Dear Radio Free Pizza gourmets, Here we go again: another chapter of the oblique autobiography I’ve been writing as “journals”—which some critics might just call filler, since the typical content I produced in my first couple of years has been largely absent for the majority of 2025. The first charted the path from my early Mexico years through early trips, deep friendships, a 2018 seizure and coma, and a doomed real-estate investment meant to secure my father’s retirement. I found myself back in Mexico City again this past April, where I found myself with my job ending and my future uncertain, but trying to trust that every stalled chapter eventually turns. But that chapter turned for the worse, and the second found me back in Minneapolis—jobless, shaken by losses, and facing a nation devolving into political turmoil. In that unrest, I turned toward stillness, faith, and the idea of resilience as both spiritual grounding and active renewal. In the third, I wrote about driving from Minneapolis to Chicago for the Center for Political Innovation’s Great Unity Convention, after which I came home (to a new job) convinced once more of the importance of building bridges rather than conducting purity tests, of rejecting political violence, and of organizing for material peace: work, housing, healthcare, education, and dignity for working families at home and abroad. So, given the nobility of those aims, let me tell you that no one regrets more than I do the relative absence of content here to support them. Without going into further detail, suffice it to say that this has been the hardest year of my life. This journal, I hope, will mark the beginning of a (likely slow) return to form. To that end, I’d like to delve a little deeper than usual on spiritual matters, with reference to the same dispatch touched upon in a previous journal. There, I introduced what I called Liberation Vitalism—my attempt to braid the justice-focus of liberation theology with a life-affirming vitalism. I reflected on Gustavo Gutiérrez’s legacy, noted the familiar critiques that liberation theology edges into Marxism, and walked through today’s debates on “Christian vitalism,” Bronze Age Mindset, and the deeper cultural metacrisis—a crisis born of our loss of the sacred. Overall, I attested the obvious: that living beings carry an intrinsic value machines never can. Against that backdrop, I sketched the core of Liberation Vitalism—human dignity, authentic desire, compassionate strength, deep community, and spiritual resistance to dehumanization—and I closed by insisting, with a quote from the Epistle of James, that faith without deeds is dead, and any philosophy that fights oppression is worth meeting halfway. Either before or while composing that dispatch (I honestly can’t remember), I happened to come across an October 2024 video from the estimable Dr. John Campbell—surely a familiar name to dissidents of the 2022–’23 coronavirus pandemic, and to whose work we referred in February 2024—that might have put the idea of addressing Christianity into my mind. Here, Campbell walks through the Shroud of Turin from a multitude of angles—scientific, medical, historical, and of course spiritual—explaining how this 14-foot linen cloth bears a photographic-negative image of a crucified man, something impossible to produce before the invention of photography, and how the image even encodes real three-dimensional information that NASA’s VP8 analyzer can translate into accurate relief. I learned that the image is incredibly superficial, with only the outermost fibers bearing it, and that they contain no paint, pigment, dye, or stain, making artistic forgery essentially impossible. Campbell also lays out the pathological details visible in the image: scourge marks, crown-of-thorns wounds, wrist-nail placement, a spear wound, bruising, and blood patterns—all medically consistent with Roman crucifixion practices, and with the Gospel accounts. The biological findings were also compelling: real human blood with high bilirubin levels, Jerusalem-matching limestone under the blood, and pollen that traces the object’s historical movement from Jerusalem through Turkey and into Europe. Campbell also addressed the controversial 1988 carbon-dating result that placed the Shroud in the medieval period, explaining how the test came from a repaired corner contaminated with later materials, and how newer dating methods and textile comparisons suggest a much earlier, possibly first-century origin. The connection to the Sudarium of Oviedo—a separate head cloth with bloodstain patterns that match the Shroud perfectly and whose provenance reaches back over a millennium—was especially striking. By the end, I came away feeling that while absolute certainty may be impossible, the convergence of scientific, forensic, and historical evidence makes the Shroud far more mysterious, and far more compelling, than