The Permission Slip

Matt Kosterman
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  • ALTERNATIVE HEALTH

I love everything to do with consciousness - personal growth books, meditation, psychedelics, bodywork, Tantric retreats, chakras, Human Design, channeled works, you name it! For the past fifteen years, I’ve been on a deep healing journey. I regularly engage relative strangers in conversation about topics relating to consciousness, transformation and psychedelics (sometimes to their annoyance). I've been dancing around starting a podcast for a couple years now. My imposter syndrome has kept me thinking I don't have anything worthwhile to share, while I vainly attempt to find a community with whom I resonate. I've been fortunate to work with some really gifted practitioners during my journey. They not only gave me tools to heal, they gave me PERMISSION to heal. My intention in producing and distributing The Permission Slip podcast is to share knowledge of their talents with the rest of the world. Many of us have been programmed to believe that healing only comes from those in the medical profession who have gone through a particular set of training protocols. This is not true. Doctors and therapists and the like are (mostly) well-meaning and very good at what they do. Sometimes, more often than we are maybe lead to believe, what they recommend or do is not what is truly needed for healing. In the spirit of the following passage, I'm committing to a minimum of six podcasts that will be discussions with practitioners and healers from whom I've derived personal benefit. The purpose of this effort is therefore to shed light on the diverse ways of healing as well as moving into right relationship with oneself. Credits Renee LaVallee McKenna for the inspiration to create this in the first place. Abby Bruce (ma soeur) for the encouragement along the way. Damian Wiseman for the audio engineering expertise.

  1. S1 | E18 Amy Anesi - Dear Friend & Former Spouse

    FEB 6

    S1 | E18 Amy Anesi - Dear Friend & Former Spouse

    This season-one finale of The Permission Slip is a deeply honest, unsanitized conversation between me and my former wife, Amy Anesi. We were married for 15 years, raised two daughters together, divorced after an affair, endured bankruptcy and foreclosure in the wake of the 2008 financial collapse—and then chose a different path forward. Instead of turning divorce into a lifelong war story, we explore what it looks like to take responsibility, metabolize pain, and consciously evolve beyond blame. This episode challenges the dominant cultural narrative that divorce must be ugly, adversarial, and permanently scarring. It doesn’t. With Amy as both witness and mirror, I share my own arc—from childhood conditioning and emotional repression, through infidelity, trauma, and collapse, into somatic healing, psychedelic therapy, nervous-system work, and spiritual awakening. What emerges is not a story of redemption, but of integration. This is a conversation about accountability without self-flagellation, healing without spiritual bypass, and what becomes possible when two people choose growth over grievance—for themselves and for their children. Special Guest: Amy Anesi.

    1h 47m
  2. S1 | E17 Paul Selig - Psychic, Teacher & Author

    JAN 16

    S1 | E17 Paul Selig - Psychic, Teacher & Author

    I discovered the channeled work of Paul Selig and his "Guides" (whom have called themselves "Melchizedek") in late summer of 2020. I had fortunately been "softened" up considerably with psychedelic work including Psilocybin, MDMA, Ayahuasca and Mescaline in addition to some deep myofascial work by that point in my healing journey. A friend shared a link to a YouTube video and it was as if a tractor beam took hold of me. I was mesmerized and, after checking their stock online, was on my way to a bookstore 30 minutes away where I purchased three books. This work is one of the three pillars of my transformation - up there with psychedelics and somatic work. And it may not resonate with you. It was one of the clearest example of "When the student is ready, the teacher appears" I've experienced. Others have told similar stories. In this episode of The Permission Slip, I sit down with Paul Selig for a conversation about consciousness, channeling, and what it means to live in alignment with a higher order of truth while fully embodied as a human being. Paul shares his personal origin story — from an accomplished academic life to an unexpected spiritual awakening that opened him to hearing and working with the Guides. We explore how his abilities unfolded gradually, the role discipline and integrity played in stabilizing the work, and why true channeling is less about being “special” and more about becoming transparent to something greater. We move into the core teachings brought through the Guides: the nature of divine union, the Christ as a universal principle rather than a historical figure, and humanity’s current reckoning with fear, separation, and self-denial. We also discuss discernment in spiritual work, the difference between inspiration and channeling, free will, presence, and how awakening does not bypass the human experience — it transforms how we meet it. This conversation is not about belief systems or spiritual bypassing. It’s about lived experience, embodiment, and the practical integration of higher consciousness into daily life. Special Guest: Paul Selig.

