The Messy Middle

Wael "L" Abou-Zaki

The Messy Middle is a cinematic conversation series by Wael Abou-Zaki exploring the unseen process behind creativity, leadership, and purpose. Each episode goes beyond the results to uncover the messy middle. We unpack the doubts, pivots, and breakthroughs that shape who we are and how we grow. Because nobody skips the messy middle. It’s where the story truly lives. 🎙 New episodes are live on the first Monday of each Month on YouTube and Spotify.

Episodes

  1. MAR 2

    What Justice Really Means | One of The Youngest Judge in Virginia

    What is punishment?Is it retribution?Is it rehabilitation?Is it accountability?Or is it something deeper?In this episode of The Messy Middle, we sit inside a courtroom in Henrico County with Judge Nael Abouzaki, one of the youngest judges in Virginia.But this is not a story about power. It is about humility. Nael came to America from a small village in Lebanon at seven years old. He once sat in this same courthouse as a juvenile defendant. Today, he presides from the bench.We talk about:• Growing up as an immigrant trying to find identity• Being a defendant before becoming a judge• Prosecuting violent cases and seeing two victims in every courtroom• Why a 30 second decision can cost 48 years• Judging emotions, not just actions• Ordering defendants to look in the mirror and confront who they are• Why guidance changes everything• What justice actually meansThis conversation is not about headlines. It is about ripple effects. About children. About families. About what happens after the case closes.Justice is not just a verdict. It is a responsibility.🎬 Episode 7 of The Messy Middle is live now on Youtube, Spotify and Apple Podcasts. 00:00 – What Is Punishment 01:20 – Why Justice Is More Than a Verdict 03:00 – What It Means to Judge With Humility 05:30 – Becoming One of Virginia’s Youngest Judges 06:45 – Immigrating From Lebanon at Seven 08:15 – No Flying Cars. The Real American Dream 10:45 – Being the Underdog and Finding Identity 11:50 – Sitting in This Court as a Juvenile Defendant 14:30 – From Prosecutor to Judge 15:20 – Giving a Voice to the Underdog 17:30 – Seeing Two Victims in Every Case 19:00 – The Story of V 23:00 – A Text That Changed Everything 26:30 – Why Money Is Not the Metric 27:00 – A 48 Year Sentence for 30 Seconds 30:30 – The Unexpected Call to Become a Judge 34:30 – How Judges Are Selected in Virginia 39:00 – The Weight of “All Rise” 41:30 – 99.9 Percent the Same 42:30 – Why Guidance Changes Lives 46:00 – Judging Emotions 48:45 – Look in the Mirror [Final Segment] – What Question Are We Not Asking Ourselves Enough #TheMessyMiddle #justice #judge #immigrant #community

    1h 20m
  2. JAN 5

    How Dr. Jim Olson Made Cancer Visible and How He Is Changing Surgery Forever

    Dr. Jim Olson is a pediatric neuro-oncologist who has spent his life working where science, grief, and hope collide.In this episode of The Messy Middle, we sit down with Dr. Olson in Seattle to trace the path from his childhood in Upper Michigan to the operating rooms where tumors now light up in real time. His work led to Tumor Paint, a breakthrough imaging agent derived from scorpion venom that helps surgeons see cancer cells while sparing healthy brain tissue.But this conversation goes far beyond a single discovery.Wael and Dr. Jim Olson have known each other for more than a decade. Over that time, they’ve crossed paths through science, creativity, and shared purpose. But this was the first time they were able to sit down without an agenda and really talk about life.Dr. Olson shares how loss shaped his purpose, why he chose pediatric oncology despite the emotional cost, and how he built companies, labs, and communities to push ideas across the gap between research and real-world impact. We explore Presage Biosciences and the CIVO platform, a way to test drugs directly inside living tumors, and Project Violet, a community-funded initiative born from a child’s final wish to help others.This episode is about choosing impact over credit, building teams instead of empires, and staying human in work where the stakes are life and death.This is not just science.It is responsibility.It is systems.It is heart. LINKS TO DONATE HERE:Here is a link to help fund a cure for pediatric brain cancer: https://give.seattlechildrens.org/give/722434/#!/donation/checkout You can also donate here to William Murtagh (aka "Iron Heart") and for every child and family who has faced the heartbreak of a pediatric brain tumor: https://give.seattlechildrens.org/fundraiser/6868285#TheMessyMiddle #Science #Humanity #MedicalInnovation #CancerResearch #PurposeDriven

    1h 9m
  3. 12/01/2025

    The Architect Who Builds for Storms, Struggle, and Human Survival | Ted Givens

    Architect and futurist Ted Givens has spent his career designing at the edge of what’s possible, from Hong Kong towers to kinetic, climate-resilient homes built to move with the weather.In this episode of The Messy Middle, Ted shares how he left the safety of big firms, helped build 10 DESIGN, launched his experimental studio BIRD, and why he keeps chasing ideas that look risky on paper but matter in the real world.If you care about architecture, climate, design, risk, and creative careers, this one’s for you.In this conversation with Ted Givens:- How a kid obsessed with drawing and storms became a global architect- Leaving the comfort of legacy firms to co-found 10 DESIGN- The reality of competitions, burnout, and big-vision projects- The story behind Tornado House and kinetic disaster-proof design- Designing ultra-poor and disaster housing and what he got wrong- Why he created BIRD Studio while still leading at 10 DESIGN- How he teaches young architects to design for risk, narrative, and climate- What success didn’t fix and what still keeps him up at nightThis isn’t a highlight reel. It’s the part of the story most people skip: the doubts, dead ends, and decisions that shape the work we eventually see.🎧 Listen / Watch The Messy MiddleNew episodes drop the first Monday of every month.Subscribe: youtube.com/@zakiroseFollow the show on IG: @therealmessymiddle#TheMessyMiddle #TedGivens #Architecture #DesignPodcast #ClimateDesign #KineticArchitecture #CreativeProcess

    1h 6m

About

The Messy Middle is a cinematic conversation series by Wael Abou-Zaki exploring the unseen process behind creativity, leadership, and purpose. Each episode goes beyond the results to uncover the messy middle. We unpack the doubts, pivots, and breakthroughs that shape who we are and how we grow. Because nobody skips the messy middle. It’s where the story truly lives. 🎙 New episodes are live on the first Monday of each Month on YouTube and Spotify.