Beyond Broken Vows | Christian Marriage, Adultery, Pornography Addiction, Sexual Betrayal, Intimacy

Emily & Johnny Spigelmire | Christian Marriage Recovery Coaches

***Top 1.5% Global Podcast*** Dear Betrayed, Are you in shock? Confused, devastated, hurt, angry and feeling like you are not enough? Do you feel like it must be your fault, like you should have somehow seen the signs? Are you grieving the death of the marriage you thought you had? Dear Betrayer, Have you been believing the lie that if people knew what was really in your heart and mind, they would turn their back on you? Have you been convinced that your wife and family would leave you and you would lose everything if/when you came clean? Beloved, do you both feel like your marriage is over? Well, you’re right. That marriage full of secrets and lies IS over. But now there is hope for an honest and transparent marriage - one full of trust, safety, connection, forgiveness, acceptance, and intimacy that you’ve never known before. Bold statement, right? You may be thinking, “No way!” That’s okay. We understand… Hi, we are Johnny and Emily Spigelmire and we have been where you are... As a result of adultery fueled by pornography, the marriage vows we had exchanged as starry-eyed newlyweds and had worked so hard to keep were eventually shattered. We’ve been through hell and back. But we are here, together, to let you know that this devastation we experienced was actually a gift. Of course, we didn’t see it that way at first and you probably don’t either. But, through a commitment to recovery, our faith in God, and our hope for redemption, we set out on a journey of healing, and we can’t wait to share what we’ve learned with you. We now have a marriage that continually blows our minds, and we give God all the glory! So, if you’re ready to move from heartbreak and pain to hope and healing, grab your favorite beverage, get comfy, and join us on a journey of faith as we talk through difficult questions like; Is there hope for our marriage? Can I fix all the damage I’ve done? Can I ever trust again? Is true intimacy even possible? We will also do deep dives into the topics of: * Isolation * Guilt and Shame * Anger * Rejection * Addiction * Trauma * Body Image * Triggers * Communication * And more… Our story, like yours, is a messy one. But, with God’s help, it is possible to recover what was lost, stolen, or given away. We know this because God has turned the ashes of our lives into something beautiful and we believe he can do that for you too. You can connect with us at: support@beyondbrokenvows.com https://insider.beyondbrokenvows.com/ https://coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com/ We would love to be part of your journey to healing and wholeness!

  1. 3D AGO

    145 | From Sex-Addiction to Addiction Whack-a-Mole

    Sometimes recovery isn’t just killing one addiction—it can be like a game of Whack-a-Mole. Kill the sex addiction, and others pop up.   Picture this...you’re in an arcade, inexplicably drawn to the game called Whack-a-Mole. The idea of the game is when a mole pops up you whack it with a padded mallet, and as you strike it, it goes down into its hole.   But another one pops up in another area.   Now your attention is drawn to the one that just popped up. You repeat the process until the timer runs out. You never really win the game, but you may score more points than others based on the speed and accuracy of your ability to whack the moles.   This can have a very similar effect when we are trying to rid our lives of addiction, or simply compulsive behaviors.   We usually start with the one that is bringing the most destruction to our lives and marriages. We may feel we have victory over our primary compulsion, yet another can emerge to take its place.   Why is this?   In our show today we will cover the pitfalls of what we are calling addiction Whack-a-Mole, what it is, how to spot it, and how to actually exterminate all the moles of addiction in your life.   We pray this blesses you,   Johnny and Emily   💚TIP JAR If this episode brought you hope or encouragement, please leave us a little blessing to help us keep our content ad-free! 💜Work with us! coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Hang out with us and support our ministry on Patreon, beyondbrokenvows.com/partner 💜Become a Beyond Broken Vows Insider! Receive our weekly newsletter with behind-the-scenes stories, marriage tips, podcast previews and early access to giveaways and promotions! insider.beyondbrokenvows.com   RESOURCES:      Addiction Whack-A-Mole Worksheet Download our e-book, “9 Steps to Healing After Sexual Betrayal: For Couples Who Have Chosen to Stay Married” Covenant Eyes Use promo Code BBV to get 30 days free! (website purchase only)   RELATED EPISODES: Episode 17. Is My Spouse A Porn Addict? 13 Clues To Help Expose Compulsive Sexual Behavior Episode 25. Persistent Sexual Integrity Issues in Marriage. Do Recovery Programs Really Work?   NEXT STEPS:     ✔️FOLLOW so you don’t miss a show!     ✔️Leave a 5-star rating & written review on Apple Podcast. ✔️ You can connect with us at support@beyondbrokenvows.com.