    58 min
  3. S1 | E16 Lisa Parker - Founder, Trilome®

    JAN 8

    S1 | E16 Lisa Parker - Founder, Trilome®

    The irony of the fact that it took me 16 episodes to get to somebody who works with psychedelic medicines is not lost on me. Psychedelics (all of them) have been instrumental in my healing process. As somebody who hasn't had an alcoholic drink since 2001 and hadn't smoked weed since 1995, dipping my toe in the psychedelic waters was not a decision I undertook lightly. It was a short journey from the dip to the plunge, however. I'm very grateful to Lisa for agreeing to be on the show and to share the beautiful potential these medicines have for fostering healing and connection. The fact that they are Schedule I narcotics is criminal in and of itself. In this episode, I talk with Lisa Parker about her journey from chronic trauma and unexplained pain into becoming a practitioner of psychedelic-integrative bodywork. Lisa shares how early experiences of fear, dissociation, and bodily threat shaped her nervous system—and how modalities like Rolfing and other somatic work, especially in tandem with medicines such as Ayahuasca, Psilocybin and Kambo helped her reclaim safety in her body. In themes that are common across most episodes, we explore how trauma lives in fascia, why chronic pain often has emotional and energetic roots, and how combining low-dose psychedelic medicine with hands-on bodywork can accelerate healing in a safe, grounded way. This conversation moves through nervous system regulation, consent, embodied boundaries, touches briefly on Human Design, and the difference between catharsis and integration. This episode is an invitation to understand healing not as fixing what’s broken, but as remembering how the body already knows how to come home to itself. Special Guest: Lisa Parker.

    1h 11m
  4. S1 | E15 Janell Riedl - Pilates Instructor & Intuitive

    JAN 1

    S1 | E15 Janell Riedl - Pilates Instructor & Intuitive

    Join me as I sit down with someone who has been a beautiful and powerful force in my healing journey — my Pilates instructor and friend, Janell Riedl. After resisting the call of Pilates for a long time, three years ago I found Janell. She has been guiding me unwinding my twisted fascia, waking up dormant muscles, getting overactive muscles to calm down and helping me release decades of stored tension and trauma. She is not your typical Pilates instructor; Janell is also an intuitive, an energy worker, and a teacher in the truest sense — someone who learned the hard way, followed her intuition, and kept leaning into the deeper layers of her own evolution. We talk about her path from theater major to bartender and aspiring rock star, to leaving a toxic relationship, to living with an energy intuitive in Oregon who cracked her open to her real gifts. We chat about how the body stores emotion and how shaking can reprogram the nervous system. Our talk ventures into why letting go is harder than holding on, and how intuition guides her work with clients. We also dive into spiritual openings, core unwinding, fear conditioning, ego, and why you can’t heal a body you’re judging. This episode is a small window into the magic that happens when someone merges technical mastery with intuitive knowing. This is a conversation about healing, trusting your path, and remembering that the journey is the point. Special Guest: Janell Riedl.

    1h 15m
  5. S1 | E14 Dominica Fisher - Director of Meditative & Creative Exploration at Bîan

    12/25/2025

    S1 | E14 Dominica Fisher - Director of Meditative & Creative Exploration at Bîan

    In this episode of The Permission Slip, I sit down with Dominica Fisher, Director of Meditative & Creative Exploration at BÎAN, the wellness club in Chicago where she and I originally met. Dominica and I dive into her extraordinary journey which began as the daughter to single mother who was also Polish immigrant. Our discussion runs the gamut - her early intuitive visions, to discovering meditation, shamanic journeying, and eventually mastering the mechanics of manifestation. She & I break down what it actually means to create reality — not as a platitude, but as a lived, moment-by-moment mechanics-of-consciousness experience. Dominica shares the stories that cracked her open, the visions she tried to suppress as a child, the ways she learned to work with her intuitive abilities, and how she now teaches others to consciously create their lives. We also get into the Bengston Method, the intensity and power of desire lists, the traps of “victim consciousness,” the importance of regulating emotional states, and what it really takes to direct your reality without bypassing your humanity. If you’ve ever wondered how intuition, manifestation, meditation, and reality-creation really function beneath the surface, this episode is a doorway. Special Guest: Dominica Fisher.

