The Permission Slip

Matt Kosterman

I love everything to do with consciousness - personal growth books, meditation, psychedelics, bodywork, Tantric retreats, chakras, Human Design, channeled works, you name it! For the past fifteen years, I’ve been on a deep healing journey. I regularly engage relative strangers in conversation about topics relating to consciousness, transformation and psychedelics (sometimes to their annoyance). I've been dancing around starting a podcast for a couple years now. My imposter syndrome has kept me thinking I don't have anything worthwhile to share, while I vainly attempt to find a community with whom I resonate. I've been fortunate to work with some really gifted practitioners during my journey. They not only gave me tools to heal, they gave me PERMISSION to heal. My intention in producing and distributing The Permission Slip podcast is to share knowledge of their talents with the rest of the world. Many of us have been programmed to believe that healing only comes from those in the medical profession who have gone through a particular set of training protocols. This is not true. Doctors and therapists and the like are (mostly) well-meaning and very good at what they do. Sometimes, more often than we are maybe lead to believe, what they recommend or do is not what is truly needed for healing. In the spirit of the following passage, I'm committing to a minimum of six podcasts that will be discussions with practitioners and healers from whom I've derived personal benefit. The purpose of this effort is therefore to shed light on the diverse ways of healing as well as moving into right relationship with oneself. Credits Renee LaVallee McKenna for the inspiration to create this in the first place. Abby Bruce (ma soeur) for the encouragement along the way. Damian Wiseman for the audio engineering expertise.

  1. 2d ago

    S3 | E3 Dr. Devon James

    I'm out in the lovely suburb of Hinsdale, Illinois, with Dr. Devon James, owner of Within Reach Healing. Laura O'Malley, my guest earlier this season, kept telling me I had to go see Devon, so I did, and I've been back half a dozen times since. Devon is trained as a chiropractor, but she concedes the chiropractors probably wouldn't let her back in the club, so I like to call her a witch. She's fine with it. Devon has just built out a gorgeous, 2,900-square-foot space in a quiet wooded setting, a big step up from her first office of under 500 square feet. Her vision is a true one-stop shop. During COVID, her patients leaned on her for everything, and when she'd refer them to the best people she knew, they'd tell her it was too far to drive. So she brought those people next door. Her team now includes massage therapy, orthopedic and pelvic floor physical therapy, mindful facials, sound healing, yoga, life coaching, a bioscan unit, and soon nurse practitioners and a psychotherapist. When I was in Sedona in 2021, I sat in meditation thinking, "We need a Sedona in Chicago." This place is pretty close. We dig into applied kinesiology, the muscle testing Devon learned in chiropractic school, where every muscle connects to an acupuncture meridian, lymphatic and vascular points, a nutritional need, and even an emotion. Take the psoas: it shares a meridian with the kidneys, its main nutrition is water, and the kidneys' emotion is fear. That's why Devon has zero protocols. She asks each person's body what it wants that day, then pulls from 17 or 18 techniques, including TBM, quantum neurology, and remote energy healing. She tells the story of the seminar where she saw a flash of her teacher's past life, helped heal his shoulder, and learned that most practitioners don't actually hear their patients' bodies talk to them. Devon is open about where this all came from. Her father struggled with alcoholism until she was about ten, and she learned to sense his mood from miles away and keep the house calm. She started her own healing work at 19, went through a divorce, spent eight years in therapy for complex PTSD, and recently had her therapist tell her she was healed and didn't need her anymore. It was far less triumphant than she expected. We compare notes on growing up hypervigilant, on dissociation and falling asleep as a defense, and on how a secure, loving relationship with her partner Aiden gave her the footing to do the deep work and, after losing $40,000 on a building with toxic dry-cleaning chemicals underneath it, to build this place anyway. We also talk about who she sees: people with chronic and autoimmune illness who've been to many doctors without answers, survivors of abuse, and especially kids, including children on the spectrum and non-verbal kids she says communicate with her telepathically. She built an indoor play cottage so kids are upset when they have to leave and parents never have to apologize. Finally, we have some fun with her idea for a "healing carnival" open house, complete with a passport to wellness, raffle tickets, and blind muscle testing. In this episode, we talk about: Within Reach Healing and Devon's vision of a one-stop wellness center Why Devon was trained as a chiropractor but works nothing like a typical one Applied kinesiology, muscle testing, and how each muscle connects to meridians, nutrition, and emotions Why there's no protocol for low back pain, and why she asks each body what it needs Discovering her intuitive gifts at a TBM seminar, and the science of intuition as pattern recognition Remote energy healing and the bioscan unit that picked up a family argument from across the world Growing up with an alcoholic father, hypervigilance, and complex PTSD Getting "fired" by her therapist after eight years, and what healed actually feels like Dissociation, panic attacks, and learning to let feelings pass through Working with chronic illness, abuse survivors, kids on the spectrum, and non-verbal children Losing $40,000 on a building and building her healing center anyway Supplements, muscle testing yourself, and why bodies change The sway test, blind testing, and a healing carnival You can find Dr. Devon James and her team at withinreachhealing.com and on Instagram. Special Guest: Dr. Devon James.

