In The Heart Of The Vault

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Welcome to 'In the Heart of the Vault!' I'm Lindsay Taylor and each week, we'll uncover the powerful stories of incredible mamas who have faced unimaginable challenges. Join me as we explore their raw moments of courage and vulnerability, revealing the strength we all carry inside. So, pour yourself a cheeky drink, get cozy, and let's unlock the heart's vault together-where resilience shines in the face of adversity

  1. 6 DAYS AGO

    BONUS EPISODE: When back to normal isn’t always what our kids need after loss

    There’s so much pressure to get back to normal after something life-changing. As adults… we learn to step away. From conversations that don’t feel right. From people who say the wrong thing. From environments that feel too heavy. But kids don’t always have that choice. They sit in classrooms. They hear comments. They carry expectations they don’t understand — from people who think they’re helping. And slowly… it builds. Not because they’re not coping — but because they haven’t been given the space to. This episode is just me… talking about that pressure, and why “back to normal” isn’t always the safest place for a child to land.

    43 min

  2. 22 APR

    They Told Us to Prepare for Palliative Care… But we chose to fight for Louie

    In this episode of In the Heart of the Vault, Nicola shares the deeply personal journey that began when her baby boy Louie was born prematurely at 32 weeks. Just days after his birth, Louie’s intestine twisted and strangulated, leaving only 8cm of small intestine able to be saved after multiple emergency surgeries. Nicola and her husband were told to prepare for palliative care. They were warned that continuing treatment could prolong suffering and that letting him go may be the kinder option. But Nicola trusted her instinct as a mother. What followed was eight months in hospital, navigating life in survival mode, making impossible decisions, and learning how to advocate for their son while holding their family together. Today, Louie is exceeding expectations. This conversation explores the raw reality of motherhood in medical crisis, the grief parents carry behind closed doors, the strength it takes to advocate for your child, and the deep trust that can grow when you learn to listen to your intuition. Nicola shares what it means to walk through uncertainty, resilience, and the parts of motherhood that are rarely spoken about. Disclaimer The experiences shared in this episode reflect the personal journey and perspectives of the guest. This conversation is intended to share lived experience and raise awareness and should not be considered medical advice. If you have medical concerns, please consult a qualified healthcare professional. Listener discretion is advised as this episode includes discussion of neonatal illness, medical trauma, and hospitalisation.

    1hr 55min

  3. 1 APR

    BONUS EPISODE : Finding Your Voice as Your Child’s Advocate

    BONUS EPISODE : Finding Your Voice as Your Child’s Advocate Sometimes in medicine, decisions aren’t made by just one doctor. Teams come together. Surgeons, specialists, consultants — all sharing knowledge and experience to make the best possible decisions. And that matters. But there’s another voice that belongs in that room too. The parent. Because no matter how skilled the medical team is, no one knows your child the way you do. In this episode we talk about advocacy — finding the courage to speak up when something doesn’t feel right, even when you’re scared, overwhelmed, or unsure why. Not out of defiance. But out of love. Because trusting the experts and trusting your instincts can exist at the same time. Inside the Vault we share stories about navigating those moments — the uncertainty, the questions, and the strength it takes to find your voice when it matters most.

    1hr 43min

  4. 25 MAR

    Holding Milli’s Memory: Rochelle’s Journey Through Grief, Motherhood and Purpose | PART 2

    ⚠️ Trigger Warning: Baby loss. Some conversations stay with you long after the microphones are turned off. This was one of them. In this episode of In the Heart of the Vault, I sit down with Rochelle — a woman whose life story is layered with strength, heartbreak, love and resilience. We talk about life before everything changed. Her upbringing, relationships, marriage, and the journey that eventually led her to motherhood. After years of trying for a baby and navigating endometriosis, Rochelle and her husband were preparing to welcome their daughter Milli. But beautiful Milli’s life would last just six days. Those six days changed Rochelle forever. In this deeply honest conversation, Rochelle shares what those days looked like — the fear, the love, the moments of hope, and the unimaginable reality of saying goodbye to a child. But this conversation isn’t only about loss. It’s about remembering. Rochelle speaks about the importance of saying Milli’s name, keeping her memory alive, and creating space for other parents who have experienced the unthinkable. We also talk about how grief reshapes you. The importance and the power of trusting your own instinct . How after going through something so profound, surface-level conversations often feel impossible — and why deep, real conversations become the ones that truly matter. Out of her grief, Rochelle has created something powerful. She now runs a charity and podcast that supports families navigating baby loss — providing care packs and a safe place for parents who feel alone in their grief. Today Rochelle is also mum to beautiful Huey, who was born 10 months ago. Milli’s little brother. She shares openly about what motherhood looks like now — loving the child in your arms while still honouring Milli everyday who lives forever in your heart. This episode is raw, human and deeply moving. It’s about grief. But it’s also about love, resilience, memory and purpose. 🎧 Episode available now on In the Heart of the Vault

    42 min

  5. 21 MAR

    Holding Milli’s Memory: Rochelle’s Journey Through Grief, Motherhood and Purpose | PART 1