    59 min
  6. S1 | E13 Jessica Brown - Author, Clinical Nutritionist, Compassion Teacher

    12/18/2025

    S1 | E13 Jessica Brown - Author, Clinical Nutritionist, Compassion Teacher

    In this episode, I sit down with Clinical Nutritionist, Author and Noetic Gield Practitioner Jessica Brown for a powerful exploration of the emotional, energetic, and spiritual roots of healing. Jessica shares her remarkable story — from growing up between two very different parents, to experiencing depersonalization/derealization after marijuana use, to finding an energy healer who helped her rebuild her inner world. Her journey opened the door to noetic field therapy, compassionate inquiry, and the innovative work she now does at the intersection of trauma, belief systems, energy, nutrition, and chronic health conditions. We discuss: How childhood fragmentation becomes unconscious belief structures What sits in one's auric field and how it influences behavior The mechanics of noetic field therapy Why the heart — not the mind — is what clears deep-rooted patterns The emotional origins of food struggles How GLP-1 medications create psychological spaciousness How trauma echoes through the nervous system, the emotions, and the body Why “spiritual growth” doesn’t mean bypassing human fear Re-inhabiting the body and returning to one’s own wholeness This is a rich, grounded conversation for anyone interested in inner work, trauma healing, consciousness, and especially the relationship between food and emotional safety. About Jessica Brown Jessica Brown is a Stanford-certified compassion teacher, functional medicine clinical nutritionist, and author with over 25 years of experience helping people heal physically and emotionally. With more than ten years of specialized clinical practice in self-compassion-based reparenting and mindset work, she has guided thousands toward lasting transformation. Jessica is the author of "The Loving Diet," which pioneered mind-body approaches for autoimmune conditions, and served as visiting faculty at the Institute of Integrative Nutrition, where she helped create their Mindful Eating program. She maintains a thriving practice as a consultant to practitioners and clients nationwide and continues to influence the health community through her innovative approaches to healing. Her work bridges the gap between medical treatment and emotional healing, offering practical tools for those ready to transform their relationship with food, body, and self from the inside out. Learn more at www.thelovingdiet.com or www.glp1nutritionacademy.com Book: Beyond the Shot Inner Work for Lasting Success on Weight-Loss Medications By Jessica Brown About the Book With millions turning to GLP-1 medications like Ozempic®, Wegovy®, Mounjaro®, and Zepbound™, one question looms large: What happens after the prescription? Beyond the Shot is the first book written for patients themselves navigating life on GLP-1s. Clinical nutritionist and compassion educator Jessica Brown blends the science of GLP-1s with the psychology of eating, showing readers how to quiet food noise, stop self-sabotage, and create lasting change. Highlights The first book for GLP-1 users, filling a major gap in obesity care. Blends science with psychology: medication, mindset, and self-compassion. Case stories illustrate real transformations beyond weight loss. Practical anchors: protein, fiber, hydration, sleep, and structure. Supports the urgent call from the American Society for Nutrition for multidisciplinary care alongside GLP-1 therapy. About the Author Jessica Brown is a clinical nutritionist, author of The Loving Diet, and founder of Inner Well Press, the GLP-1 Nutrition Academy, and the Menopause Heart Project. She is a sought-after speaker and educator, known for combining warmth, practicality, and compassion in helping people transform their relationship with food and body image.