    S3 | E3 Dr. Devon James
  2. 5d ago

    S3 | E2 Marian Siljeholm

    I'm joined by Norwegian-American multimedia journalist and photographer Marian Siljeholm. She reached out to a group we're both part of, looking for people with transformational MDMA experiences for a graduate project, and that's how we met. Marian is upfront that she's a relative newcomer to this space, but she came to it the hard way: through her own search for something that would finally work after a lifetime of therapy. Marian tells the story of growing up in a home ruled by fear, and of the ways that stress showed up in her body for decades. She describes work as her "drug of choice," and the month when her relationship, her housing, her health, and her career all fell apart at once. A sleep specialist who admitted he couldn't help her handed her a business card and pointed her toward psychedelic-assisted therapy. She walks me through her first low-dose MDMA journey, the shift in her relationship with her mother, and the deep gratitude she felt afterward. She also tells me about her second, far more physical journey, in which she released years of stored pain. We also talk about the reporting project that grew out of this. Marian interviewed 45 to 50 people across several continents, along with researchers and clinicians, including Judith Herman, who coined the term complex PTSD. We talk about why so many people with such different lives told the same story: nothing else worked, and this did. We dig into why complex PTSD still isn't in the DSM, why our system is built for pills and acute care rather than process, and what it would take to bring this work in responsibly. I also share some of my own experiences, including my frozen shoulder and the body work I've been doing. In this episode, we talk about: How Marian found psychedelic-assisted therapy through an unexpected referral Why she couldn't think or talk her way out of a nervous system stuck in fight or flight What her first MDMA journey opened up, and why her second one built on it The gap between medicine that works and a system that isn't set up for it Complex PTSD, and why we need a shared language for trauma before we can have an informed conversation about the medicine Managing expectations, integration, and why it's a catalyst and not a quick fix Breathwork, rest, and what it means to finally feel at home in your body You can find Marian's photography at mariansiljeholmphotography.com and on Instagram. Special Guest: Marian Siljeholm.

    S3 | E2 Marian Siljeholm
  3. Oct 22

    S3 | E1 Laura O'Malley

    I'm kicking off Season 3 of The Permission Slip with one of my favorite people on the planet — Conscious Channel and happiness coach Laura O'Malley — for our third conversation on the show. This time we're celebrating her debut book, Becoming You (Lisa Hagen Books), out September 29th in print and e-book. Laura never set out to write a book. Back in 2023 she began typing out answers to one simple question for her guides — "What's most important today?" — and sharing them with clients. When the Collective told her it was going to be a book, she said fat chance unless they dropped it in her lap. They did, and I got to play a small part in how it landed there. We wander (squirrel!) through a lot of territory: why every one of us is channeling all day long — our ego, our soul, or something higher; why you can't talk, think, or trick your nervous system into feeling safe; how getting quiet and present is the only way to actually receive; and why embodied belief is so different from believing something in your head. We trade stories about canceled flights, furrowed eyebrows as an early-warning system for anger, feeling fine after 10-hour drives, finding money on the sidewalk, always finding parking, and the Chinese money frog. Laura also has a real-time realization about where her lifelong habit of always looking happy came from, and we talk about why so many kids today feel so much, what it means to have chosen our experiences from a higher perspective, and why everyone needs a woo crew. Then the Collective comes through to answer my question about whether Becoming You should be read aloud — and to remind us that there's no one-size-fits-all, that you're a different person every time you open the book, and that the whole point is to soften your nervous system into peace. You haven't done anything wrong. You've just been programmed. I'm always thrilled to have my friend and my favorite channel, Laura O'Malley, in for a chat about all things metaphysical. This episode kicks off Season 3 with our third conversation to celebrate her first book, Becoming You. It's a collection of daily messages she channeled simply by asking her guides, "What's most important today?" We talk about getting quiet, becoming present, why you can't outthink your nervous system, and how contrast and triggers are gifts in disguise. And of course, the Collective drops in to have their say. Link to her book: Link to the "Aura" app she mentioned: https://apps.apple.com/us/app/aura-wellbeing-copilot/id6749313216 Special Guest: Laura O'Malley.

