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Recovered-ish is where we talk about the real side of eating disorder recovery — the messy parts, the confusing parts, and the parts no one wants to say out loud. I’m Chloe — therapist, recovery coach, and someone who’s been through it myself. Every solo episode gets into the stuff you’re actually dealing with: the constant mental noise, the guilt after eating, the fear of fullness, the body image spirals, the pressure to shrink, and the moments where you’re convinced you’re “failing” at recovery. This isn’t about perfection or doing recovery the “right” way. It’s about learning how to feed yourself, trust yourself, and build a relationship with your body that isn’t rooted in fear. You’ll get practical tools, honest conversations, and the kind of support I wish I had when I was in it. If you want recovery that’s imperfect, human, and actually possible… you’re in the right place.

  1. 3 DAYS AGO

    why is body image still so hard in recovery — what actually helps | recovered-ish with chloe cox

    Honest confession: my body image has been pretty rough lately. And yes, I know — I'm a recovered eating disorder therapist who just last week talked about how quiet my ED voice has gotten. So what gives? In this episode I'm getting real about what bad body image actually looks like for me now, 11 years into recovery. How it's different from the eating disorder voice. What body dysmorphia really feels like from the inside. And the specific things that actually help me move through it — not the textbook DBT stuff, just what genuinely works for me right now. This one is honest, a little messy, and I think a lot of you are going to relate. This Episode Is Brought to You By Cozy Earth Bad body image weeks call for a soft place to land at the end of the day. Cozy Earth makes the softest, most comfortable pajamas and the absolute coziest bedding — and comfort is something I don't compromise on anymore. Visit CozyEarth.com and use code RECOVERY for up to 20% off. In This Episode: Why you can have a quiet ED voice and still have terrible body image — and how those are actually different thingsWhat body dysmorphia really is and how it shows up as a sensory experience, not just negative thoughtsWhy bad body image days are often a signal that something else is off in your lifeThe wardrobe disaster phenomenon and what it actually has to do with body imageWhy body neutrality is more accessible than body positivity — and what it actually looks like in practiceWhat I do instead of white-knuckling through a bad body image weekWhy clothing and personal style have genuinely been a game changer for my body imageSomatic tools that help when you want to completely dissociate from your bodyHow to talk about body image struggles in a way that actually helps you process themWhy showing your body care — even when you don't love it — is what actually heals the relationshipTimestamps: 0:00 Intro 1:00 Life update — a weird season, turning 31, and learning to meet my own needs 5:30 This week's topic: my body image has been rough lately 6:00 How body image and the ED voice are actually different things 8:30 What body dysmorphia really feels like from the inside 12:00 The wardrobe disaster and what it signals 15:00 The sensory experience of body dysmorphia 18:30 Social media, idealized bodies, and wanting to dissociate 20:30 Body neutrality vs body positivity — and why neutrality is more accessible 23:00 Riding the wave vs actually doing something about it 25:30 Feelings change — they always have a beginning, middle, and end 26:30 What actually helps me: clothes, comfort, and personal style 29:30 Nuuly subscription — and why it's been a game changer especially for variable sizing in recovery 33:00 Zooming out: bad body image as a signal, not a fact 35:30 Somatic tools for when you want to crawl out of your skin 38:30 Orienting exercise — how to arrive back in your body 39:30 Body patting and butterfly taps 40:30 Talking about it — but in a specific way 43:00 Showing your body care even when you don't love it 45:00 Closing thoughts Practical Tools Mentioned: Zoom out: when body image is off, look at what else is going on in your life — it's usually a signal, not the whole storyOrienting exercise: find the farthest point you can see, then the closest, then noResources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

