Thrive Beyond Size

Michelle Tubman

Welcome to Thrive Beyond Size, the podcast that’s all about finding health, joy, and liberation beyond weight. Join Dr. Michelle Tubman as she dives into the latest research and evidence-based strategies for nutrition, movement, sleep, stress management and emotional wellbeing. Our mission is to empower you to prioritize your health, not your weight, and to promote a world where everyone can thrive, regardless of their size. Let’s work together to break free from diet culture, enjoy vibrant health, and challenge the weight stigma that affects us all.

  1. 241 - Other Side  When You’ve Left Diet Culture… But Everyone Else Is Still There

    1D AGO

    241 - Other Side When You’ve Left Diet Culture… But Everyone Else Is Still There

    This episode was inspired by a quiet morning that quickly became emotionally charged after Michelle encountered a long-time friend’s post about yet another weight-loss attempt. What once would have felt familiar or even inviting now landed as unsettling and activating, prompting reflection on why seeing others engage in diet culture can feel so destabilizing when you’re doing healing work around food and body. Michelle explores the idea that there is a particular phase of healing where diet culture becomes louder—not because it has intensified in the world, but because your awareness has changed. Using the familiar “fishbowl” metaphor, she explains how stepping even one toe outside of diet culture can feel disorienting and lonely, especially when everyone around you still seems fully immersed. From a neuroscience perspective, she discusses how the brain constantly scans for cues of safety and familiarity, and how patterns that once felt “normal” can begin to register as unsafe once your internal operating system has shifted. The conversation then moves into what’s often underneath these triggers: grief. Grief for years spent trapped in the same patterns, grief for the ways diet culture eroded joy and self-trust, grief for the loss of shared language with people you care about, and grief for the fact that once you see the harm, you can’t unsee it. Michelle also names the anger that arises when a harmful system is still praised as health and wellness, and why that anger is a healthy, human response rather than a personal failing. Michelle outlines a few common traps people fall into when encountering diet culture in others, including the urge to educate or rescue, slipping into comparison, and self-abandonment in the name of being “able to handle it.” She explains why these responses make sense, but often leave us more dysregulated and disconnected from ourselves. Finally, the episode offers a compassionate way forward—one rooted in nervous system safety rather than endurance. Michelle talks about the importance of curating your environment without guilt, differentiating someone else’s choices from your own truth, grounding back into the body when activated, and creating at least one space where diet culture doesn’t dominate. She closes with a powerful reframe: being triggered isn’t a failure—it’s attunement. Your body now knows what safety feels like, and it notices when it’s missing. In this episode, Michelle covers: Why being triggered by diet culture is often a sign of growth, not weaknessHow the nervous system and brain respond to familiar but harmful patternsThe grief and anger that often sit beneath food and body triggersCommon traps like rescuing, comparison, and self-abandonmentPractical ways to protect your nervous system while staying compassionate Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    33 min
  2. 240 - Self-Betrayal: When Listening to Yourself Stops Feeling Safe

    JAN 29

    240 - Self-Betrayal: When Listening to Yourself Stops Feeling Safe

    In this episode, Michelle takes a deep and compassionate look at self-betrayal—a word that often carries shame, but deserves far more nuance. Rather than framing self-betrayal as weakness, lack of integrity, or poor follow-through, this conversation explores how self-betrayal often develops as a protective response—a way the nervous system learns to prioritize safety, connection, and acceptance over authenticity. You’ll hear how self-betrayal shows up in everyday life, especially in our relationships with food, rest, boundaries, and decision-making, and how diet culture in particular trains us to distrust our bodies and override our internal signals. Michelle weaves together personal stories, intuitive eating insights, and accessible neuroscience to explain why “just listening to your body” can feel impossible—or even unsafe—when safety hasn’t yet been established. This episode also explores the grief that can surface as we begin repairing self-betrayal, and why that grief is not a setback, but a sign of integration and growth. Instead of striving for perfection or resolution, Michelle emphasizes the power of repair—small, compassionate moments of listening, pausing, and responding with kindness. If you’ve ever felt stuck in patterns you judge as self-sabotage, or wondered why trusting yourself feels so hard, this episode offers a reframing that is both relieving and deeply human. In this episode, we explore: Why self-betrayal is often about safety, not failureHow the nervous system learns to override internal signalsThe role diet culture plays in training self-distrustThe difference between self-abandonment and self-betrayalWhy awareness doesn’t mean you’re ready to change—and why that’s okayHow grief fits into healing and integrationWhat repair actually looks like in rebuilding body trustA reflection to take with you: The next time you notice the urge to override yourself, ask: “What would help my body feel just a little safer right now?” If this episode resonated with you, Michelle would love to hear your story. You can reach out at michelle@wayzahealth.com or connect on social media. Thanks for listening—and as always, be gentle with yourself as you continue finding your way home. 💛   Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    31 min
  3. 239 - When Your Body Screams: What Food Poisoning Taught Me About Listening

