The Messed Up Gardener

Esther William (Aitken)

Hello and Welcome to The Messed Up Gardener. This podcast covers all areas of gardening from a beginner, intermediate to advanced level. It covers gardening on any budget, any space, any place. There are no rules when it comes to me, and my gardens and I do it messy. There is nothing more fun than getting your hands dirty and creating that space that gives you joy and abundance. This podcast will give tips, tricks, hacks and methodology’s to make any space work from the tiny indoor garden to the rolling meadows with even a dash of bees, mushrooms and hydroponics thrown in. I have been a horticulturist for as long as I can remember and in the industry since I was 15 so that’s nearly 30 years of hands on gardening experience. I am really looking forward to being on this journey & doing it messy with you. 

  1. Ep 184: Stop Starting Over Every Season

    4d ago

    Ep 184: Stop Starting Over Every Season

    🎧 Press Play to Listen to Today’s Episode Free Gardening Resources at the bottom of the show notes Have you ever found yourself standing in the garden thinking… "Right... time to start again." It feels like a new season means beginning from scratch. New crops. New plans. New jobs. But what if that's not actually true? What if your garden has been quietly building on everything you've already done—even when it doesn't look like it? In this episode of The Messed-Up Gardener, Esther Williams explores one of the biggest mindset shifts gardeners can make. Because while the plants may change with the seasons, the garden itself never truly starts over. Your soil remembers. Your compost keeps working.Your trees keep growing. And every success, mistake and observation leaves something valuable behind for the next season. This episode is all about learning to see the progress that's already there instead of constantly feeling like you're back at the beginning. In this episode you'll discover: 🌱 Why your garden is never really "starting over" 🌱 The hidden progress that's happening beneath the surface every season 🌱 How the awkward in-between stages often teach us the most 🌱 Why optimism works best when it's paired with evidence from your own garden 🌱 The simple question that leads to better planting decisions every season 🌱 How to identify the little frustrations that are quietly making gardening harder than it needs to be 🌱 What Esther calls your Garden Capital—and why recognising it changes everything If you've ever looked at an empty garden bed and felt like all your hard work has disappeared… This episode will help you see your garden in a completely different way. Because every season leaves something behind. The trick is learning to notice it. 🎧 Press play above to listen. This week's episode also includes a special shout-out to Beequip NZ, a fantastic New Zealand beekeeping supplier that Esther has personally enjoyed working with. From innovative beekeeping equipment to some of the best customer service you'll find, they're well worth checking out. 🐝 Beequip NZ https://beequip.nz/ If you enjoyed this episode, please consider sharing it with another gardener or leaving a review. Every share and every review helps more people discover the show. I'd also love to hear what your own garden has taught you this season. 📩 themessedupgardener@gmail.com 🌐 www.themessedupgardener.com 🌐 www.mushroomsbythesea.co.nz 🌿 Follow the Journey Facebook / Instagram 🌿 The Messed Up Gardener,  🍄 Mushrooms By The Sea 🌱 Helpful Garden Resources If you'd like to keep learning, you can explore some of my practical gardening resources: 🌱 Create Your Own DIY Self-Watering Planters A step-by-step guide to building simple systems that help your garden thrive. https://stan.store/EstherA/p/create-your-own-diy-self-watering-garden-planters 🌿 Free Gardening Resources You can also grab a selection of free guides designed to help gardeners build confidence and grow more successfully. 🌿 12 Essential Tips for a Thriving Garden Practical guidance from planning through to harvest. https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Organic Gardening Cheat Sheet Simple natural methods for chemical-free growing. https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Garden Goals Planning Worksheet A practical worksheet to help you design your garden with purpose and intention. https://stan.store/EstherA/p/get-my-garden-goals-planning-worksheet-now Until next time, remember: Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.  Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.

