The Covert Narcissism Podcast

Renee Swanson, Bleav
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Covert narcissistic abuse crushes one’s soul. This podcast is devoted to understanding covert narcissistic abuse, its effect on the victims, and how to heal.

  1. 5 HRS AGO

    What If They Aren't a Covert Narcissist — Now What

    One of the most paralyzing questions I hear from people in these relationships is not "how do I leave?" It is this: What if I'm wrong? What if they aren't actually a covert narcissist? What if you walk away from someone who genuinely loves you — and you were misreading everything all along? In this episode, we sit with that question honestly. Because you deserve more than just reassurance. You deserve to actually think this through. We talk about: Why the "what if I'm wrong" fear has so much power over you — and why that is not a coincidence Why you do not need a diagnosis to validate your pain or to make a decision about your life How good people can still be bad partners — and what that actually looks like in real relationships The four questions to ask yourself when you are stuck in self-doubt Why losing the ability to trust yourself is one of the deepest wounds of covert narcissistic abuse The most important question you may have never asked yourself: What if I'm right? If you have spent months or years wondering whether what you are experiencing is real — this episode is for you. Connect with Renee: Coaching services and resources: www.covertnarcissism.com Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    27 min

  2. 3D AGO

    Why You Can’t Move On After Covert Narcissistic Abuse | Betrayal Trauma Explained with Dr. Debi Silber

    Why is it so hard to move on after covert narcissistic abuse? Why can betrayal trauma continue affecting you years—or even decades—later? In this powerful conversation, Renee Swanson sits down with betrayal trauma expert Dr. Debi Silber to explore the deep emotional, physical, and psychological impact of betrayal in covert narcissistic relationships. Dr. Debi explains why betrayal is a unique form of trauma, how Post Betrayal Syndrome affects survivors, and why healing from covert narcissistic abuse requires more than simply “moving on.” Together, Renee and Dr. Debi discuss the loss of trust, the breakdown of self, nervous system dysregulation, chronic symptoms, emotional triggers, and the patterns that keep survivors stuck for years. They also dive into the five stages of betrayal recovery and what true transformation looks like after emotional abuse. If you’ve struggled with self-doubt, rumination, hypervigilance, inability to trust, emotional exhaustion, or feeling like you lost yourself in a covert narcissistic relationship, this episode will help you understand why—and what healing can actually look like. In this episode: Betrayal trauma and covert narcissistic abuse Why you can’t “just move on” Post Betrayal Syndrome symptoms The connection between betrayal trauma and the nervous system Rebuilding trust after emotional abuse The five stages of betrayal recovery Healing after covert narcissistic relationships Why survivors stay stuck Transformation after betrayal Learn more about Dr. Debi Silber and The PBT Institute at https://thepbtinstitute.com/ Visit www.covertnarcissism.com for additional resources. DISCLAIMER: THE INFORMATION PROVIDED BY RENEE SWANSON, COVERT NARCISSISM PODCAST, AND CNG LIFE COACHING IS FOR EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES ONLY AND IS NOT TO BE USED FOR DIAGNOSIS PURPOSES AND NOT INTENDED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE FOR CLINICAL CARE. PLEASE CONSULT A HEALTH CARE PROVIDER FOR GUIDANCE SPECIFIC TO YOUR CASE. THIS MATERIAL DISCUSSES NARCISSISM IN GENERAL. RENEE SHARES STORIES FROM HER PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AS WELL AS FROM THOSE SHE HAS TALKED WITH FOR SEVERAL YEARS. HER MATERIAL DOES NOT CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON HAS NARCISSISM AND SHOULD NOT BE USED TO REFER TO ANY SPECIFIC PERSON AS HAVING NARCISSISM. PERMISSION IS NOT GRANTED TO LINK TO OR REPOST THIS MATERIAL TO SUPPORT AN ALLEGATION OR SUPPORT A CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON IS A NARCISSIST. THAT WOULD BE AN UNAUTHORIZED MISUSE OF THE MATERIAL AND INFORMATION PROVIDED. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    42 min

  3. MAY 3

    Why You Can't Stop Thinking About Your Narcissist: What Your Rumination Is Really Chasing

