Intrinsically Ordered

Cade Bradley
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  • Philosophy
  • Updated Semiweekly

Exploring the intersection of queer identity and catholicism - sharing stories of those who've left, remained, and created their own journeys; providing commentary on the catholic church's harmful teachings; helping those who've been hurt.

  1. Jun 1

    Why I No Longer Call Myself An Atheist

    When I was a traditional Catholic, I was taught exactly what atheism was supposed to be: lonely, meaningless, directionless, and ultimately incapable of providing a fulfilling life. Then I became an atheist myself. In this episode, I reflect on my journey from devout Catholicism to atheism and explain why I don't actually think atheism is a worldview at all. I talk about losing my faith, losing my community, searching for meaning, running ultramarathons, and eventually discovering that atheism wasn't a replacement for religion. 00:00 - Backstory 01:16 - What Catholicism Taught Me About Atheism 03:00 - I Never Wanted to Experience Atheism 05:33 - Atheism Was As Bad as I Was Told 07:03 - What An Alcoholic Ultramarathoner Taught Me 09:42 - Atheism is Nothing, Because It's Everything 11:26 - Atheism is Options - Not a Plan 12:46 - Atheism Gave Me Everything I Love 15:37 - The Irony of Ultramarathon Finish Lines To join our discord community for $1 or to support my work/get early access to content, check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/gayextrad To be a guest on the episode, visit my YT channel and send me an email.

    18 min

  2. May 19

    Why Catholicism Is Just Protestantism With Extra Steps - Atheist Imprimatur - Brian Holdsworth

    Today on the Intrinsically Ordered Podcast, Colin returns for the first episode of our new reaction series: The Apostates' Imprimatur. We react to a video from  ⁨@BrianHoldsworth⁩ titled “I’m Not Smart Enough to Be Protestant” and unpack some of the biggest questions surrounding Catholicism, Protestantism, authority, heresy, and the chaos of early Christianity. As two former traditional Catholics with years inside the Latin Mass world, we break down whether Christianity actually provides a reliable path to “truth,” whether Catholic authority solves the problems it claims to solve, and why debates about doctrine have existed since the earliest days of the church. We also dive into Protestantism, Catholic converts, church history, heresy, the Trinity, the Bible, and the strange world of online Catholic apologetics. 00:00 Podcast Return and Format 01:11 Colin’s Trad Catholic Background 09:33 Reacting to Protestant Confusion 35:17 Early Christianity Chaos 36:43 Paul and Church Authority 42:05 Gospel for the Poor 56:51 Unity as Proof 01:19:04 Trad Caths vs Authority 01:20:41 Interpretation Problem Returns 01:27:42 Canon History and Church Fathers 01:53:34 Hell Threat and Harm To join our discord community for $1 or to support my work/get early access to content, check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/gayextrad To be a guest on the episode, visit my YT channel and send me an email.

    2h 2m

  3. May 4

    I Watched Every Video by FORMER "De-Transitioner" Neeza Powers: Right-Wing Christian Celebrity

    I spent a week researching one of the internet’s most viral and controversial gender stories - someone who detransitioned, became a Christian influencer, and then ultimately transitioned again. In this video, I break down the full timeline, the psychology behind what happened, and how online religious communities, algorithms, and high-control dynamics may have shaped this journey in ways most people are completely missing. 0:00 - Conservative Meltdown 2:23 - Neeza's First Posts 11:15 - Her First Time at Church 18:10 - Christian Hate and Gender Dysphoria 30:31 - Becoming Catholic 49:55 - "Failing" Jesus 59:19 - Toxic Christian Responses 1:12:54 - Better Christian Responses 1:18:24 - Neeza's Thoughts To join our discord community for $1 or to support my work/get early access to content, check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/gayextrad To be a guest on the episode, visit my YT channel and send me an email.

