Codependency Alchemy: The Podcast

Alyssa Zander
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Codependency Alchemy is a space for healing codependency through shadow work and inner child healing. Join Alyssa for the vulnerable conversations, personal stories, and hard truths that help you reclaim your voice, set soul-aligned boundaries, and create relationships rooted in self-trust and authenticity. alyssaaazander.substack.com

  1. 13 hr ago

    When being taken care of makes you uncomfortable 🫠

    Are you really good at taking care of everyone else... but wildly uncomfortable when someone tries to take care of you? In this episode, I'm sharing what happened when Justin told me, “I'm going to take care of you,” and instead of simply feeling loved, it brought up fears around dependence, losing my freedom, being a burden, and eventually being resented. We talk about hyper-independence, overfunctioning, the need to be needed, and what it can look like to stop carrying everything yourself and let the people who love you actually support you. This episode is for you if… * You’re the person everyone describes as strong. * You rarely ask for help because you can probably just do it yourself. * You deeply want to feel supported in your relationships but notice yourself becoming uncomfortable when someone actually steps in. * You worry about being needy, dependent, or a burden. Or you’ve ever thought: If I need too much from someone, eventually they might resent me for it. Your invitation… Take a moment to write the following shadow work prompt in the comments: “If I let someone take care of me, then…” (what am I afraid will happen?) Notice what comes to mind, and write it out. And if you want to go another layer deeper: If that happened, what would I make it mean about me? You don’t have to share what you write if you don’t want to, but I would love for you to at least give yourself the opportunity to witness what’s there by writing it for yourself. If you want support practicing this in real time, the Codependency Alchemy membership is where we go deeper through live Shadow Work + Inner Child Healing sessions, monthly AMAs, community support, and our full library of guided practices that will help you learn how to build safe and secure relationships. → Click here to learn more and subscribe on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe

    When being taken care of makes you uncomfortable 🫠

  2. 9 Sept ·  Bonus

    When not knowing feels unbearable: A shadow work + inner child healing practice

    This is a free preview of a paid episode. To hear more, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com Do you ever feel like you just need to know what’s going to happen before you can finally feel okay? Maybe you're waiting to know if they'll come back, how much space they need, whether you made the right decision, or what happens next. In this members-only Shadow Work + Inner Child Healing practice, we turn toward the part of you that feels unsafe in the unknown and explore what's underneath the need for certainty. Bring a journal and something you're currently trying to figure out. This isn't an episode to simply listen to. It's a practice to move through with me. 🔒 Available exclusively to paid subscribers of Codependency Alchemy → Click here to learn more and subscribe Join the membership to access the full guided practice, monthly AMAs, community support, and the entire members-only replay library.

    When not knowing feels unbearable: A shadow work + inner child healing practice

  3. 2 Sept

    When stress makes your partner feel like the enemy

    Have you ever had a stressful week and suddenly everything your partner does starts getting on your nerves? In this episode, I’m sharing one of the hardest weeks Justin and I have had in a long time and the two shifts that helped us stop treating each other like the enemy and start acting like teammates again. We talk about stress, unmet needs, changing plans, self-abandonment, and how curiosity, compassion, and meeting your own needs can completely change the way you move through hard moments together. Your invitation… In the comments, write your responses to these questions. You don’t have to post, unless you’re open to being witnessed in them. But at least write them out for yourself… What am I hoping to get from others that I’m not giving to myself? And then: What is one thing I can do today to begin giving that to myself? If you want support practicing this in real time, the Codependency Alchemy membership is where we go deeper through live Shadow Work + Inner Child Healing sessions, monthly AMAs, community support, and our full library of guided practices that will help you learn how to build safe and secure relationships. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe

    When stress makes your partner feel like the enemy

  4. 19 Aug

    The push-pull pattern you don’t realize you’re creating (and why it keeps happening)

    Have you ever chased connection until you felt rejected one too many times... and then suddenly found yourself pulling away? In this episode, we’re exploring the push-pull pattern that happens when our attempts to feel safe accidentally keep the cycle going. I’m sharing how I learned to use distance to get connection, why we can move between chasing and withdrawing, and the question that helped me understand why the same relationship dynamics kept showing up in my life. If you’ve ever wondered, “Why do I keep ending up in relationships like this?” this episode will give you a different question to ask. This episode is for you if... * You keep finding yourself in anxious/avoidant or push-pull relationships * You chase connection until you feel rejected, then suddenly shut down * You judge yourself for how you’ve behaved in past relationships * You keep wondering why the same relationship dynamic follows you Your invitation… Instead of asking, “Why do I keep ending up in relationships like this?” try asking yourself: “What is the lesson I’m being invited to learn when I find myself in this relationship dynamic?” Actually write the answer down, and if you feel open to sharing, leave it in the comments. Maybe this relationship isn’t proof that something is wrong with you. Maybe it’s illuminating something you’re finally ready to see. And if you want to go beyond understanding the push-pull pattern and actually tend to the part of you living inside of it, last week’s members-only episode is a guided Shadow Work + Inner Child Healing practice specifically for this dynamic. Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe

    The push-pull pattern you don’t realize you’re creating (and why it keeps happening)

  5. 5 Aug

    The cheat code that changed my relationship with myself

    Have you ever had one of those days where you just don't feel like yourself? Maybe you're more emotional, more sensitive, or more irritable than usual, and your first instinct is to wonder what's wrong with you. In this episode, I'm sharing the simple practice that completely changed my relationship with myself. It helped me stop judging my emotions, recognize my patterns, and communicate my needs with more compassion in my relationship. We'll talk about why understanding your body can be one of the greatest tools for emotional healing, how this practice has transformed my relationship with Justin, and why slowing down is sometimes exactly what your nervous system is asking for. If you've ever felt like you're constantly trying to "fix" yourself, this episode is for you. Your invitation… If you know what day you are on, share it in the comments, along with anything you notice about how you feel today. Mentioned in this episode… * Taking Charge of Your Fertility (here are their free downloadable PDFs) * Lively cycle tracking app * What I have learned since tracking my cycle If you’d like to go beyond understanding your patterns and actually practice healing them, inside the Codependency Alchemy Membership we come together each month for guided shadow work, inner child healing sessions, live AMAs, and a private community where you don’t have to navigate this work alone. Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe

    The cheat code that changed my relationship with myself

  6. 22 Jul

    When jealousy shows up (even when you trust your partner)

    Have you ever felt jealous in your relationship... even though you genuinely trust your partner? In this episode, I’m sharing one of the most vulnerable stories I’ve told on the podcast. A moment with Justin that brought up unexpected jealousy, led to one of the biggest ruptures we’ve experienced, and ultimately taught me that jealousy is rarely about what we think it’s about. Together, we’ll explore what jealousy is actually pointing toward, why it often has very little to do with your partner, and how asking one simple question can help you move from reactivity to self-understanding. In this episode, you’ll learn… * The hidden fears that commonly live underneath jealousy * How insecure attachment can shape conflict and repair * The mistake I made when trying to repair too soon * A shadow work question to help you understand what’s really happening beneath the trigger This episode is for you if... * You find yourself overthinking interactions between your partner and other people. * Jealousy quickly turns into anxiety, anger, or self-doubt. * You want to respond to triggers with more curiosity instead of shame. Your invitation… In the comments, share your reflections to this shadow work prompt: When you felt jealous, what were you actually afraid would happen? Then notice what lives underneath that answer. Jealousy isn’t asking to be judged, it’s asking to be understood. You can read my original post from when this event happened here: "I don't want to be with you anymore" If you’d like to go beyond understanding your patterns and actually practice healing them, inside the Codependency Alchemy Membership we come together each month for guided shadow work, inner child healing sessions, live AMAs, and a private community where you don’t have to navigate this work alone. Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe

    When jealousy shows up (even when you trust your partner)

  7. 8 Jul

    The real reason you can't let go of your ex

    Have you ever felt like you couldn’t let go of someone even though you knew the relationship was over? In this episode, I share one of the most powerful shadow work questions I’ve ever used to help uncover why it’s so difficult to move on after a relationship ends. Together we’ll explore: * why we attach our dreams to people * how codependency keeps us trying to control the outcome * what it really means to build inner safety after heartbreak * a guided inner child healing practice to help you begin releasing the attachment without abandoning yourself. Whether you’re navigating a breakup, struggling to let go of an ex, or simply noticing how tightly you cling to certain outcomes in relationships, this episode is an invitation to turn inward instead of chasing certainty outside yourself. Because healing isn’t about getting someone back. It’s about coming home to yourself. What you’ll learn… * Why letting go feels so difficult after a breakup * How codependency fuels attachment * One shadow work question that changes everything * A simple inner child healing practice for building inner safety * How to move from control toward self-trust This episode is for you if... * You’re struggling to let go of an ex * You’re healing codependency or anxious attachment * You want practical tools for moving through heartbreak Your invitation In the comments, take a moment to ask yourself this shadow work prompt: What dream have I attached to this person? Then notice: * How do I feel when I believe that dream only exists with them? * How would I feel if I didn’t believe that thought? Sometimes what we’re grieving isn’t the relationship itself. It’s the story we’ve been telling ourselves about what our life can and cannot be. If you’d like support exploring these patterns more deeply, you’re invited into the Codependency Alchemy membership, where we practice shadow work, inner child healing, and nervous system tools together through live sessions, monthly AMAs, and an ever-growing library of guided healing practices. Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack *Was this episode supportive? If so, please like and share it with someone else who might need to hear these conversations. As always, thank you for your support in helping me in my mission of spreading awareness around codependency and healing the mother wound. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe

    The real reason you can't let go of your ex

  8. 17 Jun

    What if the pattern isn’t the problem?

    Have you ever caught yourself spiraling and thought, "Why am I doing this again?" This episode is about what happens when we stop trying to get rid of the pattern and start listening to what it's trying to tell us. We explore why self-sabotage isn't actually the problem, how triggers point us toward unmet needs, and the powerful question that can completely change the way you relate to your patterns. What you’ll learn… * The question that helps you understand your triggers* How to identify what your patterns actually want and need* How shadow work helps us move through triggers with compassion This episode is for you if... * You struggle with self-sabotage* You judge yourself when old patterns resurface* You feel frustrated that healing isn’t happening “fast enough” Your invitation… Take a moment to ask yourself these questions and type them out in the comments (or write them in your journal). Just make sure do somehow do this reflection somewhere that isn’t just in your head, it’s important to witness ourselves in these contemplations. What is one thing I keep doing that I wish I would stop doing? Then ask: * What does that part of me want?* What does that part of me need?* How would that part of me feel if it got that need met? Notice what comes up, because maybe the pattern isn’t the problem. Maybe it’s showing you exactly where healing wants to happen. If you’re wanting support exploring these questions more deeply, you’re invited into the Codependency Alchemy membership where we practice this work together through live shadow work sessions, inner child healing practices, monthly AMAs, and community support. Click here to learn more and join our growing Codependency Alchemy community on Substack. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit alyssaaazander.substack.com/subscribe

    What if the pattern isn’t the problem?
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Codependency Alchemy is a space for healing codependency through shadow work and inner child healing. Join Alyssa for the vulnerable conversations, personal stories, and hard truths that help you reclaim your voice, set soul-aligned boundaries, and create relationships rooted in self-trust and authenticity. alyssaaazander.substack.com

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