    25 min
  2. Ep 183: The Garden Bottleneck You Don't Know You Have

    Jun 27

    Ep 183: The Garden Bottleneck You Don't Know You Have

    🎧 Press Play to Listen to Today’s Episode Free Gardening Resources at the bottom of the show notes Have you ever felt like your garden is working harder than it should? The plants are growing... You're putting in the effort... But somehow the results never seem to match the work. What if the problem isn't that your garden has lots of things going wrong... What if one hidden constraint is quietly holding everything else back? In this episode of The Messed-Up Gardener, Esther Williams explores one of the most overlooked ideas in home gardening — the garden bottleneck. Not in a complicated or highly technical way... But through practical, everyday examples that will help you start seeing your own garden differently. Because the truth is, many gardeners spend their time treating symptoms instead of identifying the one thing that's limiting the entire system. Sometimes it's sunlight. Sometimes it's watering. Sometimes it's time. Sometimes it's simply the way the garden fits into your daily life. When you learn to recognise these hidden bottlenecks, gardening becomes less about constantly working harder and more about making thoughtful changes that create lasting improvements. In this episode you'll discover: 🌱 Why several garden problems can often be traced back to one hidden limitation 🌱 How to tell the difference between a symptom and the real cause 🌱 Why more effort doesn't always produce better results 🌱 The surprising bottlenecks that have nothing to do with soil, fertiliser, or pests 🌱 How good garden design quietly removes frustration before it begins 🌱 Why convenience plays a much bigger role in productivity than most gardeners realise 🌱 The forgotten harvest bottleneck that causes many home gardens to underperform 🌱 A simple way to start thinking like a "garden detective" and identify what's really holding your garden back If you've ever looked around your garden and wondered why things just don't seem to be coming together... This episode may help you discover that you've been solving the wrong problem. 🎧 Press play above to listen. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider sharing it with a fellow gardener or leaving a review. It helps more people discover the show and supports the continued growth of our gardening community. I'd also love to hear what you think your biggest garden bottleneck is. Sometimes another pair of eyes is all it takes to spot the one thing quietly limiting everything else. 📩 Reach out here: themessedupgardener@gmail.com 🌐 www.themessedupgardener.com 🌿 Follow the Journey Facebook 🌿 The Messed Up Gardener 🍄 Shesther's Gourmet 🍄Mushrooms by the Sea www.mushroomsbythesea.co.nz 🌱 Helpful Garden Resources If you'd like to keep learning, you can explore some of my practical gardening resources: 🌱 Create Your Own DIY Self-Watering Planters A step-by-step guide to building simple systems that help your garden thrive. https://stan.store/EstherA/p/create-your-own-diy-self-watering-garden-planters 🌿 Free Gardening Resources You can also grab a few of my free guides designed to help gardeners build confidence: 🌿 12 Essential Tips for a Thriving Garden Practical guidance from planning through to harvest https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Organic Gardening Cheat Sheet Simple natural methods for chemical-free growing https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Garden Goals Planning Worksheet A simple worksheet to help you plan your garden with intention https://stan.store/EstherA/p/get-my-garden-goals-planning-worksheet-now Until next time, remember: Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.  Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.

