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We're All Insane

Devorah Roloff

A podcast where real people share raw, unfiltered stories about their lives, challenges, and traumas that have shaped them. Each episode offers a deep dive into the unique journey of the guest—No scripts. No interruptions. Just authentic storytelling that unfolds naturally, in the guest's own words. If you have a story you'd like to share on the podcast, please send an email to wereallinsanepodcast@gmail.com or fill out a form here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfUFf5ushHFd57GAZ2hAg5vvTSZNQxlOaRutdjggN-HQjufYw/viewform

  1. 4h ago

    R*ped by My Parents Until I Was Mute

    For years, she thought what happened in my home was normal. She was isolated, terrorized, physically abused, and sexually abused by the people who were supposed to protect her. In this episode, she shares the reality of growing up in an environment of intrafamilial child torture, how it shaped her understanding of herself and the world, and the long road toward healing, boundaries, and seeking justice. Topics Discussed: → What is intrafamilial child torture? → How does childhood torture affect development? → Why do abuse victims stay silent? → What are common signs of grooming? → How do survivors pursue justice? Sponsored By: → HERS | Ready to reach your goals? Visit https://forhers.com/insane to get personalized, affordable care that gets you. On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 - Introduction→ 00:02:13 - What is intrafamilial child torture?→ 00:04:32 - What was her family dynamic like growing up?→ 00:07:32 - What was her mother like as a parent?→ 00:10:08 - What were her parents like before she was born?→ 00:12:47 - How long did her parents serve in the Air Force?→ 00:13:53 - What is her earliest memory?→ 00:18:09 - How did things change after her second sibling was born?→ 00:19:58 - How did her mother and stepfather's relationship develop?→ 00:24:41 - Did she ever feel close to her mother?→ 00:31:08 - What role did she play within the family?→ 00:33:17 - How did moving across the country change her life?→ 00:36:07 - What forms of abuse did she experience?→ 00:39:01 - How did her stepfather stalk her at school?→ 00:44:16 - What was her stepfather's most disturbing trait?→ 00:48:13 - What happened when she tried to make friends?→ 00:53:10 - Why was bedtime so terrifying?→ 00:55:31 - How did the abuse escalate over time?→ 00:58:15 - What grooming tactics did her abuser use?→ 01:01:19 - How was religion used in her abuse?→ 01:04:39 - How did her fear of water impact her life?→ 01:11:45 - How was she publicly humiliated?→ 01:15:49 - How did her stepfather intensify the abuse?→ 01:19:29 - Why did she stop speaking?→ 01:22:01 - What lasting injuries did her siblings sustain?→ 01:25:45 - How was she isolated from other children?→ 01:28:21 - How did the abuse affect her relationship with sexuality?→ 01:31:09 - When did she begin experiencing hallucinations?→ 01:34:35 - How did self-harm become a coping mechanism?→ 01:37:12 - When did she first realize she was a person of color?→ 01:41:39 - How did she begin rebelling against her parents?→ 01:47:08 - How did she cope with her emotions?→ 01:51:01 - When did she learn her siblings were also being abused?→ 01:59:41 - When did she finally begin making friends?→ 02:08:18 - How did her stepfather's treatment of her change as she got older?→ 02:15:14 - How did she first learn about sex?→ 02:16:56 - What happened when she tried to attend a school dance?→ 02:23:12 - When did her family finally leave her stepfather?→ 02:25:21 - How did self-harm affect her relationship with her mother?→ 02:27:44 - When did she begin losing trust in authority figures?→ 02:29:19 - How did high school shape her experience?→ 02:31:08 - When did she begin therapy, and what did she start working on?→ 02:33:52 - Why did she start dating older men at such a young age?→ 02:35:26 - What led to her being homeschooled?→ 02:39:10 - How did she become addicted to pills?→ 02:42:00 - What helped her connect the dots between her childhood and adulthood?→ 02:43:16 - How did she get involved in cosplay content creation?→ 02:46:12 - What mental health conditions resulted from the abuse?→ 02:50:01 - Why didn't authorities step in?→ 02:51:10 - How did she confront her abuser?→ 02:56:30 - How was her case handled in court?→ 03:00:25 - How did her relationship with her mother change after leaving and the court proceedings?→ 03:14:01 - How did her mother's note impact her?→ 03:16:42 - How has going no-contact with her mother affected her?→ 03:21:03 - How has this experience shaped the person she is today? Further Listening:  → Survivor of Animal R*pe Check Out Lilli:  → https://bio.link/giggleslvt More We Are All Insane:  → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