    If you've ever lain awake at 2am replaying conversations with your narcissistic partner or ex — rehearsing the perfect response, asking yourself why you can't just let it go — this episode is for you. Rumination after narcissistic abuse is one of the most common and most misunderstood experiences in covert narcissist recovery. It feels compulsive. It feels impossible to stop. And most people in narcissistic relationships believe it means something is wrong with them. It doesn't. And in this episode, Renee Swanson — certified life coach, survivor of 21 years of covert narcissistic abuse, and host of the Covert Narcissism Podcast — breaks down exactly what is happening in your mind, why it won't stop, and what your rumination is actually chasing beneath the surface. What you will learn in this episode: Why rumination after narcissistic abuse is not a sign of weakness — it is your mind's trauma response doing exactly what it was designed to do The three-layer framework for understanding why your thought loops are so relentless and so hard to break What intermittent reinforcement is and why covert narcissistic relationships condition your nervous system like a slot machine The feeling beneath the loop — what your rumination is really chasing, and why you've been looking for it in the wrong place Why understanding the thought loop alone is not enough to stop it — and what actually creates lasting change Two practical tools to use immediately — one for deep reflection and one for the moment the spiral starts If this episode resonated with you and you're ready to go deeper than understanding — if you're ready to have real support in applying what you know and moving forward — Renee invites you to explore coaching at www.covertnarcissism.com Coaching is not about learning more. It is about having the support to finally apply what you already know and begin moving forward. Your story matters, and you deserve to be heard without judgment. The information provided by Renee Swanson, Covert Narcissism Podcast, and CNG Life Coaching is for educational purposes only and is not to be used for diagnosis purposes and not intended to be a substitute for clinical care. Please consult a health care provider for guidance specific to your case. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    32 min

  4. APR 30

    Recognizing Covert Narcissistic Abuse After 17 Years of Marriage: Community Chat

    Have you ever felt like something was wrong in your relationship but couldn't find the words to describe it? In this episode of the Covert Narcissism Podcast Community Chat, I sit down with David, who spent 17 years married to a covert narcissist before finally being able to name what he was experiencing. David shares how it started with recognizing passive aggressive behavior, how that led him down the rabbit hole of covert narcissism, and what happened when he finally said it out loud to someone he trusted. We talk about why covert narcissistic abuse is so hard to explain to others, what it feels like when you aren't fully believed, and how saying it out loud is often the moment the healing begins. David also opens up about life after divorce, co-parenting with a covert narcissist, and the very real challenge of protecting your children from narcissistic manipulation while staying in a healed and grounded place yourself. If you are struggling to name what you are experiencing in your relationship, feel like no one around you truly understands, or are navigating co-parenting after narcissistic abuse, this episode is for you. Topics covered in this episode: Recognizing covert narcissistic abuse in marriage Passive aggressive behavior as an early warning sign Why covert narcissistic abuse is hard to explain to family and friends What happens when you first say it out loud Healing after divorce from a narcissist Co-parenting with a covert narcissist Protecting children from narcissistic manipulation Trusting your gut when something feels wrong To join future CNG Community Chats, visit https://www.covertnarcissism.com/community-chats THE INFORMATION PROVIDED BY RENEE SWANSON, COVERT NARCISSISM PODCAST, AND CNG LIFE COACHING IS FOR EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES ONLY AND IS NOT TO BE USED FOR DIAGNOSIS PURPOSES AND NOT INTENDED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE FOR CLINICAL CARE. PLEASE CONSULT A HEALTH CARE PROVIDER FOR GUIDANCE SPECIFIC TO YOUR CASE. THIS MATERIAL DISCUSSES NARCISSISM IN GENERAL. RENEE SHARES STORIES FROM HER PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AS WELL AS FROM THOSE SHE HAS TALKED WITH FOR SEVERAL YEARS. HER MATERIAL DOES NOT CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON HAS NARCISSISM AND SHOULD NOT BE USED TO REFER TO ANY SPECIFIC PERSON AS HAVING NARCISSISM. PERMISSION IS NOT GRANTED TO LINK TO OR REPOST THIS MATERIAL TO SUPPORT AN ALLEGATION OR SUPPORT A CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON IS A NARCISSIST. THAT WOULD BE AN UNAUTHORIZED MISUSE OF THE MATERIAL AND INFORMATION PROVIDED. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    36 min

  5. APR 26

    They Never Cheated, But You Still Feel Worthless: The Self-Righteous Narcissist Explained

