I spoke with Maija Haavisto about meditation, dissociation, living with chronic illness, and her severe physical symptoms after a nondual shift. Timestamps 0:00 Chronic illness, loving-kindness, and discovering meditation8:55 When meditation helps and harms18:29 Awakening, suffering, and spirituality as connection25:18 Two forms of dissociation32:20 Trauma, parts, and the fiction of personality disorders39:29 Is society built on dissociation?46:23 Why you can’t speedrun healing59:04 Somatic parts work1:01:57 Nonduality, energy, and physical illness1:20:05 Bulgaria, intuition, and spiritual practice Maija Haavisto is a writer, therapist, and author of Loving Awakening and Shattered White-Out. We discuss meditation’s benefits and risks, how to view all inner and relational dynamics through a "parts model" of the mind, and the function of dissociation. We also talk about the label of personality disorder, speedrunning healing, somatic work, and Maija’s experience of physical illness following meditation and nondual shifts. We finish with her move to Bulgaria, Balkan music, and her changing relationship to spiritual practice. This podcast is sponsored by Attention Copilot (attncopilot.com). You can spend all day working and still avoid deep work on the things that would make the biggest difference. Our coaches help you identify, prioritize, and face them. During an 80-minute to three-hour call, your coach helps you work through stress, make decisions, and stay clear-headed as you make progress on actual work. As you build this skill, you can feel more satisfied with your weeks, more confident taking on bigger things, and more at ease in your work. Maija links Website Medium X YouTube Guiding and somatic workBooks and writingBoth Loving Awakening and Shattered White-Out are available to download for free. You can reach out to Maija to explore working with her.Resources mentioned • Loving Awakening: A Practical Guide to Embodied Spirituality and Healing with Metta, IFS, the Imaginal and Community — Maija Haavisto • Shattered White-Out: How Trauma and Dissociation Mold the World, Your Relationships and You — Maija Haavisto • Tranquil Wisdom Insight Meditation (TWIM) • Internal Family Systems (IFS) • Maija’s guided meditations and hypnosis • Ken McLeod — Unfettered Mind