Grief Is Not A Dirty Word

Nick Gaylord
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Grief Is Not A Dirty Word is a weekly podcast that brings honest, real-world conversations about grief, loss, trauma, healing, and mental health into the light. Hosted by Nick Gaylord, the show creates a safe, compassionate space for anyone navigating the complicated emotions that come with losing a parent, partner, child, friend, relationship, or former version of themselves. Originally launched as Our Dead Dads, the podcast has evolved into a broader mission: to normalize grief and break the stigma around talking about it. Nick explores every corner of the grieving experience — from anticipatory grief and sudden loss to complicated family dynamics, unresolved anger, identity shifts, and the invisible pain people carry long after the world assumes they’re “fine.” Each episode features powerful, unfiltered stories from guests who have lived through loss and rebuilt their lives in deeply personal ways. Through conversations centered on resilience, vulnerability, courage, and connection, the podcast helps listeners understand that grief isn’t something to hide — it’s something that deserves space, honesty, and community. Whether your grief is fresh or decades old, whether it’s tied to death or to a different kind of ending, this show will help you feel seen, supported, and less alone. If you’re looking for meaningful discussions about healing, emotional wellbeing, and the human experience — you’re in the right place. New episodes every Tuesday. Listen on all major podcast platforms or at griefisnotadirtyword.com. Grief Is Not A Dirty Word — because every story matters, every emotion belongs, and healing begins when we speak the truth.

  1. 12/23/2025

    Forgiveness After Murder, Trauma, and Grief Recovery with Scott Stewart

    TO CONTACT SCOTT OR TO CHECK OUT HIS WORK, GO TO: www.scottstewartspeaking.com WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: People navigating traumatic grief, complicated loss, family violence, or struggling with forgiveness after profound betrayal.  WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: A grounded, real-world framework for understanding grief, trauma recovery, and forgiveness without minimizing pain or excusing harm.   DESCRIPTION:  In this powerful Episode 66 of Grief Is Not A Dirty Word, host Nick Gaylord sits down with speaker and author Scott Stewart, whose father murdered his mother when Scott was just 22 years old. Scott shares the harrowing story of growing up in an abusive household, the night that changed everything, and the long road through traumatic grief and complex loss. Together, Nick and Scott explore the true meaning of forgiveness—what it is, what it is not, and why it is essential for healing. This conversation unpacks grief after violence, generational trauma, therapy, faith, and the daily work of choosing release over resentment. Scott explains why forgiveness is not about letting someone off the hook, forgetting what happened, or reconciling with unsafe people. This episode offers honest insight, practical tools, and deep compassion for anyone carrying unresolved grief, anger, or trauma.   This episode answers:  How do you forgive someone who committed murder?What does forgiveness really mean in grief and trauma recovery?Can you heal from violent loss without forgetting what happened?Why does unresolved grief turn into anger, bitterness, or resentment?How do you break cycles of abuse and generational trauma?   Key Takeaways:   Forgiveness is for the survivor, not the offenderForgiveness does not erase consequences or require reconciliationHealing grief requires feeling, not suppressing, painful emotionsForgiveness is often a repeated, intentional practice—not a one-time eventBreaking generational trauma starts with conscious healing work  GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS! FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM! BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

    1h 6m

  2. 12/17/2025

    Widower Grief, Parenting Through Loss, and Thriving After Tragedy with AJ Coleman

