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Steve Moore & Mark Kastleman
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Two sex addicts in long-term successful recovery are ALSO world-class Counselors who specialize in porn and sex addiction recovery. Drawing on 40 years of combined personal and professional experience, Mark and Steve get RAW and REAL about HOW to overcome addiction, heal betrayal trauma and save your marriage. If you're struggling with addiction—we get it. Recovery is hard. We've been there. We'll help you take the fight to your addiction like never before. If you're married to an addict—we KNOW what it's like to nearly destroy a marriage! We'll help you understand the world of your husband's addiction and begin healing your betrayal trauma, regardless of what he decides to do. You don't have to stay stuck. You don't have to keep suffering. We've made all the mistakes so you don't have to. Take back your life. Take back your marriage. Let's do this together! This is the PBSE podcast. 

  1. 2D AGO

    "Why Do Intrusive Mental Images Still Hit Me—Even Years Into His Recovery?"

    In this episode (#333), we address a question from a betrayed partner who is about three years into sex addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing with her partner. Although he has been sober, involved in 12-step recovery, working with a sponsor, and the couple has gone through formal therapeutic disclosure, she still experiences intrusive mental images connected to his past acting out. We explain that these images are not evidence that she is failing in her healing. They are trauma responses. The early season of discovery, trickle-truth, searching for evidence, finding secret accounts and online ads, and trying to piece together reality created a chain of traumatic events that the nervous system may continue to store as danger. We discuss how intrusive thoughts can feel “random,” even when they are not. A betrayed partner may be triggered not only by obvious reminders of the betrayal, but also by subtle cues such as a tone of voice, silence, emotional distance, stress, fatigue, or even positive closeness. The body can remember danger before the conscious mind understands why. Because of this, healing includes learning to distinguish the past from the present through grounding tools, breath work, somatic calming, the 5-4-3-2-1 technique, journaling, orienting to current safety, and sometimes trauma-focused professional help such as EMDR, brainspotting, somatic therapy, or work with a CSAT or partner trauma specialist. The goal is not to erase memory, but to reduce the intensity, frequency, and dominance of the trauma response. We also emphasize that the addict in recovery can play a powerful role in helping rebuild present-day safety. When his partner is triggered, his job is not to collapse into shame, become defensive, or demand that she “move on.” Instead, he can stand shoulder to shoulder with her against the trauma, respond with genuine curiosity, validate the pain his actions caused, and use the language of safety: “I can see something is coming up for you. What do you need from me right now?” Proactive transparency, consistent check-ins, emotional vulnerability, and accountability help reduce the partner’s need for hypervigilance. Ultimately, the measure of healing is not whether intrusive images never appear again, but whether they become less intense, less frequent, easier to recover from, and less able to rob the partner of peace in the present. For a full transcript of this podcast in article format, go to:  Why Do Intrusive Mental Images Still Hit Me—Even Years Into His Recovery? Learn more about Mark and Steve's revolutionary online porn/sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing program at—daretoconnectnow.com Find out more about Steve Moore at:  Ascension Counseling Learn more about Mark Kastleman at:  Reclaim Counseling Services

    44 min

  2. MAY 11

    Half-In, Half-Out Recovery: He Says He’s Changing but Keeps the “Addiction Door” Cracked Open

    In this PBSE episode (#332), we explore what it means when an addict says he is changing but continues to keep the “addiction door” cracked open. A betrayed partner may see signs that look like recovery—porn blockers, monitoring software, more honesty, fewer obvious acting-out behaviors—but still discover that her partner is seeking sexualized content through social media thirst traps, scanning, fantasy, or other loopholes. We make clear that this is not simply a “lesser version” of the original problem. If the addict is still using sexualized material for arousal, escape, objectification, secrecy, dopamine, or emotional regulation, then he is still engaging the addiction system. The article distinguishes between technical sobriety and real recovery. Technical sobriety asks, “Did this technically count as porn?” Real recovery asks, “Why am I still seeking sexualized escape outside my relationship?” Half-in, half-out recovery often happens when an addict wants the benefits of recovery—less shame, fewer consequences, a calmer partner, restored trust—without fully surrendering the addiction itself. He may comply with outward recovery tasks while still protecting hidden outlets, loopholes, or emotional escape routes. We challenge addicts to ask hard questions: What am I still protecting? What do I get from these behaviors? What emotions am I trying not to feel? Am I more committed to technical innocence or true relational safety? For betrayed partners, the article offers strong validation: you are not overreacting when these “edging” behaviors still feel like betrayal. Continued sexualized attention outside the relationship can communicate comparison, rejection, humiliation, and abandonment, even when the addict insists it is “not as bad” as before. Partners cannot force addicts into integrity, but they can find their voice, define what safety requires, and refuse to call half-surrender full recovery. Ultimately, the article teaches that there is no “door number three” where an addict can keep the perks of addiction while enjoying the trust and intimacy of a healed relationship. Real hope begins when the addict closes the door fully and chooses transformation over loopholes. For a full transcript of this podcast in article format, go to:  Half-In, Half-Out Recovery: He Says He’s Changing but Keeps the “Addiction Door” Cracked Open Learn more about Mark and Steve's revolutionary online porn/sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing program at—daretoconnectnow.com Find out more about Steve Moore at:  Ascension Counseling Learn more about Mark Kastleman at:  Reclaim Counseling Services

    38 min

  3. MAY 4

    If He will NOT face His Porn Addiction—You as a Partner MUST find Your Voice NOW!