    49 min

  2. 8 APR

    does the eating disorder voice ever go away? | recovered-ish with chloe cox

    Episode Description One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating disorder voice ever actually go away? In this episode, I get honest about my own experience with the ED voice: what it sounded like at its worst, how it shifted through different stages of recovery, and where it lives now (spoiler: it's a lot more like an intrusive thought about tap dancing in a grocery store than a voice running my life). This isn't a tidy yes-or-no answer, because recovery isn't tidy. But it is a real one — and one I don't think the internet talks about honestly enough. In This Episode: What the eating disorder voice actually is — and why it can feel like a separate voice in your head (and no, that doesn't mean you're "crazy")The difference between ego syntonic and ego dystonic thinking, and why that shift matters in recoveryMy personal experience with the ED voice from its loudest point to where it lives nowWhy the voice often gets louder when you start recovering — and what that actually meansThe beach ball analogy: why trying to "shut up" the ED voice often backfiresWhat actually moves the needle: building your own voice, not silencing theirsThe near-relapse I've talked about before — and why it happened even without a constantly active voiceWhy "if I can't fully recover, why even try?" is one of the most dangerous traps in recoveryPractical tools for when the voice feels all-consumingTimestamps: 0:44 Intro & life update 3:22 Episode topic intro: the eating disorder voice question 7:19 What is the "eating disorder voice"? 10:56 Who asks this & why 13:39 My personal experience: the voice at its worst 14:38 Do I still have disordered thoughts? My honest answer 20:42 How I got to where I am today 28:06 The beach ball metaphor: giving the voice less space 32:24 My answer: yes and no 36:54 Practical tips if the voice is all-consuming 40:03 Outro Practical Tools Mentioned: Name the voice: learn to label thoughts as "eating disorder thoughts" without immediately fighting themHear it, don't obey it: practice acknowledging the ED voice and giving yourself permission to have a different opinion — even if you don't know what that is yetIdentify the feeling underneath: fear, panic, sadness — and ask what you need that isn't an eating disorder behaviorThe "noise" technique: when all else fails, just say it out loud — noise, noise, noiseQuotes from This Episode: "The goal maybe isn't to stop having an eating disorder voice entirely. Maybe the goal is to stop having it rule your life." "It stopped being just about the eating disorder. I started writing more about meeting new people and discovering new parts of me." "Even if your life can be 50% better than it is right now — that is so worth it compared to the 100% hell that is living with an eating disorder." Keywords/Tags: eating disorder recovery, eating disorder voice, ED voice, does the eating disorder voice go away, quasi-recovery, restrictive eating disorder, disordered eating, food guilt, recovery mindset, anorexia recovery, bulimia recovery, Recovered-ish podcast, Chloe Cox, recovered-ish, eating disorder therapist, eating di Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

    43 min

  3. 1 APR

    the recovery reality check nobody gives you | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 13

    hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about the part of recovery that i think catches a lot of people off guard: how long it takes.  how messy it is.  and how discouraging it can feel when you’re doing “everything right” and still not feeling better yet. because i think a lot of people go into recovery expecting it to feel hard for a little while… and then eventually click into place. and when that doesn’t happen, it’s really easy to spiral into:  is this even working?  why is this still so hard?  am i doing recovery wrong? this episode is the reality check i think a lot of people need. in this episode, i talk about: why recovery often feels worse before it feels betterthe part of healing nobody really prepares you forwhy treatment is a beginning, not a magic fixhow eating disorders create false safetywhy discomfort doesn’t mean you’re failingwhat actually keeps people going when recovery feels long and exhaustingwhy you’re not behind just because it’s taking timei also talk about the difference between wanting recovery and actually staying in it long enough for your brain and body to catch up. if you’ve ever thought, “i’m trying so hard… why does this still feel awful?” this one is for you. sponsor today’s episode is sponsored by Cozy Earth — truly one of my favorite brands i’ve gotten to partner with. if you want to romanticize your life a little and make your bed / pajamas / nervous system feel better, i highly recommend. use code RECOVERY for up to 20% off  👉 www.cozyearth.com support beyond the podcast 💛 Recovery Skills Training — my step-by-step program for eating disorder recovery  use code PODCAST for $57 off  👉 https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/ follow along on instagram:  @recoverwithchloe don’t forget to eat your food. Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

