Prayers and Cusswords

Ashley Jaye
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A soul-deep, unfiltered podcast for women who are healing out loud while navigating systems, relationships, and identities that were never designed to support their fullness. Hosted by writer, storyteller, mother, and HR-trained truth-teller Ashley Jaye, this show blends honesty, humor, spirituality, and lived experience into conversations that feel like therapy, church, and a late-night phone call with your realest friend. It offers clarity where others gaslight. Hold space with softness and strength, and makes room for the woman you’re becoming.

  1. God Forbid I Show Signs of the Disorder I Was Diagnosed With

    Jun 24

    God Forbid I Show Signs of the Disorder I Was Diagnosed With

    Executive Dysfunction Is Ruining My Life What happens when executive dysfunction starts impacting your job, your finances, your health, and your ability to keep up with life? In this raw and unfiltered episode of Prayers & Cusswords, Ashley opens up about living with multiple mental health diagnoses, ADHD, executive dysfunction, burnout, grief, and the exhausting reality of masking symptoms that most people never see. From avoiding important emails and missing deadlines to struggling with everyday tasks like taking a shower, this conversation explores what it feels like when your brain knows exactly what needs to be done—but cannot seem to do it. This isn't a success story. It's not a comeback story. It's an honest conversation about fear, mental illness, burnout, neurodivergence, and the invisible battles people fight every day. If you've ever felt overwhelmed, behind in life, emotionally exhausted, or terrified that you're one step away from losing everything you've worked so hard to build, this episode is for you. Topics: ADHD, executive dysfunction, burnout recovery, neurodivergent women, mental health awareness, anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, masking, grief, overwhelm, emotional exhaustion, self-compassion, healing out loud.

    7 min
  2. What do birthdays and funerals have in common?

    Jun 18

    What do birthdays and funerals have in common?

    Apparently... me. In this deeply personal birthday episode of Prayers and Cusswords, I reflect on spending my 38th birthday at my uncle's funeral just days after being hospitalized with multiple blood clots in both lungs. From grief and burnout to purpose and becoming, this episode explores the question that's been following me all year: What are you doing with the time you've been given? We talk about surviving loss, navigating uncertainty, rediscovering yourself after life falls apart, and why a pastor's unexpected frog analogy might have become the most important lesson of my year. If you've ever felt stuck between who you were and who you're becoming, this conversation is for you. Topics:• Personal growth after grief• Burnout and healing• ADHD, identity, and self-discovery• Purpose and alignment• Turning pain into creativity• Life lessons from unexpected places• Entering a new chapter with intention Because thirty-seven was the search. Thirty-eight is the embodiment. 🎙️ Prayers and CusswordsWhere softness and survival coexist.

    12 min
  3. Burnout, Blood Clots, and the Search for Safety

    Jun 14 ·  Bonus

    Burnout, Blood Clots, and the Search for Safety

    When success no longer feels safe... In this raw bonus episode of Prayers & Cusswords, I share what it feels like to navigate burnout, career uncertainty, financial stress, a missed birthday trip, and recovery from multiple pulmonary emboli—all at the same time. What started as a conversation about being "motherfucking tired" became something deeper: a realization that I've spent years chasing success, stability, and achievement while quietly searching for something else entirely—safety. If you've ever felt overwhelmed by work, trapped in survival mode, emotionally exhausted, or unsure of what comes next, this episode is for you. Together, we explore self-advocacy, workplace stress, healing, personal growth, and the difficult question many high-achieving women eventually face: What if I'm not tired from rebuilding my life? What if I'm tired from trying to earn a sense of safety I've been searching for all along? Prayers & Cusswords is where softness and survival coexist.

    12 min
  4. Being Chosen is Not the Same as Being Seen

    Jun 9

    Being Chosen is Not the Same as Being Seen

    A simple question on Threads sent me spiraling back to May 2015—the day I graduated with my master's degree, less than a month after giving birth, while working full-time and building a future for myself. It was supposed to be one of the proudest moments of my life. Instead, it became the day I got engaged. For years, I thought the lesson was that I dodged a marriage. But looking back, that's not the lesson at all. The lesson is that my body knew before my mind was ready to admit it. In this episode of Prayers & Cusswords Podcast, I revisit my engagement story and proposal story to unpack the powerful connection between intuition and relationships. I share how women's intuition often speaks long before we are ready to listen, why trusting your intuition matters, and how relationship red flags can hide behind moments that look perfect on the surface. This episode is a deeply personal reflection on self-worth and relationships, emotional intelligence, and the life lessons from relationships that shape who we become. If you've ever struggled with listening to your inner voice, overcoming self-abandonment, or choosing what looked good instead of what felt right, you'll find yourself in this conversation. Together, we'll explore what it means to stop seeking validation from others and start choosing yourself. This personal growth journey touches on healing after heartbreak, authenticity and self-love, personal development, and the courage it takes to honor your truth even when everyone around you is applauding. Because sometimes the biggest red flags don't show up as danger. Sometimes they show up as celebration. If you're looking for relationship advice, empowerment for women, or a self-discovery podcast that blends vulnerability, healing, and real-life wisdom, this episode is for you. Welcome to Prayers & Cusswords Podcast, where softness and survival coexist. #TrustYourIntuition #IntuitionAndRelationships #RelationshipRedFlags #SelfWorthAndRelationships #ChooseYourself #PersonalGrowthJourney #HealingAfterHeartbreak #WomenEmpowerment #SelfDiscoveryPodcast #PrayersAndCusswordsPodcast

