What The Hell Do I Do Now?

Genevieve Henderson
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Hi, I am a "washed up" college athlete that had NO freaking clue what to do after I was done playing soccer (and lets be honest, I still don't). I never thought about life after soccer, until life after soccer happened. Being an athlete was my character trait, who was I without that? My goal is to create more conversation around this huge transition in life. Each episode will be filled with experiences and advice from many different athletes. No matter the sport, we are all on the same team here (yes, I know that is corny). So to all my fellow "washed up athletes"...what the hell do we do now?

  1. 88. Sophia Woodland | Leaving the Program Better Than You Found It

    3D AGO

    88. Sophia Woodland | Leaving the Program Better Than You Found It

    Sophia Woodland is a former Division I soccer player from Boston University, where she competed for four years while studying business and minoring in psychology, graduating in 2023. In this episode, Sophia reflects on the reality behind her collegiate career — from feeling voiceless in a difficult team environment her first two years to beginning therapy and learning to separate her self-worth from her performance on the field. She shares how adopting a new mindset her junior year helped her reclaim some joy, and how a coaching change her senior year allowed her to enjoy the game again. For Sophia, the hardest part of leaving collegiate soccer was leaving the daily access to her teammates and built in community. Sophia speaks candidly about the importance of coaching culture, power dynamics, and the silence many athletes feel pressured into. After the release of a documentary by Alex Cooper highlighting experiences under former coaches Nancy Feldman and Casey Brown, Sophia found herself revisiting her own experience. She discusses the fear of retaliation, the risks athletes face in speaking up, and the lasting impact of negative language — particularly around body image — during formative years. Now based in Denver, Sophia serves as Head of Ratings at 2aDays, a platform designed to bring transparency to college athletics through coach and program reviews. Inspired by the belief that athletes have a responsibility to “leave the program better than you found it,” she is helping create space for honest feedback and systemic change. This conversation explores identity, accountability, the NCAA’s gaps in supporting athlete transitions, and the courage it takes to use your voice after years of being taught not to.

    37 min
  2. 87. Maya Lorimer | Lean in to What Calls You

    MAR 19

    87. Maya Lorimer | Lean in to What Calls You

    Maya Lorimer grew up in the dance studio, training competitively from the time she could walk and eventually earning a spot on the Arizona State University dance team — one of the top programs in the nation. During her time at Arizona, she balanced game days, appearances, and the pressure of re-auditioning annually just to keep her place. When her senior season was cut short by COVID, her dance career ended without the closure she had imagined. After graduating with a degree in urban planning, Maya found herself in an isolating cubicle job, struggling to adjust to life without the structure, intensity, and built-in community of dance. What followed was a pivot into social media — first as a manager, then freelancer, and now full-time content creator based in Denver. In this episode, Maya reflects on rebuilding identity after sport, replacing the loss of team culture with new forms of community, and learning to say yes to opportunities before she felt fully ready. This conversation explores creativity, confidence, and what it really takes to build purpose beyond athletics.

    38 min
  3. 86. Mika Mierzwa | Sometimes Not Having a Plan Is the Plan

    MAR 4

    86. Mika Mierzwa | Sometimes Not Having a Plan Is the Plan

    Mika Mierzwa is a former collegiate volleyball player from Coastal Carolina, where she competed in both indoor and beach volleyball while pursuing a biology degree. Graduating early, Mika stepped away from sport sooner than expected — a transition that pushed her to confront how deeply her identity was tied to being an athlete. After college, she spent time living abroad in Thailand and later in Charleston, using that space to disconnect, reset, and rediscover who she was outside of volleyball. Now a veterinary student at the University of Arizona, Mika shares how her experience as a college athlete prepared her for the intensity of vet school – from discipline and time management to resilience under pressure. She reflects on the challenge of no longer receiving external validation through sports, learning to build her own internal feedback loop, and embracing uncertainty in the seasons where there is no clear plan. This episode explores identity, transition, and trusting that sometimes not having a plan is exactly what you need.