    43 min

  4. 25 MAR

    food guilt is deeper than you think | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 12

    hi! welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about food guilt. but not in the surface-level way it’s usually talked about. because this isn’t just “i feel a little guilty.” this is the kind of guilt that hits after you eat and makes you feel like you need to fix it. immediately. the kind that lingers. the kind that turns into “i shouldn’t have done that” → “i am bad.” and if you’ve ever been stuck in that loop of eat → feel awful → compensate → feel safe → repeat this episode is going to make a lot of things click. ⚠️ content note this episode discusses eating disorder thoughts, food guilt, and compensatory urges. no numbers or graphic details. in this episode, i talk about: why food guilt feels so intensethe difference between guilt and shame (and why it matters)how guilt reinforces the eating disorder cyclewhy your body reacts like it’s in danger after eatingwhere “good vs bad” food beliefs actually come fromthe problem with “clean eating” and food ruleswhy this isn’t really about willpowerwhy thinking differently isn’t enough on its ownhow to stop trying to “fix” the foodwhat to actually do after you eat when the guilt hitsreal ways to regulate your body instead of compensatingresources / sponsor sponsor this episode is sponsored by Cozy Earth. you guys know i’m really intentional about what i share here, and i would never partner with a brand that didn’t actually align. cozy earth makes some of the softest, most comfortable loungewear and bedding i’ve ever owned. like genuinely the kind of stuff that makes you feel a little more taken care of in your day to day. if you want to check them out, you can use code RECOVERY for up to 20% off. www.cozyearth.com Recovery Skills Training — my step-by-step program for eating disorder recovery get $57 off with code PODCAST 👉 https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/ follow me on instagram: instagram.com/recoverwithchloe @recoverwithchloe Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

    44 min

  5. 18 MAR

    ED lies, identity loss, and rebuilding – reading my ED diaries | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 11

    hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today’s episode is a little different. i was feeling kind of chaotic, kind of scattered, and i knew i did not have it in me to do justice to one of the bigger, heavier topics i had planned. so instead, i did something i honestly never thought i would do. i pulled out my old journals. the actual journals i kept from the depths of my eating disorder through therapy, residential treatment, php, iop, and early recovery. five full books of wild thoughts, assignments, fears, honesty, and things i didn’t even want to say out loud at the time. so in this episode, i’m reading them with you. in this episode, i talk about:  – the lies my eating disorder told me  – the illusion of control it promised  – what the eating disorder was giving me at the time  – what it was quietly taking away  – identity loss in recovery  – why anger can be such a powerful emotion in healing  – recovery assignments that actually helped  – the moment i started imagining a future in a different body  – what it looked like to slowly find myself again there are definitely moments in this episode that are funny. there are also moments that really got me. more than anything, i hope it makes you feel less alone. because if you’ve ever felt like your thoughts were too weird, too dark, too obsessive, too much for anyone else to understand, i promise you are not the only one. support beyond the podcast  if you want more structure and support in your recovery, Recovery Skills Training is my step by step program that helps you build real momentum with food, body image, coping, identity, and recovery skills that actually stick. use code PODCAST for $57 off  👉 https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/  follow along on instagram:  @recoverwithchloe don’t forget to eat your food. Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

    45 min

  6. 11 MAR

    when your body changes in recovery – and how to not spiral about weight gain | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 10

    hello, lovely friends! welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about body changes in recovery and how to cope when weight gain starts to feel huge. because of course this is one of the biggest fears in recovery. most people would be willing to take the risk on healing if they could guarantee their body would stay the same. but that’s not how this works. and even when you know logically that your body may need to change, that does not mean you’re going to feel emotionally okay about it. in this episode, i talk about:  – why body changes feel uniquely hard in the current social climate  – the way beauty standards keep swinging and why that matters  – how i coped early on by making body change a “future chloe problem”  – why avoidance can help at first and also backfire later  – the difference between flooding yourself versus gradually learning to tolerate change  – why i do not think loving your body is a requirement for recovery  – why body positivity didn’t fully land for me  – how making the body less important changed everything  – the identity piece underneath the fear of weight gain  – why the real question is often “who will i be if i’m no longer the small one, the fit one, the disciplined one?” i also share what actually helped me most. not trying to force myself to love the way i looked. not convincing myself my body was beautiful every second. but building a life that mattered more than my body did. if you’ve ever thought, “i know my body might need to change, but i don’t know how to handle that without spiraling,” this episode is for you. support beyond the podcast  if you’re ready for more structured support, Recovery Skills Training is my step by step program for eating disorder recovery. use code PODCAST for $57 off 👉https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/ follow along on instagram:  @recoverwithchloe Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

