Trauma Uncensored

Brooke Scherer

Trauma Uncensored is a weekly trauma and grief podcast about what life actually looks like after everything changes. Hosted by Brooke Scherer, the show begins with the loss of her 9-year-old son Logan, who was killed by a distracted driver in 2016. What followed wasn't closure. It was courtrooms, headlines, and years of trying to survive something no one prepares you for. This is the unfiltered side of trauma recovery: Real survivor stories, honest conversations about grief and healing, and the tools that actually help.

  1. Sep 1

    My Dad Was Blamed for a Murder-Suicide. I've Spent 10 Years Trying to Prove It Wasn't Him

    A daughter's decade-long fight against her father's murder-suicide ruling: unresolved grief, a viral anonymous Reddit investigation, and what it costs to be a grieving daughter and an unofficial detective at the same time.In this conversation, Shayna and Brooke talk about disenfranchised grief, what happens when the official story doesn't fit what you know to be true, and why living in two roles at once, grieving daughter and private investigator, is its own kind of trauma. This is a conversation about the specific exhaustion of not being believed, and what it costs to keep fighting for answers no one else is looking for.Content Notes:This episode discusses murder-suicide, death investigation details, descriptions of crime scene photographs, disenfranchised grief, and prolonged emotional numbness. Listener discretion is advised.Timestamps:0:00 "If I'm Wrong, I Look Like a Dumbass. If I'm Right, Everything Changes."1:36 The Question That Changes Everything: What Happened on December 4th3:05 The Last Phone Call6:36 The Gut Feeling She Couldn't Shake All Day8:21 The Phone Call That Changed Everything9:26 "Your Dad Shot and Killed Melissa... and Then Turned the Gun on Himself"11:11 Her Mother's Case for Why It Couldn't Be Him11:50 Building the File: A Manila Envelope of Screenshots and Notes12:49 Writing the Anonymous Reddit Post14:42 Retired Detectives, a Dateline Producer, and the Freeze That Followed16:09 The Brother Who Couldn't Go Out in Public17:03 Brooke's Own Need to Know: Ketamine Sessions and the Crash19:47 The 2022 Police Meeting20:22 Crime Scene Photos, Dropped on the Table With No Warning21:37 Considering Outside Help, and the Hyperfixation Cycle23:19 Naming It: "The Fact That You Don't Know Is Part of the Trauma"25:01 Numbness, and the Once-Every-Two-Years Cry27:33 "I Can't Always Be a Private Investigator and a Grieving Child"Connect with Trauma UncensoredWebsite: traumauncensored.comInstagram: @traumauncensoredTikTok: @traumauncensoredEmail the team: hello@traumauncensored.comEmail Brooke: brooke@traumauncensored.comAbout the GuestShayna Williams' father died on December 4, 2015, in an incident local police closed the same night as a murder-suicide involving his ex-girlfriend.Shayna never accepted that account. She spent years quietly building a file of evidence, and in 2017 published an anonymous Reddit post about the case that drew tens of thousands of upvotes and outreach from retired detectives and a Dateline producer. Shayna continues to push for real answers about her father's death while carrying the ongoing grief of losing him, describing the experience of holding both roles, investigator and grieving daughter, as its own distinct form of trauma.About the HostBrooke Scherer is the creator and host of the Trauma Uncensored Podcast, where she leads honest, unfiltered conversations about trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is also a mother to Logan, Mallory, and Mila.In 2016, Brooke's world was shattered when her son Logan was killed by a distracted driver. In the silence that followed, she found a culture unequipped to talk about child loss, grief, and trauma in any honest way. That silence became her mission.Brooke built Trauma Uncensored to offer what she once needed most: a space to speak openly, without judgment, timelines, or expectation. Through her own story and conversations with survivors, mental health professionals, and others whose lives have been permanently altered, she reminds listeners they are not alone.She believes trauma permanently changes us, but it does not have to define the limits of our lives.If this episode hit home: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who has ever had to fight to be believed. It helps more people find these conversations.Want to share your story? Reach out at hello@traumauncensored.com or email Brooke directly at brooke@traumauncensored.com.

