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Portia spent four and a half years of her life in federal prison and her life was transformed. This is an account of kindness, faith and enduring friendships discovered in federal prison. Her story is told with the passion and insight of one who lived it. Portia opens our eyes and hearts to the real challenges and struggles that people in prison face.

  1. Lost and Found - From the Streets to Finding My Son

    2D AGO

    Lost and Found - From the Streets to Finding My Son

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast! In this powerful episode, we dive deep into a story of redemption, love, and transformation that will inspire your heart and renew your faith in second chances. Meet Manny, a man whose life has been marked by struggles with gang violence, incarceration, addiction, and hardship, but who has ultimately found hope through faith, music, and the power of family.Manny's journey begins in the streets of South Central Los Angeles, where he was introduced to the harsh realities of gang life at a young age. From being arrested at just 11 years old to spending years in juvenile detention and adult prison, his story is one of survival amidst chaos. Yet, despite these dark moments, Manny’s story is also about resilience and the incredible ability to change.Through years of hardship, Manny turned to music and faith as his outlets for hope and redemption. He shares heartfelt stories of how he left behind a life of drugs, violence, and crime, and found purpose through his family, his wife Jabel, and his music career. Manny speaks openly about his struggles with addiction, his time in prison, and the pivotal moment when he truly decided to change his life — a moment of prayer, surrender, and a desire to be better for himself and his loved ones.What's truly remarkable is his journey to reconnect with his son, Manny Jr., after decades apart. Manny had always known about his son but didn’t know where he was or how to find him. Thanks to DNA testing and perseverance, they were finally reunited in an emotional encounter that Manny describes as life-changing. This reunion exemplifies hope, forgiveness, and the unbreakable bond of a father's love.In this episode, Manny also reflects on the importance of honesty, integrity, and the power of using one’s skills for good. He shares stories of his musical journey, managing legendary artists, and how his past experiences have shaped his present. His message is clear: no matter how dark your past may be, there is always hope for a brighter future if you’re willing to seek it.Join us as we celebrate the power of faith, family, and second chances. Manny’s story reminds us that no matter where you come from, you can always choose a different path — one filled with love, purpose, and transformation. Whether you’re struggling with your own challenges or simply seeking inspiration, this episode will leave you inspired to believe in the possibility of redemption.Tune in to hear Manny’s story and be reminded that it’s never too late to turn your life around.Hashtags:#RedemptionStory #FamilyReunion #SecondChances #Inspiration #Faith #Transformation #StreetLifeToSuccess #Motivation #MusicHeals #OvercomingAddiction #TrueStory #Hope #Forgiveness #LifeChange #Fatherhood #NeverGiveUp

    37 min
  2. The Other Side Set Me Free - Clay Josewski

    FEB 6

    The Other Side Set Me Free - Clay Josewski

    Welcome to our powerful and inspiring episode where we dive deep into the extraordinary journey of transformation, redemption, and personal growth. In this conversation, we sit down with Clay Josewski, a man who has experienced the darkest moments of addiction, incarceration, and despair, but who has also found a second chance through the life-changing program, The Other Side Academy.Clay shares his raw and honest story — from childhood struggles and sexual trauma to the chaos of addiction, multiple incarcerations, and near-suicide. His journey is a testament to the power of accountability, humility, and authentic relationships. He vividly describes how traditional treatment methods often fall short because they lack one crucial element: true accountability. Instead, he emphasizes that real change comes when individuals are held responsible for their actions, are willing to embrace humility, and are committed to doing the inner work.Throughout this episode, Clay reveals how his time at The Other Side Academy became a turning point in his life. He describes the initial resistance, the struggles to let go of old behaviors, and the transformative moments when he started to truly own his story. He emphasizes the importance of honesty, integrity, and holding oneself accountable — lessons he now uses to help others live their purpose and find genuine freedom.This conversation also explores the importance of mental and emotional maturity, the impact of family and community, and the profound truth that real change requires patience, effort, and sometimes, tough love. Clay’s story is a reminder that no matter how far someone has fallen, there is always hope, and with the right support and mindset, a new life is possible.Whether you’re interested in addiction recovery, life transformation, or simply need a dose of inspiration, this episode will challenge your perceptions and motivate you to pursue your best self. Clay’s journey from a 24-year prison sentence to owning his own life, relationships, and purpose is nothing short of remarkable. His story is a testament to the fact that true success isn’t about avoiding failure — it’s about learning, growing, and rising above it.Tune in to hear how a good old dude, who once thought his life was over, found the strength to turn everything around. This episode is packed with real talk, lessons learned the hard way, and practical insights to help you live louder, better, and with purpose.Hashtags:#Transformation #RedemptionStory #AddictionRecovery #PersonalGrowth #TheOtherSideAcademy #Accountability #MentalHealth #SecondChances #Inspiration #StayHumble #LifeJourney #OvercomingAddiction #SelfDevelopment #RealTalk #Motivation #HealingJourney

