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  1. Episode 11: Attending the Synod as a Family

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    Episode 11: Attending the Synod as a Family

    Christina Gebel: [00:00:00] Welcome to the Moderate Catholic, where we discuss topics that deepen faith and inspire action. I am your host, Christina Gebel, and this is Episode 11: Journeying to the Synod as a family. So, I am really excited for this episode today. I have a good friend here, Casey Stanton, who wears many incredible hats, but I will let her talk about all the incredible things that she does, and she was so kind to come on the podcast today to talk about not only just the work she does, but how it relates specifically to her family life. So, with that, Casey, welcome. Would you like to introduce yourself? Casey Stanton: Yeah. Thanks so much for having me. I’m excited. I’m Casey Stanton, Co-director and Co-founder of Discerning Deacons, which is an [00:01:00] organization seeking to serve the discernment in the Church about women in the diaconate. So, we’re trying to grow the imagination and serve this question, which has been alive and studied in the church for the last 50 plus years. Christina Gebel: Amazing, and we could have a whole episode series archive of audio, just discussing the tremendous efforts that are going on with Discerning Deacons right now, which if you haven’t gotten in touch with them, you absolutely should. But we’re actually here today to talk about that work in light of a decision that you made, and it directly relates to the Synods that were happening globally. And so maybe you could just start us off, first of all, what is a Synod? And then in true Church language awesomeness, what is a Synod on Synodality? [00:02:00] And tell me how you came to be involved. Casey Stanton: Great question. So, this was very much at the heart of Pope Francis’ vision for how the Church was being called to live its mission in the world today, to try to invite the Holy Spirit to be heard through every corner of Church life and out in the world, and to ask the question afresh: What does it mean for the church to journey with you in your life wherever you are, whoever you are, whether you’re in the Church or not, if you’re outside of it? So, it was a process and a path to try to open up a space for renewal in the Spirit. The first Synod is in the Acts of the Apostles. It’s really constitutive of the church. It’s saying, okay, once Jesus left, how do we continue to discern together what is the will of the Spirit for the community of those seeking to follow the way of [00:03:00] Jesus? And so, a Synod is a path of gathering, discerning together, and trying to find the way forward. So, in the Council of Jerusalem, there’s this debate about will new members have to be circumcised. And it’s really a crisis of identity for the community. And the miracle of it is, they come to this kind of middle way, they’re negotiating their life together. What are we gonna do? And what’s funny is that in the next chapter, they do something very different. It just shows that Church politics has always been messy. Doing life together has always been messy. But the beautiful part about doing life together, inspired by and grounded in the witness of Jesus and the Gospels, is that we do trust that we’re not doing it alone, and that it’s not a purely human endeavor. And so, I think what was pretty bold and faith-filled was when Pope Francis called for a global Synod on this theme of Synodality. It was really rolling the dice on the Holy Spirit and the people of God and saying a Church structure that has a lot of distance between bishops and those who make decisions and the people of God in their daily lives and their struggles isn’t a Church that’s walking together. And so, it was really a journey that, you know, in the wake of abuse scandals, in the wake of so many challenges facing our world and humanity, was an invitation for bishops, especially, to turn their attention towards an intentional exercise of listening to ground their own leadership. And as Pope Francis would often talk about, he wanted bishops to smell like their sheep. And so, as Pope Francis has since passed, I think one of the miraculous things about the election of Pope Leo the 14th is that Pope Leo in his previous role as the head of the Dicastery of Bishops, was deeply involved in the Synod. He participated in all the sessions, and there was a sense that Cardinals had elected someone who was going to continue on this path of Synodality. Pope Francis is onto something. This is the way the Church is called to move in the world, that it can’t just be bishops in diocesan offices making decisions that then people follow, but that actually, there’s this more complex dynamic of how we are discerning how we are living the mission today. So that was the Synod and Synodality, and Pope Francis called for it in 2021. It kicked it off, but he had been on a steady path of this, transforming this entity of the Synod. It had been a Synod of bishops, and he was encouraging it to be more participatory all the way up to the Synod on Synodality, where he was really saying we need to reflect on this as the way we move in the world so that we can hold difficult topics. We could learn to have conversations without canceling each other or resorting to enemy camps. I think it’s an invitation for the Church to be a model for humanity, for [00:06:00] how to live with conflict and how to move as a global community in all its complexity. I think the Synod I could talk about all day, which is part of what we’re talking about today, but I could just see the imagination of that, like what Pope Francis was doing throughout his papacy as I was following it. And it felt like a thing worth trying to trust in. And we’re at a time where it’s hard to trust in institutions. It’s definitely hard to trust in people that have power and in our leaders. And part of what was remarkable as the Synod began was that it was truly an invitation to everyone. Everyone was invited to try to find a way to participate, to initiate participation, and to participate. That, to me, rings of the Gospel: this radical welcome and invitation to meet everybody where they are and hear where they are and figure out how we’re connected. And that’s a good use of our time to try to do that. And I [00:07:00] think in the US, there’s skepticism. I think some people felt that this was going to lead to changes that we want. And other people were afraid, oh, this is just some Trojan horse kind of process that’s going to make the Church wildly more progressive and change all these rules and stuff. And it was neither of those things. Instead, it really is an invitation to try to become the people of God and try to learn in this generation what that means. So, I was deeply compelled by the vision and just went all in. As we were just getting started with Discerning Deacons, we went to the opening mass of the Synod around October ‘21. And we were journeying with women who had participated in the Synod on the Amazon, and that really was like them starting to carve the new path of deeply participatory processes that surface what are the needs and hungers of the people of God that need to be [00:08:00] addressed and prioritized for us to move forward. And so, meeting these women who’d led the process across the Amazon and who’d participated in the Amazon Synod as observers—non-voting members, but part of this experience—I just really felt, “Oh, this feels like a way to let the Spirit in.” And it invites us to think of ourselves more as a people on the way, as a pilgrim people as opposed to a people that have all the answers or as just part of an all-knowing church that already knows where we need to go and what we need to do. Christina Gebel: Yeah. Yeah, that’s huge. And thank you for laying the groundwork for explaining that because as somebody who wasn’t as closely involved or even, I think I was aware that it was going on, but the Synod on Synodality piece, I could see my Catholic nun elementary school teacher being like, “You can’t define a word with using the word!” I was stuck on this, what does it mean. I love the part when you brought up that Pope Leo was in attendance. I remember Father Jim Martin saying, Oh, Pope Leo was at my table at the Synod. At the time, he was a Cardinal. Wow, what a great person to have at your table, because he then became Pope! Great seating arrangements. So, Casey Stanton: Yes. [laughs] Christina Gebel: So you, Casey, were just really onboard with what the vision was, but then you made a decision to be a part of it in a really tangible way. And that also involved your family, which is what this series is about. Many families just sat in the pews and said, Okay, what do we need to do? Sure. Great. Maybe they had an opinion, but your family is special. And that’s what I would love to hear about from you in your own words. Casey Stanton: Yeah. So, in terms of our family in this season, my kids were eight and 10. So my husband and I had often dreamt of could we do a missionary season in our family life? We both want to root our own family life deeply in the heart of the Church, and we want our kids to see that the Church is bigger than our local parish, as much as we love and are anchored in our local parish. I think we both were deeply shaped by immersive experiences abroad. My husband spent some time in El Salvador when he was pretty young. And it really deeply shaped his whole worldview and his understanding of the urgency of the Gospel around people’s material needs. And the work of peacebuilding is not abstract. So, it was a dream in the heart of our marriage, and we just weren’t ever sure when the time would be and when to disrupt your life. You’re raising your kids, you’re doing your jobs, you’re trying to do right. And, actually, I was on a retreat with a group of women—it’s a dangerous time—just with some dear, close, old friends. And at the same time, one of my oldest friends from chil