    ⚠️ Trigger Warning: Baby loss. Some conversations stay with you long after the microphones are turned off. This was one of them. In this episode of In the Heart of the Vault, I sit down with Rochelle — a woman whose life story is layered with strength, heartbreak, love and resilience. We talk about life before everything changed. Her upbringing, relationships, marriage, and the journey that eventually led her to motherhood. After years of trying for a baby and navigating endometriosis, Rochelle and her husband were preparing to welcome their daughter Milli. But beautiful Milli’s life would last just six days. Those six days changed Rochelle forever. In this deeply honest conversation, Rochelle shares what those days looked like — the fear, the love, the moments of hope, and the unimaginable reality of saying goodbye to a child. But this conversation isn’t only about loss. It’s about remembering. Rochelle speaks about the importance of saying Milli’s name, keeping her memory alive, and creating space for other parents who have experienced the unthinkable. We also talk about how grief reshapes you. The importance and the power of trusting your own instinct . How after going through something so profound, surface-level conversations often feel impossible — and why deep, real conversations become the ones that truly matter. Out of her grief, Rochelle has created something powerful. She now runs a charity and podcast that supports families navigating baby loss — providing care packs and a safe place for parents who feel alone in their grief. Today Rochelle is also mum to beautiful Huey, who was born 10 months ago. Milli’s little brother. She shares openly about what motherhood looks like now — loving the child in your arms while still honouring Milli everyday who lives forever in your heart. This episode is raw, human and deeply moving. It’s about grief. But it’s also about love, resilience, memory and purpose. 🎧 Episode available now on In the Heart of the Vault

    1 hr

  6. 13 MAR

    Ashleigh’s Story: Growing Up With the Ripple Effect of a Parent’s Suicide Attempt

    Content Warning: This episode contains discussion of suicide attempts, mental health, trauma and eating disorders. Please listen with care. When Ashleigh was just seven years old, her life changed forever. Her mum attempted to end her life. She survived — but the attempt caused severe brain injury, leaving her mum needing full-time care for the rest of her life. Ashleigh describes this as “the other side of suicide that nobody talks about” — what happens when the attempt doesn’t end a life, but changes many. In this deeply moving episode of In the Heart of the Vault, Ashleigh shares what it meant to grow up in the aftermath of that moment. As a child, she and her siblings were left trying to understand a reality where their mum was still alive — but no longer able to be their mum in the way they needed. Navigating childhood trauma, grief without closure. Ashleigh reflects on how those early years shaped the person she would become. Now 28years later, Ashleigh is a mother of three daughters of her own. Becoming a mum opened the door to emotions that had been stored away for more than two decades — the grief of a little girl who simply needed her mum. Through motherhood, reflection and time, Ashleigh has gained a deeper understanding of the pain her mother must have been living with, and the unimaginable darkness that can lead someone to believe the world — even their children — might be better off without them. This conversation explores: • The lifelong ripple effects of suicide attempts on families • Growing up with grief that has no clear place to land • The trauma children carry when life changes overnight • Becoming a parent while still healing from your own childhood • Finding compassion and understanding decades later Ashleigh’s story is raw, honest and deeply human. It shines a light on a part of suicide that is rarely spoken about — the lives that continue in its wake. ⸻ Support Resources If this episode brings up difficult feelings for you, please reach out for support. Australia Lifeline — 13 11 14 https://www.lifeline.org.au United States 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline — Call or text 988 https://988lifeline.org United Kingdom & Ireland Samaritans — 116 123 https://www.samaritans.org

    1hr 14min

  7. 4 MAR

    Finding Sunshine When Your World Has Fallen Apart

    Finding Sunshine When Your World Has Fallen Apart Sometimes the hardest part of trauma… isn’t just what happened. It’s the fear of the unknown that follows. When your nervous system has lived in survival mode, it’s so easy to stay there — constantly waiting for the next thing to go wrong. In this solo episode of In the Heart of the Vault, I talk honestly about how I’ve navigated that space. People often ask me if recording these episodes makes me sad… but the truth is, this podcast has become something very different. It’s not about staying stuck in trauma. It’s about learning from extraordinary people who have faced the unimaginable and found ways to keep going. Every guest who sits in the Vault teaches me something. About resilience. About perspective. About the quiet strength humans are capable of. And the most beautiful part of this community is knowing that when someone listens and thinks “that’s exactly how I feel”… they realise they’re not alone. Sometimes that’s all we need. Just the reminder that someone else understands. And that, in itself, can feel like a big warm hug.

    30 min

  8. 18 FEB

    She Held Three Hearts Together — Through Love, Loss & Survival | Candice Randall

    She Held Three Hearts Together — Through Love, Loss & Survival | Candice Randall ⚠️ Trigger Warning: This episode discusses suicide, infidelity, substance abuse, and complex medical trauma. Candice Randall was just 19 when she became a mother — and almost immediately, a medical advocate. Her eldest child has endured multiple open-heart surgeries. Her two younger children also live with heart conditions, a genetic thread running quietly through their lives. But medical trauma wasn’t the only battle Candice faced. Infidelity. Addiction. Separation. Shared parenting under strain. And then — a loss no family is ever prepared for. When her former partner died by suicide, the ripple effects reshaped everything. Including a devastating truth revealed at his funeral that added another layer of grief Candice never saw coming. In this episode, Candice opens the vault on: • Raising three children with heart conditions • Navigating betrayal and single motherhood • Addiction and its silent impact on families • Suicide loss and the long road of grief • Finding strength when life keeps asking more This is a story of endurance, truth, and a woman who kept showing up — even when her world shattered. If you’re struggling or in distress, support is available: Australia: Lifeline – 13 11 14 / https://www.lifeline.org.au/ UK: Samaritans – 116 123 / https://www.samaritans.org/ USA: 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline – 988 / https://988lifeline.org/ Please reach out — you’re not alone.

    1hr 39min
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Welcome to 'In the Heart of the Vault!' I'm Lindsay Taylor and each week, we'll uncover the powerful stories of incredible mamas who have faced unimaginable challenges. Join me as we explore their raw moments of courage and vulnerability, revealing the strength we all carry inside. So, pour yourself a cheeky drink, get cozy, and let's unlock the heart's vault together-where resilience shines in the face of adversity

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