    10 min
  5. Softness and Survival Coexist | The Day I Stopped Chasing Enough

    Jun 5

    Softness and Survival Coexist | The Day I Stopped Chasing Enough

    What happens when you realize you've spent your entire life trying to earn something you already possess? In this deeply personal episode of Prayers & Cusswords, Ashley shares the unexpected breakthrough that emerged from a family conflict, a difficult conversation, and a question that many of us carry in silence: What do I need to do to be enough? Through stories about motherhood, entrepreneurship, healing, grief, family dynamics, ADHD, and self-worth, Ashley explores the difference between being productive and being worthy, why people often see our output but not our struggle, and how she finally understood the meaning behind her own mantra: Where softness and survival coexist. If you've ever felt unseen, misunderstood, overwhelmed, or like the goalpost keeps moving no matter how much you accomplish, this episode is for you. Topics discussed: Self-worth and validationMotherhood and family expectationsADHD and executive dysfunctionEntrepreneurship and building a purpose-driven brandHealing from trauma and griefPersonal growth and emotional resilienceWhy enoughness is not a destination

    10 min
  6. Life's Grievances: Daniel Caesar, Rock Bottom & The Art of Alchemical Transmutation

    Jun 2

    Life's Grievances: Daniel Caesar, Rock Bottom & The Art of Alchemical Transmutation

    What do you do with inherited pain, addiction, grief, father wounds, heartbreak, and the parts of yourself you've spent years trying to outrun? After listening to Daniel Caesar's Son of Spergy, I found myself reflecting on sobriety, generational trauma, healing, spirituality, and the surprising truth about rock bottom. In this episode, I explore why life's biggest breakdowns may actually be construction sites for who we're becoming. If you've ever felt lost, stuck, overwhelmed, or caught between surviving and rebuilding, this conversation is for you. Topics: sobriety, grief, addiction recovery, father wounds, personal growth, spiritual awakening, healing, purpose, and transformation.

    11 min
  7. Disposable Intimacy

    May 28

    Disposable Intimacy

    That’s what my dating life feels like now. Not love.Not connection.Not even heartbreak. Just temporary emotional access with an expiration date nobody warns you about. In this episode, I talk about: matching with the same man twice months apartrealizing our kids go to the same schoolhow quickly people disappear once connection starts feeling “too real”and why modern dating feels more psychologically exhausting than ever beforeBecause somewhere along the way…people started treating intimacy like a convenience instead of a responsibility. And honestly? I think a lot of us are grieving relationships that never technically existed. This episode is about:the almosts,the emotional whiplash,the fake familiarity,and the silent grief of trying to connect in a world full of emotionally unavailable people pretending they want love. If you’ve ever sat staring at your phone wondering:“what the actual f**k is dating now?” This one is for you.

    7 min
  8. What the Hell Do I Do With My Life?

    May 26

    What the Hell Do I Do With My Life?

    Nobody talks enough about what happens AFTER the breakdown. After the awakening.After the reckoning.After the moment you finally realize survival mode is no longer sustainable. Because now what? In this episode, I talk about integration — the uncomfortable stage of healing where awareness must become action. The stage where you still have to navigate bills, responsibilities, strained relationships, executive dysfunction, and emotional exhaustion while trying not to abandon yourself again. This isn’t the glamorous version of healing. This is the real version:the quiet rebuilding.the tiny acts of self-trust.the learning how to live without chaos carrying your identity. If you’ve ever wondered:“How do I move forward after imploding?” This episode is for you. 🎙️ Prayers & CusswordsWhere softness and survival coexist.

    8 min
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About

A soul-deep, unfiltered podcast for women who are healing out loud while navigating systems, relationships, and identities that were never designed to support their fullness. Hosted by writer, storyteller, mother, and HR-trained truth-teller Ashley Jaye, this show blends honesty, humor, spirituality, and lived experience into conversations that feel like therapy, church, and a late-night phone call with your realest friend. It offers clarity where others gaslight. Hold space with softness and strength, and makes room for the woman you’re becoming.

Information

  • Creator
    Ashley Jaye
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    36
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © Ashley Jaye
  • Show Website
    Prayers and Cusswords