    JAN 22

    239 - When Your Body Screams: What Food Poisoning Taught Me About Listening

    In this episode of Thrive Beyond Size, I share a very personal story about a rough week that ended with severe food poisoning—and the unexpected clarity it gave me about body trust, intuitive eating, and how our bodies communicate with us. In this episode, we explore:Why intuitive eating feels “easy” when your body is screaming—and harder when it’s whisperingHow illness stripped away food rules, self-doubt, and overthinkingThe difference between loud body signals (like food poisoning or burnout) and subtle daily cuesWhy diet culture teaches us to ignore hunger, fullness, satisfaction, and discomfortHow burnout, anxiety, panic, injury, grief, and stress often represent the body escalating its messageWhy loud body signals aren’t punishments, but protective responsesHow ignoring whispers often leads to screamsWhat loud moments can teach us about clarity, trust, and embodimentWhy intuitive eating lives in everyday attunement—not dramatic crisesGentle reflection questions shared in this episode:When has your body spoken very loudly to you in the past?What was it trying to tell you in those moments?What do you think your body needed that you may not have been ready to hear?What might your body be whispering to you right now about food, rest, pace, or care?What would it feel like to take those whispers seriously?Key takeaway:Your body doesn’t need to scream to deserve your attention. Intuitive eating is the practice of listening—again and again—before it has to. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    25 min
  4. 238 - Beyond The Peel

    JAN 15

    238 - Beyond The Peel

    What if the most valuable part isn’t the most obvious one? In this episode of Thrive Beyond Size, Michelle shares a series of small synchronicities that led her to reflect on Earl Grey tea—and the surprising fact that its signature flavour comes not from the fruit itself, but from the oil in the peel of bergamot. From there, she explores how this metaphor applies to so many areas of our lives. Michelle unpacks how diet culture and dominant wellness narratives train us to focus on what’s visible, measurable, and socially rewarded—while ignoring the quieter, subtler layers that actually make nourishment possible. In this episode, you’ll hear reflections on: Why we’re conditioned to value outcomes, control, and appearanceHow diet culture strips eating down to function while discarding pleasure, satisfaction, and safetyThe “peel” of eating: sensory experience, connection, comfort, and meaningHow body distress often comes from focusing only on appearance rather than body wisdomWhy the nervous system may be the most overlooked layer of allHow safety and regulation create the foundation for sustainable changeA gentle invitation to get curious about what you may have been taught to ignoreThis is not an episode about fixing yourself or doing more. It’s an invitation to widen the lens, soften your focus, and explore what becomes possible when you stop discarding the peel. As always, take what resonates, leave what doesn’t, and approach yourself with curiosity and compassion. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    23 min
  5. 237 - When You Don’t Know What the Next Step Is (and Why That’s Not a Problem)

    JAN 8

    237 - When You Don’t Know What the Next Step Is (and Why That’s Not a Problem)