    26 min
  2. FEB 9

    144 | Post Disclosure Revelation: Setback or Breakthrough?

    Imagine this: You’ve survived the gut-wrenching reality of Full Disclosure. The truth is out—presumably there are no more secrets.   After a long healing journey, you’re starting to breathe again.   Then… bam. A new revelation drops.   Is it a devastating setback… or the breakthrough you’ve been praying for?   Today, we share a real story and the benefits that can turn pain into progress—stick around!   We pray this blesses you,   Johnny and Emily   💚TIP JAR If this episode brought you hope or encouragement, please leave us a little blessing to help us keep our content ad-free! 💜Work with us! coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Hang out with us and support our ministry on Patreon, beyondbrokenvows.com/partner 💜Become a Beyond Broken Vows Insider! Receive our weekly newsletter with behind-the-scenes stories, marriage tips, podcast previews and early access to giveaways and promotions! insider.beyondbrokenvows.com   RESOURCES:      Request the Healing Apology worksheet, support@beyondbrokenvows.com Download our e-book, “9 Steps to Healing After Sexual Betrayal: For Couples Who Have Chosen to Stay Married” Covenant Eyes Use promo Code BBV to get 30 days free! (website purchase only)   RELATED EPISODES: Episode 52. What Is His Response To Her BIG Emotions After Porn-Fueled Infidelity? Episode 58. Purpose from Pain: Did Sexual Betrayal Destroy God’s Plan for Your Marriage?   NEXT STEPS:     ✔️FOLLOW so you don’t miss a show!     ✔️Leave a 5-star rating & written review on Apple Podcast. ✔️ You can connect with us at support@beyondbrokenvows.com.

    35 min
  3. FEB 2

    143 | After Disclosure: He Feels Better, She Feels Worse

    Today, we’re diving into one of the rawest pains a marriage can face: infidelity.   Specifically, that pivotal moment when the unfaithful spouse – often the husband – finally comes clean. He unloads decades of secrets, and suddenly his prison of guilt and shame cracks open. Freedom hits him like a wave of hope.   But for the wife? Those same words shatter her world. She’s left carrying the weight he shed, and now she’s trapped in her own prison of grief, betrayal, and isolation. One heart soars; the other plummets.   So what now? How do you navigate this as a couple committed to Christ?   Join us for this raw and candid conversation about our experience with this unfair paradox.   We pray this blesses you,   Johnny and Emily   💚TIP JAR If this episode brought you hope or encouragement, please leave us a little blessing to help us keep our content ad-free! 💜Work with us! coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Hang out with us and support our ministry on Patreon, beyondbrokenvows.com/partner 💜Become a Beyond Broken Vows Insider! Receive our weekly newsletter with behind-the-scenes stories, marriage tips, podcast previews and early access to giveaways and promotions! insider.beyondbrokenvows.com   RESOURCES:      Request the Healing Apology worksheet, support@beyondbrokenvows.com Download our e-book, “9 Steps to Healing After Sexual Betrayal: For Couples Who Have Chosen to Stay Married” Covenant Eyes Use promo Code BBV to get 30 days free! (website purchase only)   RELATED EPISODES: Episode 124. From Hurt to Hope Through Rigorous Honesty Episode 92. Dying to Self: Transformational Moments in Recovery from Sexual Betrayal   NEXT STEPS:     ✔️FOLLOW so you don’t miss a show!     ✔️Leave a 5-star rating & written review on Apple Podcast. ✔️ You can connect with us at support@beyondbrokenvows.com.

