Coming Clean With Me

Elliott Wald

Welcome to the ‘Coming Clean With Me’ Your ultimate resource for expert insights and guidance on conquering addiction.I get it, because I've been there too. I used to be a six-day-a-week cocaine user, trapped in addiction's relentless grip for over a decade. What sets me apart is my background as a psychologist and hypnosis expert, with 29+ years years of experience. Astonishingly, I managed to hide my addiction while appearing on shows like 'ITV This Morning' and BBC documentaries. In 2008, I had an awakening and decided it was time to find a real solution, not just for myself but for others as well. I immersed myself in every book and research paper on cocaine addiction and successfully quit. Now, my mission is to help you do the same, raising awareness, sharing invaluable insights, and providing practical strategies for breaking free from addiction. Subscribe now to ensure you never miss a transformative update! 🌟👍Contact Elliott directly on: 07875 751960 or find out more on his website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

  1. Brandon Block - I Sniffed So Much C*****e, I Renamed It "The Wallop"

    8H AGO

    Brandon Block - I Sniffed So Much C*****e, I Renamed It "The Wallop"

    Brandon Block was one of the most recognisable names in UK dance music — Space Terrace in Ibiza, global gigs, and mainstream success but behind the sets, he says he was sniffing so much cocaine he renamed it “THE WALLOP” — and by the end, he describes going through an eighth (3.5g) within an hour, buying repeatedly throughout the day, and living in a cycle where he wouldn’t go to bed without a bag ready for the morning. In this raw, unfiltered episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Brandon to trace the real timeline: growing up in Wembley, struggling at school with focus and concentration, being bullied, discovering music through a mentor figure at school — and then how the club scene, availability, and constant partying pulled him into heavy substance use. Brandon describes being introduced to drugs early, later taking ecstasy in the acid house era, and then being introduced to cocaine at a rave — where the escalation, he says, became pretty quick. Then comes the turning point: Brandon describes an epiphany moment in hospital where he realised the core driver wasn’t pleasure — it was the fear of living without drugs.  If you’re battling cocaine addiction, daily sniffing, binge cycles, insomnia, anxiety, or the “club scene” trap — this conversation is a rare, first-hand account from someone who lived it at the extreme and built a life beyond it. Covered in this episode Cocaine addiction (sniffing) and extreme tolerance“The Wallop” — renaming cocaine during heavy useDaily use, no sleep patterns, and living bag-to-bagClub culture, Ibiza, and drug availability in the industryIllness, hospitalisation, and the wake-up momentAnxiety, fear, and what keeps people stuckStopping without relapse (Brandon’s account)Staying in nightlife while staying cleanElliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp:  UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

    53 min
  2. Jeff Charles - Kilos, Crime & Keeping A Half Ounce Back For Myself

    FEB 11

    Jeff Charles - Kilos, Crime & Keeping A Half Ounce Back For Myself

    Kilos. Crime. Cocaine. And a life lived in constant hyper-vigilance. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Jeff Charles, a man who spent over a decade immersed in criminality, large-scale drug supply, violence, and addiction — while quietly battling fear, shame, and a collapsing sense of self. Jeff opens up about growing up in East London and Essex, being diagnosed with ADHD at a young age, feeling segregated at school, and being permanently excluded by 12. Thrust into adult environments early, he gravitated towards criminal role models, building a reputation rooted in fear, money, and control — while internally living with constant anxiety and moral conflict. He describes: Moving from low-level crime to large-scale theft and drug distributionNormalising cocaine use by keeping “half an ounce back” for himselfLiving in daily fear of prison, violence, or deathThe psychological toll of hyper-vigilance and identity fragmentationLosing friends to suicide and accidents linked to the lifestyleAlongside cocaine addiction, Jeff also details severe weight gain, reaching 222kg (nearly 35 stone), alcohol misuse, depression, and suicidal ideation. One of the most harrowing moments comes when he describes filming goodbye videos for his children — moments before attempting to take his own life. Jeff speaks candidly about how faith, therapy, journaling, routine, and purpose now keep him grounded — and how founding The Actualization Project became part of his recovery, not the goal of it. This is not a glamorised crime story.  It’s a raw account of what addiction takes — and what it takes back. If you’re struggling with cocaine addiction, contact Elliott Wald team – Whatsapp UK 07875 751960 Worldwide +44 7875 751960 Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

