Unconditioning Love

Lydia
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"Unconditioning Love" invites you on an insightful expedition led by your host, Lydia, delving deep into the transformational journey of deconstruction, unraveling the conditions we often put on love.  Journey alongside us as we uncover tales of resilience, featuring candid conversations with members of the LGBTQ community, individuals who have discovered love after navigating narcissistic relationships, and courageous souls who have left high control religions. Together, let's peel back the layers of conditional love and make the world a better place for everyone one person at a time as we lean more into love without conditions.

  1. 4d ago

    Aaron's Story - The Ocean And The Drop

    Send us Fan Mail For most of his life, Aaron knew God as a father figure far off in the sky — watching, judging, keeping score. That's the God you often inherit growing up in the 2x2s (also known as "the Truth," or "the church with no name"). In this episode, Aaron and I trace what happened when that image finally cracked open for both of us, and what came through it: God not as a distant patriarch but as energy, everywhere, in everything, in us. We talk through the image that we're each a drop, and God is the ocean, which means we were never separate from it to begin with. We were never waiting to earn our way back in. We were carrying it the whole time. We also talk about something that doesn't get named enough: what it does to a person to grow up not just believing you're unworthy, but surrounded by an entire community quietly carrying that same belief about themselves. It's not one father figure handing down judgment; it's hundreds of people agreeing on it together, which makes it feel less like a belief and more like just how things are. From there we go deep — into the things that happened to us that felt senseless and cruel at the time, and what it means to find them happening for us instead. Not spiritual bypassing. Not "everything happens for a reason" as a platitude to swallow the pain faster. Something slower and more honest: meaning that gets made, not handed down. If you grew up inside a system that told you exactly who God was and exactly how far short you fell of Him, this conversation is for you. Support the show Recreate Your Story with Lydia Doors are open for Stepping In: Rewriting Your Story — a 6-week group coaching container, held in small pods of five, for women who feel disconnected from their lives or stuck living out roles and scripts they never chose. The story you've been telling about yourself is not who you are. You're not stuck — you're just living someone else's script, and it's time to become the author again, not just the character. Enrollment is open now at lydiakeeney.com/stepping-in Instagram & Threads Spotify Music

  2. Sep 8

    Kara's Story - What My Daughers Wouldn't Carry

    Send us Fan Mail Episode summary Kara grew up four generations deep in the 2x2 religious group — and she left. In this conversation, she takes us into what it was like to grow up in an environment where love had to be earned, where God was someone to fear rather than know, and where the words "I love you" were rarely spoken out loud. Kara shares the one bright exception in her memory — her great-aunt and uncle, deeply "in" the institution, whose home was somehow still full of fun, humor, and love — and traces the slow, honest unraveling that began the moment she became a mother. In this episode What it was like growing up believing love was conditional and God was mostly to be feared, and how rare it was to hear "I love you" at home.The one exception: her great-aunt and uncle, fully committed to the institution, whose house was somehow full of laughter and warmth Becoming a mom to twin daughters as the pivot point — the moment Kara started counting all the rules her girls would inherit, she couldn't stop thinking about what it would mean for her girls to carry those same rules into school and everyday life.The small acts of loosening the reins — starting with how her daughters were allowed to dress outside the community — as her first quiet steps away.A gutting moment at a church convention: after one of her daughters lost all her hair during a health crisis, another woman told Kara her daughter "didn't deserve to be at convention with short hair." The place Kara had believed was the safest for her children turned out to be where they were treated as less than.Kara never bought into the exclusivity — but for years, she went along with it anyway.The pivotal conversation: her daughter showed her a tattoo, and the two of them talked openly about the possibility of leaving the meetings someday — Kara admitting she didn't believe the meetings were the only way. That conversation cracked something open.The fear that came with finally deciding she had to step out — not fear of leaving the religion, but fear of telling her husband, and not knowing whether their love was conditional too, or whether it could survive her walking away.Where Kara is now: reconnecting with God in her garden and through worship music — a quieter, freer kind of faith than the one she grew up with.Featured song: "Hope Says" A closing note Kara's story doesn't end in anger — it ends in a garden, with worship music playing, and a faith she gets to choose for herself. If any part of her story is your story too, we hope this episode reminds you: love was never supposed to be something you had to earn. Support the show Recreate Your Story with Lydia Doors are open for Stepping In: Rewriting Your Story — a 6-week group coaching container, held in small pods of five, for women who feel disconnected from their lives or stuck living out roles and scripts they never chose. The story you've been telling about yourself is not who you are. You're not stuck — you're just living someone else's script, and it's time to become the author again, not just the character. Enrollment is open now at lydiakeeney.com/stepping-in Instagram & Threads Spotify Music

  3. Aug 31

    When Loyalty Isn't Love (It's Control)