    38 min
  4. JAN 26

    142 | Level Up Your Honesty After Sexual Betrayal

    Is honesty just as simple as telling the truth, or is there more to it?   We are going to unpack that question to reveal some nuances of truth telling that some may not have considered before.   But isn’t truth, truth?   Yes, truth is always truth, but what we’ve discovered through our own healing journey is that inside of the practice of telling the truth, there are layers that are not necessarily obvious.   Today’s topic is not exclusive to the step-by-step process of Full Therapeutic Disclosure, but it is an important foundation for all marriages working to recover from sexual betrayal.   Join us today to learn how to level up your honesty.   We pray this blesses you,   Johnny and Emily   💚TIP JAR If this episode brought you hope or encouragement, please leave us a little blessing to help us keep our content ad-free! 💜Work with us! coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Hang out with us and support our ministry on Patreon, beyondbrokenvows.com/partner 💜Become a Beyond Broken Vows Insider! Receive our weekly newsletter with behind-the-scenes stories, marriage tips, podcast previews and early access to giveaways and promotions! insider.beyondbrokenvows.com   RESOURCES:      Request the Healing Apology worksheet, support@beyondbrokenvows.com Download our e-book, “9 Steps to Healing After Sexual Betrayal: For Couples Who Have Chosen to Stay Married” Covenant Eyes Use promo Code BBV to get 30 days free! (website purchase only)   RELATED EPISODES: Episode 124. 124 | From Hurt to Hope Through Rigorous Honesty Episode 92. Dying to Self: Transformational Moments in Recovery from Sexual Betrayal   NEXT STEPS:     ✔️FOLLOW so you don’t miss a show!     ✔️Leave a 5-star rating & written review on Apple Podcast. ✔️ You can connect with us at support@beyondbrokenvows.com.

    27 min
  5. JAN 19

    141 | Infidelity Disclosure: How Much Do I Need to Know?

    In our previous episode, we were focusing on questions some husbands and wives have about the need for a Full Therapeutic Disclosure as well as some of the reasons couples hesitate to engage in this process.    We have seen some amazing restoration of marriages through this process and today we’re going to talk about disclosure, not just what happens inside of a Full Therapeutic Disclosure, but also what happens after as couples continue to dig down deep together to become fully known.   Trying to build a new marriage on a cracked slab is disaster waiting to happen. We must completely remove all traces of rubble and brokenness to rebuild on a new solid foundation. We have found that this can be accomplished through transparency, vulnerability, and rigorous honesty.   Pop in your ear buds and spend some time with us!   We pray this blesses you,   Johnny and Emily   💚TIP JAR If this episode brought you hope or help, please leave us a little tip to help us keep our content ad-free! 💜Work with us! coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Hang out with us and support our ministry on Patreon, beyondbrokenvows.com/partner 💜Become a Beyond Broken Vows Insider! Receive our weekly newsletter with behind-the-scenes stories, marriage tips, podcast previews and early access to giveaways and promotions! insider.beyondbrokenvows.com   RESOURCES:      Request the Healing Apology worksheet, support@beyondbrokenvows.com Download our e-book, “9 Steps to Healing After Sexual Betrayal: For Couples Who Have Chosen to Stay Married” Covenant Eyes Use promo Code BBV to get 30 days free! (website purchase only)   RELATED EPISODES: Episode 111. Need a Full Therapeutic Disclosure After Infidelity? (Part 1) Episode 140. How Well Do You Really Know Your Spouse When Infidelity Becomes Your Reality   NEXT STEPS:     ✔️FOLLOW so you don’t miss a show!     ✔️Leave a 5-star rating & written review on Apple Podcast. ✔️ You can connect with us at support@beyondbrokenvows.com.