I ever expected. Campbell has since returned, now and then, to the topic of the Shroud, but until today these have escaped my attention. Still, Christianity remained a subject of interest in my mind long after developing Liberation Vitalism, and became an even larger one after suffering my many setbacks of 2025. For that reason, what little philosophical investigations I’ve undertaken this year have concerned themselves largely (if not entirely) with Christian metaphysics, of which I’d like to share some results. These won’t address the mystery of the resurrection, however—and in fact I must warn the faithful among you, they’re potentially heretical, depending on your ecclesiastical framework. But if (knowing my own audience) concerns about heresy don’t trouble you, then I hope you’ll find them enlightening. With that in mind, let’s turn to (an audiobook of) Neville Goddard’s At Your Command (1939), the inaugural text of the author’s career, in which he explores the idea that consciousness is God and that our awareness of being is the creative power shaping our reality: that through which people create their experiences, according to their consciousness and beliefs. Goddard’s central teaching is that to manifest desires, one must assume the feeling of already possessing what is wanted, rather than begging “God” as an external deity. Accordingly, he interprets biblical stories (at ~1:46) not as historical record or biography, but as a psychological drama taking place in human consciousness, and suggests that by claiming this understanding as your own, you can transform your world from “barren deserts of Egypt to the promised land of Canaan.” In his view, we learn (at ~3:42), the numerous biblical appearances of “I am” statements—such as when God introduces himself to Moses as “I Am That I Am” and instructs him to tell the Israelites “I Am hath sent me unto you” (Exodus 3:14)—reveal that the true identity of God abides in our own awareness of being. Furthermore, Christ’s statement in John 14:6 that “I am the way” indicates how consciousness itself is the resurrecting power. Goddard explains that man is always “out-picturing” what he is conscious of being, and this truth makes man free from self-imprisonment. Accordingly, he urges readers to give up beliefs in a God apart from themselves and claim God as their awareness of being, as Jesus and the prophets did. Goddard goes on (at ~5:11) to interpret Jesus’ seemingly contradictory statements “I and my Father are one” (John 10:30) and “my Father is greater than I” (John 14:28), explaining that consciousness (the Father) is greater than what one is conscious of being (the Son), yet they remain one—like a conceiver and his conceptions. Accordingly, consciousness is the Father drawing manifestations of life to you, and you are currently drawing into your world whatever you are conscious of being. For that reason, he tells us (at ~7:40) of his own reading of Christ’s dictum that, “Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God” (John 3:3): If you are dissatisfied with your present expression in life, the only way to change it is to take your attention away from that which seems so real to you and rise in consciousness to that which you desire to be. You cannot serve two masters; therefore, to take your attention from one state of consciousness and place it upon another [state of consciousness] is to die to one and live to the other. On the same principle, Goddard reinterprets Christ asking Peter, “Whom say ye that I am?” (Matthew 16:15) as an eternal question addressed to oneself, explaining that your conviction of yourself determines your expression in life. Thus, Goddard explains (at ~9:11) why millions of prayers go unanswered: people pray for change while their consciousness remains fixated on what they desire to see changed. He teaches that successful prayer must be claiming rather than begging—turning away from pictures of lack by denying mere appearance and instead assuming the state of consciousness in which one already possesses that for which one prays—and emphasizes (at ~10:21) not questioning how what one desires will appear. Because signs always follow and never precede, he advocates instead that, in prayer, one should simply establish the state of consciousness in which one possesses what one seeks, and letting manifestations follow naturally. Goddard continues his reinterpretation of the Gospels, staging (at ~11:31) the biblical story of Mary not as a woman giving birth to Jesus, but as the awareness of being that remains virgin regardless of how many desires to which it gives birth, and invites readers to see themselves as Mary being impregnated through desire, becoming one with their desire to the point of embodying it—even in the absence of logical reason to believe what one wants is possible—by making your awareness your husband, and thus conceiving the ev