    1h 22m

  4. Apr 29

    I Left the Church: Talking With My Former Youth Minister about Mental Health

    Former youth minister (and current Catholic) Ashley Kiefer joins me to talk about the messy overlap of faith, OCD, and scrupulosity. We trace her journey from professional Catholic youth worker to licensed therapist, why quoting the catechism at every problem stopped working, and how therapy forced her to learn actual listening instead of spiritual “fixing.” We dig into what scrupulosity really is, how it shows up as a subtype of OCD, why sermons that end with “just trust God more” don’t work, and how online Catholic culture and “rad trad” spaces can quietly supercharge religious anxiety. Ashley shares practical steps for discerning when it’s time to see a therapist, how to find scrupulosity-literate help, and why dealing with OCD is not a betrayal of your faith. 00:00 Ashley’s Journey from Youth Ministry to Therapy 04:21 Discussing Mental Health in Youth Ministry 07:34 Transitioning to a Career in Therapy 10:40 The Role of Faith in Therapy 25:59 Scrupulosity and OCD 29:52 Addressing Misconceptions and Scrupulosity 35:45 Understanding Intrusive Thoughts 39:24 Scrupulosity in Catholicism 56:15 Seeking Help and Resources To join our discord community for $1 or to support my work/get early access to content, check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/gayextrad To be a guest on the episode, visit my YT channel and send me an email.

    1h 4m

  5. Apr 26

    I'm a Gay Atheist. I went to a Christian YouTuber Conference with @heliocentric

    I got invited by  @HeliocentricOfficial to one of the biggest evangelical Christian YouTuber conferences in the country… as a gay atheist. Surrounded by Christian apologists, pastors, influencers, Mormons, Catholics, and some of the biggest names in Christian internet culture, I spent three days asking a simple question: why am I still an atheist after all of this? From debates on the Trinity to conversations about homosexuality, conversion therapy, suffering, and the strange beauty of religion itself, this was one of the most fascinating weekends I’ve had in a long time. 0:00 - Influencers^3 01:22 -  @Heliocentric 's invitation 03:26 - Day 1 04:06 - Lesson 1 08:05 - Day 1 Continues 09:44 - Lesson 2 17:26 - The Debate 18:37 - Lesson 3 23:54 - Post Debate 24:45 - Lesson 4 28:54 - Day 2's Craziness 31:02 - Lesson 5 34:17 - Bringing My Boyfriend To join our discord community for $1 or to support my work/get early access to content, check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/gayextrad To be a guest on the episode, visit my YT channel and send me an email.

    36 min

  6. Apr 15

    Is the Latin Mass Really Saving the Catholic Church? (w/ Kevin Nontradicath)

    What if the Latin Mass isn’t the magic solution everyone online says it is? In this episode of the Intrinsically Ordered Podcast, I sit down with Kevin Non-Trad, who was literally born into an FSSP Latin Mass community, went to the parish school in the church basement, prayed the rosary in Latin, and watched his childhood classmates quietly drift away from the faith. I come from the opposite direction: a suburban Novus Ordo kid who dove head-first into trad YouTube, daily rosaries, and Latin Mass as the supposed answer to the Church’s crisis—only to leave Catholicism anyway. 00:00 Kevin's Background in the Latin Mass 05:15 Retention Rates and Realities 07:05 Challenges and Critiques of the Traditionalist Movement 18:31 Liturgical Anecdotes 18:58 Why People Convert 21:46 Challenges and Criticisms of Latin Mass 25:06 The Human Connection to Rituals and Music 26:32 The Complexity of Faith and Personal Beliefs To join our discord community for $1 or to support my work/get early access to content, check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/gayextrad To be a guest on the episode, visit my YT channel and send me an email.

    39 min

  7. Apr 8

    I Read The Entire Supreme Court Conversion Therapy Case (It's Not What The Media is Telling You)