    30 min
  6. JAN 12

    140 | How Well Do You Really Know Your Spouse When Infidelity Becomes Your Reality

    Today we’re going to talk about something that strikes fear into the heart of every husband who has been unfaithful - Full Therapeutic Disclosure.   It’s a topic that sounds scary, but it is one of the best tools for recovery that we have discovered and implemented into our coaching practice.   Not only for husbands who have been unfaithful, but also for their betrayed wives.   We have seen God do some amazing things through this process and today we’re going to have a conversation about why some couples hesitate to engage with this recovery tool.   We pray this blesses you,   Johnny and Emily   💚TIP JAR If this episode brought you hope or help, please leave us a little tip to help us keep our content ad-free! 💜Work with us! coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Hang out with us and support our ministry on Patreon, beyondbrokenvows.com/partner 💜Become a Beyond Broken Vows Insider! Receive our weekly newsletter with behind-the-scenes stories, marriage tips, podcast previews and early access to giveaways and promotions! insider.beyondbrokenvows.com   RESOURCES:      Request the Healing Apology worksheet, support@beyondbrokenvows.com Download our e-book, “9 Steps to Healing After Sexual Betrayal: For Couples Who Have Chosen to Stay Married” Covenant Eyes Use promo Code BBV to get 30 days free! (website purchase only)   RELATED EPISODES: Episode 51. Full Therapeutic Disclosure: 3 Steps to Healing and Freedom After Sexual Betrayal Episode 111. Need a Full Therapeutic Disclosure After Infidelity? (Part 1)   NEXT STEPS:     ✔️FOLLOW so you don’t miss a show!     ✔️Leave a 5-star rating & written review on Apple Podcast. ✔️ You can connect with us at support@beyondbrokenvows.com.

    28 min
  7. JAN 5

    139 | We Plan - God Purposes: Vision Casting with a Rearview Mirror

    How is it already 2026? The start of a new year is an opportunity to look back and reflect on the experiences we've been through and what they've taught us.   But the new year isn’t just about looking back; it's also a chance to look forward and spend some time imagining what could be.   It’s easy to feel stuck in the present and think that things might never change or improve.   It's like trudging down a bumpy street, head down, wary of every crack and pothole, constantly focused on avoiding obstacles. While it’s wise to be cautious, sometimes we focus so much on the rough patches that we forget to lift our eyes and appreciate the beauty around us.   As we welcome this new year, we invite you to take a moment to look up from the challenges of your life and marriage. Let yourself imagine what kind of life you want to live and the spouse you want to become. Think about the possibilities waiting for you on the other side of grief, loss, pain, and struggle.   Today we’re taking a quick look back at our 2025 with you, and sharing some exciting things we have planned for this year.   Happy New Year!   Johnny and Emily   💚TIP JAR If this episode brought you hope or help, please leave us a little tip to help us keep our content ad-free!   💜Work with us! coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Hang out with us and support our ministry on Patreon, beyondbrokenvows.com/partner 💜Become a Beyond Broken Vows Insider! Receive our weekly newsletter with behind-the-scenes stories, marriage tips, podcast previews and early access to giveaways and promotions! insider.beyondbrokenvows.com   RESOURCES:      Request the Healing Apology worksheet, support@beyondbrokenvows.com Download our e-book, “9 Steps to Healing After Sexual Betrayal: For Couples Who Have Chosen to Stay Married” Covenant Eyes Use promo Code BBV to get 30 days free! (website purchase only)   RELATED EPISODES: Episode 34. New Beginnings for Marriages in the New Year After Sexual Betrayal Episode 86. Recovering From Porn-Fueled Infidelity: Obstacles We Encountered This Year   NEXT STEPS:     ✔️FOLLOW so you don’t miss a show!     ✔️Leave a 5-star rating & written review on Apple Podcast. ✔️ You can connect with us at support@beyondbrokenvows.com.