    19 min
  3. Ep 182: The Difference Between a Pretty Garden and a Useful Garden

    Jun 20

    Ep 182: The Difference Between a Pretty Garden and a Useful Garden

    🎧 Press Play to Listen to Today’s Episode Free Gardening Resources at the bottom of the show notes What makes a garden successful? Is it the tidy paths? The beautiful flowers? The perfectly mulched beds? Or is it something else entirely? In this episode of The Messed-Up Gardener, Esther Williams explores a question that can completely change the way you look at your garden: Is your garden useful? Because while there is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting a beautiful garden, appearance and usefulness are not always the same thing. A garden can look incredible and still be difficult to maintain. It can be full of plants and still contribute very little to your meals. It can photograph beautifully and still create more work than support. In this episode, Esther unpacks the difference between gardening for appearance and gardening for purpose, and explains why the most rewarding gardens often find a balance between beauty and function. In this episode you'll discover: 🌱 Why tidy gardens often feel more successful than they really are 🌱 How social media can quietly distort our expectations of what a garden should look like 🌱 The difference between a garden that serves the gardener and a garden that serves the image 🌱 What makes a garden genuinely useful beyond simply producing food 🌱 A practical test you can use to evaluate any area of your garden 🌱 Simple ways to make a beautiful garden more productive and functional 🌱 How to make a productive garden feel more inviting and enjoyable 🌱 Why function should often come before appearance when time, money, and energy are limited If you've ever looked at your garden and felt like it wasn't quite measuring up, this episode offers a refreshing reminder that success isn't always found in how a garden looks. Sometimes it's found in how well it supports your life. 🎧 Press play above to listen. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider sharing it with a fellow gardener or leaving a review. It helps more people discover the show and supports the continued growth of the podcast. 📩 Reach out here:  themessedupgardener@gmail.com Follow the Journey 🌿 The Messed Up Gardener 🍄 Shesther's Gourmet 🌐 www.themessedupgardener.com Helpful Garden Resources If you'd like to keep learning, you can explore some of my practical gardening resources: 🌱 Create Your Own DIY Self-Watering Planters A step-by-step guide to building simple systems that help your garden thrive. https://stan.store/EstherA/p/create-your-own-diy-self-watering-garden-planters Free Gardening Resources You can also grab a few of my free guides designed to help gardeners build confidence: 🌿 12 Essential Tips for a Thriving Garden Practical guidance from planning through to harvest https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Organic Gardening Cheat Sheet Simple natural methods for chemical-free growing https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Garden Goals Planning Worksheet A simple worksheet to help you plan your garden with intention https://stan.store/EstherA/p/get-my-garden-goals-planning-worksheet-now Until next time, remember: Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget  Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.

    25 min
  4. Ep 181: Why Your Garden Should Have Jobs, Not Just Plants

    Jun 13

    Ep 181: Why Your Garden Should Have Jobs, Not Just Plants

    🎧 Press Play to Listen to Today’s Episode               Free Gardening Resources at the bottom of the show notes What if your garden is full of plants… but still isn’t doing enough for you? What if the problem isn’t how much you’re growing… but whether each part of the garden has a clear job? In this episode of The Messed-Up Gardener, Esther Williams explores a simple shift that can completely change the way you plan, plant, and manage your garden. Instead of only asking: “What can I grow here?” You begin asking: “What does this space need to do?” Because a useful garden is more than a collection of plants. It is a working system. One area may support regular meals, while another improves the soil, attracts pollinators, provides shade, reduces wind, or makes harvesting easier. Even a quiet corner or favourite flower can have an important role if it adds beauty, joy, or a reason to spend more time outside. In this episode you’ll discover: 🌱 Why a full garden is not always a functional garden 🌱 How different crops perform different food jobs in your household 🌱 Why herbs, leafy greens, storage crops, and confidence crops all contribute in different ways 🌱 How healthy soil quietly supports almost everything else happening in the garden 🌱 Why some of the most valuable garden work is done for future seasons 🌱 How one plant can provide food, shelter, shade, habitat, and pollinator support at the same time 🌱 Why flowers and flowering herbs should be treated as part of the food-growing system 🌱 How microclimates, wind, shade, and plant placement affect the success of your crops 🌱 Why convenience and easy access can make the difference between food being harvested or forgotten 🌱 How spending time in the garden helps you notice small problems before they become much harder to manage 🌱 Why joy is still a completely valid and valuable garden job This episode is not about turning your backyard into a rigid production system where every plant has to earn its place through food or savings. It is about creating a garden with more intention. A garden that supports the way you live. A garden that becomes easier to understand, easier to improve, and more useful over time. If parts of your garden feel busy, demanding, or unclear, this episode will help you look at them differently and decide what job they could be doing instead. 🎧 Press play above to listen. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider sharing it with a fellow gardener or leaving a review. It helps more people discover the show. Follow the Journey Facebook 🌿 The Messed Up Gardener  🍄 Shesther’s Gourmet 🌐 www.themessedupgardener.com Helpful Garden Resources If you’d like to keep learning, you can explore some of my practical gardening resources: 🌱 Create Your Own DIY Self-Watering Planters A step-by-step guide to building simple systems that help your garden thrive. https://stan.store/EstherA/p/create-your-own-diy-self-watering-garden-planters Free Gardening Resources You can also grab a few of my free guides designed to help gardeners build confidence: 🌿 12 Essential Tips for a Thriving Garden Practical guidance from planning through to harvest https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Organic Gardening Cheat Sheet Simple natural methods for chemical-free growing https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Garden Goals Planning Worksheet A simple worksheet to help you plan your garden with intention https://stan.store/EstherA/p/get-my-garden-goals-planning-worksheet-now Until next time, remember: Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget  Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.