    Send us Fan Mail What if the thing you thought was loyalty was actually control? In this solo episode of Unconditioning Love, Lidi shares years of consciously healing through one of her deepest limiting beliefs: I am worthy by how much I help people. She traces how that belief showed up as the rescuer — A.K.A. running into the fire to pull people out, whether anyone asked her to or not — and what it cost her to keep living that way. From there, she opens up the conversation on loyalty, naming it for what it so often really is: love plus control. Because if we're honest, how can any of us truly know what someone else needs? That question becomes the hinge of the episode, as Lidi lays out the difference between the rescuer and leadership — and why leadership, not rescuing, is what actually creates lasting influence. This is a conversation about letting go of the fire, trusting people with their own path, and finding out what's on the other side of needing to be needed. In This Episode Years of consciously healing through the belief that she needed to save other people, and what finally made it loosen its gripNaming the limiting belief underneath it: "I am worthy by how much I help people"What the rescuer actually looks like day to day — A.K.A. running into the fire to pull people outReframing loyalty as love + control, and the question that unravels it: how can we really know what someone else needs?The difference between the rescuer and leadership modeWhy leadership means moving forward and stepping boldly into the new, doing what's right regardless of whether everyone followsInfluence vs. control — why one is sustainable and the other isn'tWhat it feels like to stop rescuing and start leadingSupport the show Recreate Your Story with Lydia Doors are open for Stepping In: Rewriting Your Story — a 6-week group coaching container, held in small pods of five, for women who feel disconnected from their lives or stuck living out roles and scripts they never chose. The story you've been telling about yourself is not who you are. You're not stuck — you're just living someone else's script, and it's time to become the author again, not just the character. Enrollment is open now at lydiakeeney.com/stepping-in Instagram & Threads Spotify Music

  4. Jan 23

    Unlearning External Living

    Send us Fan Mail In this short reflection, Lydia explores how growing up in high-control religions taught many of us to live outside of ourselves, to mistrust our inner knowing, outsource authority, and disconnect from our own hearts. She reflects on how hymns and teachings often functioned like subliminal messages, subtly training us to doubt our instincts and place trust in leadership, rules, and external voices rather than within ourselves. Over time, this separation from self became normalized—and even spiritualized. This episode gently unpacks what it looks like to begin the journey back to ourselves. Lydia shares why this return isn’t something that can be forced, scheduled, or achieved through another set of “musts.” Healing doesn’t happen through legalistic thinking, timelines, or pressure. Instead, it unfolds slowly, organically, and in its own rhythm. At the heart of this episode is an invitation: to trust your wholeness, exactly as you are right now and to let your reconnection to yourself flow in the way it needs to. Support the show Recreate Your Story with Lydia Doors are open for Stepping In: Rewriting Your Story — a 6-week group coaching container, held in small pods of five, for women who feel disconnected from their lives or stuck living out roles and scripts they never chose. The story you've been telling about yourself is not who you are. You're not stuck — you're just living someone else's script, and it's time to become the author again, not just the character. Enrollment is open now at lydiakeeney.com/stepping-in Instagram & Threads Spotify Music

  5. Jan 17

    Julie's Story - Making Space For Miracles

    Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I’m joined by Julie Jancius, host of the Angels and Awakening podcast, for a heartfelt conversation about faith, divine connection, and spiritual evolution. Julie shares her personal journey of growing up within the Catholic tradition and finding her own intimate relationship with the divine beyond religious structure. Together, we reflect on how miracles are often quieter than we expect, how they unfold through presence and openness, and how we can soften our resistance to receive what is already trying to reach us. This conversation isn’t about striving or proving anything, but about remembering, listening, and allowing. If you’ve ever wondered whether miracles are reserved for a select few, or if they can exist within ordinary moments, this episode offers a gentle reframe and an invitation to see your life through a more spacious, trusting lens. Here is the link to connect with Julie and her beautiful offerings & click here to connect to her podcast over on Spotify or simply search "Angels and Awakening" on your podcast app and you'll find it. Support the show Recreate Your Story with Lydia Doors are open for Stepping In: Rewriting Your Story — a 6-week group coaching container, held in small pods of five, for women who feel disconnected from their lives or stuck living out roles and scripts they never chose. The story you've been telling about yourself is not who you are. You're not stuck — you're just living someone else's script, and it's time to become the author again, not just the character. Enrollment is open now at lydiakeeney.com/stepping-in Instagram & Threads Spotify Music

  6. 01/17/2025

    Yvette's Story - Tangled Up In Twos Part 4

    Send us Fan Mail In this episode of Unconditioning Love, we wrap up the Tangled Up mini-series, where we have been exploring women’s experiences in the 2x2 religions and how leaving has transformed their relationship with identity and self-expression. Yvette Hughes shares her journey of embracing her naturally curly hair within a culture of conformity. Growing up in South Africa’s coloured community during Apartheid, Yvette faced pressure to straighten her hair to fit societal and religious expectations. Her story highlights the beauty of self-acceptance, the quiet rebellion/beauty of staying true to herself, and the freedom she’s found since leaving the church. Thank you, Yvette, for sharing your beautiful story with us. PS: I used the help of Chat GPT to bring these show notes together Support the show Recreate Your Story with Lydia Doors are open for Stepping In: Rewriting Your Story — a 6-week group coaching container, held in small pods of five, for women who feel disconnected from their lives or stuck living out roles and scripts they never chose. The story you've been telling about yourself is not who you are. You're not stuck — you're just living someone else's script, and it's time to become the author again, not just the character. Enrollment is open now at lydiakeeney.com/stepping-in Instagram & Threads Spotify Music