    PURCHASE AJ'S BOOK AT: https://keepthosefeetmoving.com/ WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS: Listeners navigating widower grief, spousal loss, anticipatory grief, and the long-term emotional impact of traumatic loss. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET: Honest insight into grief resilience, parenting after loss, acceptance, healing, and how to move forward without forgetting. DESCRIPTION: In this deeply moving episode of Grief Is Not A Dirty Word, host Nick Gaylord sits down with author and widower AJ Coleman to explore grief, loss, resilience, and rebuilding life after the death of a spouse. AJ shares the powerful love story he shared with his wife Corey, her battle with aggressive brain cancer, and the profound grief that followed her death just sixteen months after their daughter was born. Together, Nick and AJ discuss widower grief, anticipatory grief, parenting through loss, and the emotional complexity of raising a child while grieving a partner. AJ opens up about caregiving, acceptance, identity after loss, and how grief reshapes—but does not define—who we become. He also shares the philosophy behind his book Keep Those Feet Moving, an eight-step guide to coping with grief and thriving against all odds. This conversation is a powerful reminder that grief is not a dirty word—and that healing is possible, even after unimaginable loss. This episode answers: How do you cope with grief after losing a spouse to cancer?What does widower grief look like while raising a young child alone?How can grief become a catalyst for resilience and personal growth?How do you honor a loved one’s legacy while continuing to live fully?What helps people move from “why did this happen” to “where do I go now”?Key Takeaways: Grief is an experience you carry, not an identity that defines youAcceptance is a critical step in long-term healing after lossParenting through grief requires honesty, connection, and resiliencePurpose and meaning can emerge from profound personal tragedyMoving forward does not mean leaving love or memory behind  GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS! FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM! BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

    59 min

  3. 12/09/2025

    Grief, Forgiveness, and Rewriting the Fatherhood Narrative After Loss with Dave Roberts

    WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS Anyone navigating childhood grief, parental abandonment, complicated grief, or unresolved trauma. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET A compassionate, grounded conversation about healing father-loss, understanding generational patterns, and building a renewed relationship with grief. DESCRIPTION: Dave Roberts returns to Grief Is Not A Dirty Word for a powerful, vulnerable conversation about growing up without his father and learning to make peace with decades of unresolved grief. Nick Gaylord guides the interview with care, exploring Dave’s early childhood trauma, emotional wounds, and the healing work that helped him understand his father’s absence. Dave speaks openly about forgiveness, ancestral patterns, spiritual insight, and the impact of supportive male figures who shaped his life. The conversation expands into grief education, emotional resilience, and the lifelong search for belonging. Nick and Dave also reflect on the importance of storytelling, connection, and giving people a safe space to process difficult emotions. This episode offers a grounded pathway toward compassion, healing, and reclaiming your own narrative after loss. This episode answers: What does childhood grief look like when a parent leaves without explanation?How do adults process abandonment years after the original loss?What role does forgiveness play in healing complicated grief?Why do generational patterns and ancestral trauma influence how families cope?How can someone rebuild emotional trust and identity after growing up without a parent?Key Takeaways: You did not cause a parent’s departure or the breakup of your family.Childhood grief often mirrors abandonment, fear, anger, and unmet emotional needs.Understanding generational patterns can bring clarity to a parent’s behavior.Forgiveness does not excuse harm — it frees you from carrying it.It is never too late to heal, seek support, and rewrite your emotional story.  GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS! FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM! BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

    49 min

  4. 12/02/2025

    When Grief, Divorce, and Family Trauma Collide: Finding Strength and Recovery with Dan Adams

    Episode 63 - Dan Adams CHECK OUT DAN'S WEBSITE: https://brokenyellowline.com/home WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS Anyone navigating grief, divorce, family trauma, identity loss, or major life transitions. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET Powerful insight into grief recovery, emotional rebuilding, personal resilience, and reclaiming identity after life-altering loss. DESCRIPTION: Dan Adams shares an emotional, unfiltered look at the four-month stretch that turned his entire life upside down—losing his mother, facing painful revelations about his father, and watching a 24-year marriage come to an end in rapid succession. Nick guides Dan through the grief, trauma, and identity collapse that followed, exploring the emotional fallout and the long, honest road back to himself. Dan talks about the loneliness of grief, the shock of divorce at midlife, and the disorientation of becoming an empty nester in the same season. Together, they explore how rebuilding happens piece by piece—through truth, community, vulnerability, music, and connection. Dan explains how hearing others’ stories helped him feel less alone and how sharing his own creates healing for others as well. This episode is a raw, inspiring look at grief, resilience, and the courage to rise when everything falls apart. THIS EPISODE ANSWERS: What does grief look like when multiple losses hit at the same time?How do you rebuild your identity after divorce, parental loss, and family trauma?How do midlife transitions and empty nest grief impact emotional wellbeing?Why does hearing other people’s grief stories reduce isolation and shame?What helps someone recover when life radically changes in just a few months?KEY TAKEAWAYS: Grief doesn’t only come from death—it also comes from truth, identity, and family shifts.Multiple losses in quick succession can dismantle a person’s emotional foundation.Rebuilding requires honesty, community, vulnerability, and support from others.Sharing stories normalizes grief and helps people feel less alone in their pain.Healing is possible even after the most disorienting seasons of life.  GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS! FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM! BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