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  2. Episode 10: Fostering & Adoption through a Faith-Filled Lens

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    Episode 10: Fostering & Adoption through a Faith-Filled Lens

    Christina Gebel: [00:00:00] Welcome to the Moderate Catholic, where we discuss topics that deepen faith and inspire action. I am your host, Christina Gebel, and this is episode 10, “A faith-filled lens of fostering and adoption.” Welcome back, everyone. I am really excited to be here with you today, still in our second season called Radical Family, where families are making bold choices to live out their faith, and I am so pleased today to have two dear friends, local to where I am in North Carolina, who have made the faith filled decision to grow their family, and I think you will really love to hear their story, hear them reflect on that time in their life. So with that, I will hand it over to Heather and Patrick Curran. Would y’all like to introduce yourselves? Heather Curran: I’m Heather and I [00:01:00] am a nurse and a lifelong Catholic. I was raised in Southern California. I had the pleasure of meeting Patrick in college when we were both at the Jesuit University of Loyola University Chicago. Woo. And then we married and moved to North Carolina where we have been for a long while now. And we have been married creeping up on 20 years, but about 17 time really flies. I’ll pass it on to Patrick. Patrick Curran: Thank you, Dear. Christina, yeah, it’s great to be doing this with you. I’m Patrick Curran. By way of introduction I’m Heather’s husband and in the foster care journey. I have to say she’s definitely been the leader, but I’m certainly an avid and willing participant so glad to be doing that. As she mentioned, we’ve been married for almost 20 years. And I think for this context, it’s relevant to say that our faith is maybe part of what brought us [00:02:00] together. And our faith is what led us to our faith community here in North Carolina when we moved here in 2020 and our Heather Curran: In 2010. Patrick Curran: Thank you. In 2010, too many zeros. Our decision to become foster parents and the journey through all of that has been supported by that faith community in incredible ways and continues to be so I’m grateful for all of that. And I’m sure we’ll obviously unpack that more and a little bit about our background and how we came to that. Christina Gebel: Yes. And absolutely we will unpack it ‘cause I know personally, just by the pleasure and honor of knowing both of you, that there’s a real discernment journey there and a great story. And I would say a very happy, not ending, but a very happy present that we will get to, certainly Patrick Curran: Ongoing. Christina Gebel: Yes. A very happy ongoing presence. But perhaps you could take us [00:03:00] back to the beginning. I knew you all when you were. In one of the 17 years, and you were think thinking about growing your family and you were attempting to do that. Can you tell us about those years and share as much or as little as you’d like to about your journey to starting a family? Heather Curran: I think from the beginning, both Patrick and I were very interested in having family. That was always a part of our conversations when we were dating. Our way of dating, I think, was always thinking about the future and I don’t think either of us were good at being casual daters. From the time that we were growing in our relationship, what would a family look like if we were to marry, was always a part of the conversation. I knew beginning in college that there was potential that it would be a challenge for me to get pregnant. [00:04:00] So that actually was a conversation that we started having before we were even married. And if that were to be a reality, what would that be like for you, Patrick. And would that be something we could maneuver together? In our marriage at the time, both of us very easily said yes, adoption would be a very reasonable choice for us. And something that even if we were able to have our own kids, we would be open to talking about. And I think that really helped when later on down the line, that became a reality. At least for me, it was very comforting to know that this is something that we had been in alignment on, from the get-go. Fast forward, we’re married, we were open to having kids from the beginning. It was just something both of us had always wanted and imagined for our lives. And it was not happening. And not happening. So the first year, nothing, but that’s okay ‘cause we’re trying to figure [00:05:00] out how to be married, and that’s its own challenge with its own ups and downs. And fast forward probably five years we had settled in North Carolina and we were really in a place where we felt stable as adults. We had a home and well before we had hoped for a family, it was fine that we weren’t, ‘cause maybe we weren’t totally prepared, but now we felt we were in a place where we really were ready to be moving forward with that and it wasn’t happening and we were ready to investigate the next steps are there things that we can be doing to make it happen. So, we went to a fertility specialist and did some workup. And for women out there that have been through this, that piece has its own emotional journey. I think for me, I went through HSG ultrasound. It’s a very vulnerable experience, and I feel [00:06:00] comfortable sharing that here because I know for other women, this is also a point at which a reality you’re afraid of can become very real. And for me, while I was in the ultrasound, I just, I knew based on what was happening with the people around us and the healthcare professionals, that there definitely was a challenge. It didn’t even feel right for me while it was happening. And I was like, okay, this is this is a reality. And I think I had that nagging feeling for a long time, but it was in that moment on the table, and I started to sob during that experience and Patrick was right there, and I could see it in his eyes that he could see the pain. For me, I’ll say it was grief. There was a lot of grief in that moment. And then it completed. We didn’t talk about results. And Patrick and I just went to lunch together in Chapel Hill, and he just created space for me to be grieving and listened and received that. And I will always [00:07:00] be grateful to him that through this whole process, he has had his own things to process, but has always let me have my space and listened and been patient and asked first what it was and I needed what I needed in those moments and what was it that I felt comfortable with or was hoping to do next. In a relationship, that has given me lots of peace and made it, I think, a much easier, hard journey than it could have been. When we got the results, we had a great physician who is an expert in his field. But he started talking about IVF and for me, it has just been a gut feeling for me that was not a route that I wanted to take. And in that conversation I had said that, and he immediately said, is this a [00:08:00] religious thing? Because it doesn’t need to be. And I really bristled at that. Because for me it was a faith piece. It wasn’t [that] my religion has this rule. It wasn’t about I can’t do this as a Catholic. For me it was, I spiritually, feel, my gifts need to be used in a different way and our resources and how I want to move forward, I want to put in a different direction. So it was a negative experience for me in that moment. And again, Patrick, let me lead in how we moved forward from that, which was a wonderful gift. And maybe I should give him some space now that he offered all of that to me in those moments. But that was the point at which the conversation about moving forward with adoption [00:09:00] or foster care became very real, and we had to start making decisions about what that journey forward would look like. Christina Gebel: Yeah, Patrick, before you jump in on your reaction to that, I just wanna first thank you, Heather, for your vulnerability and sharing that, and for folks who know me personally, I can relate to a lot of what you’ve said. Just being on the fertility journey myself with my spouse, and also opting to not do IVF, not simply because it’s a rule, but just because it wasn’t for me, and having a supportive partner in that is just everything on that journey. Patrick, I’d love to hear what all that was like for you from your perspective. Not only accompanying, but witnessing everything that was happening and for me at least, in a very bodily way, [00:10:00] it’s happening to one spouse. But in your case, what was going on in your mind and in your faith conversation? Patrick Curran: Yeah. Thank you for that, Christina. There’s a number of things there that I’ve want to maybe touch on, and I appreciate you recognizing as a spouse, as a partner as someone who tries to live as a faithful person, I believe that God calls us to honor other people, right? And particularly in a Christian marriage, there’s a way of doing that. I think it’s very easy for the husband, for the male partner to be lost in that conversation. And to say I’m doing all this for my wife, or I’m like Christ calls us to sacrifice yourself for your bride. And I think it’s important that we not overlook the fact that men come to their marriages with dreams and ideas and [00:11:00] what all that is. So, maybe I can share a little bit of that. Going all the way back, as Heather mentioned, we had talked about this when we were dating and just the one little piece of color I would add there is that we both had at least in conversation, talked about wanting to have a big family. And, Christina, you know me well, you know that I love things that are big and chaotic. Yes, I can take things that are small and make them large very quickly. And I have 19 first cousins, and I love each of them in strange and unique ways, and always had dreamed that we would have a large family. And, in my own discernment process of my life and my career, that was a big component. I love the idea of big fam

