Send us a text A badge on the shelf. A heart full of noise. Matt spent seventeen years with the California Highway Patrol, serving everywhere from Los Angeles freeways to Humboldt County backroads, from media briefings to late-night notifications no family should receive. One summer day in 2016—a call involving a toddler close in age to his own child—pierced any belief that grit alone could carry the weight. What followed was years of pushing through, waves of panic no one saw, a controversial shooting he supervised with no debrief to follow, and the quiet dread of feeling like the “brotherhood” had gone silent. We sit down for a candid, unguarded conversation about what PTSD looks like when the uniform comes off: the way small towns make every scene feel personal, the pressure to appear fine, and the fear of becoming a liability to a system that counts heads more than hearts. Matt shares what actually helped—therapy, faith, ketamine-assisted treatment, and a powerful experience at Mighty Oaks that led to sobriety and a turning point. He never stopped serving his community; he just changed the stage. As DJ Radd, he brings sound, light, and presence to weddings and school dances, trading sirens for smiles and rediscovering the joy of helping people on their best days. This is a story about identity after the job, about choosing meaning when the noise won’t stop, and about building a second career that heals. We talk practical tools for first responder mental health, the realities of CHP roles beyond traffic stops, and how music, mentorship, and faith create a path forward. If you’ve wondered whether purpose can survive trauma, or how to support someone who’s carrying more than they let on, you’ll hear hard truths and real hope. If this resonates, share it with a friend, subscribe for more conversations like this, and leave a review with the moment that stayed with you. Your words help the next listener find a lifeline. Gift For You!!! Murders to Music will be releasing "SNAPSHOTS" periodcally to keep you entertained throughout the week! Snapshots will be short, concise bonus episodes containing funny stories, tid bits of brilliance and magical moments!!! Give them a listen and keep up on the tea! Hi, I'm Aaron your host and I would love to invite you to leave a review, send some fan mail or email me at Murder2Music@gmail.com. Does something I'm saying resonate with you...Tell me about it! Is there something you want to hear more about...Tell me about it! This show is to provide value, education and entertainment and hopefully find its way to the WORLD! Share, Like and Love the Murders to Music Podcast! www.StreamlineEventsLLC.com www.DoubleDownDuo.com @StreamlineSEE @DDownDuo Youtube-Instagram-Facebook