    56 min
  3. Heartbreak to Hope: Lily's Come Back - Lily Johansen

    JAN 30

    Heartbreak to Hope: Lily's Come Back - Lily Johansen

    In this powerful episode of the Living Louder Podcast, we sit down with Lily Johansson, a young woman who has endured unimaginable hardships and come out the other side stronger than ever. Lily’s story is a raw and honest journey through childhood trauma, mental health struggles, addiction, incarceration, near-death overdoses, and ultimately, redemption. Her resilience and determination to rebuild her life after years of chaos will inspire anyone facing their own battles. Growing up in Davis County, Lily’s childhood was marred by an unstable family environment, physical and emotional abuse, and early diagnoses of PTSD, OCD, ADHD, and depression. Despite these challenges, she was a hardworking, dedicated individual with dreams of excelling in track and basketball. Tragically, the loss of her father to suicide and a series of substance use began to take over her life during her teenage years. She started experimenting with marijuana and alcohol before falling into deeper substance dependencies, including cocaine, Xanax, and bath salts, which led her into dangerous situations and multiple overdoses. Lily’s story takes a dramatic turn when she overdoses in a drug house and is saved by Narcan, witnessing firsthand the deadly grip of addiction. Her journey through treatment, relapse, and recovery is filled with moments of despair, hope, and finally, success. Her experience with inpatient treatment, sober living, and the importance of support systems highlights the power of resilience and the human spirit to heal. Lily shares her insights on how unhealthy relationships, trauma, and addiction intertwine, and how she learned to break free from those cycles. One of the most inspiring parts of her story is her realization that she can use her pain to help others. Lily now works in recovery, sharing her story at high schools and with those still struggling, showing that recovery is possible and that every step forward matters. Her message emphasizes the importance of working on oneself, healing family wounds, and never giving up—even when the road is long and difficult. This episode is a testament to the transformative power of hope, perseverance, and faith. Lily’s journey reminds us all that no matter how dark life may seem, there is always a path to healing and a brighter future. Whether you’re battling addiction, trauma, or just need a little inspiration to keep going, Lily’s story will touch your heart and renew your faith in the possibility of change. Join us as we explore the real, unfiltered truths of addiction and recovery, and learn how Lily’s faith, family, and inner strength helped her rebuild her life from the ground up. Don’t miss this empowering conversation—you’ll walk away inspired, uplifted, and ready to face your own challenges with renewed courage. #AddictionRecovery #OvercomingTrauma #HealingJourney #SobrietyStories #MentalHealthAwareness #Inspiration #Resilience #RecoveryIsPossible #BreakingChains #LivingLouder