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  3. Episode 9: Living in Intentional Community

    MAR 24

    Episode 9: Living in Intentional Community

    Christina Gebel: [00:00:00] Welcome to the Moderate Catholic, where we discuss topics that deepen faith and inspire action. I am your host, Christina Gebel, and this is Episode 9: Living in Intentional Community with Others. So welcome, everyone. This is our inaugural episode of Season Two on the Moderate Catholic. We have wrapped up Season One, and we are now moving on to Season Two. And I teased the topic a little bit earlier, but it is radical family, and the topic, radical family, is about families making bold choices to live out their faith. And I’m so excited to kick off this season with four very dear friends of mine whom I met at a stage in my life and continue to be inspired by. And they’re going to talk to us today about what it means to live in intentional community with others. So, with [00:01:00] that, let’s get right down to it. My dear friend Jonathan will introduce himself and his wife, and then we’ll pass it to Carla. Jonathan Wittig: Good morning. Thanks for having us here. I’m Jonathan, and this is my wife, Lisa. And we have three children: Caroline, who’s 11, Ben, who’s nine, and Katherine, who’s seven. We were longtime Chicagoans and are now new residents in Minnesota in the past couple of years. So, I’m excited to be here today. Carla Lents: Hello. Thanks, Christina. We are Ryan and Carla; we actually grew up together in Indiana and then moved to Chicago and have lived here for over 20 years. We have two sons, Caleb, who is 15, and Micah, who’s 10. Yeah, really excited to be here and talk about this. Christina Gebel: I am really excited to have you here. So, the reason that I know these folks, these awesome folks, is through a program that I continue to hold near and dear to my heart, which is Amate House program in Chicago. It’s a [00:02:00] faith-based service program where folks who graduate college can decide to dedicate a year or more as a fellow in service at a job in Chicago. And I was blessed to do that between the years 2007–2009, and that’s how I got to know Lisa as one of my house coordinators and eventually Ryan came on as program staff. I’m really glad that our faith connected us in this way, and what a better launching pad to discuss the topic of living in community. So, the first thing we’re gonna talk about is just how y’all came together. How did you get to know each other? What time period in your life? What were you doing? Enlighten us into how this all came to be. Lisa Wittig: Yeah. So, as Christina mentioned, I was working at Amate House back in 2007 when she was a fellow with the program. I had recently graduated from the program myself as a volunteer. That’s actually where Jonathan and I met. We both volunteered [00:03:00] together for a year, and I was working at Amate House. And then a few years into that, there was a staff transition. Ryan actually came on staff and started working at Amate House. We were in the same role, working with the program, supporting the volunteers. Ryan quickly became a good friend, and Jonathan and I met Carla and hung out with Ryan and Carla a few times. And at one point, Ryan came to me, and he had this crazy idea. Would you be interested in living in intentional community again? Certainly, a unique situation because we were married, and Ryan, I believe at that time, you had Caleb, who was a baby. And so just thinking about that idea, I was like, oh my gosh, you’re crazy. I wasn’t completely opposed to it, but I was like, you know who you should talk to? Jonathan has actually mentioned this before in our relationship to me as something he is interested in, and he’s also the dreamer and the doer in our relationship, and I am like the planner and executor, so I was like, Ryan, you need to connect with Jonathan. You two need to talk because I don’t think I’m the one to carry this dream to fruition, but it sounds exciting. Ryan Lents: Maybe I can pick up from there. I would say, for me, I think part of the curiosity of this was that a big part of our role at Amate House, Lisa and I, was being these house coordinators, and so it’s a very unique role. It’s like being a campus minister and an RA, although we didn’t live with the fellows. But we were a primary point of contact for them and would do things like office hours, community nights, retreats. So, we really accompanied them throughout their experience, and I would say vicariously lived through their experience of community, all the ups and downs. And it made it very rewarding and very challenging, and as Lisa mentioned, we had transitioned from a life stage of being right out of college where we had lived in community. I had not done Amate House as a fellow. I had been at a different program called Nazareth Farm in West Virginia, and that was a deeply formative time in my life. And I would also say I was pretty immature. There were a lot of things I needed to learn about life and about living with other people and about just how to grow up, and community was so deeply shaping in that way. I came to really realize how much I had missed it by being in this role where I was walking with people that were experiencing those ups and downs. Initially, I thought this is just something that you do when you’re not tethered to marriage and children and mortgages and things, but then I interrupted that presumption and said, what would it look like to actually go on this type of journey? And to think about this stage of life. And so that was the launching point of some conversations with Jonathan. We became fast friends, bonded around a lot of things that we had common interests around, but I think that idea of saying, hey, what would it look like for us to discern together and to think about how we could live out our faiths and our commitments as husbands, as wives, as friends in this unique stage of life as we’re starting family where there are a lot of just really big pressures and challenges and difficulties. It’s hard to live in the modern world. There can be a lot of really unhealthy messages that we get about individualism and doing things on our own. I got those messages really loud as a twenty-two, twenty-three-year-old. And those messages are just as powerful when you’re twenty-eight, twenty-nine, especially as you’re thinking about some of the real adult things that come on at that stage of life. I think we found a lot of common challenges and ideas that really started to make this thing seem like it could be real. Jonathan Wittig: Yeah. Just adding on to that, when I was in college, I was involved with a lot of intentionality within the campus ministry department at my university. And so, my roommates and I would try to live out community together in our own ways, even counting the toilet paper squares to see how much of stewardship we were living out on a day-to-day basis. A little crazy. But my year of Amate House was a challenging year where our sense of community was difficult. The service in the community was wonderful. Amate as a whole was wonderful, but I had a very [00:07:00] challenging year. But the concept of community living—I believed in it strongly. My simple explanation is Jesus lived in community. He was with these other guys, and they just went around together. And I’m sure that some of the disciples were frustrating to live with on a day-to-day basis. But they found the goodness in it. And they probably rose higher from the challenges that they faced on a day-to-day basis. And that’s how I hold community living, even when we chose to do it, or even in college or in Amate House, like there were a lot of hard days. But I think that those, like, you learned patience, and you learned kindness, and you learned self-reflection. And you hopefully are growing and not just so self-involved all the time. And I share that perspective with Ryan. I think that’s one of the many challenges we face right now in our common societies, that we’re all kind of self-involved in. But yeah, that made me want to continue to live this beyond this ate volunteer year because it makes total sense. I wanted to be able to have that community as we raise our kids. And there’s more to that, but I’ll share that [00:08:00] later. Christina Gebel: Yeah, so I really love what you all have been saying, and Ryan, I was like, you and I did Amate House. I can relate to thinking like this is something you do in your mid-twenties, and then you do other things and include other people and even little people and bills and all that stuff. And as we were talking, I’m realizing that we were kicking around this phrase “intentional community,” and the five of us have an idea of what that is, but to anybody new to the concept, maybe just a few reflections from you all on how you would define that. We use this phrase, “intentional community,” in conversation, but what is it? And in this pre-decision period of making the bold choice, how were you thinking about that? What kind of values were coming up for you? Ryan Lents: Yeah, that’s a great question. I think that phrase, “intentional,” is really important because I think with so many things in life, we can have a lot of hopes and dreams for things. But for me, the piece about intentional is, what are the routinized kind of ongoing daily practices that reflect a commitment? And I think the same is true in marriage. It’s like you could talk about intentional marriage. Just because you make a commitment on one day doesn’t mean that on day 1725, that it’s gonna be as easy. It takes an intentional effort and commitment to say, yes, today I will love my spouse and animate those commitments that we made on the day that we exchanged rings. I think the same is true in community. Our experience was one of a lot of active discernment where we would do a good job of framing big questions that we were living into with our lives. We didn’t just say yes one day and then cut a check

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  4. Season 2 TEASER: Radical Family - Coming Soon!

