F**K... Where do we start?

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F**K... Where do we start is the raw, unfiltered podcast where nothing is off-limits. From life's biggest struggles to the messiest tea, we dive deep into trauma, mental health, and everything in between. No sugarcoating, no holding back just real, honest conversations about the things we all think but rarely say. Buckle up, Because this ride is about to get real.

  1. Oct 7

    🎙️ Dallas — We Ain’t Shit Varsity

    Okay, this one is just f*****g FUN. 😂 In “We Ain’t Shit Varsity,” I sit down with Dallas while he’s back in Salt Lake City for a stop on his first headlining tour. Dallas is originally from Utah but now lives in Nashville, and he’s been doing music for a long f*****g time. We talk about what pushed him to finally make the move, building his career, the people on his team who have been there through it, touring, life, and pretty much whatever the f**k else came into our heads. And the timing of this episode was actually insane. While he was on tour, one of his songs hit ONE MILLION streams. Getting to sit down with him during that moment—on his first headlining tour, back where everything started—was pretty f*****g cool to be a tiny part of. But don’t expect an hour-long serious conversation about the music industry. 😂 We laugh. We talk shit. We get completely sidetracked. We somehow start inventing our own f*****g animals. And at some point, We Ain’t Shit Varsity became a thing… so obviously that had to be the episode title. It’s chaotic, funny, random, and also a conversation with someone who’s spent years working toward this and is finally watching some really f*****g cool shit happen. Utah → Nashville → first headlining tour → ONE MILLION streams. Not too f*****g bad for We Ain’t Shit Varsity. 😂🎙️ Dallas — “We Ain’t Shit Varsity” | FUCK…Where Do We Start?

  2. Oct 1

    🎙️ Rebecca — It Could Happen to Anyone

    Addiction doesn’t have a type. It doesn’t care what you look like, where you come from, whether you’re a parent, how much potential you have, or what you thought your life was going to look like. It could happen to anyone. In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Rebecca for an honest conversation about addiction, sobriety, motherhood, relationships, rehab, recovery, and what life can look like on the other side of some really f*****g hard years. Rebecca has been through a lot. Drug addiction. Treatment. Unhealthy relationships. Starting over. Learning how to live differently when the patterns you’ve known for so long aren’t the patterns you want anymore. But her story isn’t only about where she’s been. It’s also about where she is now. She’s a mom. She’s sober. She’s in a genuinely good place in her life, and she’s using what she’s lived through to help other women recognize their own strength and feel empowered to create something different for themselves. We talk about recovery beyond simply getting sober—the relationships you have to reevaluate, the identity you have to rebuild, learning to trust yourself again, and realizing that your past doesn’t automatically get to decide your future. Because the person struggling with addiction isn’t some stereotype or cautionary tale. She’s somebody’s daughter. Somebody’s friend. Somebody’s mom. She’s a whole f*****g person. And it could happen to anyone. 🎙️ “It Could Happen to Anyone” — Rebecca | FUCK…Where Do We Start? 🖤

  3. Sep 29

    🎙️ Dr. Jessica Fish — The Alchemy That Followed: Lessons from a Wild Life

    Some lives follow a straight line. And then there are the lives that take every unexpected turn imaginable—and somehow turn all of it into something meaningful. In “The Alchemy That Followed: Lessons from a Wild Life,” I sit down virtually with Dr. Jessica Fish for a conversation about the experiences that shaped her, the lessons that came afterward, and what it means to take everything life has handed you and turn it into something new. We talk about growth, identity, change, the chapters of our lives that don’t make sense while we’re living them, and how sometimes the most important transformation happens after the chaos. Jessica also shares her perspective as a doctor, the work she’s doing now, and the new virtual cohort she’s creating—bringing together her experience, knowledge, and everything she’s learned along the way. This conversation is about more than professional accomplishments or having your shit figured out. It’s about becoming. About looking back at the wild parts of your life and realizing they weren’t separate from who you became—they helped create her. Because sometimes the magic isn’t in what happened to us. It’s in what we do with what happened next. The alchemy that followed. 🎙️ “The Alchemy That Followed: Lessons from a Wild Life” — Dr. Jessica Fish | FUCK…Where Do We Start?

  4. Sep 24

    🎙️ Aly Black — If You Only Knew

    You can look at someone and have absolutely no f*****g idea what their life has looked like behind closed doors.   In “If You Only Knew,” I sit down with Aly Black for one of those stories where every new layer makes you think, wait… WHAT?   We talk about a relationship that became far more complicated than anyone on the outside could have known, polyamory, marriage, a chaotic relationship with her ex-husband, court battles, and what it takes to eventually pick up the pieces and build something different.   But this episode isn’t just about the crazy shit that happened.   It’s about what happens after.   Learning boundaries. Rebuilding your life. Navigating relationships differently. Letting yourself trust again. Finding a new normal after spending so much time living in chaos.   And we talk about what it’s like when deeply personal parts of your life end up inside a courtroom—and how complicated it can be to tell your story when there are multiple sides, memories, and experiences involved.   Because sometimes we look at someone and think we know their story.   We see who they are today without knowing what it took to get there.   And sometimes all you can think is…   If you only knew.   🎙️ “If You Only Knew” — Aly Black | FUCK…Where Do We Start?