    35 min
  8. 12/29/2025

    138 | Let Jesus Shine His Light on Your Path to Recovery from Infidelity

    We hope you were able to find some special moments this Christmas even if you are walking through the pain of sexual betrayal. You may be really glad that this year is ending, but not sure next year will be any better.   We’re just dropping in for a quick message of encouragement today and give you some hope and direction for this coming year.   We are sharing an inspiring and meaningful message from Sarah Young the author of Jesus Calling. It was impactful to us, and we hope it will be for you as well.   Happy New Year!   Johnny and Emily   💚TIP JAR If this episode brought you hope or help, please leave us a little tip to help us keep our content ad-free! 💜Work with us! coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Hang out with us and support our ministry on Patreon, beyondbrokenvows.com/partner 💜Become a Beyond Broken Vows Insider! Receive our weekly newsletter with behind-the-scenes stories, marriage tips, podcast previews and early access to giveaways and promotions! insider.beyondbrokenvows.com 💜Send us a voice message on SpeakPipe   RESOURCES:      Request the Healing Apology worksheet, support@beyondbrokenvows.com Download our e-book, “9 Steps to Healing After Sexual Betrayal: For Couples Who Have Chosen to Stay Married” Covenant Eyes Use promo Code BBV to get 30 days free! (website purchase only)   RELATED EPISODES: Episode 34. New Beginnings for Marriages in the New Year After Sexual Betrayal Episode 86. Recovering From Porn-Fueled Infidelity: Obstacles We Encountered This Year   NEXT STEPS:     ✔️FOLLOW so you don’t miss a show!     ✔️Leave a 5-star rating & written review on Apple Podcast. ✔️ You can connect with us at support@beyondbrokenvows.com.

    12 min
4.9
out of 5
145 Ratings

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***Top 1.5% Global Podcast*** Dear Betrayed, Are you in shock? Confused, devastated, hurt, angry and feeling like you are not enough? Do you feel like it must be your fault, like you should have somehow seen the signs? Are you grieving the death of the marriage you thought you had? Dear Betrayer, Have you been believing the lie that if people knew what was really in your heart and mind, they would turn their back on you? Have you been convinced that your wife and family would leave you and you would lose everything if/when you came clean? Beloved, do you both feel like your marriage is over? Well, you’re right. That marriage full of secrets and lies IS over. But now there is hope for an honest and transparent marriage - one full of trust, safety, connection, forgiveness, acceptance, and intimacy that you’ve never known before. Bold statement, right? You may be thinking, “No way!” That’s okay. We understand… Hi, we are Johnny and Emily Spigelmire and we have been where you are... As a result of adultery fueled by pornography, the marriage vows we had exchanged as starry-eyed newlyweds and had worked so hard to keep were eventually shattered. We’ve been through hell and back. But we are here, together, to let you know that this devastation we experienced was actually a gift. Of course, we didn’t see it that way at first and you probably don’t either. But, through a commitment to recovery, our faith in God, and our hope for redemption, we set out on a journey of healing, and we can’t wait to share what we’ve learned with you. We now have a marriage that continually blows our minds, and we give God all the glory! So, if you’re ready to move from heartbreak and pain to hope and healing, grab your favorite beverage, get comfy, and join us on a journey of faith as we talk through difficult questions like; Is there hope for our marriage? Can I fix all the damage I’ve done? Can I ever trust again? Is true intimacy even possible? We will also do deep dives into the topics of: * Isolation * Guilt and Shame * Anger * Rejection * Addiction * Trauma * Body Image * Triggers * Communication * And more… Our story, like yours, is a messy one. But, with God’s help, it is possible to recover what was lost, stolen, or given away. We know this because God has turned the ashes of our lives into something beautiful and we believe he can do that for you too. You can connect with us at: support@beyondbrokenvows.com https://insider.beyondbrokenvows.com/ https://coaching.beyondbrokenvows.com/ We would love to be part of your journey to healing and wholeness!

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