    Have you ever been in a relationship with someone who never cheated, never raged, never drank — someone everyone around you thought was wonderful — and yet you constantly felt like you were the problem? Like you could never measure up, never quite get it right, never escape the quiet but crushing weight of their disappointment? That's not your imagination. And it's not your fault. In this episode of the Covert Narcissism Podcast, Renee breaks down one of the most misunderstood and hardest-to-identify forms of covert narcissism: the self-righteous narcissist. This is the narcissist who gains their supply not from attention or admiration — but from their own sense of moral superiority. They would never cheat. They would never lie. And they will make absolutely sure you know it. In this episode, you'll learn: What narcissistic supply actually is — and why morality can be a form of it How the self-righteous narcissist uses a "moral scoreboard" to keep you in a one-down position The specific phrases they use that sound reasonable but function as control Why this type of abuse is so hard to identify — and why victims almost always end up blaming themselves The long-term impact on your sense of self, your confidence, and your own moral compass What healing looks like — and how to start reclaiming who you actually are Whether you grew up with a self-righteous parent, are in a relationship with a self-righteous partner, or are just beginning to connect the dots on why you always felt like the problem — this episode will give you language for something you've felt but never been able to name. You were never the problem. And the scoreboard was never fair. If you're ready to stop untangling this alone, Renee's coaching program is open. Visit covertnarcissism.com to learn more. THE INFORMATION PROVIDED BY RENEE SWANSON, COVERT NARCISSISM PODCAST, AND CNG LIFE COACHING IS FOR EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES ONLY AND IS NOT TO BE USED FOR DIAGNOSIS PURPOSES AND NOT INTENDED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE FOR CLINICAL CARE. PLEASE CONSULT A HEALTH CARE PROVIDER FOR GUIDANCE SPECIFIC TO YOUR CASE. THIS MATERIAL DISCUSSES NARCISSISM IN GENERAL. RENEE SHARES STORIES FROM HER PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AS WELL AS FROM THOSE SHE HAS TALKED WITH FOR SEVERAL YEARS. HER MATERIAL DOES NOT CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON HAS NARCISSISM AND SHOULD NOT BE USED TO REFER TO ANY SPECIFIC PERSON AS HAVING NARCISSISM. PERMISSION IS NOT GRANTED TO LINK TO OR REPOST THIS MATERIAL TO SUPPORT AN ALLEGATION OR SUPPORT A CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON IS A NARCISSIST. THAT WOULD BE AN UNAUTHORIZED MISUSE OF THE MATERIAL AND INFORMATION PROVIDED. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    32 min

  6. APR 23

    The Rewriting of Reality: How Covert Narcissists Distort the Truth and Make You Doubt Yourself

    In this episode, we explore one of the most confusing and disorienting dynamics of covert narcissistic abuse: the rewriting of reality. This isn’t obvious gaslighting or explosive denial. It’s subtle, calm, and often presented in a way that makes you question your own perception over time. If you’ve ever walked away from a conversation feeling off, only to later be told you misunderstood, overreacted, or “took it the wrong way,” this episode will help you understand what’s really happening beneath the surface. We’ll break down how covert narcissists distort the truth, how repetition reinforces their version of events, and why you may find yourself doubting your own memory, emotions, and experiences. We’ll also explore how these narratives can spread to friends and family, leaving you feeling even more isolated and unsure of yourself. Most importantly, this episode will help you begin reclaiming your own narrative—learning to trust what you feel, recognize what’s real for you, and step out of the confusion. If you’ve ever thought, “Maybe it’s me,” this episode is for you. Visit www.covertnarcissism.com for additional resources. THE INFORMATION PROVIDED BY RENEE SWANSON, COVERT NARCISSISM PODCAST, AND CNG LIFE COACHING IS FOR EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES ONLY AND IS NOT TO BE USED FOR DIAGNOSIS PURPOSES AND NOT INTENDED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE FOR CLINICAL CARE. PLEASE CONSULT A HEALTH CARE PROVIDER FOR GUIDANCE SPECIFIC TO YOUR CASE. THIS MATERIAL DISCUSSES NARCISSISM IN GENERAL. RENEE SHARES STORIES FROM HER PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AS WELL AS FROM THOSE SHE HAS TALKED WITH FOR SEVERAL YEARS. HER MATERIAL DOES NOT CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON HAS NARCISSISM AND SHOULD NOT BE USED TO REFER TO ANY SPECIFIC PERSON AS HAVING NARCISSISM. PERMISSION IS NOT GRANTED TO LINK TO OR REPOST THIS MATERIAL TO SUPPORT AN ALLEGATION OR SUPPORT A CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON IS A NARCISSIST. THAT WOULD BE AN UNAUTHORIZED MISUSE OF THE MATERIAL AND INFORMATION PROVIDED. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    27 min

  7. APR 19

    Your Body Knew Before You Did: Learning to Trust Yourself After Covert Narcissistic Abuse