    3h 33m
  2. 2d ago • Subscribers Only

    R*ped by My Parents Until I Was Mute

    For years, she thought what happened in my home was normal. She was isolated, terrorized, physically abused, and sexually abused by the people who were supposed to protect her. In this episode, she shares the reality of growing up in an environment of intrafamilial child torture, how it shaped her understanding of herself and the world, and the long road toward healing, boundaries, and seeking justice. Topics Discussed: → What is intrafamilial child torture? → How does childhood torture affect development? → Why do abuse victims stay silent? → What are common signs of grooming? → How do survivors pursue justice? Sponsored By: → HERS | Ready to reach your goals? Visit https://forhers.com/insane to get personalized, affordable care that gets you. On This Episode We Cover: → 00:00:00 - Introduction → 00:02:13 - What is intrafamilial child torture? → 00:04:32 - What was her family dynamic? → 00:07:32 - What was her mother like growing up? → 00:10:08 - How were her parents before she was born? → 00:12:47 - How long were her parents in the airforce? → 00:13:53 - What was her first memory? → 00:18:09 - What happened after her second sibling was born? → 00:19:58 - How did her mother + her stepfather bond? → 00:24:41 - Did she ever feel close to her mother? → 00:31:08 - What was her reputation at home? → 00:33:17 - How did her life change after she moved across the country? → 00:36:07 - What were the different types of abuse? → 00:39:01 - How did her stepfather stalk her at school? → 00:44:16 - What was her stepfather’s worst trait? → 00:48:13 - What happened when she tried to make friends? → 00:53:10 - Why was she terrified of bedtime? → 00:55:31 - How did the abuse escalate over time? → 00:58:15 - What grooming tactics did her abuser use? → 01:01:19 - What role did religion play in her abuse? → 01:04:39 - How did her fear of water affect her? → 01:11:45 - How did they publicly humiliate her? → 01:15:49 - How did her stepfather further her abuse? → 01:19:29 - Why did she become mute? → 01:22:01 - What lasting injuries did her siblings sustain? → 01:25:45 - How was she isolated from other children? → 01:28:21 - How did abuse make her hyper sexual? → 01:31:09 - When did she start hallucinating? → 01:34:35 - How did she start self harming? → 01:37:12 - When did she understand she was a person of color? → 01:41:39 - How did she rebel against her parents? → 01:47:08 - How did she cope with her feelings? → 01:51:01 - When did she find out her siblings were being abused? → 01:59:41 - When did she start to make friends? → 02:08:18 - How did he treat her as she grew up? → 02:15:14 - How did she learn what sex is? → 02:16:56 - What happened when she tried to go to a school dance? → 02:23:12 - When did they finally leave her stepfather? → 02:25:21 - How did self harming affect her relationship with her mother? → 02:27:44 - When did she start losing respect for authority? → 02:29:19 - How did life in high school affect her? → 02:31:08 - When did she start getting therapy and what things did she start working on? → 02:33:52 - Why did she start dating older men at such a young age? → 02:35:26 - What was the turning point that made her homeschooled? → 02:39:10 - How did she start getting into pills? Check Out Lilli: → https://bio.link/giggleslvt More We Are All Insane - OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time: https://shop.wereallinsane.com - Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts: https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane

    3h 25m
  3. May 24

    I Found A Hidden Camera In My Bedroom

    She thought he was just a family friend. He’d been around for years, came to our house every week, and everyone trusted him. But one night while dog sitting alone at his house, something in her gut told me to look closer… and what I found changed everything. This is the full story of the hidden camera, the warning signs missed, and the terrifying realization that her intuition had been trying to protect me all along.  Sponsored By: → Lucy | Find LUCY near you at https://lucy.co/stores, or save 20% on your first online order at https://lucy.co/INSANE with promo code INSANE. → Just Thrive | Get your health in check and save 20% on your first order at https://justthrivehealth.com/INSANE On This Episode We Cover:  → 00:00:00 - Introduction  → 00:00:51 - What is disc golfing? → 00:05:21 - How did she meet “Dave?” → 00:09:00 - How did their families get close?   → 00:13:10 - How did she get close to his family? → 00:18:51 - What happened at the concession stand?  → 00:21:27 - How did the age gap influence her first encounter with him? → 00:27:41 - Why is it important to trust your intuition? → 00:29:17 - Why do we excuse behavior that makes us uncomfortable?  → 00:30:05 - What was it like dog sitting for him?  → 00:32:31 - What was it like working as a secretary for him?  → 00:41:15 - Why was she sleeping in their bed?  → 00:46:04 - How did she find the first camera?  → 00:46:54 - Where was the first camera?  → 00:49:32 - What kind of camera was it  → 00:59:28 - How did she take the camera to gather evidence?  → 01:02:36 - Did she ever change in front of the camera?  → 01:05:33 - How did he access the videos?  → 01:09:12 - What was happening with the other family friend?  → 01:12:02 - What was his wife like?  → 01:14:40 - What was it like filing a police report?  → 01:16:22 - Is it legal to film someone without their consent?  → 01:20:10 - What happened when she went to get her belongings? → 01:23:01 - How did his family react to the news?  → 01:30:01 - How did he groom her entire family?  → 01:34:11 - What was he charged with?  → 01:39:33 - Why wasn’t she able to read a victim impact statement?  → 01:45:51 - What kind of photos of children did they find?  → 01:52:09 - How did this impact her ability to trust others?  Show links: → Sex Offender Registry  Further Listening: → Living with a Serial Cheater More We Are All Insane:  → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

    2h 6m
  4. I Lived With Bill Gates After Escaping Abuse

    May 21 • Subscribers Only

    I Lived With Bill Gates After Escaping Abuse

    Today’s episode includes an unbelievable story of surviving childhood abuse, growing up in poverty, becoming best friends with Bill Gates’ daughter, and eventually living with the Gates family after escaping her mother’s home. From trauma, addiction, assault, toxic relationships, and homelessness to rebuilding her life from the ground up, this conversation explores the long-term impact of childhood abuse, dissociation, attachment wounds, and survival. Topics Discussed: → What childhood trauma does to adults → How abuse affects adult relationships → What dissociation feels like after trauma → Why trauma survivors self sabotage relationships → How childhood abuse impacts attachment styles On This Episode We Cover: → 00:00:00 - Introduction → 00:01:37 - How did she end up attending an elite private school? → 00:04:13 - How did she become friends with Bill Gates’ daughter? → 00:08:52 - What was happening behind the scenes in her childhood? → 00:14:14 - Why did moving into a one-bedroom apartment change everything? → 00:19:21 - What happened during the “coat project” incident? → 00:23:10 - When did her mother’s paranoia begin escalating? → 00:29:07 - What was life like living with the Gates family? → 00:34:12 - What happened when she finally opened up about the abuse? → 00:38:09 - Why did she ultimately decide to move out? → 00:45:27 - What happened during her first weeks of college? → 00:49:43 - Why did she spiral into alcoholism after freshman year? → 00:57:22 - How did she become homeless in California? → 01:01:28 - How did a stranger’s kindness change her perspective? → 01:08:12 - What happened during the violent fight with her boyfriend? → 01:13:32 - How did she end up falling into addiction? → 01:15:47 - What was life like living homeless in a tent village? → 01:19:26 - What did rock bottom look like for her? → 01:20:43 - Who was the friend that helped save her life? → 01:23:14 - How did losing her best friend impact her recovery? → 01:25:08 - What role did faith and community play in getting sober? → 01:28:07 - Why did she decide to write her book? → 01:29:36 - How can sharing trauma help other people heal? Further Listening: → https://youtu.be/iwJwR-iOCR8 Check Out Mieraye: → Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/mieraye/ → Tik Tok | https://www.tiktok.com/@mieraye - OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time: https://shop.wereallinsane.com - Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts: https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane

    1h 36m
  5. May 17

    Living with a Serial Cheater

    Ginny Priem thought she was finally living the life she had always dreamed of…a successful career, meaningful friendships, travel, love, and a growing family dynamic with a man she trusted deeply. But behind the scenes, everything was a lie. In this episode, Ginny shares the shocking story of discovering that her partner was secretly living a double life while living in her home and raising his children alongside her. What started as an intense whirlwind romance slowly unraveled into manipulation, gaslighting, deception, hidden relationships, and emotional abuse. On This Episode We Cover: → 00:00:00 - Introduction → 00:00:51 - How did after-work cocktails change her life? → 00:03:27 - What questions did she ask him when she finally confronted him? → 00:04:11 - What was her initial reaction to the news? → 00:05:09 - Why is it important to trust your intuition? → 00:06:22 - What was her life like before she met her ex-husband? → 00:11:05 - How long until she met his kids? → 00:13:07 - How quickly did he want to move in together? → 00:14:15 - What was their family dynamic like? → 00:18:12 - What was one of the beginning warning signs? → 00:23:43 - What excuses did he have for his behavior? → 00:25:36 - What was their sex life like? → 00:29:44 - What happened after they moved in together? → 00:34:11 - What did the security system footage show? → 00:36:41 - How to tell if you are not in a trusting relationship? → 00:37:44 - Why did he have so many pills? → 00:40:01 - What job did he have and how often did he travel? → 00:43:21 - What websites was he using to find partners? → 00:46:34 - How long should you wait to introduce someone to your kids? → 00:48:19 - What physical symptoms started showing up? → 00:49:45 - When did she finally start investigating? → 00:57:57 - What kind of love-bombing did she experience? → 00:59:26 - How did he respond to questioning the second time? → 01:02:29 - What was the timeline provided by the other women? → 01:07:43 - What happened after she kicked him out? → 01:10:35 - What was her conversation with his ex-wife like? → 01:15:04 - What kind of lies was he telling the other women? → 01:17:55 - How many women was he involved with? → 01:24:01 - How did her relationship with his children change? → 01:25:48 - What was his financial situation like? → 01:30:21 - How did the kids and new pets adjust? → 01:35:14 - Have they ever run into each other after they broke up? → 01:39:43 - When did she start writing her books? → 01:45:31 - How does trauma impact your life? → 01:50:20 - What is Kintsugi? → 01:55:58 - How empowering is it to share your story with others? Further Listening → My Boyfriend Trafficked Me Check Out Ginny:  Books: → You're My Favorite → I'm My Favorite: A Guided Journal for Your Path Forward → UNSUBSCRIBE: Why Letting Go is the Secret to Getting Ahead Websites: → www.ginnypriem.com → www.unsubscribeofficial.com Podcast: → UNSUBSCRIBE with Ginny Priem Socials: → Instagram → Facebook → LinkedIn → YouTube More We Are All Insane:  → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts  Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