    37 min
  4. Prison lessons and Life Wins

    JAN 23

    Prison lessons and Life Wins

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast — a raw, inspiring conversation about resilience, redemption, and transformation. In this episode, we dive deep into the powerful stories of women who have experienced the realities of incarceration and emerged stronger, wiser, and more determined than ever. Join us as we share heartfelt insights about life behind bars, the struggles of rebuilding relationships, the importance of accountability, and the incredible opportunities for growth that come through programs like ARDAP and others. Our guest, Meredith Fossey, generously shares her journey from growing up in Wyoming with LDS values, to a life of addiction and drug dealing, and ultimately to her time in federal prison. She talks openly about her experiences in various correctional facilities, the importance of education and therapy in prison, and how those experiences helped her find her true self. Meredith emphasizes that prison can be a place of healing if you’re willing to embrace the process and take accountability for your actions. She also reflects on her relationship with her kids, the challenges of reconnecting after incarceration, and the valuable lessons she learned about boundaries, self-worth, and personal growth. Throughout this episode, we explore the significance of programs like ARDAP, which provide women with the tools and support needed to turn their lives around. We discuss how these programs foster accountability, teach life skills, and help individuals understand addiction from a professional perspective. Meredith and I also talk about the importance of community, the power of forgiveness, and the necessity of setting boundaries — both in prison and in life. This conversation is not just about incarceration; it’s about hope, second chances, and the relentless human spirit. Whether you’ve experienced the system firsthand or are simply curious about stories of transformation, this episode offers valuable lessons on resilience, the importance of self-awareness, and the profound impact of taking responsibility for your life choices. If you’re interested in stories of real people overcoming adversity, or if you’re looking for inspiration to make positive changes in your own life, this episode is for you. Tune in to hear candid, heartfelt stories that challenge perceptions, inspire growth, and remind us all that it’s never too late for a second chance. Don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more honest conversations about life, struggles, and triumphs. Share this episode with anyone who needs a reminder that redemption is possible, and that the journey to a better life begins with a single step. #LivingLadder #PrisonStories #Rehabilitation #SecondChances #Inspiration #WomenInRecovery #Accountability #Transformation #PrisonLife #HealingJourney

    38 min
  5. The Beauty in Brokenness: An Honest Conversation with Melissa Lozano

    JAN 16

    The Beauty in Brokenness: An Honest Conversation with Melissa Lozano

    In this powerful and heartfelt episode, we sit down with Melissa Lozano—a woman whose life story is nothing short of inspiring. From a tumultuous childhood marked by trauma, addiction, and chaos to a journey of healing, forgiveness, and hope, Melissa shares her raw and authentic experiences. Growing up in Utah with a mother battling addiction and navigating a world of instability, Melissa’s story reveals the harsh realities faced by many who are born into cycles of hardship. Despite the overwhelming challenges, she found the strength to break free from her past, rebuild her life, and discover her inner resilience.Melissa’s journey includes losing her childhood innocence, experiencing domestic violence, battling addiction herself, and facing the devastating loss of her mother. Her story is filled with moments of heartbreak, regret, and pain, but also incredible moments of love, faith, and redemption. She talks openly about her struggles with substance abuse, her experiences with the criminal justice system, and the difficult process of healing from deep emotional wounds. Through it all, Melissa emphasizes the importance of faith, perseverance, and the power of community in transforming her life.One of the most touching parts of her story is her relationship with her mother—despite the pain caused by her mother's addiction, Melissa’s love for her remains profound. Her journey of forgiveness and understanding highlights the complexity of love and the importance of compassion, even for those who have hurt us the most. Melissa also shares how her faith in God has played a pivotal role in her recovery, helping her find peace and purpose after years of chaos.Today, Melissa is a testament to the human spirit’s capacity for change and growth. She now has a stable life with a loving partner, a successful career, and a desire to give hope to others who are struggling. Her story encourages listeners to believe in second chances, to never give up, and to recognize that healing is possible—even after facing unimaginable hardships.Join us in this inspiring conversation that reminds us all of the importance of compassion, resilience, and faith. Melissa’s story is a beacon of hope for anyone who feels overwhelmed by their circumstances and is searching for the courage to start over. Whether you’re battling addiction, dealing with family struggles, or simply seeking motivation to keep going, this episode will touch your heart and ignite your hope for a better tomorrow.Hashtags:#Inspiration #RecoveryStory #OvercomingAddiction #HealingJourney #FaithAndHope #SecondChances #Resilience #MentalHealthAwareness #TraumaRecovery #WomenEmpowerment #LifeTransformation #Motivation #FamilyLove #Forgiveness #HopeForTomorrow

