In this episode, Demi Lee shares the story of her pregnancy, birth and the profound inner terrain she was asked to move through on her passage into motherhood. We speak about the shamanic dimensions of pregnancy - the way pregnancy can become a womb purge, excavating what can no longer come with you into motherhood. Old fears, grief, trauma, memory and unresolved experiences can arise to the surface, asking to be witnessed, felt, and released before crossing the threshold. For Demi, this meant confronting a long history of experiences connected to the loss of agency in her body, including sexual trauma, Annie’s birth trauma and her own experiences of medical trauma. As she moved through pregnancy, these memories became impossible to ignore. We explore the fears she had to meet through choosing a largely wild pregnancy - declining ultrasounds, blood tests, glucose testing, NIPT, Doppler use and doctors’ appointments - and ultimately choosing to birth her daughter, Huski Rose, at home without medical assistance present. She had midwives available to come to the home if needed, while intentionally planning for them not to be present unless support became necessary. Demi shares the deeply elemental nature of her labour: birthing in front of the fire, moving outside beneath the trees, feeling held by the land and the elements, and sensing the presence of ancestors, her grandmother, trees and plant allies guiding her through the threshold. Birth became not only a physical experience, but an altered, psychedelic and profoundly relational one - between body, earth, memory, and spirit. This is a story about fear, agency and redemption: what it means to meet the memories held in the body, to stay present with uncertainty, and to discover what exists on the other side of the fears we are willing to face. We also speak about the psychedelic realms of birth, the intensity of labour as a rite of passage, and the expansive states that can open when the body is allowed to lead. At its heart, this is not a prescription for how anyone should birth, but one woman’s story of pregnancy, reclamation, remembrance, and the crossing into motherhood. - Join Body As Altar 2026 held in the Northern Rivers, Australia - Join RITES 2027 Artist Programme held in Melbourne, Australia