RadioWest Doug Fabrizio

Such a deep and great thinker!!!

RadioWest is my soulful go-to. I check for new episodes regularly with the same level of need and want that I have for having a nourishing breakfast lunch dinner each day.
But sometimes in my multiple podcast listening binges the latest episode will gracefully follow behind another show without me consciously “selecting”. I find it almost mystical how it plays out with RW especially yesterday when I heard Melissa Bond speak heartbreakingly on something I barely survived myself. When I couldn’t sleep beginning in May of 2018 I was completely horrified and desperate to keep myself from wrecking - I failed catastrophically to keep myself and my health together and employing the “help” of a doctor I trusted forced me down a path I did not want to tread but was assured that I’d be ok walking.
It was not ok for a solid, terrifying year and that doctor absolutely broke my trust by not helping me at all.
First it was ambien, then Ativan, then Xanax, then Ambien XR, then this drug and that drug and on and on a train I had never bought a ticket for.
I lost weight, my appetite, friends, a genuine loving partner, my job, my other job, my dignity, my dreams, my ability to lift, my ability to walk further than a few steps, my ability to drive, my ability to write and type, balance, ease in my own body, natural human confidence, access to my spirit, peace, and devastatingly I lost my mind and the ability to make any sense of the world and my own body.
I am still recovering…4 years later and counting. And I am so very grateful but I also feel the dark storm clouds of rage that I was handled so poorly by professionals and supposed caring experts that kept telling me to trust them and let them tell me how deal.
The only saving graces I really had to help me heal were my parents…and birds. Neither of those living beings ever told me what to take or do with my body. I would just ask my parents to let me stay in their space, give me blessings, and quietly witness me regularly writhe about and struggle to mend. And the birds, I would just watch them in my back yard for hours, I’d listen to them sing, and hear the purr of their wings as they flew overhead.
Thank you Doug for sharing this interview so beautifully - your voice is so finely woven.
Thank you Melissa for so carefully and eloquently placing your pain at the table for us to observe and learn from. It does my heart glad that you feel vital again, even though I feel the pinch that you are still tied to the thornbush.
I was so very lucky to break free of 3 medicinal poisons, but I have one more to go till I am truly wild and untethered. It’s slow going but I chose this path blessedly on my own this time…

My favorite podcast! Doug is an incredible interviewer and covers a wide range of fascinating stories. I learn so much each episode!