    In this episode, Michelle explores what happens when you don’t know the next step—and why that experience is far more human (and helpful) than we’ve been taught to believe. She discusses: Why not knowing feels so uncomfortable—and where that discomfort comes fromHow diet culture and hustle culture both promise certainty and controlThe nervous system’s role in urgency, overthinking, and premature decisionsWhy uncertainty is often information, not dangerHow the urge for clarity can show up with food, body image, relationships, and workThe difference between aligned action and action driven by discomfortWhy some seasons are meant for pausing, integration, and listening—not fixingHow body trust requires slowing down and tuning into subtle signalsWhat it really means to “stay present” instead of forcing answersMichelle also shares a powerful reflection prompt to help you notice where you might be pressuring yourself to know more than you do right now—and what might shift if you allowed yourself to simply not know, just for today. Reflection prompt from the episode: Where in your life are you pressuring yourself to know more than you actually do right now? And what might shift if you allowed yourself to not know—just for today? As always, thank you for being here and for allowing this to be a space where certainty isn’t required and being human is enough. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    23 min
  6. 236 - What 2026 Is Asking of Me: Patience, Surrender, and Trust

    JAN 1

    236 - What 2026 Is Asking of Me: Patience, Surrender, and Trust

    This New Year’s episode is both a moment of accountability and an invitation—to myself, and to you—to approach 2026 with more patience, presence, and trust. Rather than setting resolutions or performance-based goals, I share the principles guiding me forward, shaped by the lessons of 2025, my changing relationship with energy, and a deepening awareness of what it truly means to feel at home in my body. We begin with an overview of A Year of Coming Home, my year-long container designed to support intuitive eating from the inside out. I explain why nervous system regulation and embodiment must come before intuitive eating can truly work, and how chronic stress, overwhelm, and disconnection from the body make it nearly impossible to hear—or trust—our inner signals. You’ll hear how somatic practices, gentle movement, and creating safety in the body are foundational to this work. I also share how yoga—especially yin and restorative practices—has profoundly supported my own relationship with food, body, and presence, and why I’m pursuing yoga certification to bring these practices into my work. Alongside this, I talk about asynchronous coaching inside A Year of Coming Home and why this model of support feels so aligned and nourishing. Looking ahead to the podcast, I share plans to include more guest stories and a powerful upcoming project amplifying real experiences of weight stigma in healthcare. I also introduce a year-long personal experiment: offering daily tarot reflections as a free practice rooted in intuition, reflection, and nervous system awareness. On a personal level, I reflect on turning 50, committing to a full year of yoga and strength training, spending more intentional time alone in nature, and continuing to explore spirituality through practice rather than just theory. I also share my curiosity around traditional Chinese medicine as I navigate perimenopausal digestive changes. One of the most tender parts of this episode explores how my work in medical assistance in dying has reshaped my understanding of surrender and transitions—and how the wisdom of the dying process might teach us how to move through life’s many endings with more grace and less resistance. This reflection has sparked a deeply personal writing project I’ll be carrying with me through 2026. Finally, I share my word for the year—patience—and why learning to slow down, sit with ideas, trust timing, and allow things to unfold feels like the most important practice of all. If you’re craving a gentler, more embodied way of moving into the year ahead, this episode is for you. www.wayzahealth.com Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    38 min
  7. 235 - Finding My Rhythm: A Year of Listening, Softening, and Coming Home

    12/25/2025

    235 - Finding My Rhythm: A Year of Listening, Softening, and Coming Home

    This episode drops on Christmas Day, and instead of a polished year-end recap, Michelle offers a slow, embodied reflection on the year that was. She shares why she chose rhythm as her guiding word, how that intention reshaped her relationship with movement, rest, and energy, and why perimenopause became an unexpected teacher in listening more closely to her body. Michelle explores the cultural pressure to “account for” ourselves at the end of the year—and why not following through on a plan is not a moral failure, but often information, wisdom, or a nervous system response asking for care. She reflects on healing a long-complicated relationship with movement through weight-neutral personal training and a renewed yoga practice, and how these shifts supported emotional regulation, presence, and rest. The episode also traces how these personal insights influenced the evolution of Wayza Health, including the release of Nourish Yourself: Body+Mind, the creation of The Self-Trust Lab, and the development of A Year of Coming Home. Michelle shares why nervous system capacity is foundational to any change work—and how slowing down, rather than hustling, has guided both her business and her deeper training in trauma-informed, somatic practices. This is a gentle invitation to reflect on your own year with compassion, to question rigid definitions of success, and to consider what it might look like to choose rhythm over pressure as you move into the next season. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    24 min
  8. 234 - Boredom, Buffering, and the Lost Art of Being With Yourself