    If you’ve ever looked back on a relationship and thought, “Why didn’t I see it sooner?”—you’re not alone. And more importantly, you’re not wrong. In this episode, we explore a powerful truth about covert narcissistic abuse: your body often recognizes what your mind cannot yet explain. While you may now understand the patterns, manipulation, and emotional abuse, your nervous system may still feel unsettled—and there’s a reason for that. We’ll break down the connection between the subconscious, the body, and the nervous system, and why healing cannot happen through thinking alone. You’ll learn why your body stayed heightened, how self-blame keeps you stuck, and how to begin rebuilding trust with yourself in a way that actually works. This episode also introduces a simple, practical tool—Notice, Name, Need, Next—to help you reconnect with your body and start responding to what it’s been trying to tell you all along. If you’re tired of overthinking, second-guessing yourself, or feeling like something is still “off” even though you understand everything, this episode will help you take the next step in your healing journey. Visit www.covertnarcissism.com for additional resources. THE INFORMATION PROVIDED BY RENEE SWANSON, COVERT NARCISSISM PODCAST, AND CNG LIFE COACHING IS FOR EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES ONLY AND IS NOT TO BE USED FOR DIAGNOSIS PURPOSES AND NOT INTENDED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE FOR CLINICAL CARE. PLEASE CONSULT A HEALTH CARE PROVIDER FOR GUIDANCE SPECIFIC TO YOUR CASE. THIS MATERIAL DISCUSSES NARCISSISM IN GENERAL. RENEE SHARES STORIES FROM HER PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AS WELL AS FROM THOSE SHE HAS TALKED WITH FOR SEVERAL YEARS. HER MATERIAL DOES NOT CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON HAS NARCISSISM AND SHOULD NOT BE USED TO REFER TO ANY SPECIFIC PERSON AS HAVING NARCISSISM. PERMISSION IS NOT GRANTED TO LINK TO OR REPOST THIS MATERIAL TO SUPPORT AN ALLEGATION OR SUPPORT A CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON IS A NARCISSIST. THAT WOULD BE AN UNAUTHORIZED MISUSE OF THE MATERIAL AND INFORMATION PROVIDED. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    28 min

  8. APR 16

    The Moment Something Finally Clicked: Seeing Covert Narcissistic Abuse Clearly

    There is often a moment in covert narcissistic relationships when something finally shifts. The confusion begins to clear, the patterns start to make sense, and you realize that what you’ve been experiencing has a name. But that moment rarely comes all at once. In this Community Chat, Renee is joined by Jenny, who shares her experience of what it looked like when things finally clicked for her after more than four decades in her marriage. What started as small realizations over time eventually led to a moment of undeniable clarity—one that changed everything. Together, they explore the gradual awakening that so many survivors of covert narcissistic abuse go through, the internal back-and-forth between clarity and doubt, and the emotional impact of finally seeing things for what they are. If you’ve ever questioned your reality, wondered why it took so long to see it, or found yourself moving between “I know” and “maybe I’m wrong,” this conversation will resonate deeply. This episode is a reminder that clarity is not a single moment—it’s a process. And you are not alone in it. Visit www.covertnarcissism.com for additional resources and to sign up for future CNG Community Chat opportunities. THE INFORMATION PROVIDED BY RENEE SWANSON, COVERT NARCISSISM PODCAST, AND CNG LIFE COACHING IS FOR EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES ONLY AND IS NOT TO BE USED FOR DIAGNOSIS PURPOSES AND NOT INTENDED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE FOR CLINICAL CARE. PLEASE CONSULT A HEALTH CARE PROVIDER FOR GUIDANCE SPECIFIC TO YOUR CASE. THIS MATERIAL DISCUSSES NARCISSISM IN GENERAL. RENEE SHARES STORIES FROM HER PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AS WELL AS FROM THOSE SHE HAS TALKED WITH FOR SEVERAL YEARS. HER MATERIAL DOES NOT CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON HAS NARCISSISM AND SHOULD NOT BE USED TO REFER TO ANY SPECIFIC PERSON AS HAVING NARCISSISM. PERMISSION IS NOT GRANTED TO LINK TO OR REPOST THIS MATERIAL TO SUPPORT AN ALLEGATION OR SUPPORT A CLAIM THAT ANY SPECIFIC PERSON IS A NARCISSIST. THAT WOULD BE AN UNAUTHORIZED MISUSE OF THE MATERIAL AND INFORMATION PROVIDED. Hosted by Simplecast, an AdsWizz company. See pcm.adswizz.com for information about our collection and use of personal data for advertising.

    32 min
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