    MAR 3

    Season 2 TEASER: Radical Family - Coming Soon!

    [00:00:00] Hey, everyone! This is Christina. I am tuning into today with some exciting news, and that is that Moderate Catholic has officially wrapped its first season on acedia! I hope y’all had a good time listening to the episodes and exploring the bonuses. And believe it or not, it is now actually time to move on to season two. So, what started at a sub podcast, which was kind of like, yeah, we’ll see where things go, has now grown up into toddlerhood, and hopefully it won’t be the terrible twos! So, we are approaching season two, and I’m just dropping a quick note to let you know that the theme of season two will be…Radical Family! [drum roll sound effect followed by applause sound effect][00:01:00] Now, you might be saying, okay, what is that? “Radical Family” is a phrase that came to me as I was starting to think about season two, and it was inspired by a homily that I heard when I was living in Boston with one of my favorite priests there, and he was talking about how radical means “roots.” And so, if you think of like a radish, right? Radish…grows underground. It has roots, soil, earth, that sort of thing. That’s the extent of my Latin connecting the dots. So radical means to get to the root of something. And he was saying that, on its face, radical seems like extreme, right? Like we usually use radical as someone or something that’s like way [00:02:00] over on one end of the spectrum or defies all the typical paradigms when really. Radical means to get to the essence of something if we’re looking at those Latin underpinnings, and I got to thinking about that. What I realized was our faith is radical in both ways, right? What does it mean to be a radical Catholic? One, it could mean those big, huge bold ideas that we use when we talk about being radical secularly, the big ideas, breaking the norms, all those things. But it also could mean, like, getting down to the essence of our faith, and if we really distill down to the root of our faith, what emerges is ironically actually something quite radical To follow Jesus, [00:03:00] really in a true way, the essence of what He taught, upending what had been taught up until then to get to the root of Jesus’s message is actually to live a radical life. So, I started kind of playing with that double meaning of radical, both bold, but also foundational essence, and I started thinking, you know, what would it mean to be a radical family in today’s world? And I’ve always had an interest in family since I am a birth doula, and have studied a lot of marriage and family ethics and theology, and I started to think about what would it mean if a family was radically living out their faith? On the one hand, it would be families that are making really bold choices. So maybe it’s they’re living [00:04:00] their home life a different way, or maybe the way that their family comes together is different, or the service or the mission or the social justice that they’re committing themselves to as a family looks a little different than your average family in society, but also, if we’re talking about the faith aspect of all of it, it also means like how is this family really embodying the essence of what Jesus was calling all of us to do, but in this case, as a family unit. When I put those two together, that phrase “radical family,” I started to think about families who I know who I would point to, to say, hey, they’re doing something a little different. They’re not just doing the norm. Not that the norm is necessarily bad or lacking, but they’re inspiring. They’re trying to do things with intentionality. And when I [00:05:00] was an undergrad and really into marriage and family ethics, I really looked up to my theology advisor and how she was intentionally living out faith in her family, and when you walked into their house, you kind of knew in little and big ways that this family had something that they were really committed to. So, using that inspiration, I started to think about other people in my life who were doing similar exemplary things, inspirational things, faith-filled things. And I started coming up with a short list of people I knew I wanted to interview, but then I started talking to people and asked, hey, if you were to pick a radical family, and this is what that kind of sort of means in my head, who would you think of? And it was really inspiring honestly, to hear from people as to who comes to mind when they think of that phrase what resulted was [00:06:00] just a lot of really cool, interesting conversations. I have somehow whittled down all those amazing conversations to the episodes that you’re going to hear in this season. But I hope that you’ll hear it and not think of it as like, oh my gosh, that is so amazing, [but] there’s no way me or my family could ever do that. That’s not the point! It’s not to make it seem impossible, but maybe what they’re saying or how they’re saying it will spark something in you to allow you to dream bigger or dream a little bit farther or nudge yourself a little bit more on how you can intentionally live out your faith with the people who are closest to you, your loved ones, however you would choose to define your family. So, that is where we’re heading. And I think you’re gonna be really just inspired by these [00:07:00] stories of faith. A lot of times we hear stories of faith about the individuals: saints, exemplary people, et cetera, et cetera. But to do it in family life, I think, personally, is an above and beyond commitment because it involves other people in such a deep and intimate way. And like individuals in our modern-day world, families also have a lot going on when it comes to wrestling with the modern-day kind of autopilot, and it takes a little bit to break out of that and think really intentionally, especially when it comes to faith. So, if any of that was like, huh, that sort of makes sense, or that might be interesting, I hope you’ll join me in season two. We have a lot of really great people and excellent conversations ahead! This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit christinagebel.substack.com

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  5. Episode 8a: BONUS An Examen for Acedia in Our Modern Time

