Thank you Claire, Adriana Bucci… i am in shock… through therapy i heard my mom must have borderline syndrome… but only today at 57, listening to this podcast - I recognize e v e r y t h i n g about it: my mother is the narcissistic queen of all these stories… omg… i am struggling daily in myself… for lack of a reason to exist… from the outside i am functioning, except for the many autoimmune diseases, chronic fatigue… depression, the emotional black hole … now anger is arising… i guess it was repressed… my mom is so manipulative that i have a blind spot for it, i first tend to want to save her from the world… she is the victim… she is the wise one, i should be grateful for all the love bombing (shocked at this word, never heard it before but fully recognize it, and then she would turn that around and mis-use it against me… so i’d feel guilty for being ungrateful). I guess USA is much ahead of Holland, also in my 20’s there was no googling… i broke away only because i literally suffocated during one of her shouting and screaming episodes in the car at me… I return many a time. But even with distance she has a hold on me, became her voice is internalized. In shock, but hopefully this discovery is going to bring me something… thank you all, be safe, xx chanti. @colorintact