    57 min
  3. Josh Wyard - 4 Days, No Sleep & £60K Debt

    JAN 28

    Josh Wyard - 4 Days, No Sleep & £60K Debt

    Four days into a cocaine bender with no sleep, Josh Wyard says he started seeing things — and realised how far his life had slipped. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, Josh describes how cocaine use escalated from a social line at a Skepta gig into an offshore-fuelled binge cycle, payday loans taken out in minutes, and a debt spiral that left him in a plan for £66,000. Josh explains he grew up in Great Yarmouth, raised by his grandparents after his parents split. He describes being exposed to drug culture on weekends with his dad, being bullied at school, and later entering offshore work — where long shifts, boredom on time off, and “reward” thinking helped normalise using “the packet”. He talks openly about peak use (“an eighth a day”), hiding it at home, paranoia, sleep deprivation, and how relationship breakdown intensified his downward spiral — including a period where he says he spent £5,000–£6,000 on cocaine in a week. He also describes the practical reality of addiction: waking up to cravings, using in secret, and structuring life around access and recovery time before returning offshore. Finally, Josh explains the moment he decided his last ever line would be the last — and how that choice tied into a complete behaviour shift: joining a gym, setting targets, losing 50kg, rebuilding his lifestyle, and finding community through the “7am Club” (runs, sauna, and ice baths). He closes with a message he repeats clearly: there is a way out. Topics covered Cocaine addiction (nasal use) and binge patternsOffshore work culture and “reward” cyclesSleep deprivation, paranoia, hallucinationsPayday loans, debt, and financial collapseRelationship breakdown and mental healthThe last line decision and behaviour changeWeight loss, gym discipline, and community supportElliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp:  UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

    58 min
  4. Harry Beattie - ADHD, Addiction & Ice Baths

    JAN 14

    Harry Beattie - ADHD, Addiction & Ice Baths

    Harry Beattie spent over a decade in Narcotics Anonymous while repeatedly relapsing. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, he shares what finally changed when his sobriety began to stabilise — not through a new programme, but through major life shifts including fatherhood, daily structure, public accountability, and cold-water exposure. He reflects on why previous recovery attempts failed and what made the difference this time. In conversation with cocaine addiction expert Elliott Wald, Harry opens up about his history of cocaine use, repeated relapse, and the emotional roots of addiction. He discusses growing up in an emotionally distant home, living with undiagnosed ADHD, and using cocaine to quiet his mind rather than energise it — until it led to paranoia, disrupted sleep, and deteriorating mental health. Harry explains how responsibility, habit, and routine became key to lasting sobriety. He maintains a focus on discipline, structure, and daily consistency rather than thinking in terms of being “cured.” 00:00 – Cocaine addiction recovery: From chaos to Ice Bath Harry 00:34 – Childhood abandonment and emotional neglect 00:42 – Privilege without nurture: hidden trauma 01:11 – 409 days clean: why sobriety finally stuck 01:30 – Full introduction: Ice Bath Harry’s story 03:14 – Growing up wealthy but emotionally deprived 04:13 – ADHD, school expulsions, and being labelled “naughty” 06:40 – Seeking validation, rebellion, and risk-taking 09:20 – Impulsivity, danger, and early addiction traits 10:19 – Undiagnosed ADHD and addiction vulnerability 12:35 – “I’m not cured”: understanding long-term recovery 12:49 – Video game addiction and escapism 13:49 – Alcohol, early substance use, and rebellion 15:36 – First cocaine use and immediate emotional relief 16:45 – Why cocaine felt calming, not stimulating 18:10 – ADHD, dopamine deficiency, and cocaine 21:43 – How cocaine addiction escalates 23:04 – Sales culture, money, and daily cocaine use 24:07 – When cocaine stops working 26:26 – Addiction, anxiety, and loss of control 28:30 – Isolation, paranoia, and binge use 30:00 – Dry sniffing and hiding cocaine addiction 31:09 – Why traditional recovery failed 33:56 – Losing family, home, and identity 36:00 – Staying awake for days on cocaine 38:30 – Cocaine-induced paranoia and psychosis 42:10 – “This isn’t what cocaine promised” 44:20 – Rock bottom and emotional collapse 46:55 – Rehab, relapse, and reality 49:05 – Visualising recovery and future identity 51:22 – Is addiction a disease? 55:00 – Why one-size-fits-all recovery doesn’t work 59:57 – Alcohol vs cocaine: brain differences 01:08:11 – Why stimulant addiction needs a different approach 01:24:26 – Ice baths, dopamine, and recovery 01:26:00 – Public accountability and staying clean 01:28:30 – Building Ice Bath Harry online 01:31:40 – Identity, shame, and self-belief 01:32:30 – What addiction really is 01:34:00 – Fatherhood, meaning, and closing message Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