    I've been working on this case for almost a year now - and I figured I'd give you the ultimate guide to understanding what is evening happening with conversion therapy and the Supreme Court. In this video, I break down the law, the arguments, and what the majority, concurrence, and dissent actually say. More importantly, I explain what the case is really about—because the framing of the question changes everything. 0:00 Background: Framing the Case 6:54 Background: What Colorado Law Says 12:07 Background: Defining Conversion Therapy 20:04 Background: How the Case Got Here 26:37 Background: First Amendment Basics 32:33 Background: How SCOTUS Decisions Work 43:29 Majority: Strict Scrutiny Explained 47:27 Majority: What Therapy Really Is 51:06 Majority: Parsing Colorado Law 54:39 Majority: Speech Versus Conduct 55:17 Majority: Facial V As Applied Challenge 58:34 Majority: Black Swan Analogy 1:02:11 Majority: No Perfect Precedent Fits 1:10:48 Majority: Bad Citations And Categories 1:14:01 Majority: Lawyers Cases Aren't Therapy 1:16:41 Majority: NIFLA Case Breakdown 1:20:24 Majority: Viewpoint Discrimination Claim 1:21:38 Majority: Orientation Versus Behavior 1:24:09 Majority: Religion Not The Issue 1:25:06 Majority: NIFLA 1:28:30 Majority: Professional Speech Limits 1:29:39 Majority: Viewpoint Discrimination Claim 1:36:28 Majority: Speech Versus Conduct 1:38:54 Majority: Informed Consent Analogy 1:45:59 Majority: Licensing Tradition Debate 1:56:51 Majority: Therapy Is Medical Treatment 2:05:16 Majority: Licensing And What’s Still Allowed 2:08:38 Majority: Consent Power Dynamics 2:10:28 Majority: When Actions Are Speech 2:13:57 Majority: Majority Logic Breakdown 2:19:23 Majority: Medical Consensus Hypothetical 2:23:51 Colorado Strategy Failures 2:32:28 Concurrence: Viewpoint Claim 2:36:46 Concurrence: Not A Mirror Image 2:40:54 Dissent: Jackson’s Framework 2:48:19 Dissent: Harms Of Conversion Therapy 2:52:42 Dissent: Why Minors Need Protection 2:52:56 Dissent: Fraud Not Free Speech 2:53:27 Dissent: What The Law Actually Bans 2:54:37 Dissent: Allowed Goals And Counseling 2:55:15 Dissent: Transition And Detransition Clarified 2:56:49 Dissent: Speech Versus Treatment Conduct 2:59:00 Dissent: Case Law And Student Speech 3:02:30 Dissent: NLA Versus Casey Breakdown 3:07:18 Dissent: Words As Medical Treatment 3:11:32 Dissent: Defining Professional Medical Speech 3:15:22 Dissent: Standards Of Care And Viewpoints 3:23:38 Dissent: History Of Licensing And Malpractice 3:32:37 Dissent: Majority Plays With Fire 3:39:04 Dedication And Final Thoughts To join our discord community for $1 or to support my work/get early access to content, check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/gayextrad To be a guest on the episode, visit my YT channel and send me an email.

    3h 42m

  8. Mar 26

    "I Was Brainwashed Into Making Ex-Gay TikToks" - Interviewing Griffin on Conversion Therapy

    In this episode of the Intrinsically Ordered Podcast, I sit down with Griffin to hear one of the most intense and personal stories I’ve encountered about growing up gay in a Christian environment. We talk about what it’s like to be taught that your identity is sinful, the psychological toll of trying to “pray the gay away,” and how systems of shame, guilt, and fear can shape the way you see yourself. Griffin shares his firsthand experience with conversion therapy, including manipulation tactics, missionary school, and even being pressured into shock therapy. We also explore what it looks like to break free from that world, rebuild your identity, and navigate the tension between faith and sexuality—along with how these stories are still impacting people today. 00:00 Strict Megachurch Upbringing 04:01 Realizing He Was Gay 21:46 Hawaii Mission School Brainwashing 28:38 Fear Tactics and Shame 32:05 Ex-Gay TikTok Era 34:36 Coerced Shock Therapy 40:37 Healing and Hope Ahead To join our discord community for $1 or to support my work/get early access to content, check out my patreon: https://www.patreon.com/c/gayextrad To be a guest on the episode, visit my YT channel and send me an email.

    55 min
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Exploring the intersection of queer identity and catholicism - sharing stories of those who've left, remained, and created their own journeys; providing commentary on the catholic church's harmful teachings; helping those who've been hurt.

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  • Creator
    Cade Bradley
  • Years Active
    2024 - 2026
  • Episodes
    69
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Cade Hanson Media LLC
  • Show Website
    Intrinsically Ordered

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