity — and invites listeners into the next phase of their healing: becoming the creator of their own life. This isn't toxic positivity. It isn't bypassing. It's the honest conversation about post-traumatic growth that most trauma spaces are too afraid to have. Megan shares her own raw story: the day in October 2023 when the court handed down a judgment that failed her on every level — and what happened when she sat alone on her couch that night with a spiral notebook and asked herself, "Okay. Now what?" The answer that came surprised her: Go to New York. What followed — a cross-country move, a full-ride scholarship, new community, dancing, and a complete identity rebuild — became the most vivid example she knows of what choosing creator mode actually looks like in real life. You'll leave this episode with: A clear framework for understanding the Drama Triangle and how to step out of itLanguage for the difference between being victimized and living as a victimA real-life example of what "creator mode" looks and feels like in the aftermath of severe injusticePermission to grieve fully — and then ask "now what?" Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    23 min
  12. Jun 17

    S1E1: Power Back Here — Who This Is For

    Send us Fan Mail This is the starting place. If you've been hurt by love, family, faith, or the systems meant to protect you—and you're done waiting for external justice or the perfect circumstances to start healing—this episode is for you. Host Megan Conrad Anaya, MSW introduces the show, and her story of experiencing the power of the Reiki principle of Cho Ku Rei that became the turning point in her journey to heal from coercive control while navigating a disastrous divorce: place the power here, now. Through the image of ripe peaches freely given, she unpacks why control and love cannot coexist—and what it means to bring your power back to yourself. Power Back Here starts now. Let's go in. Power Back Here exists for the individual or couple ready to stop living in survival mode — and start choosing something entirely different. This is the work of recognizing your trauma patterns, reclaiming your nervous system, and rebuilding the capacity to trust and develop intimacy in the relationships that matter most — with the Divine, with yourself, and with others. So many of us have learned to white-knuckle it alone — that people aren't safe — while desperately longing for connection, meaning, and the power to bring something uniquely ours into the world. Jesus Christ is the center of this work — a living, relational anchor who makes it possible to face all of human reality, receive unconditional love, and then offer that love to others. Sovereign love isn't something we manufacture. It's something we choose to receive — and live from. If this is resonating and you're ready to go deeper with an experienced guide — for yourself or your marriage — reach out at www.meganconradanaya.com and let's talk next steps.  We have the power to choose love, always. Power back here.

    11 min

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Power Back Here is a gently Christ‑centered, trauma‑informed podcast for survivors and couples healing from abusive and high‑control relationships, including harmful therapeutic, religious, spiritual and cult experiences. This is not “in your face” Christianity or clinical diagnosis language. Instead, each episode weaves nervous‑system science, honest spiritual experience, and the CASCADE framework to help you come back into your body and the present, receive Christ’s love without shame or fear, and reclaim your power to choose love—in your relationship with God, with yourself, and in the real‑life relationships and marriages you’re building now.