  7. 01/10/2025

    Cherie's Story - Tangled Up In Twos Part 3

    Send us Fan Mail Unconditioning Love – Tangled Up (Episode 3) In this episode of Tangled Up, we delve into an excerpt from Cherie Kropp’s life story and explore the profound impact of hair, traditions, and questioning authority within the 2x2 high control fellowship. Cherie’s poignant reflections reveal the tension between blind adherence to tradition and the courage to choose compassion and truth over rigidity. From navigating tender-headed hair battles to questioning the theological basis of women’s roles and appearances, Cherie shares how she sought clarity and truth through study and logic, despite resistance. We discuss themes of: •Breaking free from guilt and shame perpetuated by man-made traditions. •The power of questioning practices and beliefs that do not align with love or scripture. •Choosing compassion over compliance, especially in parenting. •The emotional toll of navigating fallacious reasoning and the pursuit of Biblical truth. Cherie’s courage to challenge the status quo, seek answers, and forge a path of authenticity provides insight for anyone navigating the complexities of leaving high-control systems. Read the full excerpt from Cherie Kropp’s life story: Kropp – Cherie Berry.  New Program: Sound Alchemy Are you ready to create lasting transformation and step into a life of creative self-expression? Join Sound Alchemy, a 1:1 program combining music, healing, and creativity to unlock your unique voice and song. Doors are open now! Sign up here: Sound Alchemy Support the show Recreate Your Story with Lydia Doors are open for Stepping In: Rewriting Your Story — a 6-week group coaching container, held in small pods of five, for women who feel disconnected from their lives or stuck living out roles and scripts they never chose. The story you've been telling about yourself is not who you are. You're not stuck — you're just living someone else's script, and it's time to become the author again, not just the character. Enrollment is open now at lydiakeeney.com/stepping-in Instagram & Threads Spotify Music

  8. 01/03/2025

    Tangled Up In Twos Part 2

    Send us Fan Mail Episode Summary: In the second episode of the Tangled Up mini-season, we hear three powerful anonymous stories from women reflecting on their complex relationships with hair in fundamentalist religious environments. These stories reveal how hair became a symbol of conformity, control, and, eventually, liberation. Each story brings a unique perspective on the emotional weight of hair, its connection to identity, and the healing journey that comes with reclaiming it. The Stories: A Childhood Defined by Criticism: A woman recounts how a childhood condition caused her hair to fall out in patches, leading to harsh judgment from her church community and peers. She shares how this constant scrutiny tied her hair to feelings of worthiness and rebellion—and how, even now, she struggles with embracing her hair as her own.Breaking Free from Expectations: Another woman shares her lifelong struggle with familial and religious expectations around her hair. From longing for a childhood haircut to finally choosing a bold bob in her 30s, her story highlights the anxiety and eventual freedom of taking control of her appearance—and how she’s raising her daughter to embrace her own identity, free of shame.Learning to Love Hair Again: A 37-year-old reflects on her journey of unlearning years of “hiding” her hair, once seen as her “glory” in the church. She opens up about the frustration of not knowing how to style or care for her hair and the joy of discovering her authentic self, one small change at a time.Themes Explored: The lifelong impact of religious and cultural expectations around hair.How hair becomes a battleground for conformity, identity, and rebellion.The emotional and liberating process of reclaiming autonomy over one’s appearance.Join the Conversation: Your voice matters! Share your thoughts or your own story with #TangledUpIn2 on social media.Follow me on Instagram: @keeney.lydiaVisit www.lydiakeeney.com to connect, submit your story anonymously, and access additional resources.Acknowledgments: To the three women who shared their stories: thank you for your vulnerability and courage. Your words will resonate with so many others who are on their own journeys of healing and self-discovery. Stay Tuned: Next week, we’ll conclude the Tangled Up in 2 mini-season with a broader exploration of hair, faith, and identity—and how women continue to reclaim power and self-expression. Support the show Recreate Your Story with Lydia Doors are open for Stepping In: Rewriting Your Story — a 6-week group coaching container, held in small pods of five, for women who feel disconnected from their lives or stuck living out roles and scripts they never chose. The story you've been telling about yourself is not who you are. You're not stuck — you're just living someone else's script, and it's time to become the author again, not just the character. Enrollment is open now at lydiakeeney.com/stepping-in Instagram & Threads Spotify Music

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"Unconditioning Love" invites you on an insightful expedition led by your host, Lydia, delving deep into the transformational journey of deconstruction, unraveling the conditions we often put on love.  Journey alongside us as we uncover tales of resilience, featuring candid conversations with members of the LGBTQ community, individuals who have discovered love after navigating narcissistic relationships, and courageous souls who have left high control religions. Together, let's peel back the layers of conditional love and make the world a better place for everyone one person at a time as we lean more into love without conditions.

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  • Creator
    Lydia
  • Years Active
    2023 - 2026
  • Episodes
    34
  • Rating
    Clean
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    © 2026 Unconditioning Love
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