    12/18/2025

    234 - Boredom, Buffering, and the Lost Art of Being With Yourself

    Next week is Christmas, and as Michelle reflects on the season—what it holds, what it doesn’t, and the quieter spaces many of us feel at this time of year—an insight from a yin yoga class offers an unexpected theme: boredom. In yin yoga, long-held poses can bring up discomfort, restlessness, and resistance…but what caught Michelle’s attention was her teacher’s invitation to notice boredom specifically. That word landed immediately, because boredom wasn’t just present in the pose—it was familiar in life. From there, Michelle explores boredom as one of the “quieter” emotions we’re rarely taught to recognize, name, or stay present with. She shares a powerful childhood message about packing emotions into a shoebox and putting them away, and explains how many adults grow up fluent in managing the “big” emotions—like anger, grief, or anxiety—while remaining unsure what to do with subtler ones like boredom. But emotions aren’t problems to fix. They’re signals—like dashboard lights—offering information from your nervous system about what’s happening inside and around you. Boredom, Michelle suggests, is often uncomfortable not because it’s painful, but because it’s empty. It creates space, and for many of us, space doesn’t feel safe. That’s why boredom becomes prime buffering territory: snacking when we’re not hungry, scrolling without thinking, turning on noise, opening tabs, staying busy—anything to outrun the sensation of “nothing happening.” The goal isn’t to judge these patterns. It’s to recognize them. Because bored eating often looks and feels different than hunger-based eating, and without emotional awareness, we end up eating at boredom rather than listening to what it’s asking for. Michelle invites you to consider what boredom might be teaching: a need for rest, novelty, connection, creativity—or a deeper discomfort with being alone with yourself. She shares how boredom has shown up in her own seasons of hustle and burnout, and how her resistance to stillness once made meditation feel nearly impossible. And she offers a simple, powerful practice: notice boredom in micro-moments (red lights, waiting rooms, the kettle boiling), name it, feel it in your body, notice the urge to escape, and stay with it for just ten more seconds. The episode closes with a layered personal insight: the contrast between poses like pigeon—where discomfort makes the emotional message loud—and more comfortable poses where boredom emerges and the lesson is quieter. In that quiet, Michelle recognizes a theme that’s been following her: patience. Not forcing action because of anxiety, but slowing down long enough to let the message come through. And she invites you to reflect on your own relationship with boredom—and to reach out and share what you discover. In this episode, you’ll learn:Why boredom is a “quiet” emotion that often gets overlookedHow boredom creates space—and why space can feel unsafeWhat buffering is, and why boredom is prime buffering territory (food, scrolling, busyness, noise)How bored eating differs from hunger-based eatingHow emotions function as nervous system “dashboard lights,” not problems to fixWhat boredom may be trying to communicate (rest, connection, novelty, creativity, burnout, fear of stillness)A simple micro-practice to build tolerance for boredom: name it, feel it, notice the urge, pause for 10 secondsWhy learning to sit with boredom supports emotional resilience and body trustHow yin yoga revealed a deeper theme: patience, and letting decisions come from clarity rather than urgency        Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    30 min
5
out of 5
16 Ratings

About

Welcome to Thrive Beyond Size, the podcast that’s all about finding health, joy, and liberation beyond weight. Join Dr. Michelle Tubman as she dives into the latest research and evidence-based strategies for nutrition, movement, sleep, stress management and emotional wellbeing. Our mission is to empower you to prioritize your health, not your weight, and to promote a world where everyone can thrive, regardless of their size. Let’s work together to break free from diet culture, enjoy vibrant health, and challenge the weight stigma that affects us all.