    1h 4m

  5. 12/02/2025

    From Rock Bottom to Renewal: Grief Transformation and Abuse Recovery with Elissa Swihart (Part 2 of 2)

    Episode 62 (Part 2) - Elissa Swihart TO HELP SUPPORT TALA'S CLOSET, CLICK HERE: https://bit.ly/m/thedvsurvivorsisterhood?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio TO LISTEN TO DISMISSED TRUE STORIES PODCAST, CLICK HERE: https://open.spotify.com/show/3sp42T4Tr0NaPas6Q8nQ27 WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS Survivors navigating trauma, grief, domestic violence, and post-separation challenges. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET A deeper understanding of how grief, healing, triggers, and survivorship continue years after abuse—and how purpose and community transform the recovery journey. DESCRIPTION: In this powerful conversation, Nick guides Elissa through the second half of her story—a deeply human look at what long-term healing from domestic violence really feels like. Elissa opens up about triggers that still appear years later, how grief intersects with trauma, and why survivorship is an ongoing process of unlearning and rebuilding. She shares the emotional and spiritual turning points that led her into advocacy and the extraordinary, grief-anchored moment that connected her to Tala, the young woman whose legacy inspired Tala’s Closet. Nick and Elissa also discuss the impact of post-separation abuse, the realities of healing while co-parenting, and the courage required to reclaim your identity after trauma. The conversation expands into community, purpose, grief education, and the life-changing ripple effect Elissa now creates for survivors everywhere. This episode is both a testament to the power of healing and an invitation to believe that rock bottom is not the end of your story.     Elissa interview - transcript -… This episode answers: What does long-term healing from domestic violence and trauma actually look like?Why do triggers and flashbacks appear years after leaving an abusive relationship?How does grief show up in survivors long after the abuse ends?What is Tala’s Closet, and how does it support survivors starting over?How can someone still in an abusive relationship recognize the moment they’re ready to leave?Key Takeaways: Survivorship is an ongoing grief-infused process of unlearning fear and rediscovering identity.Triggers often surface unexpectedly, even in healthy relationships, and do not signal failure.Post-separation abuse, legal abuse, and co-parenting challenges extend trauma long after leaving.Tala’s Closet grew from grief, purpose, community, and Elissa’s commitment to honoring a life lost to domestic violence.Rock bottom is not permanent—healing begins when survivors reclaim self-trust, anger, and agency.  GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS! FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM! BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

    55 min

  6. 12/02/2025

    Domestic Violence, Hidden Trauma, and the Hard Road Through Grief with Elissa Swihart (Part 1 of 2)

