The Permission Slip

Matt Kosterman
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  • ALTERNATIVE HEALTH

I love everything to do with consciousness - personal growth books, meditation, psychedelics, bodywork, Tantric retreats, chakras, Human Design, channeled works, you name it! For the past fifteen years, I’ve been on a deep healing journey. I regularly engage relative strangers in conversation about topics relating to consciousness, transformation and psychedelics (sometimes to their annoyance). I've been dancing around starting a podcast for a couple years now. My imposter syndrome has kept me thinking I don't have anything worthwhile to share, while I vainly attempt to find a community with whom I resonate. I've been fortunate to work with some really gifted practitioners during my journey. They not only gave me tools to heal, they gave me PERMISSION to heal. My intention in producing and distributing The Permission Slip podcast is to share knowledge of their talents with the rest of the world. Many of us have been programmed to believe that healing only comes from those in the medical profession who have gone through a particular set of training protocols. This is not true. Doctors and therapists and the like are (mostly) well-meaning and very good at what they do. Sometimes, more often than we are maybe lead to believe, what they recommend or do is not what is truly needed for healing. In the spirit of the following passage, I'm committing to a minimum of six podcasts that will be discussions with practitioners and healers from whom I've derived personal benefit. The purpose of this effort is therefore to shed light on the diverse ways of healing as well as moving into right relationship with oneself. Credits Renee LaVallee McKenna for the inspiration to create this in the first place. Abby Bruce (ma soeur) for the encouragement along the way. Damian Wiseman for the audio engineering expertise.

  1. S2 | E3 Christopher Sunyata, Men's Coach, Meditation Teacher & Engineer

    3D AGO

    S2 | E3 Christopher Sunyata, Men's Coach, Meditation Teacher & Engineer

    In S2•E3, I speak with Christopher Sunyata, a former medical device engineer turned Buddhist meditation teacher and men’s coach based in Boulder, Colorado . We met at an Osho-inspired Deer Tribe workshop in Cave Creek, Arizona—an intensive container exploring sacred sexuality and polarity work . Christopher shares his origin story: • Raised Catholic in Decatur, Illinois, bullied through childhood  • A sensitive kid who later became a college rugby all-star—yet carried a fractured internal self-image  • A near-death suffocation accident in childhood that left a deep imprint in his nervous system  • Ten years of Jungian analysis, divorce after discovering an affair following a mushroom journey  • Intensive Buddhist practice and eventual immersion in embodied tantric work We explore how women’s somatic intuition became one of his greatest teachers—how feminine bodies read tension, contraction, and presence instantly . We discuss: • Why resting as “open awareness” makes men more trustworthy and attractive  • Breath-rate recovery and training the parasympathetic nervous system  • Why meditation, psychedelics, and sexuality all intersect as portals into death practice and ego dissolution  • His extensive work with plant medicines, including 5-MeO-DMT  • Sexual practice as spiritual practice • The difference between effort-based “techniques” and relaxed energetic openness • How men can access sustained, non-ejaculatory, full-body orgasmic states • Why relational polarity requires stability, not performance • The nervous system as the foundation of spiritual and relational growth Christopher’s central thesis: A man’s depth is revealed in how much intensity he can open through—without collapsing, grasping, or dissociating . We also explore how shame around sexuality has been weaponized socially and spiritually—and what happens when that shame is removed. This conversation bridges: • Trauma work • Buddhist meditation • Tantric polarity • Somatic nervous system regulation • Psychedelic awakening • Masculine leadership It’s an unapologetically honest conversation about embodied masculinity in a time when many men feel disconnected from purpose and presence. Special Guest: Christopher Sunyata.

    1h 19m
  2. S2 | E2 Deborah Servetnick - Life Mastery Coach

    MAR 5

    S2 | E2 Deborah Servetnick - Life Mastery Coach

    In this episode, I sit down with Deb Servetnick. "Grateful Deb" is a life mastery coach, psychedelic guide, bodyworker, and founder of Serve Medicine. Join us for an expansive, unscripted exploration of healing. We begin with her origin story as a lifelong Deadhead and early psychedelic explorer, then move into the deeper terrain: her MAPS training, her decision to remain aligned with decriminalization over legalization, and her critique of over-medicalizing sacred medicine. Deb shares why preparation matters more than the “six great hours,” how vibrational alignment shapes outcomes, and why psilocybin remains her preferred medicine for whole-body healing. We talk about grief, cancer, nervous system regulation, subconscious patterning, and the importance of replacing, not just removing, habits. The conversation turns personal as we explore sugar, distraction, cannabis, and the difference between trying to “beat” something versus learning to love it into transformation. This episode is about frequency. It’s about asking for what you actually want. And it’s about remembering that the universe is already responding. Special Guest: Deborah Servetnick.