    S3 | E1 Laura O'Malley
  4. Oct 15

    S2 | E18 Ken Moench

    I'm in Austin, Texas with Ken Moench, founder of Moench Method Bodywork, which has four locations around the city, and author of Every Baby Hurts. I had just spent about three hours on Ken's table, and I'll admit I was tenderized. So I asked him to explain what he actually does, and why it did something for me that years of massage, myofascial work, dry needling, chiropractic, and physical therapy never quite managed. Ken walks me through his method: pressing into a tight muscle to temporarily block its blood supply so it lets go, then moving it through its full range of motion until the pain signal shuts off. He explains why muscle relaxers and painkillers never touch the fascia, why the work has to start at the root of the chain (the hip flexors, the psoas, and the low back), and why my flat-on-my-back sleeping and side sleeping were quietly working against me. I also share what happened when I finally slipped into deep REM sleep in the middle of an afternoon. Ken's path here is not what you'd expect. He was an industrial electrician who worked on barges along the Mississippi and the Intracoastal Canal, until a layoff in Baton Rouge sent him praying for direction. He became a physical therapy aide at St. David's Hospital in Austin, went to massage school at night, and started getting people out of pain faster than the hospital's physical therapists could, so fast that the doctors nicknamed his work "marrow massage." He tells me how he combined three rudimentary weekend classes into the technique he has now taught his team for more than 30 years. Then we get to the book. Ken tells the story of his infant grandson, who screamed through every diaper change, and what he found when he put his hands on the baby's hip flexors. A second grandchild, who seemed perfectly calm, led him to the thought behind the title: if that baby hurts, every baby hurts. We talk about pre-birth posture, why every culture has swaddled infants, and what Ken sees in older adults who end up curled and stooped. We also talk about the practice itself. Ken says the average client comes 2.4 times a year, and that the team celebrated when that number went down. He shares stories about Austin FC, a hurdler who won gold at the Pan American Games, and a big-league pitcher whose fastball went from 82 to 98 miles an hour. He explains why most of us stretch the wrong way, and how he trained for a marathon by stretching only to the first hint of tension. Finally, we get into his work on dogs, including the nearly 170 foster dogs he and his wife have taken in. In this episode, we talk about: What the Moench Method is, and why the pain fades even while the pressure stays on Why the work starts at the hip flexors and moves down the chain, and why I needed the posterior chain done too How sleep posture, side sleeping, and flat surfaces can shorten muscles overnight Ken's path from industrial electrician to physical therapy aide to massage therapist, and the prayer behind his method The story behind Every Baby Hurts: two grandchildren, two sonograms, and one big idea Pre-birth posture, swaddling, and why older adults end up stooped Why Ken tracks average visits per client, and why he wants that number to fall Athletes, from Austin FC to Olympic-level competitors, and what flexibility does for speed and strength The right way to stretch: warm, sweaty muscles, the slightest tension, and deep breaths Working on dogs, hip dysplasia, and Ken's no-charge policy if he can't help You can find Ken at moenchmethodbodywork.com and search Moench Method on Instagram and Facebook. His book, Every Baby Hurts, is available online and through Barnes & Noble and Amazon. Special Guest: Ken Moench.