  2. Aug 25

    The Silence After Tragedy: Why We Need to Talk About Grief | John Kinzie

    What happens when the person trained to save lives is quietly dying inside? John Kinzie spent 25 years running toward other people's worst days while carrying grief, loss, and addiction that no one at the department talked about. Three years after Logan's crash, he checked into a hotel room with no intention of checking out. In this conversation, John talks about what that day looked like through his eyes, the stack of loss that led to his lowest point, and the twelve-step program that gave him seven years of sobriety. He opens up about the stigma that keeps first responders silent, the resources his department has built since, and the daily practice that keeps him out of the dark. This is a conversation about vicarious trauma, addiction, the ripple effect grief has on an entire community, and what it actually looks like for a helper to finally ask for help. This episode discusses first responder trauma, PTSD, alcohol addiction, suicidal ideation, grief, and family strain. Listener discretion is advised. 0:00 “I Checked Into a Hotel With No Intention of Checking Out” 3:12 25 Years as a Firefighter Paramedic 5:41 What the Day of the Crash Looked Like Through John's Eyes 8:54 The First Time He Ever Cried on a Call 9:47 Why First Responders Are Taught Not to Talk About It 10:42 Losing His Mother and the Drinking That Followed 11:34 The Crash That Became His Breaking Point 14:11 The Lesson That Changed Everything: Healing Through Service 17:46 Building the Peer Support Infrastructure From Scratch 20:14 The Stigma That Keeps First Responders Silent 22:03 A Friend's Breakdown and What Could Have Prevented It 23:44 Nobody Said the Word Trauma After Logan Died 26:44 The Confidential Care Program First Responders Now Have Access To 43:43 The Daily Practice That Keeps Him Out of the Dark Website: traumauncensored.com Instagram: @traumauncensored TikTok: @traumauncensored Email the team: hello@traumauncensored.com Email Brooke: brooke@traumauncensored.com John Kinzie is a firefighter paramedic with 25 years of service for Hernando County Fire Rescue in Florida, and the man who fought to save Logan's life on September 15, 2016. What almost no one on scene that day knew was that John was quietly unraveling. Years of unprocessed trauma, compounded by the loss of his mother and a beloved companion, came to a head after Logan's crash. On December 1, 2018, John checked into a hotel room with no intention of checking out. His story is a reminder that the people who show up to save us are carrying their own weight, and that healing often starts with someone willing to talk about what they have been trained to bury. Brooke Scherer is the creator and host of the Trauma Uncensored Podcast, where she leads honest, unfiltered conversations about trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is also a mother to Logan, Mallory, and Mila. In 2016, Brooke's world was shattered when her son Logan was killed by a distracted driver. In the silence that followed, she found a culture unequipped to talk about child loss, grief, and trauma in any honest way. That silence became her mission. Brooke built Trauma Uncensored to offer what she once needed most: a space to speak openly, without judgment, timelines, or expectation. Through her own story and conversations with survivors, mental health professionals, and others whose lives have been permanently altered, she reminds listeners they are not alone. She believes trauma permanently changes us, but it does not have to define the limits of our lives. If this episode hit home: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who has ever been trained to carry more than they should have to alone. Want to share your story? Reach out at hello@traumauncensored.com or email Brooke directly at brooke@traumauncensored.com. If you're struggling with thoughts of suicide or know someone who is, please call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for free, confidential support, 24/7.

  3. Aug 18

    The Night I Was Baker Acted: A Survivor's Story | Michelle Bandy Davis (Part 2)