    MAR 2

    Episode 8a: BONUS An Examen for Acedia in Our Modern Time

    Introduction to the Reflection Welcome to the Examen on Acedia, produced for you by Christina Gebel with The Moderate Catholic. As we enter into this time together, think about how you might want to use this Examen. You could use it with a retreat, after a month’s time in your life, during a Church season - like Advent or Lent - but for the purposes of our time here, we will be using it to reflect on a week that has passed in our life. Reflection Part I So, with that, I invite you to sit and rest, find a comfortable spot, perhaps have a pen or paper nearby in case you want to write down a [00:01:00] thought. And very gently invite yourself to settle your spirit and try to just turn down the volume of your mind. As you’re turning down the volume of your mind, try and turn up the awareness of everything presently around you, of the body that you’re in, the touch, the sound, the feelings around you, and slowly quiet the mind and become fully present.[00:02:00] To open our reflection, we’ll use the quote from Psalm 46, verse 10. We’ll repeat this quote a few times, slowly, so that we can invite God into this space with us. Invite the Holy Spirit, invite Jesus to be with us in our time today: “Be still and know that I am God.” This next time, try taking a series of deep [00:03:00] breaths and we’ll read again from Psalm 46, verse 10: “Be still and know that I am God.” “Be still and know that I am God.” Now that you’ve gotten to a still place, think about the last week or whatever time period that you want to reflect on today. [00:04:00] Think about all the ordinary or special things that might have happened in that time. Think about the ordinary ways you might have spent your weekdays. Think about the evenings. Think about the weekend Recall the people, places, and things that came up in that normal progression of your day, [00:05:00] of your week. And now kind of float above those memories. Kind of be a mindful, neutral observer of everything that’s coming to mind and ask yourself, what was your energy feeling like? Was it energetic? Did you feel excited about something? Maybe you felt bored or a little bit like autopilot? Were there [00:06:00] times when you might’ve been lethargic or maybe tired? Not feeling very motivated, Or perhaps you are a little jittery, maybe a little bit distracted, feeling like you’re going from one thing to the next with barely a pause. Or maybe you had times when you felt weary. Maybe you had a hard time feeling hope. Maybe some despair crept in. Maybe the time or hours seem to drag on in parts of your day. [00:07:00] Parts of your week or maybe time just kind of felt like it stopped altogether. So, take a moment and just think: how was your energy? Jot down some thoughts or take some mental notes about all the variations in your energy. Keep holding those thoughts in your head, those feelings, those memories, and ask yourself, did you doubt yourself at all? Did you have doubts about what you’re doing in [00:08:00] life? Did any questions come up as to what you are meant to do? Did you have a time when you might have felt unworthy? Did you have a time when you wanted to escape or get away or evade something? Did you find your mind wandering, daydreaming, wondering if there was something better, maybe a better job, a better place to live, [00:09:00] a better program, a better path? Did you seek the stimulus of something new? Did you neglect something that maybe you said you’ve committed to? Or perhaps push off something that you’ve been meaning to do to another day? Another time?[00:10:00] Did you sit down to do something and maybe felt overwhelmed? Maybe you decided to stop before you even tried? Now, think of times that you were totally alone. What were those small moments of silence or small windows of time when you were just with yourself? Did that feel uncomfortable? Did you [00:11:00] find yourself reaching for something to occupy your mind? Maybe it was your phone. Scrolling, shopping, social media, turning to the news, playing a game, texting someone… Did you find yourself seeking comfort in distraction? Were there times that you were alone, but maybe you were multitasking?[00:12:00] Eating while working? Talking while driving? Now, think about your body. Were there times when you became, maybe, frustrated or impatient with your health? Impatient, maybe, with the limitations of your body. Did you have that feeling of there’s just not enough hours in the day?[00:13:00] Did you have a time when you found yourself drifting back to the past? Did you find yourself with a sense of longing for days when you were younger, felt differently, life was simpler, you felt more happy, maybe more free to do what you chose?[00:14:00] Was there a time this week that you tried to talk yourself out of something? Maybe you had the thought that you were “too” something to try. Maybe you felt too young, maybe too old. Too inexperienced, Too far along down [00:15:00] one road already. In too deep already. Too busy. Or maybe it was that you felt that you just have too many people depending on you in the current situation. Take a moment now and pause and just let those thoughts, those feelings, those memories kind of bubble up to the surface and just simply sit with them. Sit [00:16:00] with them like you would find yourself sitting across from someone at a table, on a bench. Hold those memories, those moments, those scenes, those feelings. And accept them as part of your story… Without judgment. [00:17:00] Without feelings of less than, or unworthiness or screwing something up… Just accept them for what they are without judgment in a space of peace and neutrality. Reflection Part II Now once you’ve sat there with all of that, [00:18:00] I want you to just sit up, reposition yourself wherever you are, and just start taking some deep breaths in and out. Deep breaths in and out. And on these next breaths, breathe in and out with a spirit of openness. Now I want you to go back to that same time period that you’ve been [00:19:00] recalling the thoughts, the feelings, the emotions, and now we’re going to turn to a different set of questions. Was there a time that you felt joy? Was there a time that you saw yourself laughing authentically? Was there a moment in there that you felt your load lighten? Did someone or something [00:20:00] make you feel really excited? Did something spark your curiosity? Did something come up and you questioned was that a coincidence or was it a sign? Did someone say something to you that really stuck with you?[00:21:00] Did you have moments when you felt like you were in “flow”, when all your systems were firing in the best kind of way? And you felt this kind of energy, even if the task was mundane or simple, Did you have a moment when you felt fully present or immersed in something? Did you feel like you never wanted it to end?[00:22:00] You could have sat there, stood there, listened, or learned all day feeling totally absorbed. Did you have periods of gratitude for where you were, where you are in your life, or who you are? Did you experience a profound or surprising moment of clarity?[00:23:00] Did you feel the depth of an unquestionable commitment to something, even if it was hard? Did you find yourself dreaming? Daydreaming? Wondering? Even if you or someone said it was impossible and probable or could never happen, did you find yourself wondering if maybe it could?[00:24:00] Did you have a time when you felt like you were tempted to flee or distract yourself, but instead you just stopped and stayed? Did you stop worrying or dwelling on something and choose to trust God instead? Did you sit with discomfort or not having an answer?[00:25:00] Did you persevere in prayer or making it to church or showing up at a church event, even when you didn’t feel like it? Even when it might’ve felt impossible or that nothing seemed to be going your way to get there? Did you have any moment when you remembered why you felt called to do something? Why you felt called this job, this vocation?[00:26:00] Did you remind yourself why you love doing something so much? Did you relish in something that you’ve really missed? Did you persist in hope, even if everyone and everything around you said otherwise? Did you do any of these things and find peace and joy on the other side?[00:27:00] Maybe you found a renewed commitment, A fond reminder, A surprising curiosity, A deeper gratitude, A clear vision, A greater sense of trust [00:28:00] in God, A greater comfort with who you are, A belief in your own unique gifts, your fundamental worthiness. And now I want you to gently rest a hand on your shoulder and bring yourself back. [00:29:00] Gently, slowly return to the present moment. Be aware of your breathing. Be aware of your body. And take these last moments to just sit with a question. What stayed with me, what’s still lingering there? Nudging you stay with that whisper, stay with that nudge, and let it speak [00:30:00] directly to you. Maybe you want to stay there and be with the quiet of those feelings, those messages, those Divine [00:31:00] revelations. Or, if you want to gently bring yourself back, slowly open your eyes and reenter the world that God has given you. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit christinagebel.substack.com

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  6. Episode 8: BONUS: Overcoming Acedia with Carly Caminiti