    Episode 62 (Part 1) - Elissa Swihart TO HELP SUPPORT TALA'S CLOSET, CLICK HERE: https://bit.ly/m/thedvsurvivorsisterhood?utm_source=ig&utm_medium=social&utm_content=link_in_bio TO LISTEN TO DISMISSED TRUE STORIES PODCAST, CLICK HERE: https://open.spotify.com/show/3sp42T4Tr0NaPas6Q8nQ27 WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS Survivors of domestic violence, people navigating trauma, and anyone grieving the loss of identity, safety, or self-worth. WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET A deeply honest look at surviving abuse, understanding trauma bonding, rebuilding identity, and finding hope after profound emotional grief. DESCRIPTION: In this powerful episode, Nick Gaylord sits down with Elissa Swihart to unpack the hidden emotional cost of domestic violence, trauma, and identity loss. Elissa shares how her abusive relationship began, the isolation that followed, and the brutal erosion of her confidence, voice, and sense of self. She describes the moment she realized she had become a shell of the person she once was—and the day she finally escaped with her son, her dog, and a single laundry basket of clothes. Nick guides the conversation through the grief that survivors carry long after leaving: grief for the life they imagined, grief for the version of themselves they lost, and grief for the safety they never had. Elissa’s story is raw, grounding, and rooted in truth, offering survivors and supporters a roadmap toward healing, self-awareness, and reclaiming personal power. This episode opens the door to conversations many survivors have never been able to speak out loud, shining a light on emotional strength, community, and the long road out of darkness.  Elissa interview - transcript -… This episode answers: What are the early warning signs of emotional abuse that most people miss?Why do so many survivors stay, return, or feel trapped in abusive relationships?How does identity loss show up during long-term domestic violence?What does the escape process really look like for survivors with children?How can survivors rebuild confidence, autonomy, and safety after trauma?Key Takeaways: Abuse often begins with love-bombing, isolation, and subtle emotional erosion.Survivors grieve the loss of identity, safety, and autonomy long before they can leave.Leaving an abusive relationship is rarely a single event—it's a repeated, dangerous cycle.Self-awareness is one of the most powerful tools a survivor gains after escaping.Healing requires support, community, and the reclamation of personal voice and power.  GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS! FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM! BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

    1h 1m

  7. 12/02/2025

    Grief Lessons from Family Trauma, Sudden Loss, and Generational Pain with Heather Locklear

    Episode 61 - Heather Locklear WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS  Anyone navigating grief, trauma, sudden loss, suicide loss, or unresolved emotional pain.  WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET  Tools, language, and emotional clarity to better understand grief, support others, and process layered loss.  DESCRIPTION:  In this powerful conversation, Nick sits down with Heather Locklear to unpack the deep emotional impact of family trauma, sudden loss, and lifelong grief. Heather reflects on learning about suicide at a young age, and how early exposure to death shaped her identity and emotional patterns. She discusses the heartbreaking losses within her family, the grief of watching her daughter struggle, and the complicated terrain of animal loss and anticipatory grief. Together, Nick and Heather explore the generational weight of unspoken pain, the need for grief education, and the reality of healing when multiple losses collide. The episode also examines how sleep, avoidance, and self-protection can become coping mechanisms. Through honesty, humor, and vulnerability, Heather reveals how she continues to grow, forgive, and reconnect after decades of grief. Listeners will walk away with a deeper understanding of how grief shapes families—and how healing remains possible at any age.  This episode answers:  What does grief look like when someone grows up around suicide, trauma, and unresolved family pain?How do you support a child or adult who is overwhelmed by grief or panic after sudden loss?Why does pet loss trigger such intense grief, and how can people better respond to it?What are the long-term effects of learning about death or suicide too young?How can someone rebuild emotional strength after years of layered grief and family trauma? Key Takeaways:   Early exposure to suicide and death can create lifelong emotional patterns around grief and fear.Supporting someone in deep distress requires calm language, presence, and nonjudgment.Pet loss carries real grief weight and deserves validation, compassion, and proper emotional space.Generational trauma impacts how families communicate, cope, and emotionally self-protect.Healing expands when people speak openly about loss instead of hiding or minimizing it.  GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS! FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM! BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