    Part 1 of this conversation ended with Michelle Bandy Davis meeting the man who would become her husband at nineteen. Part 2 picks up the marriage itself: a whirlwind romance with a charismatic, persistent man that slowly curdled into isolation, control, and a psychological hold so complete that Michelle believed she would be nothing without him. This is a conversation about the difference between a single dramatic rock bottom and the slow work of actually rebuilding afterward, one rented house, one paycheck, one hard-won realization in therapy at a time. It's Part 2 of a two-part story. If you haven't listened to Part 1 yet, start there. This episode discusses domestic violence, financial abuse, infidelity, a mental health crisis and involuntary psychiatric hold, and suicidal ideation. It also references childhood sexual abuse discussed in Part 1. Listener discretion is advised. 0:00 Welcome Back & Quick Recap of Part 1 4:14 Where We Left Off: Meeting Her Future Husband 10:40 How the Isolation and Control Began 16:17 The Slow Weave: Codependency and Control 21:17 Her Own Affair, and Sitting With the Shame of It 26:40 Spiraling: Not Eating, Not Sleeping, Losing Herself 29:04 “You Will Lose These Boys” 31:36 The Police, the Text Messages, and the Baker Act 35:02 The Night Another Patient Cut Her Hair 36:23 “You're Not Crazy. You're in Survival Mode.” 40:04 Financial Abuse: $0 in a 6,000-Square-Foot House 45:08 Finding the Therapist Who Finally Got to the Root of It 49:06 Forgiveness, and Why It's for You, Not Them Website: traumauncensored.com Instagram: @traumauncensored TikTok: @traumauncensored Email the team: hello@traumauncensored.com Email Brooke: brooke@traumauncensored.com In Part 1 of this conversation, Michelle Bandy Davis shared the story of the childhood that shaped her: sexual and physical abuse beginning at age three, and being taken in by her grandparents once her mother's home became too dangerous to stay in. Part 2 picks up where that story led: a relationship that began when she was nineteen, a marriage built on charm that slowly became control, and a mental health crisis severe enough that she was involuntarily committed under Florida's Baker Act. This is Part 2 of a two-part conversation. If you haven't listened to Part 1 yet, start there. Brooke Scherer is the creator and host of the Trauma Uncensored Podcast, where she leads honest, unfiltered conversations about trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is also a mother to Logan, Mallory, and Mila. In 2016, Brooke's world was shattered when her son Logan was killed by a distracted driver. In the silence that followed, she found a culture unequipped to talk about child loss, grief, and trauma in any honest way. That silence became her mission. Brooke built Trauma Uncensored to offer what she once needed most: a space to speak openly, without judgment, timelines, or expectation. Through her own story and conversations with survivors, mental health professionals, and others whose lives have been permanently altered, she reminds listeners they are not alone. She believes trauma permanently changes us, but it does not have to define the limits of our lives. If this episode hit home: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who needs to hear that leaving doesn't have to look like a clean break to still be brave. It helps more people find these conversations. Want to share your story? Reach out at hello@traumauncensored.com or email Brooke directly at brooke@traumauncensored.com. If you're struggling with thoughts of suicide or know someone who is, please call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for free, confidential support, 24/7.

