Healed-ish

Jubilee Dawn

Welcome to Healed-ish! A podcast about the messy, beautiful, and sometimes insane process of healing. Each week, host Jubilee Dawn (@jubileedawns) sits down with survivors of betrayal, religious trauma, catfishing, toxic relationships, and more to unpack the chaos and growth that comes with starting over. These are the stories people don’t always tell — honest, raw, a little funny, and fully human.

  1. FEB 10

    51. Letters to My Future Husband (Abigail's Story)

    Abigail grew up in the Church of God, spending multiple days a week at services, youth events, and church gatherings. Many of her memories from that time are genuinely sweet and full of community and belonging, even though there were also moments that were not so simple. As a teenager, she began writing love letters to her future husband, hoping that one day she could give them to him as a meaningful gift. Years later, she rediscovered those letters and started reading them aloud to her now husband on TikTok.  In this episode, Abigail shares how her perspective began to shift after working for a nonprofit and educating herself in new ways, which slowly led her into deconstruction. We talk about what it feels like to revisit your younger self with compassion, how faith can evolve over time, and where she finds herself now.  - Abigail’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/fabigailinsta/ Abigail’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@fabigail11 Abigail’s Podcast: https://www.tiktok.com/@readirectpodcast?lang=en - Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠ Follow for more:   Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠  Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠  Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠  Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠  Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

    1h 21m
  2. FEB 3

    50. From Cult Survivor to Child Advocate: Part 2 (Kim Kelley's Story)

    CW: This episode contains discussion of childhood abuse, cult involvement, exploitation of minors, and human trafficking. Kim Kelley was raised inside one of the most infamous high-control cults of the 20th century, formerly known as the Children of God and later rebranded as The Family International. Raised largely by the community rather than her mother, who was a high-ranking leader, Kim grew up in an environment where abuse, manipulation, and exploitation were normalized and reality itself was shaped by indoctrination. As she explains, when you are raised in a cult, you do not know anything else. Red is blue and blue is red. As a child and young teen, Kim spent years on the streets of Houston fundraising for the cult, unseen and unprotected. In this episode, she shares how she eventually escaped, unlearned the world she was raised in, and built a life beyond survival. Today, Kim works to combat human trafficking by training law enforcement to recognize red flags and better protect vulnerable children. Note: This episode discusses how sexuality and LGBTQ+ identities were used as tools of control within a cult. The perspectives shared are fully affirming of LGBTQ+ people and communities and are intended to highlight hypocrisy, abuse of power, and harm within high-control systems. - Kim’s website: ⁠http://TheKimKelley.com⁠ Kim’s TikTok: ⁠http://tiktok.com/@thekimkelley⁠  Kim’s Instagram: ⁠http://instagram.com/the_kim_kelley⁠  Kim’s Non-profit: ⁠DigitalDefendersUnited.org⁠ ⁠https://www.youtube.com/@DigitalDefendersUnitedInc⁠ ⁠https://www.instagram.com/digitaldefendersunited⁠ ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@digitaldefendersunited⁠ ⁠https://www.facebook.com/DigitalDefendersUnited/⁠ ⁠https://x.com/DDUnonprofi⁠ - Patreon: ⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠⁠ Follow for more:   Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠⁠  Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠⁠  Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠⁠  Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠⁠  Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠⁠

    1h 29m
  3. FEB 3

    49. From Cult Survivor to Child Advocate: Part 1 (Kim Kelley’s Story)

    CW: This episode contains discussion of childhood abuse, cult involvement, exploitation of minors, and human trafficking. Kim Kelley was raised inside one of the most infamous high-control cults of the 20th century, formerly known as the Children of God and later rebranded as The Family International. Raised largely by the community rather than her mother, who was a high-ranking leader, Kim grew up in an environment where abuse, manipulation, and exploitation were normalized and reality itself was shaped by indoctrination. As she explains, when you are raised in a cult, you do not know anything else. Red is blue and blue is red. As a child and young teen, Kim spent years on the streets of Houston fundraising for the cult, unseen and unprotected. In this episode, she shares how she eventually escaped, unlearned the world she was raised in, and built a life beyond survival. Today, Kim works to combat human trafficking by training law enforcement to recognize red flags and better protect vulnerable children. Note: This episode discusses how sexuality and LGBTQ+ identities were used as tools of control within a cult. The perspectives shared are fully affirming of LGBTQ+ people and communities and are intended to highlight hypocrisy, abuse of power, and harm within high-control systems. - Kim’s website: http://TheKimKelley.com Kim’s TikTok: http://tiktok.com/@thekimkelley  Kim’s Instagram: http://instagram.com/the_kim_kelley  Kim’s Non-profit: DigitalDefendersUnited.org https://www.youtube.com/@DigitalDefendersUnitedInc https://www.instagram.com/digitaldefendersunited https://www.tiktok.com/@digitaldefendersunited https://www.facebook.com/DigitalDefendersUnited/ https://x.com/DDUnonprofi - Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠ Follow for more:   Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠  Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠  Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠  Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠ Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

    1h 32m
  4. JAN 27

    48. OCD, Eating Disorder Recovery, and Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry (Rihanna's Story)

    * CW* Eating disorder recovery, OCD, intrusive thoughts In this episode of Healed-ish, I sit down with Rihanna, who attended Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry with me back in 2012. Raised in a conservative Christian home and shaped by purity culture, Rihanna eventually found her way to Bethel, where she had meaningful spiritual experiences but also quietly relapsed into an eating disorder while working in a health-focused Internship. After moving to Los Angeles, she began healing her relationship with food and her body, and during the 2016 election season started deconstructing her faith as she wrestled with Christian nationalism and the version of God she had been taught. Today, she still loves Jesus, but on her own terms. We also talk about her recent OCD diagnosis and living with intrusive thoughts, what it has been like to finally understand her brain, and how she is working to break the stigma around mental health and eating disorder recovery online. We reminisce about the quirky, funny, and complicated parts of life at Bethel, the highs and the lows, and what healing has looked like on the other side. - Rihanna’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/thediaryofrihanna/ Rihanna’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thediaryofrihanna Rihanna’s Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/c/RihannaTeixeira - Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠ Follow for more:   Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠  Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠  Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠  Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠  Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

    1h 48m
4.9
out of 5
106 Ratings

About

Welcome to Healed-ish! A podcast about the messy, beautiful, and sometimes insane process of healing. Each week, host Jubilee Dawn (@jubileedawns) sits down with survivors of betrayal, religious trauma, catfishing, toxic relationships, and more to unpack the chaos and growth that comes with starting over. These are the stories people don’t always tell — honest, raw, a little funny, and fully human.

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