    23 min
  5. EP 180: The Garden Maintenance Trap

    Jun 6

    EP 180: The Garden Maintenance Trap

    🎧 Press Play to Listen to Today’s Episode                Free Gardening Resources at the bottom of the show notes What if your garden isn't actually too big... But simply asking for too much work? Why do some gardens feel enjoyable and productive... while others slowly become a never-ending list of jobs? And what if the problem isn't how hard you're working... but the way the garden has been designed? In this episode of The Messed-Up Gardener, Esther Williams explores something many gardeners experience but rarely talk about: The Garden Maintenance Trap. It's that point where the garden starts demanding more and more of your time. And somehow the garden that was supposed to bring joy starts feeling like another responsibility. The good news? Many of these frustrations aren't caused by a lack of gardening skill. They're often caused by systems that quietly create unnecessary work. In this episode you'll discover: 🌱 Why being busy in the garden doesn't always mean you're making progress 🌱 The difference between productive work and reactive work 🌱 How small frustrations quietly multiply into major maintenance problems 🌱 Why bare soil often creates more work than gardeners realise 🌱 Simple ways to make watering easier and less stressful 🌱 How overcrowding can increase maintenance while reducing productivity 🌱 Why garden access has a bigger impact than most people think 🌱 The hidden mental load created by too many different systems 🌱 A simple maintenance audit you can use in your own garden this week If your garden has ever felt like it's becoming harder to keep up with... or if you're finding yourself constantly rescuing plants, chasing weeds, and trying to catch up... this episode will help you identify what's creating the workload and how to start reducing it. 🎧 Press play above to listen. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider sharing it with a fellow gardener or leaving a review. It genuinely helps more people discover the show and keeps The Messed-Up Gardener growing. And on a personal note, I also share some exciting news in this episode about a brand-new chapter in my mushroom-growing journey. It's something I've been quietly working on behind the scenes for quite some time and I'm finally able to talk about it. 📩 themessedupgardener@gmail.com 🌐 www.themessedupgardener.com 🌿 Follow the Journey Facebook 🌿 The Messed Up Gardener 🍄 Shesther's Gourmet 🌱 Helpful Garden Resources If you'd like to keep learning, you can explore some of my practical gardening resources: 🌱 Create Your Own DIY Self-Watering Planters A step-by-step guide to building simple systems that help your garden thrive. https://stan.store/EstherA/p/create-your-own-diy-self-watering-garden-planters 🌿 Free Gardening Resources You can also grab a few of my free guides designed to help gardeners build confidence: 🌿 12 Essential Tips for a Thriving Garden Practical guidance from planning through to harvest https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Organic Gardening Cheat Sheet Simple natural methods for chemical-free growing https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Garden Goals Planning Worksheet A simple worksheet to help you plan your garden with intention https://stan.store/EstherA/p/get-my-garden-goals-planning-worksheet-now Until next time, remember: Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.  Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.