    43 min
  4. 85. Maddy Brill-Edwards | From the Pitch to the Operating room

    FEB 18

    85. Maddy Brill-Edwards | From the Pitch to the Operating room

    Dr. Maddy Brill-Edwards is a former collegiate soccer player at the College of Charleston and a current general surgery resident navigating one of the most demanding training paths in medicine. In this episode, Maddy shares how a childhood plan to become a doctor, shaped by a family of physicians, evolved alongside a deep love for soccer that followed her from youth competition, to playing at a Division 1 level collegiately, and finally to playing professionally in Scotland after college. Maddy reflects on choosing general surgery over more “glamorous” specialties, the realities of residency life, and why the intensity that once fueled her as an athlete eventually became unsustainable. She explores how stepping away from soccer during the pandemic helped her understand its role as an emotional outlet, and how returning to the game now serves as both joy and therapy. This conversation weaves together identity, discipline, mental health, and the value of having multiple dimensions beyond a single pursuit — in sport, medicine, and life.

    1h 10m
  5. 84. Sarah Colton | Finding Yourself After the Game Ends

    FEB 4

    84. Sarah Colton | Finding Yourself After the Game Ends

    Sarah is a former Division III basketball player whose college experience looked and felt much bigger than the label — intense time commitments, deep preparation, and three conference championships that shaped her identity and routine. After graduating, Sarah faced the familiar but often unspoken challenge of leaving sport, structure, and community all at once, while also navigating personal and family changes. In this episode, Sarah opens up about the messy transition into the “real world,” the struggle to rebuild a sense of purpose, and the surprising role fitness played in her healing. After years of programmed training with teammates and a shared mission, she had to relearn how to move for herself — eventually finding spin, community, and joy again in Denver. Her journey led her to becoming a spin instructor, a vulnerable leap that restored routine, confidence, and a deeper focus on mental health. Sarah reflects on redefining success beyond sport, making decisions for herself even when they’re uncomfortable, and trusting that purpose can evolve. This conversation is an honest look at life after athletics, the power of community, and learning to give yourself grace while your path unfolds.

    41 min
  6. 83. Vivian | Finding my Next Race

    JAN 21

    83. Vivian | Finding my Next Race

    Vivian Mroz is a former dual-sport athlete at Canisius College, where she competed in both diving and track. After graduating, Viv faced the challenge many college athletes experience — redefining her identity beyond sport while navigating multiple career moves and relocations. In this episode, she shares how her athletic journey evolved after college, eventually leading her to the world of swimrun, a sport she discovered by chance and now competes in at a world championship level. Viv reflects on the uncertainty that followed her collegiate career, the importance of community, and how shifting her mindset toward health, longevity, and partnership helped her find fulfillment again through sport. She offers insight into embracing change, trusting the process, and carrying the lessons learned through athletics into life beyond competition.

    41 min
  7. 82. Kyle | Ending on your Own Terms

    JAN 7

    82. Kyle | Ending on your Own Terms

    Kyle Murphy grew up in upstate New York and played soccer at Clemson University before pursuing a professional career, with stops in Houston, Orlando, DC, Miami, and Memphis. In this episode, Kyle reflects on his decision to retire at age 31, the highs and challenges of competing at a professional level, and the lessons he’s carried into his next chapter in commercial real estate with CBRE in Jacksonville. He shares how preparing for life after sport, building supportive relationships, and pursuing personal interests have helped him transition successfully, while also reflecting on the aspects of professional soccer he misses most—competition, camaraderie, and the thrill of scoring in front of a crowd.

    21 min
  8. 81. Khallil | Healing Through Music

    12/24/2025

    81. Khallil | Healing Through Music

    Khallil Stewart played soccer at George Washington, College of Charleston, and for the Jamaican National Team. Khallil has always had a fierce passion for creating, whether it was making poems, creativity with a ball at his feet, or writing and recording music, Khallil has made art in many forms, since he was young. This episode explores the unexpected end of his career, how he managed injuries throughout his time as a player, and how he has used art as a therapeutic tool through his life. Check out his newest album, streaming on all platforms.

    39 min
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Hi, I am a "washed up" college athlete that had NO freaking clue what to do after I was done playing soccer (and lets be honest, I still don't). I never thought about life after soccer, until life after soccer happened. Being an athlete was my character trait, who was I without that? My goal is to create more conversation around this huge transition in life. Each episode will be filled with experiences and advice from many different athletes. No matter the sport, we are all on the same team here (yes, I know that is corny). So to all my fellow "washed up athletes"...what the hell do we do now?

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  • Creator
    Genevieve Henderson
  • Years Active
    2021 - 2026
  • Episodes
    88
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © Genevieve Henderson
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    What The Hell Do I Do Now?