    1h 16m
  8. Grief Is Not A Dirty Word (Formerly OUR DEAD DADS) - Trailer

    11/18/2025

    Grief Is Not A Dirty Word (Formerly OUR DEAD DADS) - Trailer

    Welcome to the World Premiere of Grief Is Not A Dirty Word! You will remember this podcast as Our Dead Dads. The evolution is complete, and the new name is now a fuller representation of everything this podcast has become in the last two years. Please enjoy this trailer, and get ready for new episodes beginning December 2, 2025. WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS  Anyone navigating grief, emotional trauma, unresolved loss, or the weight of unspoken feelings.  WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET  A grounding introduction to grief, healing, connection, and the mission behind the podcast’s rebrand.  DESCRIPTION:  In this premiere episode, host Nick Gaylord opens the door to a deeply honest conversation about grief, healing, and the emotional weight so many people carry in silence. He shares how unprocessed anger after his father’s death became the starting point of a journey he never expected to take. This episode explores how grief shows up in ways we don’t always recognize, especially when it’s tied to long-standing wounds and unresolved stories. Nick reflects on the origins of Our Dead Dads, how it grew into a community, and why the show has evolved into Grief Is Not A Dirty Word. He speaks to the universal truth that grief is messy, unpredictable, and deeply human — and that connection is what helps us move forward. This is an invitation into a space where truth replaces silence, where emotions are honored, and where grief finally has room to breathe.  This episode answers:  What does grief actually look like when it doesn’t feel like grief at all?How do anger, avoidance, and emotional shutdown connect to unresolved grief?Why did Nick rebrand Our Dead Dads into Grief Is Not A Dirty Word?How can storytelling and community support healing after loss?Why do we need safe, honest spaces to talk about grief without shame? Key Takeaways:   Grief can appear as anger, distance, or emotional overwhelm long before we recognize it.Healing often begins when we stop hiding what hurts and start naming it.Community and connection make grief more bearable and less isolating.Honest conversations help break cultural pressure to “stay strong” or “move on.”The rebrand reflects a broader mission: grief of all kinds deserves a place to be heard.  GIVE THE SHOW A 5-STAR RATING ON APPLE PODCASTS! FOLLOW US ON APPLE OR YOUR FAVORITE PODCAST PLATFORM! BOOKMARK OUR WEBSITE: www.ourdeaddads.com FOLLOW OUR DEAD DADS ON SOCIAL MEDIA: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ourdeaddadspod/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ourdeaddadspod TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ourdeaddadspod Twitter / X: https://x.com/ourdeaddadspod YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmmv6sdmMIys3GDBjiui3kw LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ourdeaddadspod/

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Grief Is Not A Dirty Word is a weekly podcast that brings honest, real-world conversations about grief, loss, trauma, healing, and mental health into the light. Hosted by Nick Gaylord, the show creates a safe, compassionate space for anyone navigating the complicated emotions that come with losing a parent, partner, child, friend, relationship, or former version of themselves. Originally launched as Our Dead Dads, the podcast has evolved into a broader mission: to normalize grief and break the stigma around talking about it. Nick explores every corner of the grieving experience — from anticipatory grief and sudden loss to complicated family dynamics, unresolved anger, identity shifts, and the invisible pain people carry long after the world assumes they’re “fine.” Each episode features powerful, unfiltered stories from guests who have lived through loss and rebuilt their lives in deeply personal ways. Through conversations centered on resilience, vulnerability, courage, and connection, the podcast helps listeners understand that grief isn’t something to hide — it’s something that deserves space, honesty, and community. Whether your grief is fresh or decades old, whether it’s tied to death or to a different kind of ending, this show will help you feel seen, supported, and less alone. If you’re looking for meaningful discussions about healing, emotional wellbeing, and the human experience — you’re in the right place. New episodes every Tuesday. Listen on all major podcast platforms or at griefisnotadirtyword.com. Grief Is Not A Dirty Word — because every story matters, every emotion belongs, and healing begins when we speak the truth.

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  • Creator
    Nick Gaylord
  • Years Active
    2024 - 2025
  • Episodes
    77
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Grief Is Not A Dirty Word
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    Grief Is Not A Dirty Word

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