In Bed with Christy Love

Christy Love
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In Bed with Christy Love is where identity, shame, faith, sex, and healing meet the real, messy process of becoming—and learning how to actually live your life by design. Hosted by Christy Love—pastor, porn star, and comedian—this podcast is about facing the parts of yourself you’ve hidden, judged, or tried to fix, and realizing you were never disqualified from living your best life. Honest conversations, raw truth, and a perspective that changes how you see yourself… and your life. You’re never alone in this bed.

  1. 3d ago

    EP 19: How BDSM Helped Me Stop Caring What People Think (The Lesson Wasn’t About Sex)

    Everyone assumes this episode is about sex. It isn’t. This is one of the most personal stories I’ve ever shared. For years, I lived for other people’s approval. I was the shy girl who was terrified of disappointing everyone around her. One criticism could ruin my week. I believed I wasn’t smart enough, attractive enough, or good enough. Then life took me down a path I never expected. Ironically, the confidence I had spent my entire life searching for came from one of the most misunderstood communities in the world. This episode isn’t about convincing anyone to embrace BDSM. It’s about people-pleasing. It’s about shame. It’s about judgment. It’s about exposure therapy, confidence, self-worth, and discovering that criticism only has the power we give it. I also open up about my struggles with depression, my faith, growing up feeling “not enough,” my years in the adult industry, and the moment I finally realized that my worth is not determined by other people’s opinions. If you’ve ever worried about being judged… If you’ve ever struggled to speak up for yourself… If you’ve ever felt trapped trying to make everyone else happy… I recorded this episode for you. Because freedom begins the moment you stop asking the world for permission to be yourself. #PeoplePleasing #SelfAcceptance #Confidence #PersonalGrowth #MentalHealth #HealingJourney #FaithAndGrace #BDSM #Podcast #ChristyLove

    1h 15m

  2. Jul 4

    EP 18: Phil Donlon, The Chicago Fire Star You Don’t Really Know | In Bed with Christy Love

    Everyone knows him from Chicago Fire, but there’s so much more to his story. I sat down with Phil Donlon to talk about the moments that shaped him, the struggles behind the success, and the lessons that changed his life. This is the conversation beyond the TV screen.

    1h 31m

  3. Jun 26

    Ep 17: I Never Believed In Myself

    For most of my life, I hid behind stronger people. First it was my mom. Then it was my husband. I told myself I was easygoing, supportive, and laid back. But the truth was much harder to admit: I was terrified of responsibility because responsibility meant I could fail. In this deeply personal episode, I share the childhood moment that planted the seed of self-doubt, how I spent years avoiding decisions, what happened when my husband was sentenced to 30 years in prison, and the depression that left me praying, “God, please help me get out of bed.” From starting a wedding photography business with zero experience, to forgetting the code to my lockbox during a season of overwhelming stress, to stepping onto a comedy stage terrified of bombing, this episode is about the fear of not being enough and the surprising truth I discovered about confidence. Because confidence isn’t never feeling scared. It’s moving forward anyway. If you’ve ever questioned yourself, doubted your abilities, struggled with responsibility, battled insecurity, or wondered if you’re capable of more than you’re currently living, this episode is for you. Maybe you don’t need more confidence. Maybe you need proof. And maybe you’ve been stronger than you think all along. #InBedWithChristyLove #SelfWorth #PersonalGrowth #Confidence #MentalHealth #OvercomingFear #Resilience #FaithJourney #SelfDiscovery #PodcastLife

    38 min

  4. Jun 19

    Ep 16: Lucky Starr: The Truth Behind the Name Nobody Talks About

    Everyone knows the name Lucky Starr, but very few know the woman behind it.In this episode of In Bed with Christy Love, Lucky opens up about the moments that shaped her life, the challenges people never see, and what it’s really like living behind a public persona. We talk about success, identity, relationships, reinvention, and the lessons she’s learned along the way.This is the side of Lucky Starr you’ve probably never heard before.