  4. Aug 11

    I Became a Commodity | Michelle Bandy Davis

    Michelle Bandy Davis was unwanted before she was born, and she knew it. Conceived by two teenagers in a small Indiana town, she grew up in a home defined by addiction and chaos, where sexual abuse started when she was three years old and continued for years, at the hands of people who should have protected her. Content Notes: This episode discusses childhood sexual abuse, physical abuse, child neglect, parental substance use, and suicidal ideation. Listener discretion is advised. Timestamps: 0:00 “I Became a Commodity” 1:15 Meet Michelle Bandy Davis 2:45 Why Now: What Made Her Ready to Tell This Story 6:01 Born to Teenage Parents in Small-Town Indiana 8:54 The Neglect That Made Room for Abuse 10:38 The Sentence Her Abuser Said That She's Never Forgotten 13:36 How Young It Started: Age Three 16:31 Used as a Commodity by Her Own Mother 18:29 The Beating That Ended It, and the Grandparents Who Stepped In 23:22 Shame, Sexualized Behavior, and Attachment Patterns in Her Teens 27:16 College, Depression, and Her First Suicidal Thoughts 30:16 Meeting the Man Who'd Become Her First Husband 31:09 The Sexual Abuse Statistics Most People Never Hear 33:19 What She'd Tell Her 19-Year-Old Self 35:57 Choosing to Learn From It Instead of Being Defined By It 40:44 Coming in Part 2: Marriage, and a Different Kind of Abuse Website: traumauncensored.com Instagram: @traumauncensored TikTok: @traumauncensored Email the team: hello@traumauncensored.com Email Brooke: brooke@traumauncensored.com Michelle Bandy Davis was born to a teenage mother and father in a small town in Indiana, an environment shaped early by addiction and neglect. Sexual abuse began when she was three years old, compounded later by physical abuse, until a violent episode when she was in sixth grade led her father's parents to step in and remove her from her mother's home for good. She carried the details of what happened to her in near-total silence for decades, not disclosing the full extent of the abuse to her own mother until she was in the middle of her own divorce, more than thirty years later. Michelle went on to build a life her circumstances didn't predict: she excelled in school, attended college, and worked to become, in her words, “good enough,” while quietly carrying a struggle with depression and suicidal ideation that first surfaced her freshman year. At nineteen, she met the man who would become her first husband, a relationship shaped by the same brokenness she was still trying to outrun. This is Part 1 of a two-part conversation. Part 2 picks up with her marriage, and a different chapter of abuse. Brooke Scherer is the creator and host of the Trauma Uncensored Podcast, where she leads honest, unfiltered conversations about trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is also a mother to Logan, Mallory, and Mila. In 2016, Brooke's world was shattered when her son Logan was killed by a distracted driver. In the silence that followed, she found a culture unequipped to talk about child loss, grief, and trauma in any honest way. That silence became her mission. Brooke built Trauma Uncensored to offer what she once needed most: a space to speak openly, without judgment, timelines, or expectation. Through her own story and conversations with survivors, mental health professionals, and others whose lives have been permanently altered, she reminds listeners they are not alone. She believes trauma permanently changes us, but it does not have to define the limits of our lives. If this episode hit home: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who needs to hear that what happened to them was never their fault. It helps more people find these conversations. Want to share your story? Reach out at hello@traumauncensored.com or email Brooke directly at brooke@traumauncensored.com. If you're struggling with thoughts of suicide or know someone who is, please call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for free, confidential support, 24/7.

  5. Aug 4

    I Saw the Evil That Day | Daniel Rothrock

    Childhood trauma, toxic family dynamics, and what it actually takes to go no contact and mean it. Daniel Rothrock grew up watching his mother's addiction consume the one relationship he could count on, until a single night in seventh grade changed everything. Daniel and his mother were once inseparable. Then her addiction took over: abusive boyfriends, violence he shouldn't have had to witness, nights spent asleep in cars while she was in a bar. At thirteen, he drew a line she couldn't cross, and chose to leave and be raised by his grandmother instead. He never lived with his mother again. She died of an overdose during his freshman year of college. This is a conversation about breaking generational patterning, the difference between forgiving someone and excusing them, and why healing rarely comes from one dramatic turning point, it comes from choosing the next right thing, over and over. This episode discusses parental addiction, domestic violence witnessed in childhood, drug overdose and death, childhood neglect, estrangement, cancer, and faith-based healing. Listener discretion is advised. 0:00 “I Saw the Evil That Day” 4:51 What He Witnessed as a Kid: Violence, Addiction, Nights in the Car 5:59 The Night He Finally Drew the Line with His Mother 7:09 The Turn: Choosing His Grandmother Over His Mom 7:57 His Mother's Fatal Overdose, Freshman Year of College 14:29 Meeting His Wife: Healing Separately, But Together 22:26 His Father's Cancer Diagnosis, and Forgiving Before It Was Easy 30:24 Brooke's Parallel: Forgiving Logan's Driver, and Her Own Estranged Father 36:37 The 1% Philosophy: Small, Consistent Change Over the Dramatic Fix 39:41 Breaking Generational Patterning for His Own Kids 42:23 “There Is a Way” Website: traumauncensored.com Instagram: @traumauncensored TikTok: @traumauncensored Email the team: hello@traumauncensored.com Email Brooke: brooke@traumauncensored.com About the Guest Daniel Rothrock grew up in a home shaped by his mother's addiction, watching violence most kids never see and sleeping in cars while she was in bars, before making the decision at thirteen to leave and be raised by his grandmother instead. He never lived with his mother again, and she died of an overdose during his freshman year of college. Daniel's story is a reminder that breaking a cycle doesn't require one dramatic turning point. It requires choosing, over and over, to be different than what you were handed. About the Host Brooke Scherer is the creator and host of the Trauma Uncensored Podcast, where she leads honest, unfiltered conversations about trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is also a mother to Logan, Mallory, and Mila. In 2016, Brooke's world was shattered when her son Logan was killed by a distracted driver. In the silence that followed, she found a culture unequipped to talk about child loss, grief, and trauma in any honest way. That silence became her mission. Brooke built Trauma Uncensored to offer what she once needed most: a space to speak openly, without judgment, timelines, or expectation. Through her own story and conversations with survivors, mental health professionals, and others whose lives have been permanently altered, she reminds listeners they are not alone. She believes trauma permanently changes us, but it does not have to define the limits of our lives. If this episode hit home: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who's working to break a cycle they didn't choose. It helps more people find these conversations. Want to share your story? Reach out at hello@traumauncensored.com or email Brooke directly at brooke@traumauncensored.com. If you're struggling with thoughts of suicide or know someone who is, please call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for free, confidential support, 24/7.