    21 min
  6. Ep 179: Stop Growing a Garden You Can’t Maintain

    May 30

    Ep 179: Stop Growing a Garden You Can’t Maintain

    🎧 Press Play to Listen to Today’s Episode Free Gardening Resources at the bottom of the show notes What if your garden isn’t failing because you’re bad at gardening… but because it’s asking more from you than your real life can realistically give? In this episode of The Messed-Up Gardener, Esther Williams explores one of the most important but overlooked parts of gardening: maintainability. Because a lot of gardens don’t fail from lack of passion. They fail because the garden was built for an ideal life… not a real one. The one with work, weather, busy weeks, sore backs, low energy, and days where life simply gets in the way. This episode is all about building a garden that fits your actual time, energy, watering capacity, and routine — so the garden supports you instead of overwhelming you. From: too many beds, too many pots, and too much pressure… to: a garden that feels manageable, productive, and easier to keep returning to. In this episode you’ll discover: 🌱 Why bigger gardens can quickly become bigger problems 🌱 How time, water, and physical energy shape garden success 🌱 Why some crops are easier to maintain than others 🌱 How watering capacity affects garden design 🌱 Why smaller, well-managed gardens often outperform larger neglected ones 🌱 How to right-size your garden without feeling like you’ve failed 🌱 The key question every gardener should ask before expanding If your garden has started to feel like one more thing on your to-do list… this episode will help you step back and rethink what your garden actually needs to become sustainable long term. Because maintainability is not about giving up. It is about building a garden you can keep showing up for. 🎧 Press play above to listen. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider sharing it with a fellow gardener or leaving a review. It helps more people discover the show. Feel free to reach out. 📩 themessedupgardener@gmail.com  🌐 www.themessedupgardener.com Facebook 🌿 The Messed Up Gardener  🍄 Shesther’s Gourmet Helpful Garden Resources 🌱 Create Your Own DIY Self-Watering Planters  https://stan.store/EstherA/p/create-your-own-diy-self-watering-garden-planters 🌿 Free Gardening Resources  https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Garden Goals Planning Worksheet  https://stan.store/EstherA/p/get-my-garden-goals-planning-worksheet-now Until next time, remember: Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget. Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.

    23 min
  7. Ep 178: Why Some Gardens Feed You Regularly… and Others Don’t

    May 23

    Ep 178: Why Some Gardens Feed You Regularly… and Others Don’t

    🎧 Press Play to Listen to Today’s Episode Free Gardening Resources at the bottom of the show notes What if your garden is growing plenty of food… but still not really feeding you consistently? What if the difference isn’t how much your garden produces… but how often it gives you something useful? In this episode of The Messed-Up Gardener, Esther Williams breaks down one of the most important shifts a gardener can make — moving from occasional harvests to regular, usable food.  Because some gardens give you food once in a while… and others quietly support your meals every single week. This episode is all about understanding that difference — and how to design your garden so it actually fits into your real life. From: random, unpredictable harvests… to a steady, reliable food rhythm. From: “that’s nice” garden moments… to a garden that genuinely supports your kitchen. In this episode you’ll discover: 🌱 The real difference between a garden that produces food and one that actually feeds you  🌱 Why occasional harvests don’t always change how you eat or shop  🌱 The “baseline problem” and why your garden might feel inconsistent  🌱 How repeat-harvest crops create ongoing, reliable food  🌱 Why timing (not just planting) determines your harvest flow  🌱 The simple concept of succession planting (without overcomplicating it)  🌱 Why access and placement of crops can make or break usage  🌱 How too much variety can actually reduce your food supply  🌱 What a weekly garden-to-kitchen rhythm really looks like  🌱 The key areas to fix if your garden isn’t feeding you regularly If your garden gives you a big harvest… then nothing for weeks… then a few random bits here and there… this episode will help you understand why. Because a garden that feeds you regularly is not about growing more. It’s about growing with structure, rhythm, and intention. It’s about having something… small, simple, and useful… showing up often enough to matter. 🎧 Press play above to listen. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider sharing it with a fellow gardener or leaving a review. It helps more people discover the show. Feel free to reach out. 📩 themessedupgardener@gmail.com  🌐 www.themessedupgardener.com Facebook 🌿 The Messed Up Gardener  🍄 Shesther’s Gourmet Ep 176 The Hidden weeks that make or break a garden https://www.buzzsprout.com/2076652/episodes/19080171 Helpful Garden Resources If you'd like to keep learning, you can explore some of my practical gardening resources. 🌱 Create Your Own DIY Self-Watering Planters A step-by-step guide to building simple systems that help your garden thrive. https://stan.store/EstherA/p/create-your-own-diy-self-watering-garden-planters 🌿 Free Gardening Resources You can also grab a few of my free guides designed to help gardeners build confidence: 🌿 12 Essential Tips for a Thriving Garden https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Organic Gardening Cheat Sheet https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Garden Goals Planning Worksheet https://stan.store/EstherA/p/get-my-garden-goals-planning-worksheet-now Until next time, remember: Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.  Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.