    1h 28m

  5. Jun 12

    EP 15: When Judging People Is Easier Than Understanding Them

    It’s easy to judge someonewhen you only know one version of their story. One headline.One label.One moment. And suddenly…people stop seeing a human beingand start seeing a category. In this episode, Christy reflects on the internet reaction surrounding the death of Leo — the owner of OnlyFans —and why the celebration around his death affected her more than the news itself. Because underneath the comments,the outrage,and the moral superiority…was something deeper: The reality of how quickly people judge things they’ve never personally needed to survive. From navigating financial pressure during COVID…to surviving one of the hardest seasons of her life while her husband was in jail…this episode explores the uncomfortable space between survival and perception. Because sometimes…the very thing people condemnis the same thing helping someone stay afloat. And maybe the problem isn’t that people are too different. Maybe it’s that we’re too quick to assume we understand each other.

    36 min

  6. Jun 5

    EP 14: The Hidden Pressure of Having Your Life “Together”

    There are people who look calm on the outsideorganizedconsistentin control But what if that calm… isn’t actually peace? What if it’s just control working perfectly—until something disrupts it? In this episode, we talk about the kind of pressure that hides behind discipline.The kind that looks strong from the outside… but cracks the moment life doesn’t go according to plan. Because sometimes it’s not anger.It’s not stress. It’s the need for control being challenged. And when that happens… everything feels bigger than it should. If you’ve ever felt “off” over something small,or struggled when things don’t go your way, this conversation will hit deeper than you expect.

    29 min

  7. May 29

    EP 13: The Life You’re Living Might Be Built on Fear

    There’s a version of fear…that doesn’t look like fear at all. It looks like your personality. Quiet.Careful.Overthinking.Holding back. But what if that was never who you were? In this episode, Christy shares the moment she realizedthat fear didn’t just show up in her life— it shaped it. From a childhood experience where fear lived in her body before she could even understand it…to the patterns that followed her into adulthood— this is a story about how fear evolves. How it hides.How it convinces you it’s just “who you are.” And how it quietly holds you backwithout ever sounding like the enemy. Because fear doesn’t always scream. Sometimes it sounds calm.Logical.Protective. “This is safer.”“You don’t have to do this.” But over time, that voice starts making your decisions. And the cost isn’t just emotional. It’s opportunities you never took.Conversations you avoided.Versions of yourself you never became. This episode also explores what happenswhen you finally confront that voice— not by eliminating fear…but by choosing to move anyway. Because the truth is: Fear doesn’t go away. It just loses controlwhen you stop listening to it.

    29 min

  8. May 22

    EP 12: The Version of You Life Forces You to Become

    There’s a version of independence…no one talks about. The kind that doesn’t feel freeing.The kind that feels heavy. The kind that shows upwhen life removes the person you depended on—and suddenly… everything is on you. In this episode, Christy shares what it actually looks liketo be forced into responsibility before you feel ready. From losing the person she leaned on…to carrying the weight of decisions, leadership, and survival—this is a story about what happenswhen there is no backup plan. No one to fall back on.No one to figure it out for you. Just you…and everything that now depends on you. This isn’t the kind of growth people celebrate. It’s not inspiring in the moment.It’s not empowering at first. It feels like pressure.Like confusion.Like being the least qualified person in the room—and still having to lead anyway. But somewhere in that weight…something begins to shift. Not because you feel ready.But because you don’t have a choice. Because sometimes…you don’t become independent. You become responsible. And the version of you that comes from that—isn’t the one you chose. It’s the one life needed you to become.

    24 min
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In Bed with Christy Love is where identity, shame, faith, sex, and healing meet the real, messy process of becoming—and learning how to actually live your life by design. Hosted by Christy Love—pastor, porn star, and comedian—this podcast is about facing the parts of yourself you’ve hidden, judged, or tried to fix, and realizing you were never disqualified from living your best life. Honest conversations, raw truth, and a perspective that changes how you see yourself… and your life. You’re never alone in this bed.

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  • Creator
    Christy Love
  • Years Active
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  • Episodes
    20
  • Rating
    Explicit
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