  6. Jul 28

    Jacy Good's Parents Were Killed by a Phone Call. No One Was Charged.

    Distracted driving, traumatic brain injury, and the 17-year fight to make one phone call a crime. Jacy Good joins Brooke this week, and her story starts on the happiest day of her life. This is a conversation about the line between an accident and something preventable, about rebuilding a life from zero at 21, and about what it took to turn one of the worst days in Pennsylvania's history into a law, seventeen years later, that might stop it from happening to someone else. Content Notes: This episode discusses fatal car accidents, distracted driving, traumatic brain injury, permanent disability, sudden parental loss, and grief. Listener discretion is advised. Timestamps: 0:00 "Can You Make a Ponytail With One Hand?" 2:59 Graduation Day, 2008: The Last Normal Morning 5:37 Waking Up, and Relearning the Loss Every Day 9:13 "The Blessings of a Brain Injury" 11:09 The Extent of Her Injuries 17:53 What Actually Caused the TBI 18:54 Where Everyone Sat, and the Seatbelt Detail 20:38 How the Crash Happened 23:08 "He Had It on Speakerphone" 25:16 No Criminal Charges: When It's Not an Accident 25:54 Turning Grief Into Legislation 28:36 Seventeen Years Later, Pennsylvania's Law Finally Passes 29:25 Hang Up and Drive: Building the Organization 34:22 Was This the Plan All Along? 36:00 Redefining Purpose 37:36 Steve: The Boyfriend Who Stayed 39:40 Oprah, and the Moment Everything Changed 41:15 "Can You Make a Ponytail With One Hand?" Connect with Trauma Uncensored Website: traumauncensored.com Instagram: @traumauncensored TikTok: @traumauncensored Email the team: hello@traumauncensored.com Email Brooke: brooke@traumauncensored.com Resources Mentioned in This Episode Hang Up and Drive www.hangupanddrive.com Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/JacyGood/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jacygood Linkedin: linkedin.com/in/jacygood About the Guest Jacy Good was 21 years old, one day out of college graduation, when a distracted teenage driver ran a red light and caused a chain-reaction crash that killed both of her parents instantly. Jacy survived with a traumatic brain injury so severe she lost two months of memory and had to relearn how to talk, eat, and dress herself. She spent four months in the hospital and years in rehabilitation, and lives today with permanent paralysis on the left side of her body. Today Jacy runs Hang Up and Drive, delivering 150 to 160 speeches a year, largely to schools, alongside her husband Steve, who has been by her side since before she woke up from the crash. About the Host Brooke Scherer is the creator and host of the Trauma Uncensored Podcast, where she leads honest, unfiltered conversations about trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is also a mother to Logan, Mallory, and Mila. In 2016, Brooke's world was shattered when her son Logan was killed by a distracted driver. In the silence that followed, she found a culture unequipped to talk about child loss, grief, and trauma in any honest way. That silence became her mission. Brooke built Trauma Uncensored to offer what she once needed most: a space to speak openly, without judgment, timelines, or expectation. Through her own story and conversations with survivors, mental health professionals, and others whose lives have been permanently altered, she reminds listeners they are not alone. She believes trauma permanently changes us, but it does not have to define the limits of our lives. If this episode hit home: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who needs to put their phone down behind the wheel. It helps more people find these conversations. Want to share your story? Reach out at hello@traumauncensored.com or email Brooke directly at brooke@traumauncensored.com. If you're struggling with thoughts of suicide or know someone who is, please call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for free, confidential support, 24/7.