    49 min
  7. S1 | E12 Laura O’Malley - Channel & Happiness Coach

    12/12/2025

    S1 | E12 Laura O’Malley - Channel & Happiness Coach

    This is the first episode I've created that has video. You may wish to watch it to see how Laura's entire countenance changes when she channels the other beings. Link - https://youtu.be/xo72vAcW6-k I'm really excited about this follow-up conversation with Conscious Channel Laura O’Malley and even more excited that we got to communicate directly with the beings that have been coming through her for years with powerful information for the rapidly expanding consciousness and shifting reality we are presently experiencing. We dive straight into one of my favorite topics: Kundalini energy and what’s actually happening during spiritual awakening. My own experiences with powerful energy experiences, plant medicine, and meditation led me into this conversation — and Laura’s Guides wasted no time stepping in to speak directly. The episode is an exploration of consciousness: What kundalini really is Why it releases only when the body is vibrationally ready Why more people are experiencing spontaneous awakenings now Why many of these openings have been misdiagnosed as breakdowns How thoughts, vibration, and free will shape reality How to tell the difference between ego and higher self Why “fighting darkness” only feeds it How to shift your vibration through attention What Christ Consciousness actually means How plant medicines give temporary access to higher dimensions The nature of soul fractals and multidimensional existence The Collective speaks bluntly about fear, news addiction, collective expansion, and why love is the only real frequency beneath it all. Their message is clear: we’re in a massive vibrational shift, and more people are waking up to their true nature while still in the body — something that used to be rare. We also talk about embodiment practices, emotional processing, why suppressing feelings creates suffering, and the mechanics of raising your vibration intentionally (without spiritual bypassing). This episode is raw, real, and a direct hit for anyone navigating awakening, expansion, or the feeling that the world is changing in ways they can’t ignore. Video of the session is available on my YouTube channel - @ThePermissionSlip. Special Guest: Laura O'Malley.

    1h 33m
  8. S1 | E11 Shweta Shyamani - Mind Body Therapist

    11/11/2025

    S1 | E11 Shweta Shyamani - Mind Body Therapist

    In this episode of The Permission Slip, I sit down with Shweta Shyamani, a clinical hypnotherapist, energy intuitive, and co-leader of Rewilding Retreats for Women. Shweta shares her powerful journey from corporate success to soul-centered healing—walking away from an MBA-driven marketing career just days before 9/11 and eventually finding her calling in energy medicine and Rapid Transformational Therapy (RTT). We talk about how unresolved emotions and energy imbalances can manifest as physical illness, why traditional talk therapy often keeps us looping in old stories, and how techniques like RTT, EFT tapping, and hypnotherapy help people access deeper layers of healing. Shweta also opens up about her mother’s decades-long illness, which became the catalyst for her path as a healer, and about her retreats that help women reconnect with their feminine essence, emotional truth, and sense of belonging. It’s a rich, heartfelt conversation about courage, intuition, and what happens when we finally choose alignment over achievement. Special Guest: Shweta Shyamani.

    59 min
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I love everything to do with consciousness - personal growth books, meditation, psychedelics, bodywork, Tantric retreats, chakras, Human Design, channeled works, you name it! For the past fifteen years, I’ve been on a deep healing journey. I regularly engage relative strangers in conversation about topics relating to consciousness, transformation and psychedelics (sometimes to their annoyance). I've been dancing around starting a podcast for a couple years now. My imposter syndrome has kept me thinking I don't have anything worthwhile to share, while I vainly attempt to find a community with whom I resonate. I've been fortunate to work with some really gifted practitioners during my journey. They not only gave me tools to heal, they gave me PERMISSION to heal. My intention in producing and distributing The Permission Slip podcast is to share knowledge of their talents with the rest of the world. Many of us have been programmed to believe that healing only comes from those in the medical profession who have gone through a particular set of training protocols. This is not true. Doctors and therapists and the like are (mostly) well-meaning and very good at what they do. Sometimes, more often than we are maybe lead to believe, what they recommend or do is not what is truly needed for healing. In the spirit of the following passage, I'm committing to a minimum of six podcasts that will be discussions with practitioners and healers from whom I've derived personal benefit. The purpose of this effort is therefore to shed light on the diverse ways of healing as well as moving into right relationship with oneself. Credits Renee LaVallee McKenna for the inspiration to create this in the first place. Abby Bruce (ma soeur) for the encouragement along the way. Damian Wiseman for the audio engineering expertise.

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  • Creator
    Matt Kosterman
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    18
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Matt Kosterman
  • Show Website
    The Permission Slip

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