    FEB 18

    Episode 8: BONUS: Overcoming Acedia with Carly Caminiti

    Christina: [00:00:00] Welcome to the Moderate Catholic, where we discuss topics that deepen faith and inspire action. I am your host, Christina Gebel, and this is Episode 8: Bonus: Overcoming Acedia with Carly Caminiti. So, we have a very special person here with us today to help us with this bonus episode of overcoming acedia, and it is my great pleasure to introduce Carly Caminiti, who is a certified executive coach, and Carly and I know each other because we overlapped for several years in Boston. We were part of the same parish. We even did some parish council years together and also share in common that we have both worked in the public health field. Clearly, we were meant to know [00:01:00] each other, hang out, and our Catholic faith was one of the gems of how we both came to know each other and also valued each other’s friendship. So, Carly, welcome. Carly Caminiti: Thank you. Happy to be here. And you forgot that we also have the same alma mater college, even though we didn’t know each other. Christina: Yes. Carly Caminiti: We probably passed each other down the hallways, down the sidewalks… Christina: Yes, yes, yes. I did forget that because. We didn’t know each other at the time, and we only made that realization, but we have the same beloved Jesuit University alma mater for our undergrad, so Carly Caminiti: Woo-hoo! Christina: The similarities are endless. So, Carly, thank you so much for taking the time out of your schedule today to sit here and be with us. You and I have talked a little bit outside of this episode [00:02:00] about acedia and kind of what we’re trying to do and the topic that we’re gonna talk about today with you is so appropriate to overcoming Acedia. Before we get into that, I just want to ask you a little bit about how you’ve taken the work that you do as an executive coach and integrated faith and spirituality into that. Carly Caminiti: Honestly, it kind of integrates itself because when people have views about themselves or things about themselves that they wanna change, it almost certainly comes down to who they are and how they wanna be. So, if that person has any sort of spiritual life whatsoever, then it comes up and out during our sessions together. I don’t necessarily market myself as a Catholic executive coach per se, but I would say that it’s very, very interesting how many times it comes up with folks that I work with about how connected their faith is to how they feel about [00:03:00] themselves. It’s a very easy combination when you’re working with people who are trying to reach their goals, and then they are the ones who make the connection to God, to their faith, and to how they wanna live their lives. Christina: That’s, that’s incredible. And just hearing you speak I did have a curious question. Does it usually come up in a positive sense in terms of how they feel about themselves? Carly Caminiti: I would say that more often than not, it’s just people mention that they believe in God and/or they tell me what kind of faith that they have. Part of the things that we’re gonna talk about today are really how do does our faith relate to how we view ourselves, and how are we shaped by those views. And, how then, can we show up better in the world today based on exactly who we wanna be and what kind of example we wanna follow. So, yes and no. Christina: Beautiful. Beautiful. Carly Caminiti: And Christina, I wanna ask you if you could read a prayer that I [00:04:00] adapted that’s gonna sound familiar to you, because it’s adapted from the prayer of St. Francis. But, I would like just for you to read it and then kind of think about how it feels as you read it. Christina: Sure. I would love to. All right. Prayer of St. Francis (Adapted by Carly Caminiti) Make me a channel of your peace, Where there is self-hatred, Let me bring your love. Where there is self-injury, Your pardon, Lord. And where there’s self-doubt, True faith in you. Make me a channel of your peace. Where there is self-despair in life, Let me bring hope. Where there is darkness, Only light. Where there’s sadness, Ever joy. Make me a channel of your peace. It is in pardoning that we are pardoned. In giving of [00:05:00] ourselves that we receive, And in dying, that we’re born to eternal life. Oh, Master grant that I may never seek, So much to be consoled as to console, To be understood as to understand, To be loved as to love with all my soul. Wow. Carly Caminiti: So, clearly there were just a few adaptations by adding the word “self” in there. How did that land for you? Christina: It is incredible because I think it flowed so seamlessly that it was almost like it was meant to be there. Carly Caminiti: Mm. Christina: You know, I’ve never said this prayer and thought to myself, oh, when I say where there is hatred, that also includes self-hatred, where I say there’s [00:06:00] injury, self-injury, self-doubt…I’ve never thought of that, hearing the prayer prior to now, but it fits so easily into it. Carly Caminiti: Yeah, it’s easy when we listen to that prayer to externalize it, but we don’t often, in my case, at least, look at this prayer as something that has to do with ourselves. Even something as simple as self-doubt and how can we change that. And this is where to kind of answer your question from earlier and connect it to what I’m doing now. When I think about coaching, it has to do with how people are viewing their own being. So, our being comes from God, and yet imposter syndrome and burnout and self-doubt and self-hatred and all these things tend to get in the way of how we see ourselves. There’s a disconnect between what people are feeling versus what our faith is telling us. Christina: [00:07:00] Yes, yes. That is why I was so excited for you to come on the show and talk about this. Because one of the insidious ways that acedia works, is by telling us lies about ourselves as created and beloved children of God. And if we have a calling put on our heart, like a true calling, a true purpose that God put us here to do, one of the ways the False Spirit tries to thwart that is by telling us that we’re not good enough. By instilling self-doubt. So, we start to think to ourselves, oh, well who am I to be a great person? Or who am I to be the one to fulfill this mission, this God given calling here on earth? The false spirit loves that because it gets us off [00:08:00] track. I really think the point you’re making is salient, and it fits right into the strategies that we need to overcome this idea of acedia. And actually, you have a really interesting story about how you came to feel this in your own life. Do you mind sharing that? Carly Caminiti: Sure. Yeah. So, there was this place called Georgetown Cupcake in Boston, and it was on Newbury Street for many, many years. I don’t know how long it was there, but one of their main things is that they gave away 400 free cupcakes a day. And in order for you to know the passcode for the free cupcake of the day, you had to go to Twitter in the morning at 10 o’clock or whatever time it was in order to get that code, and all you had to do is go up to the cashier and say the code. So, I went one day with my friend Paul, and on the way there I realized I had [00:09:00] forgotten to look at the Twitter passcode. And so, I asked him what the code was and he said it’s, “I am awesome.” And I laughed and I was like, oh, that’s a funny one. And so, then we got inside the store, went up to the cash register and I said to the cashier, “Hey, I’m awesome,” and the cashier just kind of smiled at me and I thought he didn’t hear me, and so I just said it a little bit louder. “Hey, I’m awesome,” I said, and still he was like, okay, can I help you? You know, he just kind of gave me this look. And so, then for a third time, because you have to have them hear you say, what this passcode is, so for a third time I said, “Hey, I’m awesome!” Like very intentionally. And at that point, my friend Paul starts cracking up, the cashier starts cracking up. And that’s when I realized that that was not the passcode. That was just something that my friend had told me was the passcode. So why am I telling you this story and why does it relate to what you just said? It’s because those three words are words [00:10:00] that people have a hard time with to be able to say, “Hey, I’m awesome.” It causes us to laugh. Because when we start to think about ourselves as awesome, that means that we are good enough. That means that we don’t need to be more or do more or say more. That means that we’re already awesome. Especially people who don’t feel that way about themselves. To be able to verbalize that they’re awesome is something that is actually really difficult for them. To me, in my work, feels like we’re doing a disservice to ourselves and to our Creator. Because if we are getting into this mindset of saying, “I’m not good enough,” how do we move past it? Christina: Yeah, that is the question. And I love that story because it’s both funny, because I think we could all see ourselves having a similar reaction and it’s also very kind of [00:11:00] humbling, you know? Like to really sit there and unpack, well, why do I think this is so funny to say? And it really, again, goes back to those feelings of acedia and those tactics of the False Spirit that to really know our worth, to really sit there and say, yes, I am awesome, without laughing, without making a joke or whatever, is really to connect with God because, as the song goes, “Our God is an awesome God.” So, if God’s awesome, and we’re made in God’s own image, then we must be too, right? I would love to cue that song if I had the rights to it, but maybe another day. So, I really love that because it was a small moment, but it was so formative and profound for you. Carly Caminiti: Yeah, it was, and I think that it ju

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  7. Episode 7: BONUS: What happened to acedia?

    JAN 22

    Episode 7: BONUS: What happened to acedia?