  7. Jul 21

    A Cut Toe Turned Into an Unthinkable Tragedy | Melanie Brockmeier-Jordy

    Grief support, complicated grief, and what it takes to fight for the truth while planning a funeral. Melanie Brockmeier-Jordy joins Brooke this week, and her husband's death started with something as small as a cut toe. Editor's Note: This episode originally aired earlier in the season and returns this week as a Best of Trauma Uncensored selection, newly tightened and re-edited. Whether it's your first listen or your second, Melanie's story is one worth sitting with again. The Season 1 finale drops next week. Content Note: This episode discusses sudden death, medical negligence, sepsis, pregnancy shortly after loss, wrongful death litigation, and complicated grief. Listener discretion is advised. 0:00 "I Do Not Give You Permission to Release His Body" 2:30 Labor Day Weekend, 2012: The Accident on the Sandbar 4:20 Surgery, Home Health, and an IV Antibiotic Called Vancomycin 5:10 "The Doctor Thinks You Have the Flu" 7:35 The Night Everything Changed 9:40 A Gut Feeling and a Pregnancy Test at Her Husband's Funeral 12:20 Red Man Syndrome: How an Undiluted Antibiotic Poisoned Him 13:15 Depositions, and Learning How He Actually Died 15:10 Mac Greco and the Autopsy That Came Back Wrong 16:45 "I Knew None of Those Three Things Were True" 17:30 "I Do Not Give You Permission to Release His Body" 19:30 A Medium's Message and the Nurse's Note That Proved the Cover Up 21:00 Disciplinary Action, Intimidation, and Deciding to Sue 22:15 "It Wasn't About the Money. It Was That This Can't Happen Again" 23:45 Rage, a New Baby, and the Hospital's Own Defense 26:35 Three Years in Court 27:15 A Settlement, and a Request No One Expected 29:30 "Look Me in the Eyes and Tell Me You Didn't Murder My Husband" 30:20 The Nurse Who Was Trained on Melanie's Own Story 31:35 Was Her Grief Hijacked by the Fight for Justice? 32:35 What Three Years of Fight or Flight Does to a Body 34:00 "I Did the Best I Knew How" Website: traumauncensored.com Instagram: @traumauncensored TikTok: @traumauncensored Email the team: hello@traumauncensored.com Email Brooke: brooke@traumauncensored.com About the Guest Melanie Brockmeier-Jordy has walked her own version of sudden, preventable loss. In 2012, her husband Leon died after a minor boating injury turned into a fatal medical error, one that home health staff spent a week dismissing as the flu. What followed was a three year fight to prove what actually happened, a fight she won. About the Host Brooke Scherer is the creator and host of the Trauma Uncensored Podcast, where she leads honest, unfiltered conversations about trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is also a mother to Logan, Mallory, and Mila. In 2016, Brooke's world was shattered when her son Logan was killed by a distracted driver. In the silence that followed, she found a culture unequipped to talk about child loss, grief, and trauma in any honest way. That silence became her mission. Brooke built Trauma Uncensored to offer what she once needed most: a space to speak openly, without judgment, timelines, or expectation. Through her own story and conversations with survivors, mental health professionals, and others whose lives have been permanently altered, she reminds listeners they are not alone. She believes trauma permanently changes us, but it does not have to define the limits of our lives. If this episode hit home: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who needs to know their gut is worth trusting. It helps more people find these conversations. Want to share your story? Reach out at hello@traumauncensored.com or email Brooke directly at brooke@traumauncensored.com. If you're struggling with thoughts of suicide or know someone who is, please call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for free, confidential support, 24/7. Content Notes:Timestamps:Connect with Trauma UncensoredResources Mentioned in This EpisodeAbout the GuestAbout the Host