    43 min

  7. 4 MAR

    “good enough” recovery is keeping you stuck | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 9

    hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about quasi recovery. this is the phase where you’re not relapsed. you’re functioning. you’re eating. life looks mostly normal. but the tape is still running. in this episode, i talk about: – what quasi recovery actually is (and how it’s different from relapse)  – the “good enough” space that can last for years  – rigidity that hides inside normal routines  – the identity piece that keeps people stuck  – why this phase often gets socially rewarded i also share my own quasi recovery story — including the years i secretly went vegan and didn’t tell my dietitian. it looked aligned. it also kept me safe. we walk through the questions that help you know if you’re in this space and the first practical steps to start getting out. if you’ve ever thought, “i’m not relapsed… but i’m not fully free either,” this episode is for you. support beyond the podcast if you’re ready for more structured support, my 8-week group program the Quasi Recovery Exit is open now! 👉 https://recover-with-chloe.moxieapp.com/public/quasi-recovery-exit-application follow along on instagram:  @recoverwithchloe don’t forget to eat your food. Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

    51 min

  8. 25 FEB

    how to recover when you have no motivation | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 8

    hello, lovely friends! welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about motivation. and more specifically, why it feels so hard to find motivation to recover. i hear this all the time.  “i don’t feel motivated.”  “i don’t have a strong enough reason.”  “i know what to do, but i can’t make myself do it.” and the more i sat with this topic, the more i realized something. motivation works beautifully inside an eating disorder. there are goals. numbers. boxes to check. clear cause and effect. you restrict and you feel less guilt. you hit a number and your brain gives you a dopamine spike. accomplishment feeds motivation. motivation feeds accomplishment. it’s a loop. so when we flip the script and say okay, now i’m going to do the opposite of everything that felt concrete and measurable and “safe,” it makes sense that motivation suddenly disappears. in this episode, i talk about: – why eating disorders are incredibly motivating  – how accomplishment and dopamine wire you in  – how self hatred can also fuel motivation  – why recovery feels harder to initiate  – the belief underneath recovery which is “i am deserving of care”  – why mindset work alone rarely moves the needle  – why action has to come before belief  – why motivation is not sustainable  – what actually carries you forward when motivation fails i also share more of my own story. the false promises my eating disorder made. the flashes of clarity that didn’t last. the fear of being trapped in my own brain. the anger that finally pushed me to take action. and then we get to the two things that actually move recovery forward long term. trust.  and risk taking. if motivation feels unreliable for you right now, this episode is for you. support beyond the podcast if you’re ready to stop waiting for motivation and start building real momentum, Recovery Skills Training walks you through the actual doing of recovery. nourishment. movement. coping. support. identity. step by step. you can get $57 off with code PODCAST. 👉 https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/  follow along on instagram:  @recoverwithchloe Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

    56 min
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Recovered-ish is where we talk about the real side of eating disorder recovery — the messy parts, the confusing parts, and the parts no one wants to say out loud. I’m Chloe — therapist, recovery coach, and someone who’s been through it myself. Every solo episode gets into the stuff you’re actually dealing with: the constant mental noise, the guilt after eating, the fear of fullness, the body image spirals, the pressure to shrink, and the moments where you’re convinced you’re “failing” at recovery. This isn’t about perfection or doing recovery the “right” way. It’s about learning how to feed yourself, trust yourself, and build a relationship with your body that isn’t rooted in fear. You’ll get practical tools, honest conversations, and the kind of support I wish I had when I was in it. If you want recovery that’s imperfect, human, and actually possible… you’re in the right place.

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