    Welcome to the Moderate Catholic, where we discuss topics that deepen faith and inspire action. I am your host, Christina Gebel, and this is Episode Seven: What happened to Acedia? Welcome back. So, this is episode seven. It is a bonus episode because we have, as I mentioned in the last episode, formally concluded our study of acedia, but there will be some bonus episodes because if you like me, [and] resonated with this topic, you might want to learn more. In wanting to learn more, you might be wondering whatever happened to acedia. You know, this is not a word that is part of our everyday vernacular, much like some of the other seven deadly sins [00:01:00] are, if you choose to talk about that, or you just might be wondering, why has it taking me till now to learn about acedia? Why did I never come across this until later in life? And that was something that really piqued my interest because it took me a while to learn about Acedia. So, this episode is for those diehard acedia enthusiasts who have to know the quote ‘end of the story.’ And to do so, we will be going back to one of our primary texts, The Noonday Devil, by Jean Charles Nault, and around page 96, he starts to tell the story of how this all came to be. So, the story starts with actually a Franciscan Friar William Ham Ockham, who lived around [00:02:00] 1300 to 1350 AD. If you know anything about Franciscan Friars, there are obviously a lot of very good people. Although I will say Friar Ockham was not the best person in the story we’re about to tell because he actually helped to influence the idea of acedia kind of falling out of favor, but I’m sure he was a great dude otherwise. So, we’re gonna cut him some slack. So Franciscan Friar William Ockham sparked kind of a quote ‘revolution,’ if you will, because at the time, he was countering the theological understanding of freedom, which up until that point had primarily been articulated by St. Thomas Aquinas. So Ockham [00:03:00] proposed a new concept of freedom, which essentially differed from Aquinas’s concept of freedom, and he called this new freedom concept, quote, the “liberty of indifference.” End quote. Jean Charles Nault describes this on page 96 as “human beings are totally indeterminate, totally indifferent with regard to good or evil’ end quote, and I said human beings, because again, a lot of these things just refer to ‘man,’ and I prefer to make it more gender neutral. So indeterminate, totally indifferent with regard to good or evil. Actually, this is how we largely conceive of freedom today. We see freedom as the idea that you can [00:04:00] choose between two contrary things. You have that choice. However, at the time, this was a bit of a quote ‘revolution,’ to what was considered a classical understanding of freedom, and that view, that classical understanding Jean Charles Nault describes as quote, “Freedom is the ability that human beings have an ability belonging jointly to the intellect and will to perform virtuous actions, good actions, excellent actions, perfect actions when he or she wants, and as he or she wants. Humankind’s freedom is therefore the capacity to accomplish good acts easily, joyously and lastingly. This freedom is defined by the attraction [00:05:00] of the good.” Okay, so let’s unpack that a little bit. In this more classical understanding of freedom, prior to Ockham, mostly delineated by Aquinas, the idea is that we have the freedom to do good. Okay, and we are attracted to doing that good innately as human beings. How is it that we have that innately? Well, we believe that we are human beings with a soul, and we’re not simply animals who kind of just act on impulse and their basic needs. Right? But Ockham kind of deviated from all of this because he made freedom live in the moment prior [00:06:00] to our intellect and will. So, man or woman are no longer attracted to the good, as Aquinas had said. Instead, they kind of have a indifference to good and evil. Okay, so total indifference and it’s that time period before the intellect and will kick in. Ockham, being a Franciscan friar, being a religious person, was still somewhat concerned with people doing good things. Okay? He wasn’t like a relativist, let’s just say. But he believed there had to be some sort of an external element or something extrinsic, which points human beings to the good, and he described that as the law, and it points to [00:07:00] what the good action might be. Around that time, this was really kind of picking up steam and the idea that what is good is defined by obedience to the law. On page 97, Jean Charles Nault points out that eventually this leads to this concept of legalism, and legalism is quote, “The law alone is the criterion for good.” So, because this is externally motivated, human beings no longer have what Aquinas called, quote “natural inclinations.” And those natural inclinations were dependent upon really the spiritual nature of humankind, so the soul, and he bases his teaching about natural law on the idea that we are [00:08:00] created in the image and likeness of God, and therefore to determine whether you know something is good, we can look inwardly to ourselves because we are created with God dwelling within us. Jean Charles Nault explains Aquinas on page 98, “Human beings are free not despite their natural inclinations, but on the contrary because of them.” Okay, so again, let’s unpack it. Some people might say, well, you know, if this is innately within me and was put there by my Creator, am I actually free because I didn’t choose to be created this way? Or some people might say, oh, well, if this is how I was created, am I in some ways predestined to think a certain way, you know? [00:09:00] So those are all good questions, to ponder. Folks today might feel like that restricts consent or freedom of choice. And Ockham kind of agrees with it, that if humankind was made naturally oriented towards the good, then that means that humankind is no longer essentially free. Going back to Aquinas, one has to ask the question, okay, if we’re naturally inclined this way, what about sin? And Aquinas would say, people sin, not because they’re attracted to evil, but because evil appears to them as good. And in that way, sin is very deceptive. If you’ve been following along in this first season, you’ll know that that is one of the primary strategies [00:10:00] of the False Spirit. The False Spirit might know that we are attracted to good, naturally inclined to good, or just simply want to be good. So evil can’t always look like an outright evil. It has to have some trickery in it, and it can be deceiving, right? At this point in reading about it, I’ll be honest with y’all, I was like, I kind of get it, but I’m not sure what Aquinas means because he’s so like Aquinas-y. So, there’s an example in The Noonday Devil on page 99, that kind of started to make sense for me and actually is perfectly timed because I just went to the symphony with a very good friend and we saw Carmina Burana. So, the violin, right? Envision in your head [00:11:00] a master violinist. Somebody who is an aficionado, who does the 10,000 hours of practice thing and continues to hone their craft, until they’re this expert of their skill. So Aquinas would look at that and say, okay, as the violinist goes, through his or her life, they are always trying to be better, and being better means playing the right notes at the right moments in the right harmonies or whatever is being asked of the musician. But in playing the right notes, that doesn’t necessarily mean that they’re no longer free. Actually, they are free to do the most good thing, which is to play the right notes and play beautiful masterpieces. So, Jean [00:12:00] Charles Nault writes, is the possibility of playing wrong notes what makes the violinist free? Or from another perspective, does the fact that the violinist no longer plays wrong notes really impair their freedom? Or on the contrary, is it not the pinnacle of freedom to be capable of no longer playing wrong notes? That really stayed with me. Is freedom, like Ockham would say, the ability to play a good note or a bad note? Is that where we wanna start the concept of freedom? Or is it really that because we are these divinely created beings who are inclined to the good, and I would say also beauty, is true freedom, really, to move closer to the good and to beauty as created human [00:13:00] beings with the divine within us? Something to think about. So back to Ockham. As I mentioned earlier, Ockham feels we need this extrinsic thing to point us towards the good because he’s still, you know, he’s still concerned about doing good, but he just sees it a little differently. So, he feels that we need the law. Okay, what law, Ockham? Well, Ockham says God’s law. So, Jean Charles Nault explains this on page 100, quote, “Human beings act in terms of a law that is no longer inscribed within them, but is totally external and foreign to them. A law that is totally arbitrary, which humankind can carry out only by God’s decree.” So, notice the kind of spatiality of how he explains that this law [00:14:00] is no longer the law that you could say is written on our heart. It is this external thing. And yes, it could be God’s law, it could also be civil law. You know, it could be anything external to us. And at first, it might seem like nothing changes, right? Because if it really is God’s law, let’s say the 10 Commandments, and the Ten Commandments are good, right? So really are we just like pulling apart hairs at this point? But, Aquinas and Jean Charles Nault go on to say, no, this is really a big change because it changes the reason why we do things. We do things not because there’s an intrinsic goodness there, but because God says so or someone says so. Right? And the issue with this [00:15:00]

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  8. Episode 6: Overcoming Acedia - Faithful Perseverance and Joy