  8. Jul 14

    She Sits With Dying Children Every Day. Then She Got Pregnant. | Alisha McGuire

    Grief support, trauma healing, and the nervous system cost of being the helper. Pediatric palliative care social worker Alisha McGuire returns, and this time the grief followed her home. What happens when the person who holds space for dying children finds out she is pregnant? This is a conversation about provider grief, compassion fatigue, and secondary trauma. About the wreath ritual her team uses to honor every child they lose. And about the self-awareness that keeps your nervous system bucket from overflowing before you even notice it is filling, whether you work in healthcare or you are simply the person everyone leans on. Content Notes: This episode discusses pediatric death, terminal illness, pregnancy anxiety, miscarriage statistics, COVID-19 healthcare trauma, grief, compassion fatigue, caregiver burnout, and child loss. Listener discretion is advised. 0:00 "You Were Pregnant the Last Time I Saw You. How's Your Baby?" 1:16 What It Costs to Hold Space for Dying Children 3:35 Pregnant in Palliative Care 4:03 "1 in 4 Women Have a Miscarriage" 7:59 Hiding a Pregnancy from Grieving Mothers 8:59 "How Was Your Baby?" The Moment That Proved Her Fears Wrong 13:06 Countertransference 20:47 Provider Grief and Secondary Trauma 21:33 "I Feel Like I'm Doing Long-Term Trauma to Myself" 22:00 COVID in New Jersey 24:22 The ProQOL Tool 25:26 "We Round the Next Day" 27:06 What Happens When Burnout Goes Unaddressed 37:41 "The Way I Was Doing It Was Not Sustainable" 39:09 Long-Term Families, Professional Boundaries, and Ambiguous Grief 43:20 Brooke's Gratitude: Caregivers as First Responders 47:15 What Grieving Caregivers Most Need to Hear: Give Yourself Grace Website: traumauncensored.com Instagram: @traumauncensored TikTok: @traumauncensored Email the team: hello@traumauncensored.com Email Brooke: brooke@traumauncensored.com Resources Mentioned in This Episode• ProQOL (Professional Quality of Life) https://proqol.org/• "We Still Round the Next Day" (Morrison, Pediatrics, 2020): https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/32029682/• Stanford Medicine: https://med.stanford.edu/news/insights/2019/07/stillbirth-linked-to-more-childbirthcomplications-for-mom-stanford-study-finds.html• Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep: https://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/ About the Guest Alisha McGuire is a pediatric palliative care social worker with nearly a decade of experience sitting alongside families in the most devastating moments of their lives. In her first Trauma Uncensored conversation, she shared the loss of her mother to stage four lung cancer. This time, she opens up about the grief she carries as the helper. About the Host Brooke Scherer is the creator and host of the Trauma Uncensored Podcast, where she leads honest, unfiltered conversations about trauma, grief, mental health, and healing. She is also a mother to Logan, Mallory, and Mila. In 2016, Brooke's world was shattered when her son Logan was killed by a distracted driver. In the silence that followed, she found a culture unequipped to talk about child loss, grief, and trauma in any honest way. That silence became her mission. Brooke built Trauma Uncensored to offer what she once needed most: a space to speak openly, without judgment, timelines, or expectation. Through her own story and conversations with survivors, mental health professionals, and others whose lives have been permanently altered, she reminds listeners they are not alone. She believes trauma permanently changes us, but it does not have to define the limits of our lives. If this episode hit home: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone who spends their days caring for everyone but themselves. It helps more people find these conversations. Want to share your story? Reach out at hello@traumauncensored.com or email Brooke directly at brooke@traumauncensored.com. If you're struggling with thoughts of suicide or know someone who is, please call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for free, confidential support, 24/7.

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Trauma Uncensored is a weekly trauma and grief podcast about what life actually looks like after everything changes. Hosted by Brooke Scherer, the show begins with the loss of her 9-year-old son Logan, who was killed by a distracted driver in 2016. What followed wasn't closure. It was courtrooms, headlines, and years of trying to survive something no one prepares you for. This is the unfiltered side of trauma recovery: Real survivor stories, honest conversations about grief and healing, and the tools that actually help.

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