This episode is a personal reflection on the year God interrupted everything I had built without Him — my survival, my silence, my false stability, my hidden pain, and the version of me that knew how to achieve but did not know how to be whole. It is part of the story of how God is adding reach to my life. June 2025 was the month I closed on my first home. It was also the month I was laid off. Around that same season, God began bringing long-buried pain to the surface — childhood wounds, overachievement, hidden patterns, false stability, and the parts of myself I had spent years avoiding. This is a story about healing, release, obedience, therapy, church community, Add Reach, and learning to rebuild my life with God as my foundation. 0:00 — Intro Ren-Nessa opens with a reflection on June 2025 — the month she closed on her first home, lost her job, and began facing the pain she had carried for years. 1:15 — Built to Survive How overachieving, perfectionism, and self-sufficiency became trauma responses she did not recognize until God interrupted them. 2:08 — The Wounds I Carried A look at the childhood pain she never had language for — her mother’s absence, her parents’ divorce, and feelings of abandonment and rejection. 3:24 — Building Without God as My Foundation Living in sin, silence, survival, and self-sufficiency — how she built a life that looked stable from the outside but was shallow within. 4:48 — God Sends Raydeen The story of a friendship she resisted — and how God used it to begin softening her heart before she even had language for what was happening. 5:33 — The Night Everything Shifted Ren-Nessa attends 100 Women Praying and receives a prophetic word from Pastor Ericka Lee about her house — a moment that quietly changes everything. 6:46 — Letting Go From weed to hidden sin to starting therapy at 27 — what God asked her to release when partial surrender was no longer enough. 7:38 — June 2025: Promise & Pressure She closes on her first home — and three weeks later, gets laid off. God reveals how much of her identity was built on things that could be shaken. 11:11 — Nine Months Unemployed Unemployment becomes a season of formation — birthing Add Reach, learning to trust God with the seed already in her hands. 14:07 — What I Know Now Real stability begins with God. Ren-Nessa closes with a reflection on who she’s becoming — healing, rebuilding, and still reaching. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit reachrequired.substack.com