    1h 6m
  3. S2 | E1 Dr. Jodie NewDelman, Doctor of Psychology

    FEB 26

    S2 | E1 Dr. Jodie NewDelman, Doctor of Psychology

    Dr. Jodie NewDelman shares her evolution from a hard-science neuropsychology background at UCLA studying autism genetics to embracing a more integrated biopsychosocial-spiritual model of care. We examine: • The limitations of purely symptom-based psychiatric models • ADHD and neurodivergence as neurotypes, not simply disorders • Trauma as both psychological and somatic — and how it presents as chronic pain, fibromyalgia-like symptoms, digestive disorders, and “mystery” illnesses • The Quadrintity framework (cognitive, emotional, physical, spiritual) and how imbalance across these domains manifests as dysregulation • Ketamine-assisted psychotherapy as a non-specific amplifier that accelerates subconscious material to the surface • Why preparation, safety, and integration are non-negotiable in psychedelic work • Transference and countertransference as essential considerations in altered states • The difference between being “fixed” and reclaiming agency This episode invites listeners to examine whether their current healing path is addressing root causes — or merely suppressing symptoms. • Nervous system regulation • Trauma stored in the body • Neurodivergence & ADHD • Chronic pain & somatic symptoms • Internal Family Systems (IFS) • Ketamine-assisted psychotherapy • Psychedelic preparation & integration • Transference & countertransference • Biopsychosocial-spiritual model • Experiential medicine • Personal agency in healing Dr. NewDelman's website is https://essensuate.com Facebook https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100091764967649 LinkedIn https://www.linkedin.com/company/essensuate-integration/ Instagram https://www.instagram.com/essensuate/ Special Guest: Dr. Jodie NewDelman.

    1h 19m
  4. S1 | E18 Amy Anesi - Dear Friend & Former Spouse

    FEB 6

    S1 | E18 Amy Anesi - Dear Friend & Former Spouse

    This season-one finale of The Permission Slip is a deeply honest, unsanitized conversation between me and my former wife, Amy Anesi. We were married for 15 years, raised two daughters together, divorced after an affair, endured bankruptcy and foreclosure in the wake of the 2008 financial collapse—and then chose a different path forward. Instead of turning divorce into a lifelong war story, we explore what it looks like to take responsibility, metabolize pain, and consciously evolve beyond blame. This episode challenges the dominant cultural narrative that divorce must be ugly, adversarial, and permanently scarring. It doesn’t. With Amy as both witness and mirror, I share my own arc—from childhood conditioning and emotional repression, through infidelity, trauma, and collapse, into somatic healing, psychedelic therapy, nervous-system work, and spiritual awakening. What emerges is not a story of redemption, but of integration. This is a conversation about accountability without self-flagellation, healing without spiritual bypass, and what becomes possible when two people choose growth over grievance—for themselves and for their children. Special Guest: Amy Anesi.

    1h 47m
  5. S1 | E17 Paul Selig - Psychic, Teacher & Author

    JAN 16

    S1 | E17 Paul Selig - Psychic, Teacher & Author

    I discovered the channeled work of Paul Selig and his "Guides" (whom have called themselves "Melchizedek") in late summer of 2020. I had fortunately been "softened" up considerably with psychedelic work including Psilocybin, MDMA, Ayahuasca and Mescaline in addition to some deep myofascial work by that point in my healing journey. A friend shared a link to a YouTube video and it was as if a tractor beam took hold of me. I was mesmerized and, after checking their stock online, was on my way to a bookstore 30 minutes away where I purchased three books. This work is one of the three pillars of my transformation - up there with psychedelics and somatic work. And it may not resonate with you. It was one of the clearest example of "When the student is ready, the teacher appears" I've experienced. Others have told similar stories. In this episode of The Permission Slip, I sit down with Paul Selig for a conversation about consciousness, channeling, and what it means to live in alignment with a higher order of truth while fully embodied as a human being. Paul shares his personal origin story — from an accomplished academic life to an unexpected spiritual awakening that opened him to hearing and working with the Guides. We explore how his abilities unfolded gradually, the role discipline and integrity played in stabilizing the work, and why true channeling is less about being “special” and more about becoming transparent to something greater. We move into the core teachings brought through the Guides: the nature of divine union, the Christ as a universal principle rather than a historical figure, and humanity’s current reckoning with fear, separation, and self-denial. We also discuss discernment in spiritual work, the difference between inspiration and channeling, free will, presence, and how awakening does not bypass the human experience — it transforms how we meet it. This conversation is not about belief systems or spiritual bypassing. It’s about lived experience, embodiment, and the practical integration of higher consciousness into daily life. Paul's website is https://paulselig.com Special Guest: Paul Selig.