  5. Sep 22

    🎙️ Hailey + Mary — Take Up Some F*****g Space

    What happens when you stop trying to make yourself smaller for everybody else?   In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Hailey and Mary for a conversation about being seen, stepping outside your comfort zone, grief, mental health, trauma, confidence, and figuring out who you are when you finally give yourself permission to take up space.   Hailey and I have known each other since we were little, but life took us in different directions before we reconnected years later. We talk about what it means to push yourself into uncomfortable situations, how grief and trauma change you, and what can happen when you decide to show up even when you’re scared.   Mary brings an entirely different perspective to the conversation. She’s spent her whole life literally standing out—being tall meant being noticed whether she wanted to be or not. We talk about being seen, confidence, learning to own the things that make you different, and what happens when you stop treating standing out like it’s something you need to apologize for.   And somewhere between all of those stories is something I think a lot of us are still learning:   You don’t have to shrink yourself to make other people comfortable.   You don’t have to wait until you’re completely healed to do something scary.   And you definitely don’t have to blend in just because standing out feels uncomfortable.   Sometimes you have to walk into the room exactly as you are and take up some f*****g space.   🎙️ “Take Up Some F*****g Space” — FUCK…Where Do We Start? 🖤

  6. Sep 11

    🎙️ Hunter — F**k It! Let’s Go!

    Sometimes you can spend forever thinking about changing your life. And sometimes you just have to say: F**k it. Let’s go. In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Hunter for a conversation about mental health, addiction, jail, rehab, family, residential treatment, success, and what happens when life forces you onto a path you never thought you’d take. Hunter opens up about addiction and the experiences that eventually changed the direction of his life. We talk about how easy it can be to hide what you’re going through, especially when everyone around you thinks you’re doing fine. But Hunter is so much more than his history with addiction. We talk about siblings growing up in the same family and somehow experiencing completely different childhoods. We talk about pain becoming fuel, success, breaking habits, family, the people who impact us, and lessons you sometimes have to learn the f*****g hard way. I also bring in my experience working in residential care and what that taught me about the human beings behind the behaviors, diagnoses, addictions, and decisions we tend to judge from the outside. This isn’t a neat little before-and-after recovery story. It’s about being a complicated f*****g human being. Making mistakes. Going down roads you never expected. Learning some shit. Changing some shit. And eventually deciding where you want to go from here. Sometimes there’s no profound quote or perfect plan.Sometimes it’s just: F**k it. Let’s go. 🎙️ “F**k It! Let’s Go!” — FUCK…Where Do We Start?

  7. Sep 10

    But, I Love Everyone

    In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Cait for an incredibly vulnerable conversation about mental health, BPD, relationships, parenting, loneliness, and what it’s like trying to navigate life when you’re struggling internally. Cait was nervous to come on the podcast and share her story—and that’s part of what makes this conversation so important. She didn’t come on pretending to have everything figured out. She came on as herself. We talk about how mental health can affect the way we communicate, love, parent, and see ourselves. We talk about feeling misunderstood, feeling alone even when you’re surrounded by people, and how difficult it can be to explain what’s happening inside your own head. We also talk about relationships, the realities of parenting while you’re struggling yourself, asking for help, and why having honest conversations about mental health matters. This episode isn’t about having the perfect answer or the perfect healing story. It’s about being willing to tell the truth about where you are. Because sometimes hearing another person say “I’ve felt that too” is exactly what somebody needs to feel a little less alone. Cait showed up scared, vulnerable, and willing to share her story anyway—and I’m incredibly grateful she trusted me with it. 🖤 🎙️ Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? is now streaming. If you or someone you know is struggling, please reach out. You don’t have to wait until you’re at your breaking point to ask for support. 🖤 Mental health crisis or emotional distress: Call or text 988 🖤 Immediate danger: Call 911

  8. Aug 26

    How The F**k Is She Still Smiling?

    There is something incredibly powerful about finally getting to tell your story in your own words. In this episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start?, I sit down with Ashley for a raw conversation about abuse, single motherhood, health struggles, trauma, survival, and what it actually looks like to keep going when life has handed you more than your fair share. Ashley opens up about things she's experienced behind closed doors and the reality of carrying those experiences while still trying to show up as a mom, take care of herself, navigate her health, and figure out what healing looks like on the other side. And this isn't a perfectly packaged healing story. It's real. We talk about the things that happen to us, how they continue affecting us long after the moment has passed, and what it means to finally give yourself permission to talk about them. I also share some of my own experiences throughout this conversation, including what I've been learning about breathwork, slowing down, reconnecting with your body, and realizing there's a difference between simply functioning and actually being okay. There are stories people carry for years because they're afraid of what will happen when they finally say them out loud. This is Ashley's story. In her words. On her terms. And I'm grateful she trusted me with a space to tell it. 🖤 🎙️ Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? is now streaming on Spotify.

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F**K... Where do we start is the raw, unfiltered podcast where nothing is off-limits. From life's biggest struggles to the messiest tea, we dive deep into trauma, mental health, and everything in between. No sugarcoating, no holding back just real, honest conversations about the things we all think but rarely say. Buckle up, Because this ride is about to get real.

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