    1h 35m
  5. Lorri Haines - Caught In A Trap

    05/09/2025

    Lorri Haines - Caught In A Trap

    In this compelling episode of "Coming Clean With Me," Caught in a Trap, “host Elliott Wald engages in a deeply personal conversation with Lorri Haines, a multimillionaire entrepreneur and reality TV star known for his role in the ITV show ‘My Family and Me’. Despite his current success, Lorri's journey is one marked by significant challenges and personal growth. Episode Highlights A Troubled Past: Lorri opens up about his tumultuous upbringing on a council estate in Portsmouth, where he was raised by an alcoholic mother. He shares vivid memories of growing up amid abuse and neglect, which set the stage for his own struggles with addiction. Early Exposure to Substance Abuse: From a young age, Lorri was surrounded by substance use, starting with alcohol at around 13 or 14. He describes how alcohol served as a gateway to other substances like cannabis and eventually cocaine, particularly during his teenage years. The Cycle of Addiction: Despite achieving financial success and public recognition, Lorri candidly discusses how wealth and fame exacerbated his substance use. He reflects on the party lifestyle that came with his success, which only deepened his struggles with addiction.  Breaking Free: Lorri recounts the pivotal moments that led him to recognize the need for change. A friend's father played a crucial role in helping him break free from the cycle of addiction by offering him work and guidance, ultimately steering him toward a more stable path. A New Perspective on Success: Today, Lorri measures success not by material wealth but by emotional well-being and the ability to maintain healthy relationships. He emphasizes the importance of self-awareness and emotional stability as key components of his recovery journey.  This episode offers listeners an intimate look into Lorri Haines' life, highlighting the complexities of addiction and the resilience required to overcome it. Through his story, Lorri provides hope and inspiration to others facing similar battles, demonstrating that it is possible to break free from the traps of addiction and build a fulfilling life. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

    44 min
  6. Mathew Hopkins - Finding Strenth, My Battle With Addiction

    04/11/2025

    Mathew Hopkins - Finding Strenth, My Battle With Addiction

    Matthew Hopkins, recovery warrior. Matthew's raw and unfiltered story takes listeners on a rollercoaster ride through his tumultuous past, from his rebellious childhood in Felixstowe to his shattered dreams of an army career. With unflinching honesty, Matthew opens up about his descent into a world of steroids, brawls, and drug addiction. He recounts harrowing tales of paranoia, prison stints, and the toll his choices took on his loved ones. But this isn't just another cautionary tale - it's a powerful testament to the human spirit's resilience.  Matthew doesn't hold back as he describes his rock bottom moments, including a failed drug test that cost him a job in America. He shares the wake-up calls that finally pushed him to seek help and the challenges of early recovery. Now eight months clean, Matthew offers a candid look at his ongoing journey to rebuild his life and relationships. This episode is a must-listen for anyone struggling with addiction or those seeking to understand its grip. Elliott and Matthew's conversation is both heartbreaking and inspiring, proving that it's never too late to change your path and find strength in vulnerability. Buckle up for an intense, no-holds-barred discussion about the dark reality of addiction and the bright possibility of redemption. Matthew Hopkins' story will stay with you long after the episode ends. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

    54 min
  7. DJ MAK 10: Grime & Redemption

    03/28/2025

    DJ MAK 10: Grime & Redemption

    In this raw and gritty episode of "Coming Clean with Me," addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with DJ Mak 10, a.k.a. Nathaniel Ramsey, one of the founding fathers of the UK grime scene. Like the hard-hitting beats and unfiltered lyrics that define grime music, Mak 10 lays bare his 23-year battle with addiction, pulling no punches as he recounts his journey from the grimy streets of East London to the dizzying heights of fame. As a key player in the influential Nasty Crew, Mak 10 helped shape the sound that would become the voice of a generation. But behind the decks and the bravado, a darker story was unfolding. With the same intensity that drove his music, Mak 10 found himself caught in a spiral of cocaine, alcohol, and destructive behaviour that threatened to silence his career and his life. From the adrenaline-fueled highs of all-night benders to the crushing lows of paranoia and self-loathing, Mak 10 spits his truth with the same rapid-fire delivery that made him a legend. He doesn't shy away from the dirt, detailing the funky chicken episodes, the dishonest hustles, and the relationships shattered in the wake of his addiction. But like the best grime tracks, this story has a powerful drop. Mak 10 reveals the moment that finally cut through the noise, leading him to seek help and begin the gruelling process of getting clean. Now ten months sober, he offers a glimpse of life on the other side - a redemption as powerful as any beat he's ever dropped. This episode is a must-listen for anyone who's ever felt trapped by their demons or struggled to find their way back from the brink. It's a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and a reminder that even in the grittiest of circumstances, there's always hope for a comeback. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

    41 min

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About

Welcome to the ‘Coming Clean With Me’ Your ultimate resource for expert insights and guidance on conquering addiction.I get it, because I've been there too. I used to be a six-day-a-week cocaine user, trapped in addiction's relentless grip for over a decade. What sets me apart is my background as a psychologist and hypnosis expert, with 29+ years years of experience. Astonishingly, I managed to hide my addiction while appearing on shows like 'ITV This Morning' and BBC documentaries. In 2008, I had an awakening and decided it was time to find a real solution, not just for myself but for others as well. I immersed myself in every book and research paper on cocaine addiction and successfully quit. Now, my mission is to help you do the same, raising awareness, sharing invaluable insights, and providing practical strategies for breaking free from addiction. Subscribe now to ensure you never miss a transformative update! 🌟👍Contact Elliott directly on: 07875 751960 or find out more on his website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

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