    S2 | E18 Ken Moench
  5. Sep 24

    S2 | E15 Marisa Skolky

    Marisa Skolky wears a lot of hats — transformational doula, psychedelic guide, expressive arts therapist, professional singer — and in this episode she walks me through how she got to all of them. She grew up in New Jersey immersed in music and theater, and spent 16 years quietly struggling with bulimia while climbing the ladder as an assistant vice president at an insurance brokerage, making music videos for underwriters and sneaking sound bowls into business meetings on her lunch break. It took an ibogaine flood in Costa Rica for years of accumulated tools — Reiki, hypnotherapy, IFS, somatic work — to finally take hold. We get into some of the wilder edges of her healing story: an ayahuasca ceremony that appeared to heal a fractured tibial plateau overnight, and a DMT experience that put her back inside the moment of her own birth. Marisa also breaks down the five-part framework — identify, confront, release, change, grow — she uses with clients, blending expressive arts, somatic practices, and ritual (letters burned in fire, seeds planted during a journey, physical totems made by hand). We talk about the difference between crying into your chest and actually releasing energy out of the body, why so many people are afraid of their own anger, and what it looks like to build a life — and a business — around energetic integrity. She leaves me with a recommendation I'm passing along: Nathaniel Branden's "Six Pillars of Self-Esteem." Special Guest: Marisa Skolky.

    S2 | E15 Marisa Skolky
  6. Sep 17

    S2 | E14 Michele Phillips

    For this episode, I'm joined by Michele Phillips, who's spent decades helping corporate leaders reconnect with the parts of themselves they check at the door every morning. Michele traces her own path from a childhood "peacekeeper" instinct through a late-20s awakening sparked by books like Many Lives, Many Masters and the Seth material — handed to her, unexpectedly, by corporate mentors and clients. That expansion eventually led her to write Happiness Is a Habit, built on Martin Seligman's research into learned optimism, and later to a second book focused on nervous system regulation. We get into what she calls the "natural high" — the idea that most of us reach for addictive quick fixes (scrolling, shopping, drinking) the moment we feel even slightly uncomfortable, instead of learning to soothe ourselves the way we'd soothe a crying baby. Michele walks me through her "ladder up" technique for shifting emotional states one rung at a time rather than expecting a leap from depression straight to joy, and we swap notes on flow states, Landmark Forum, and the language habits — banishing words like "try" and "but" — that shape how we experience our own lives. The conversation moves into energy versus time management, why she thinks corporations in their current form are unsustainable, and how AI might actually be a mirror for our collective consciousness rather than just a threat to jobs. We also dig into gender roles in leadership — the narrow band of emotions men are permitted to show, the double bind powerful women face, and why Michele started hosting a monthly "goddess gathering" to help women reclaim emotional intelligence as a strength rather than a liability. It's a wide-ranging, warm conversation about alignment, agency, and what it actually takes to write your own outcome. Special Guest: Michele Phillips.

    S2 | E14 Michele Phillips

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I love everything to do with consciousness - personal growth books, meditation, psychedelics, bodywork, Tantric retreats, chakras, Human Design, channeled works, you name it! For the past fifteen years, I’ve been on a deep healing journey. I regularly engage relative strangers in conversation about topics relating to consciousness, transformation and psychedelics (sometimes to their annoyance). I've been dancing around starting a podcast for a couple years now. My imposter syndrome has kept me thinking I don't have anything worthwhile to share, while I vainly attempt to find a community with whom I resonate. I've been fortunate to work with some really gifted practitioners during my journey. They not only gave me tools to heal, they gave me PERMISSION to heal. My intention in producing and distributing The Permission Slip podcast is to share knowledge of their talents with the rest of the world. Many of us have been programmed to believe that healing only comes from those in the medical profession who have gone through a particular set of training protocols. This is not true. Doctors and therapists and the like are (mostly) well-meaning and very good at what they do. Sometimes, more often than we are maybe lead to believe, what they recommend or do is not what is truly needed for healing. In the spirit of the following passage, I'm committing to a minimum of six podcasts that will be discussions with practitioners and healers from whom I've derived personal benefit. The purpose of this effort is therefore to shed light on the diverse ways of healing as well as moving into right relationship with oneself. Credits Renee LaVallee McKenna for the inspiration to create this in the first place. Abby Bruce (ma soeur) for the encouragement along the way. Damian Wiseman for the audio engineering expertise.

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