Secret Wilderness

The Parable Foundation

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MENTAL HEALTH
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In-depth, anonymous, remarkably honest accounts of psychedelic therapy.

FEB 15

Do Psychedelics Hurt or Heal? 3 Anonymous Psychedelic Campfire Stories

Today, we explore the complex power of psychedelics through 3 different stories. In our first story, Jane [quote] “telepathically” communicates with her abusive mother on psilocybin. In the second, Lev tries to address relationship issues with ayahuasca. In the last, Trip takes MDMA as a last-ditch effort to prevent his own suicide. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (03:36) Jane’s psychedelic conversation. (15:41) Lev hits eject on ayahuasca. (26:08) Trip’s MDMA trip. Notes Jane’s episode: Can Psychedelics Heal the Mother Wound? Part 2 Lev’s episode: Who Says Ego Death Is Good for Me? Trip’s episode: Can Psychedelics Help Me Love Myself? Edits: To focus this episode’s themes and narrative, we cut down our guests’ analysis, observations, narrativizations, & story. We also cut all of Alex’s questions & comments. Other edits are limited to dead space, audio blemishes, unnecessary words, & unessential content. We consulted with our guests during the original production of these edits, & they approved of the flow. Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “Drones over New Jersey,” “7. Pastoral (Vast Peace) [Cinematic Underscore Loops - The Core Collection],” “African Desert,” “The Most Shocking Halloween Trailer 3,” & “Binaural Sleep Vol. 4,” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.

38 min
JAN 25

Can Psychedelics Heal Generational Trauma? Part 1: Man Describes 8 Trips to the “Ancestral Realm”

When Vaughn was a kid, he always felt alone. So when Vaughn became an adult, he tried to figure out why. His 28-year search, which included practically every personal development course he could afford, eventually led him to psychedelic therapy. In these mind-manifesting sessions, Vaughn says he found the origins of his loneliness in the past. Not just his past. But in the pasts of his ancestors. Could these remarkable experiences help him heal his present? Chapters (00:00) Intro. (04:20) What it felt like to be Vaughn. (08:10) “Ancestral” trip 1. (10:50) “Ancestral” trip 2. (12:45) “Ancestral” trip 3. (15:28) “Ancestral” trip 4. (17:19) “Ancestral” trip 5. (19:33) “Ancestral” trip 6. (22:59) “Ancestral” trip 7. (26:33) “Ancestral” trip 8. (32:00) Next time on Secret Wilderness. Notes Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “Gymnopedie,” “Dreamsphere 1,” “Adagio For Strings [kinda],” “Halloween 2025 Vol. 9,” “Lion Queen Soundtrack - The big meeting,” “Horror Tensions Vol. 1,” “Halo Stream Music Vol. 7,” & “Binaural Sleep Vol. 3,” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.

33 min
JAN 4

Are My Recovered Memories Real? Part 2: The Path to Freedom & Peace

After two years of MDMA, Ed was ready to give up on psychedelic therapy. He still couldn’t sleep, & his sessions seemed to keep repeating the same experience over & over. A memory of sexual abuse he wasn’t even sure was real. But before he quit, Ed tried ayahuasca, & it completely changed his understanding of what had been happening on MDMA. Ayahuasca, he says, showed him that it wasn’t one experience on loop. It was a sequence of similar experiences. To Ed, this was a breakthrough. Maybe, if he kept going, he’d finally sleep again. Maybe, he’d find peace. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (03:38) The first time Ed remembers having a flashback. (05:30) Remembering his face. (06:58) Asking questions. (09:03) The most important memory. (10:37) Psychedelic revenge. (12:31) The gift with conditions. (14:29) Letting go of the story. (00:00) Intro. Notes First flashback: After our interview, Ed mentioned that he’s not sure what he described as the first flashback he ever had was the first time it happened or just the first time he remembers having one. Edits: To focus this episode’s themes and narrative, we cut down Ed’s analysis, observations, narrativizations, & story. We also cut all of Alex’s questions & comments. Other edits are limited to dead space, audio blemishes, unnecessary words, & unessential content. We consulted with Ed, & he approved this flow. Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. We used the tracks “Cinematic Emotions 1 - Creepy,” “Lost Place Atmospheres Vol. 8,” “Halloween Atmosphere 2024,” & “Epic Intro 2018 Prequel,” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.

21 min
12/14/2025

Are My Recovered Memories Real? Part 1: MDMA & The Man Who Thought He Was “Insane”

Ed couldn’t sleep. It all started when his daughter nearly died on an escalator. The frayed attention started then too. So did the fits of rage. As exhaustion & problems piled up, Ed’s life slowly spiraled out of control. Nothing he tried had worked. Nothing helped him sleep or made him less angry. Finally, as a last-ditch effort, Ed tried psychedelic therapy. But the experience didn’t cure his sleeplessness, it just handed him a mystery: A recovered memory that might explain everything. If… it was real. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (03:03) The escalator. (04:48) Fits of rage. (07:51) Plotting the end. (10:10) Recovering the memory. (13:31) Was it real? (15:27) Why is the memory repeating? (17:42) Next time. Notes Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “Lost Place Atmospheres 002,” “5 vor 12,” “Lost Place Atmospheres 001,” & “Shadows In The Dark,” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.