    2h 7m
  6. May 10

    I Lived In A Brothel

    Lexi never planned on entering the sex industry. At 18 years old, she answered what she thought was a modeling ad on Craigslist and accidentally found herself in the world of webcam modeling, escorting, stripping, and OnlyFans. Sponsored By: → Shopify | See less carts go abandoned and more sales go “cha ching” with Shopify and their Shop Pay button. Sign up for your one-dollar-per-month trial today at https://shopify.com/insane → HERS | Ready to reach your goals? Visit https://forhers.com/insane to get personalized, affordable care that gets you. → Just Thrive | Get your health in check and save 20% on your first order at https://justthrivehealth.com/INSANE On This Episode We Cover: → 00:00:00 - How did Lexi accidentally get started in adult work? → 00:03:28 - Was she nervous to start cam modeling? → 00:05:01 - What was it like working inside a cam studio? → 00:06:41 - What changed after she was allowed to show more online? → 00:08:49 - Was she scared her parents would find out? → 00:12:40 - How long did she do cam modeling, and how did COVID change things? → 00:17:17 - What was her first strip club audition like? → 00:20:16 - Has she ever felt uncomfortable or attracted to someone at work? → 00:21:56 - What happens if she actually likes a client? → 00:26:22 - What double standards do sex workers face while dating? → 00:29:19 - How does she handle judgment about sex work? → 00:33:47 - Was it difficult balancing multiple income streams? → 00:34:56 - What is the brothel application process really like? → 00:36:40 - How do negotiations work inside a brothel? → 00:38:17 - What are the wildest things she’s experienced on the job? → 00:42:04 - How does traveling work as a sex worker? → 00:45:12 - How much work goes into becoming successful in the industry? → 00:49:06 - How did a staph infection nearly change her life forever? → 00:54:15 - Why did she realize rest and hobbies mattered so much? → 00:56:25 - What was it like going viral after the Candace Owens interview? → 00:59:39 - Why did she decide to become an independent escort? → 01:04:13 - How does she screen and vet potential clients? → 01:08:31 - What is the grossest situation she’s ever dealt with at work? → 01:11:10 - Why are so many of her clients married men? → 01:12:15 - Does she genuinely enjoy the physical side of her work? → 01:15:16 - What does she want her future outside of sex work to look like? → 01:17:30 - Does she see herself leaving sex work one day? → 01:21:27 - Does she want marriage or kids in the future? → 01:22:37 - Why do some women to work with pimps? → 01:25:38 - Why is there so much division within the sex work community? Show links: → https://youtu.be/8Wfbhk91A44 Check Out Lexi: → https://allmylinks.com/littlemisslexxi → https://littlemisslexxi.com More We Are All Insane: → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time: https://shop.wereallinsane.com → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts: https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

    1h 36m
  7. I Was Groomed at 17

    May 7 • Subscribers Only

    I Was Groomed at 17

    At 17, she believed she had found something real. He was attentive, thoughtful, and everything felt intentional. It looked like love. It felt safe. Nothing about it seemed wrong at first. In this episode, she shares what the relationship actually looked like from the inside, how grooming can build slowly over time, and how red flags don’t always feel like red flags when you’re living through them. What she eventually discovered changed everything. This is a story about manipulation, control, and how hard it can be to recognize danger when it’s disguised as care. Topics Discussed: → What does grooming look like in relationships → Signs of love bombing early dating → Why is it hard to leave abuse → How manipulators gain trust quickly → What are red flags in relationships → Can grooming happen to older teens On This Episode We Cover: → 00:00:00 - How did she meet the man who groomed her? → 00:03:29 - What was her understanding of relationships at the time? → 00:05:09 - What were the first warning signs? → 00:07:15 - How quickly did the manipulation begin? → 00:08:55 - When did she begin to sense something was wrong? → 00:11:24 - How did this affect their work dynamic? → 00:13:58 - When did she discover explicit material involving minors on his phone? → 00:16:30 - How did the manipulation continue to escalate? → 00:18:57 - How did her mom try to help her leave the situation? → 00:22:14 - How often did he take photos without her consent? → 00:27:03 - What happened after she started pulling away? → 00:30:36 - What inappropriate things did he say about her family? → 00:32:28 - What is it like sharing her story online? → 00:35:26 - What was his family environment like? → 00:41:02 - How does this connect to larger cultural issues? → 00:44:40 - How has she moved forward after surviving grooming? Check Out AbbeeLynn: → https://beacons.ai/abbeerider?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio More We Are All Insane: → OFFICIAL MERCH NOW AVAILABLE - code INSANE10 gets you 10% off for a limited time: https://shop.wereallinsane.com → Join We’re All Insane Mailing List for EXCLUSIVE Content + Discounts: https://mailchi.mp/6d0e5d7a3998/were-all-insane

    51 min
4.3
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894 Ratings

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A podcast where real people share raw, unfiltered stories about their lives, challenges, and traumas that have shaped them. Each episode offers a deep dive into the unique journey of the guest—No scripts. No interruptions. Just authentic storytelling that unfolds naturally, in the guest's own words. If you have a story you'd like to share on the podcast, please send an email to wereallinsanepodcast@gmail.com or fill out a form here: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfUFf5ushHFd57GAZ2hAg5vvTSZNQxlOaRutdjggN-HQjufYw/viewform

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