    JAN 3

    Episode 6: Overcoming Acedia - Faithful Perseverance and Joy

    Christina Gebel: Welcome to the Moderate Catholic, where we discuss topics that deepen faith and inspire action. I am your host, Christina Gebel, and this is episode six, Overcoming Acedia. Welcome. So, you might be thinking, finally, we have gotten to the point where we are actually sun-setting our discussion about acedia and talking about how to actually overcome it, and this whole time, just to recap, we’ve been discussing how acedia shows up for us, how it shows up in the world, [00:01:00] and how it’s mainly driven by the false spirit and the false spirit wanting to get us off track from doing the most good in the world and from living out our true calling. The way that we can push back against all the things that we’ve been talking about is by actually overcoming acedia. Before we begin. If you’re still a little bit fuzzy on what acedia is and you’ve been following along, just please know that’s okay, and it takes time, like I’ve said in previous episodes, to ingest all of this and wrap your mind around it. Maybe you understand it a little bit on the personal level and maybe not as much on the society level. That’s all okay. And for that reason, because it can be a difficult topic to grasp, I have a [00:02:00] special treat for you, and that is as a bonus to the conclusion of the acedia series on Moderate Catholic. I will be including an adaptation of the Ignatian examine, and when I say Examen, E-X-A-M-E-N. So, for those of you who are familiar, the Examen is a tool in Ignatian spirituality that many Jesuits do and encourage others to do every single day. It’s usually part of the Spiritual Exercises. It’s kind of like the culmination, if you will, of those Exercises. And it’s an inventory of your day where you look back to everything you did, people you saw what you read, watched, who you interacted with, and you pay special attention to how the Spirit is moving within you that day. And this is very [00:03:00] Ignatian because Ignatius believes that we can seek God and all of the ordinary experiences of life. So, by reviewing our day as a part of our daily prayer, we can actually see where God is at work. So, notice that I use the phrase that the Examen helps us understand where the Spirit is moving throughout the day. In the Examen that I’m gonna include as a bonus to this series, it’s also gonna help us understand where the false spirit might be moving, and in that sense, how acedia has shown up throughout our day. So, stay tuned. This will be a great bonus for all of you, and hopefully something that you can play for yourself as you’re reflecting in daily prayer. So, once you find the acedia in your life day to [00:04:00] day, you will likely want to overcome it, and that’s where the topic today comes in. So, I’m going to start the topic with a huge spoiler. If you overcome acedia, you will know that you’ve overcome it because there is a great gift awaiting you on the other side. So that’s the spoiler, and I’m even gonna tell you what that gift is. But first we’re gonna point back to Evagrius, our desert monk, our main dude who describes the feeling of overcoming acedia as a quote, “state of peace and an ineffable joy ensues in the soul after the struggle.” When I read that, I was like, well, I would like a state of peace and ineffable joy, so obviously it’s very attractive. I [00:05:00] did actually experience some of this once I simply named acedia. I talked about that in the earliest episodes - I believe episode two - where just knowing what was going on with me spiritually and being able to point to it was peace-giving for me. It brought me some relief. If just naming it can give you that positive emotion like it did for me, imagine what overcoming it could feel like. Today we’re gonna talk about that and we’ll use the same two texts that I’ve been referring to all along The Noonday Devil by Jean Charles Nault and Acedia and Me by Kathleen Norris. And because we’re nearing the end of this acedia series, you might be thinking, if you’ve hung around this long, I’d really like to learn more about this acedia thing, as I mentioned [00:06:00] earlier, I would recommend starting with Kathleen Norris’s book, Acedia and Me the New York Times bestseller, because it is a lot more accessibly written. But if you want a good theological itch and you’re kind of used to scratching theological itches, then I would say The Noonday Devil is another great option. Okay, so let’s dive in and start with where Jean Charles Nault takes us and the first remedy that he starts to talk about on page 85 is meditating on the Incarnation. So Incarnation, again, is God becoming human in Jesus Christ. He references Saint Thomas Aquinas a lot and [00:07:00] in becoming human, he talks about God actually built a bridge between the abyss of the divine and human nature and God, in that sense, through Jesus acted as a bridge maker. And actually that’s what the word pontifex literally translates to: “the bridge maker.” So on page 87, Jean Charles Nault goes on to talk about Aquinas’s reasoning, where he writes, quote, “The Incarnation comes to restore to man or women, or humankind the possibility once again of walking toward true beatitude. The Incarnation thus allows humanity to rediscover [00:08:00] our proper dignity.” And I did make that a little bit more gender neutral, but the important piece here is by Jesus becoming human, we, unlike any other event in human history, are able to now have that bridge to the divine and therefore deeply understand our dignity. Aquinas goes on to argue that the Incarnation allows us to love God even more. Aquinas writes quote, “Nothing, of course, so induces us to love one as the experience of His love for us, but God’s love for me could be demonstrated to humanity and no more effective way than this. He wills to [00:09:00] be united to humanity in person for it is proper to love, to unite the Lover with the beloved as far as possible.” Okay, so Aquinas isn’t exactly known for simple sentences, but essentially what he’s saying here is there’s no more powerful gesture of love than to be united between the love and the Lover. If you truly love someone, you want to be as close or in union with them as you can. So, our responsibility in this is actually to receive this, okay? And I don’t, I don’t mean that flippantly, to receive this, to really actually meditate on how much God loves us, that He became [00:10:00] human, in the human and divine nature of Jesus Christ. Then, went on to sacrifice greatly for all of us despite our sins and despite our imperfection. So, we receive this and we are called to participate in that love. I think that John Charles Nault puts it really beautifully when he writes on page 88, “God does not save us without us.” So, this is a participatory love. This is not just simply we are these fallen creatures running around and, you know, we just need somebody to come down and swoop us up. This is not a passive salvation. This is us actively participating in the Salvation. That is meant for us. And what do we have to [00:11:00] help us with that? Guess what? We have the Holy Spirit and the Gifts of the Holy Spirit. If it’s been a minute since you’ve read about the Gifts of the Holy Spirit, or had Confirmation or had a child who’s going through Confirmation, you’ll remember that they’re things like wisdom to see things as God sees them. Prudence to choose what is most in conformity with the good. So, the Holy Spirit and its gifts are not this thing that we need to just memorize for Confirmation class, but they’re actually like tools in our tool belt to participate in this divine love. And we can draw on them, pray for them, pray to be strengthened in them, in order to reach that achievement. John Charles Nault writes on page 95, quote, “The encounter with [00:12:00] Christ becomes a friendship that delivers us from self-centeredness. The Holy Spirit makes Christ the contemporary of every person. And makes each of us another Christ” end quote. That last part I was like, Ooh, I don’t know if I’m worthy of being even in relation to the idea of another Christ, but I do love this choice of words in friendship. A friendship that delivers us from self-centeredness. Because what more does love do, and what more does a good friend who loves their friend do than to get out of their own head and be in communion and caring about the needs and wants and desires of their beloved [00:13:00] friend? Okay, so that is. Remedy number one, if you will, meditating on the Incarnation. The other one is called joyful perseverance. It can also be referred to as standing fast. So Evagrius and the Desert Fathers traced all the remedies to acedia back to one concept. Okay, so let’s just distill it down to one, and they distilled it down to perseverance. In other words, we must focus our efforts. Because the false spirit’s trying to pull us in a million different directions, y’all. So we gotta focus. Jean Charles Nault writes that we must resist, [00:14:00] stand fast, persevere, and remain faithful. And he writes about the temptation that we’re up against. In doing so, at the bottom of page 1 45, he writes, quote “Acedia is the temptation to withdraw from the narrowness of the present so as to take refuge in what is imaginary. It is the temptation to quit the battle so as to become a simple spectator of the controversy that is unfolding in the world.” End quote. Woo. Acedia never stops getting intense, y’all. So, we have this temptation to withdraw and to take refuge and what is imaginary. And if you remember from last time, the Signs of the Times, one of the ways that [00:15:00] acedia tempts us to do this is by creating this unhealthy nostalgia for the past and that selective nostalgia that we come up with in our brains is, is really imaginary because it is a subset or a se

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