19 min
11/23/2025

I Have C-PTSD. Can Psilocybin Therapy Help Me? Part 2: "Through Hell"

Adam finally found hope. His therapist, by his side for years as he was battered by C-PTSD, was now guiding him through psychedelic therapy. Their first MDMA sessions, chronicled in part 1, seemed to uncover the events behind his debilitating symptoms. They also opened the door for Adam to trust someone even in his worst moments. & the worst was yet to come. But… Adam felt different now. Because now, he had help. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (01:55) Setting the scene. (02:30) The cave. (04:12) MDMA 4. (05:35) The call. (07:27) The “hardest thing I've ever done as an adult.” (14:11) Psilocybin 2 & the “goop.” (20:06) After psilocybin 2. (23:55) The letter. Notes Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “Cinematic Suspense Series Episode 007,” “The Backrooms [14 loopable background wave sounds]” tracks 2 & 3, & “Horror Tensions Vol. 1,” “UFOs over New Jersey,” & “Desert Night” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.

30 min
11/02/2025

I Have C-PTSD. Can MDMA Therapy Help Me? Part 1: "Good Old Revenge"

Adam returned from visiting his homeland a shell of himself. Once a confident & competent IT professional, he was now drowning in mysterious flashbacks & intense dissociation. It was so severe, he’d sit at home for hours staring at a dot on the wall — so persistent, years of therapy & over a dozen pharmaceuticals hardly made a dent. Out of pure desperation, Adam tried MDMA therapy. He believes it helped him break the spell of C-PTSD. & get payback on the people who hurt him. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (02:22) The nervous breakdown. (07:34) The flashbacks. (10:13) What Adam tried. (12:02) MDMA session 1. (13:46) “Good old revenge.” (17:00) The aftermath. (17:56) MDMA session 2. (23:39) Standing on his own. Notes Direct Adam quote about MDMA therapy: “In a way that talk therapy just… couldn't reach.” “Didn’t” was dropped before “couldn’t” as redundant. Theme song: Secret Wilderness’ theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. Other music: We used the tracks “Andromeda” & “Bar Performance 1: Solo Piano” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.

25 min
10/18/2025

My Child Died. Can Psychedelics Tell Me Why? Part 2: The Answer

John & his wife were destroyed. After 9 months of reading the right books & eating the right foods & taking the right classes… after getting all green lights from doctors, Ocean, their son, died in childbirth. It didn’t make any sense to John. How could this happen to him? Why did this happen to him? Why him? This is the question he explores on a massive dose of psychedelics. Chapters (00:00) Intro. (03:36) Why ? (04:22) Can psychedelics help? (05:16) 85 mg of 4-AcO DMT. (07:56) The answer. (13:23) Being another person. (16:30) 10 mg of penis envy. (17:54) Am I weak? (19:36) John stands up for himself. (22:27) Leaving everything. (25:31) The giant trip. Secret Wilderness' theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field. We used the tracks “Lost Place Atmospheres 001,” “The Backrooms Music Vol. 11,” & “First Steps On Mars” by Sascha Ende. This music is free for commercial use under the CC BY 4.0 license.

29 min
10/05/2025

My Child Died. Can Psychedelics Tell Me Why? Part 1: "Some Difficult Decisions"

John met his wife in Hawaii, at the top of 45 tall stairs. John was a UPS driver. She worked at one of his stops. & when he got in his truck he looked all the way up the stairs & saw her in the window, waving at him. On their first date, John taught her to surf. On their wedding day, it was just the two of them, a beach, and a justice of the peace. A year later, they were pregnant. They were reading books, going to Lamaze classes, & debating if their baby was a boy or a girl. John felt like they had everything. Then they lost their child. Part one is this story. Part two is the story of how he tried to understand loss, including psychedelic therapy.

34 min

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What Is Secret Wilderness?

Is MDMA love real? Can you get addicted to psychedelics? What if a trip reveals something terrible? Secret Wilderness travels the depths of psychedelic therapy — & no territory is off limits. Each episode is an in-depth, anonymous, & remarkably honest interview with someone who’s taken psychedelics therapeutically. Each episode is also created with the same intent: To help someone on their journey. Secret Wilderness' theme song is “Winter Solstice” by Löwenzahnhonig. Released by Inselgruppe, published by A Tree in a Field.

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04/28/2025

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In-depth, anonymous, remarkably honest accounts of psychedelic therapy.

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2025 - 2026
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