    46 min
  6. Overcoming the Trauma of Prison and a Sex Offense

    JAN 9

    Overcoming the Trauma of Prison and a Sex Offense

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast, where we dive deep into stories of resilience, hope, and transformation. In this heartfelt episode, Portia and her daughter CJ share their extraordinary journey through some of life's most challenging moments — from incarceration and trauma to healing and growth. This honest and raw conversation offers a rare glimpse into the struggles faced by families affected by incarceration, sexual abuse, and mental health issues, all while highlighting the power of love, forgiveness, and resilience. Portia opens up about her experience going to prison, the shock and pain of being separated from her children, and the emotional toll of facing a long sentence. She reflects on the difficulty of explaining her absence to her young children and the process of rebuilding trust and connection once she returned home. CJ shares her perspective as a young girl who was only seven when her mom was taken away, describing how she coped with the separation and navigated life in her mom’s absence. She honestly discusses the feelings of loneliness, confusion, and the moments where she felt she had to be strong for her family. The conversation takes a powerful turn as CJ reveals her journey through trauma and abuse, and how therapy and open communication helped her find healing. She talks about the importance of honesty, vulnerability, and seeking support, emphasizing that healing is a process that takes time and courage. This episode also explores the impact of societal judgments, the importance of compassion, and how shared struggles can foster deeper understanding and connection. Throughout the episode, Portia and CJ emphasize the significance of choosing love over bitterness, the importance of forgiving oneself and others, and the strength found in vulnerability. They discuss how their shared experiences have shaped their outlook on life, relationships, and the importance of mental health awareness. Both share inspiring messages of hope for anyone going through similar hardships, encouraging listeners to embrace their journey and focus on healing and self-growth. Whether you're interested in stories of family resilience, mental health, overcoming trauma, or simply looking for an honest, inspiring conversation, this episode offers valuable insights and a reminder that even in the darkest times, there is hope and light. Join Portia and CJ as they share their truth, celebrate their progress, and inspire others to live louder, love deeper, and never give up. Hashtags: #LivingLouder #FamilyResilience #HealingJourney #TraumaRecovery #IncarcerationStories #MentalHealthAwareness #MotherDaughterBond #OvercomingAbuse #Forgiveness #HopeAndHealing #SelfGrowth #VulnerabilityIsStrength #FamilyLove #Inspiration #BreakTheSilence

