9 episodes

Love, marriage… and a secret history of trauma. Anna Maria Tremonti has been keeping her past a secret for over 40 years. As one of Canada’s most respected journalists, she has a reputation for being fearless and hard-hitting. She’s reported from some of the world’s most dangerous conflict zones. But none were as immediately threatening as life at home.

In her early 20s, she fell in love with a man who seemed worldly and charming. Behind closed doors he was incredibly violent. They were only married for a year but the consequences of the abuse have lasted a lifetime.

This is the first time Anna Maria has told anyone—including family or close friends—the details of what she endured. Working with her therapist, she reveals the intimate details of a past she’s kept to herself for most of her life.

The result is a profoundly intimate portrait of a powerful woman confronting the source of tremendous pain and trauma and, remarkably, freeing herself from a life-long sense of shame. Written and hosted by Anna Maria Tremonti (The Current), produced by Daemon Fairless (Hunting Warhead, Boys Like Me) and mixed by Mira Burt-Wintonick (Wiretap, Love Me, Sorry About The Kid).

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    • 4.8 • 974 Ratings

Love, marriage… and a secret history of trauma. Anna Maria Tremonti has been keeping her past a secret for over 40 years. As one of Canada’s most respected journalists, she has a reputation for being fearless and hard-hitting. She’s reported from some of the world’s most dangerous conflict zones. But none were as immediately threatening as life at home.

In her early 20s, she fell in love with a man who seemed worldly and charming. Behind closed doors he was incredibly violent. They were only married for a year but the consequences of the abuse have lasted a lifetime.

This is the first time Anna Maria has told anyone—including family or close friends—the details of what she endured. Working with her therapist, she reveals the intimate details of a past she’s kept to herself for most of her life.

The result is a profoundly intimate portrait of a powerful woman confronting the source of tremendous pain and trauma and, remarkably, freeing herself from a life-long sense of shame. Written and hosted by Anna Maria Tremonti (The Current), produced by Daemon Fairless (Hunting Warhead, Boys Like Me) and mixed by Mira Burt-Wintonick (Wiretap, Love Me, Sorry About The Kid).

    Welcome to Paradise Introduces: Kuper Island

    Welcome to Paradise Introduces: Kuper Island

    Kuper Island is an 8-part series that tells the stories of four students: three who survived and one who didn’t. They attended one of Canada’s most notorious residential schools – where unsolved deaths, abuse, and lies haunt the community and the survivors to this day. Hosted by Duncan McCue. More episodes are available at hyperurl.co/kuperisland

    • 32 min
    Ep. 6: "The Visitation"

    Ep. 6: "The Visitation"

    Anna Maria makes a trip to find out more about Pat's past and confirms something she’d suspected.

    If you or someone you know is affected by intimate partner violence, you can find a list of resources at cbc.ca/WTPresources.

    • 32 min
    Ep. 5: "The Message"

    Ep. 5: "The Message"

    As Anna Maria prepares to contact Pat, she makes a startling discovery.

    If you or someone you know is affected by intimate partner violence, you can find a list of resources at cbc.ca/WTPresources.

    • 31 min
    Ep. 4: “The Long Tail”

    Ep. 4: “The Long Tail”

    Getting out is only half the battle. After separating from her abusive husband, Anna Maria faces the most dangerous period of the relationship… and long-term emotional fallout that follows her for years.

    If you or someone you know is affected by intimate partner violence, you can find a list of resources at cbc.ca/WTPresources.

    • 29 min
    Ep. 3: “L is for Love”

    Ep. 3: “L is for Love”

    Anna Maria is living a double life. In public she and Pat seem like the perfect couple. At home, he’s becoming increasingly violent.

    If you or someone you know is affected by intimate partner violence, you can find a list of resources at cbc.ca/WTPresources.

    • 33 min
    Ep. 2: “See What You Made Me Do”

    Ep. 2: “See What You Made Me Do”

    Pat seems charming, funny and worldly – the perfect husband. But shortly after their wedding, Anna Maria discovers the man she’s married is an entirely different person behind closed doors.

    If you or someone you know is affected by intimate partner violence, you can find a list of resources at cbc.ca/WTPresources.

    • 29 min

Customer Reviews

4.8 out of 5
974 Ratings

974 Ratings

1499cass88 ,

Loved this podcast

Having lived through an abusive relationship this podcast had me completely glued. I absolutely loved it and the story telling was compelling.
The part about wanting to confront the abuser was especially touching. I had tried to do the same, but all he did was blame everything on me. He made me seem like I was in the wrong and that I also abused him.
Thank you for sharing your story.

Cdn Traci ,

Loved this!

Anna Maria is so relatable. She tells such a compelling story I couldn’t wait for the next episode to drop. I hope she has more coming down the pipe. I love to hear that strong, smart and successful women that become victims of these situations and are able to come out on top, so resilient and solid. Thank you for sharing your story 💕

Golferchick ,

Strong and insightful

I knew this would be a well put together cast given it was Anna Maria but to then see her share such a personally challenging story with such thoughtfulness was stirring. Excellent!

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