Teil's coffee talk: short self-introduction and current life update

So, I've already posted two episodes but never actually introduced myself, so my Chinese name is Zhong Shiyin and I'm from China. You can call me by Teil.

I moved to Germany 5 years ago to get my master's here, but after I finished my master's, I studied economics, and I feel like I don't like it at all, I took several internships during my study, but I never liked any of them, I found them tedious, boring, and sad, I have absolutely no interest in working 9-5 jobs, I realize I got so scared because I was worried about having to work at something I don't like my entire life just to make ends meet. I'm also scared as fuck about never making it by chasing after my dream, what if I don't have what it takes to be successful, what if I'm just a silly girl who had blind faith in herself. I became terrified and disoriented.Because I have no prior experience with life, and there is no one who has lived my life who can lead me through it, and there is no life map that is particularly intended for my life, all I need to do is follow the map to arrive to my destination. We are all infants in this world, in this life; everything is fresh and unfamiliar to us; we must investigate everything on our own; that is also the beauty of this existence.We are all one-of-a-kind, unduplicated beings. And there will be no failures in this life, I suppose, only quitters, but no losers, not a single one of them is a loser, they are all quitters. Because they never persevere to the conclusion, they give up halfway through, making you a quitter rather than a loser. You can't lose as long as you stay in the game.

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