    31 min
  7. Life After a Sex Offense

    JAN 2

    Life After a Sex Offense

    Welcome to the Living Louder podcast, where honest conversations, hope, and transformation take center stage. In this inspiring episode, host Portia Louder sits down with a remarkable guest, James, a man who has faced incredible challenges, taken full ownership of his past, and turned his life around through faith, accountability, and love. Their candid discussion delves into difficult topics like incarceration, sex offenses, forgiveness, and the power of vulnerability—offering hope and encouragement for everyone navigating their own struggles.James shares his personal journey from a successful business career to facing prison time for a sex offense. Despite the stigma and societal judgment, he emphasizes the importance of owning one’s mistakes, learning from them, and choosing to become a better person. His story highlights that true change is possible, even in the darkest moments, when we accept responsibility and lean on faith and support from loved ones. James openly discusses his experience with excommunication from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, and how that period of spiritual humility paved the way for his re-baptism, redemption, and future aspirations, including returning to the temple.Throughout the episode, Portia and James talk about the significance of honesty, vulnerability, and the importance of a loving support system—whether it's family, friends, or faith community. They share stories of forgiveness, including powerful accounts of victims who have found peace through understanding and service, illustrating that healing is possible at any stage of life. Both guests emphasize that forgiveness is a personal journey, and while it’s not always easy or immediate, it’s a vital step toward inner peace and growth.This conversation is a call to action for listeners to confront their own pasts with courage, to support loved ones with compassion, and to understand that everyone deserves a second chance. Whether you're someone who has made mistakes, a family member of someone who's struggled, or a victim seeking healing, this episode offers hope, practical insights, and the reassurance that with faith and effort, transformation is within reach.Join us as we explore how faith, accountability, and love can help us all live louder—beyond shame and judgment—toward a brighter, more hopeful future.Hashtags:#LivingLouder #RedemptionStory #HopeAndHealing #Accountability #Forgiveness #FaithJourney #SecondChances #Transformation #OvercomingStigma #MentalHealthAwareness #FaithAndRecovery #Inspiration #SelfGrowth #HealingJourney #MentalHealthMatters #FaithInAction #HopeAfterIncarceration #OvercomingShame #SupportAndLove

    49 min
  8. The More You Do, The More You Can Do - Manny Lopez

    2025-12-26

    The More You Do, The More You Can Do - Manny Lopez

    Welcome to the Living Ladder podcast — a powerful platform dedicated to sharing inspiring stories of hope, resilience, and transformation. Hosted by individuals who have faced life's toughest challenges, this podcast dives deep into real-life experiences of overcoming addiction, incarceration, trauma, and adversity, all while emphasizing the importance of faith, community, and second chances. In each episode, we sit down with authentic voices—former inmates, community leaders, faith-based advocates, and everyday heroes—who have turned their pain into purpose. These stories highlight the profound journey from darkness to light, illustrating that no matter how difficult life gets, redemption is always within reach when we believe in ourselves and lean on a higher power. Our guests share candid insights about their past struggles, the power of faith and forgiveness, and the pivotal moments that shifted their lives. From the importance of community support to the transformative power of love and loyalty, these conversations remind us that connection and compassion are the keys to healing. Whether it's a story of a person coming out of prison and reintegrating into society, or someone overcoming childhood trauma to find purpose, each episode aims to motivate and uplift listeners everywhere. The Living Ladder podcast emphasizes that everyone has a story worth telling and a potential for greatness. We believe that sharing these stories can inspire others to keep pushing forward, believe in second chances, and understand that our past does not define our future. Through faith and perseverance, we can all climb out of darkness and step into the light. Join us for heartfelt conversations, practical advice, and lessons learned along the way. Whether you're on your own journey of healing, supporting someone else, or just seeking inspiration, this podcast offers a space for hope, growth, and community. Together, we can build a ladder—step by step—toward a brighter future. Subscribe, share, and be part of the movement to transform lives through stories of faith, resilience, and redemption. Remember, no matter where you come from, you are worthy of a second chance. Hashtags: #LivingLadder #RedemptionStory #FaithAndHealing #SecondChances #OvercomingAdversity #Inspiration #RecoveryJourney #CommunitySupport #Transformation #HopeInDarkness #StrengthThroughFaith #RiseAbove #MentalHealthMatters #PrisonReentry #LoveAndLoyalty #NeverGiveUp

    43 min
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Portia spent four and a half years of her life in federal prison and her life was transformed. This is an account of kindness, faith and enduring friendships discovered in federal prison. Her story is told with the passion and insight of one who lived it. Portia opens our eyes and hearts to the real challenges and struggles that people in prison face.

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  • Creator
    Portia Louder
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    30
  • Rating
    Clean
  • Copyright
    © Portia Louder
  • Show Website
    Living Louder

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