    26 min
  8. Ep 177: Stop Letting Harvests Happen By Accident

    May 16

    Ep 177: Stop Letting Harvests Happen By Accident

    🎧 Press Play to Listen to Today’s Episode Free Gardening Resources at the bottom of the show notes What if your garden is producing food… but still not really feeding you? What if the problem isn’t how much your garden grows… but whether the harvests arrive in a way you can actually use? In this episode of The Messed-Up Gardener, Esther Williams talks about why so many harvests happen by accident — and how to start turning random garden surprises into useful, regular food support. This episode is all about moving from: random harvests… to intentional harvests. From garden surprises… to garden support. In this episode you’ll discover: 🌱 The difference between growing food and actually using food 🌱 Why random harvests can feel productive but still not help much 🌱 The feast-or-famine problem in many home gardens 🌱 Why harvest timing affects how long plants keep producing 🌱 How picking too late can reduce quality and slow the next harvest 🌱 Why your garden needs to connect back to your kitchen 🌱 The 3 types of harvests every useful garden needs 🌱 A simple weekly harvest planning habit 🌱 How intentional harvesting can help reduce waste and save money If your garden gives you one big pile of food… then nothing for weeks… then a few random bits here and there… this episode will help you think differently about harvesting. Because a useful garden is not just one that grows food. It is one that gives you food at the right time, in the right amount, and often enough to matter. 🎧 Press play above to listen. If you enjoyed this episode, please consider sharing it with a fellow gardener or leaving a review. It helps more people discover the show. Feel free to reach out. 📩 themessedupgardener@gmail.com  🌐 www.themessedupgardener.com Facebook 🌿 The Messed Up Gardener  🍄 Shesther’s Gourmet Helpful Garden Resources If you'd like to keep learning, you can explore some of my practical gardening resources. 🌱 Create Your Own DIY Self-Watering Planters A step-by-step guide to building simple systems that help your garden thrive. https://stan.store/EstherA/p/create-your-own-diy-self-watering-garden-planters 🌿 Free Gardening Resources You can also grab a few of my free guides designed to help gardeners build confidence: 🌿 12 Essential Tips for a Thriving Garden https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Organic Gardening Cheat Sheet https://stan.store/EstherA 🌿 Garden Goals Planning Worksheet https://stan.store/EstherA/p/get-my-garden-goals-planning-worksheet-now Until next time, remember: Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.  Gardening can happen in any space, in any place, and on any budget.

    27 min

About

Hello and Welcome to The Messed Up Gardener. This podcast covers all areas of gardening from a beginner, intermediate to advanced level. It covers gardening on any budget, any space, any place. There are no rules when it comes to me, and my gardens and I do it messy. There is nothing more fun than getting your hands dirty and creating that space that gives you joy and abundance. This podcast will give tips, tricks, hacks and methodology’s to make any space work from the tiny indoor garden to the rolling meadows with even a dash of bees, mushrooms and hydroponics thrown in. I have been a horticulturist for as long as I can remember and in the industry since I was 15 so that’s nearly 30 years of hands on gardening experience. I am really looking forward to being on this journey & doing it messy with you. 

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