    58 min
  6. S1 | E16 Lisa Parker - Founder, Trilome®

    JAN 8

    S1 | E16 Lisa Parker - Founder, Trilome®

    The irony of the fact that it took me 16 episodes to get to somebody who works with psychedelic medicines is not lost on me. Psychedelics (all of them) have been instrumental in my healing process. As somebody who hasn't had an alcoholic drink since 2001 and hadn't smoked weed since 1995, dipping my toe in the psychedelic waters was not a decision I undertook lightly. It was a short journey from the dip to the plunge, however. I'm very grateful to Lisa for agreeing to be on the show and to share the beautiful potential these medicines have for fostering healing and connection. The fact that they are Schedule I narcotics is criminal in and of itself. In this episode, I talk with Lisa Parker about her journey from chronic trauma and unexplained pain into becoming a practitioner of psychedelic-integrative bodywork. Lisa shares how early experiences of fear, dissociation, and bodily threat shaped her nervous system—and how modalities like Rolfing and other somatic work, especially in tandem with medicines such as Ayahuasca, Psilocybin and Kambo helped her reclaim safety in her body. In themes that are common across most episodes, we explore how trauma lives in fascia, why chronic pain often has emotional and energetic roots, and how combining low-dose psychedelic medicine with hands-on bodywork can accelerate healing in a safe, grounded way. This conversation moves through nervous system regulation, consent, embodied boundaries, touches briefly on Human Design, and the difference between catharsis and integration. This episode is an invitation to understand healing not as fixing what’s broken, but as remembering how the body already knows how to come home to itself. Special Guest: Lisa Parker.

    1h 11m
  7. S1 | E15 Janell Riedl - Pilates Instructor & Intuitive

    JAN 1

    S1 | E15 Janell Riedl - Pilates Instructor & Intuitive

    Join me as I sit down with someone who has been a beautiful and powerful force in my healing journey — my Pilates instructor and friend, Janell Riedl. After resisting the call of Pilates for a long time, three years ago I found Janell. She has been guiding me unwinding my twisted fascia, waking up dormant muscles, getting overactive muscles to calm down and helping me release decades of stored tension and trauma. She is not your typical Pilates instructor; Janell is also an intuitive, an energy worker, and a teacher in the truest sense — someone who learned the hard way, followed her intuition, and kept leaning into the deeper layers of her own evolution. We talk about her path from theater major to bartender and aspiring rock star, to leaving a toxic relationship, to living with an energy intuitive in Oregon who cracked her open to her real gifts. We chat about how the body stores emotion and how shaking can reprogram the nervous system. Our talk ventures into why letting go is harder than holding on, and how intuition guides her work with clients. We also dive into spiritual openings, core unwinding, fear conditioning, ego, and why you can’t heal a body you’re judging. This episode is a small window into the magic that happens when someone merges technical mastery with intuitive knowing. This is a conversation about healing, trusting your path, and remembering that the journey is the point. Special Guest: Janell Riedl.

    1h 15m
  8. S1 | E14 Dominica Fisher - Director of Meditative & Creative Exploration at Bîan

    12/25/2025

    S1 | E14 Dominica Fisher - Director of Meditative & Creative Exploration at Bîan

    In this episode of The Permission Slip, I sit down with Dominica Fisher, Director of Meditative & Creative Exploration at BÎAN, the wellness club in Chicago where she and I originally met. Dominica and I dive into her extraordinary journey which began as the daughter to single mother who was also Polish immigrant. Our discussion runs the gamut - her early intuitive visions, to discovering meditation, shamanic journeying, and eventually mastering the mechanics of manifestation. She & I break down what it actually means to create reality — not as a platitude, but as a lived, moment-by-moment mechanics-of-consciousness experience. Dominica shares the stories that cracked her open, the visions she tried to suppress as a child, the ways she learned to work with her intuitive abilities, and how she now teaches others to consciously create their lives. We also get into the Bengston Method, the intensity and power of desire lists, the traps of “victim consciousness,” the importance of regulating emotional states, and what it really takes to direct your reality without bypassing your humanity. If you’ve ever wondered how intuition, manifestation, meditation, and reality-creation really function beneath the surface, this episode is a doorway. Special Guest: Dominica Fisher.

    59 min
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I love everything to do with consciousness - personal growth books, meditation, psychedelics, bodywork, Tantric retreats, chakras, Human Design, channeled works, you name it! For the past fifteen years, I’ve been on a deep healing journey. I regularly engage relative strangers in conversation about topics relating to consciousness, transformation and psychedelics (sometimes to their annoyance). I've been dancing around starting a podcast for a couple years now. My imposter syndrome has kept me thinking I don't have anything worthwhile to share, while I vainly attempt to find a community with whom I resonate. I've been fortunate to work with some really gifted practitioners during my journey. They not only gave me tools to heal, they gave me PERMISSION to heal. My intention in producing and distributing The Permission Slip podcast is to share knowledge of their talents with the rest of the world. Many of us have been programmed to believe that healing only comes from those in the medical profession who have gone through a particular set of training protocols. This is not true. Doctors and therapists and the like are (mostly) well-meaning and very good at what they do. Sometimes, more often than we are maybe lead to believe, what they recommend or do is not what is truly needed for healing. In the spirit of the following passage, I'm committing to a minimum of six podcasts that will be discussions with practitioners and healers from whom I've derived personal benefit. The purpose of this effort is therefore to shed light on the diverse ways of healing as well as moving into right relationship with oneself. Credits Renee LaVallee McKenna for the inspiration to create this in the first place. Abby Bruce (ma soeur) for the encouragement along the way. Damian Wiseman for the audio engineering expertise.

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  • Creator
    Matt Kosterman
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    21
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2026 Matt Kosterman
  • Show Website
    The Permission Slip

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