    In this episode (#331), we respond to a betrayed partner who discovered her husband’s ongoing porn use while she was pregnant and has since caught him multiple times in the same painful cycle: he apologizes, promises to stop, briefly improves, becomes defensive, grows distant, and eventually lies again. The most recent betrayal was especially devastating because he told her he no longer watched porn only hours before she discovered the truth. Now postpartum, exhausted, and emotionally wounded, she still loves him deeply and sees him as her best friend, but she does not know how to help him understand that this is no longer “just porn.” We emphasize that regardless of whether he accepts the label of addiction, the deception, defensiveness, minimization, and repeated betrayal are already causing serious damage. We describe the common cycle that many betrayed partners experience: the addict engages in questionable or compulsive behavior, secrecy and emotional volatility increase, the partner senses something is wrong, and then her love, patience, and hope are often used—consciously or not—to keep the pattern going. Over time, the partner may become inconsistent, fearful, self-doubting, or silent in an attempt to preserve the relationship, while the addict becomes more defensive and the coupleship erodes. Trust drops, intimacy becomes unsafe, and both people become better at surviving the relationship than thriving in it. If this continues too long, the relationship can reach a tragic place where love still exists, but the partner can no longer stay. The core invitation to the betrayed partner is to stop putting down the mirror and stop silencing her voice. She cannot force him into recovery, but she can clearly and consistently reflect the impact of his choices: how the porn, lying, gaslighting, defensiveness, and inaction affect her, their trust, and their marriage. She can set boundaries, lower vulnerability and intimacy when trust is low, and build an outside support system that does not depend on him. The message is urgent: do not wait until the relationship has bled out emotionally. If he will not face his porn addiction or compulsive behavior, she must find her own voice now and move forward in truth, safety, support, and self-respect. For a full transcript of this podcast in article format, go to:   If He will NOT face His Porn Addiction—You as a Partner MUST find Your Voice NOW! Learn more about Mark and Steve's revolutionary online porn/sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing program at—daretoconnectnow.com Find out more about Steve Moore at:  Ascension Counseling Learn more about Mark Kastleman at:  Reclaim Counseling Services

    48 min

  4. APR 28

    No D-Day, No Disclosure—But I KNOW I’ve Been Betrayed: Healing from Integrity Abuse When the Truth Is Still Hidden

    In Episode 330, Mark & Steve address a uniquely painful and confusing experience for many betrayed partners: living with a deep sense of betrayal and trauma without ever receiving a full disclosure or definitive proof of wrongdoing. We explain that the absence of a “D-Day” does not mean the absence of harm, and that many partners endure years of emotional instability, manipulation, and invalidation that create real trauma regardless of whether specific behaviors are confirmed. By expanding the definition of betrayal beyond isolated events, we highlight how patterns of defensiveness, objectification, coercion, and emotional withdrawal can erode trust and safety just as profoundly as more visible forms of infidelity. A central focus of the article is the concept of integrity abuse, where one partner not only engages in harmful behaviors but also controls the narrative surrounding those behaviors—often denying, minimizing, or reframing reality in ways that discredit the injured partner. This dynamic becomes even more damaging when combined with strong public image management, particularly in cases where the offending partner is respected in the community. The result is a devastating double bind in which the betrayed partner’s reality is invalidated both privately and publicly, leading to confusion, isolation, and self-doubt. Ultimately, we emphasize that healing does not require a confession, proof, or acknowledgment from the partner who caused the harm. Instead, it begins with becoming “reality-anchored”—identifying what is known through lived experience, validating one’s own pain, and releasing the need for external validation. By building a trauma-informed support system, establishing boundaries, and allowing space for grief, partners can reclaim their sense of truth, dignity, and stability. Even when the full story remains hidden, healing is still possible, and a grounded, empowered future can still be created. For a full transcript of this podcast in article format, go to:   No D-Day, No Disclosure—But I KNOW I’ve Been Betrayed: Healing from Integrity Abuse When the Truth Is Still Hidden Learn more about Mark and Steve's revolutionary online porn/sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing program at—daretoconnectnow.com Find out more about Steve Moore at:  Ascension Counseling Learn more about Mark Kastleman at:  Reclaim Counseling Services

    43 min

  5. APR 21

    We Want a Family, But He Just Disclosed His Porn Addiction—Now What?

    In this episode (329), Mark and Steve address a submission from a betrayed wife whose husband has recently disclosed a porn addiction just as they were preparing to start a family. They acknowledge the immense emotional tension she is carrying: she deeply loves her husband, wants to support him, and has always dreamed of becoming a mother, yet now feels shattered by betrayal, comparison, insecurity, and fear about what pregnancy and parenthood would mean in the middle of such instability. They honor her sincerity and loyalty while also making it clear that her pain is real and that she is not overreacting by wanting to slow everything down. A major theme of the episode is that the husband’s recovery and the wife’s healing are not the same process. The speakers caution against the common mistake of focusing entirely on the addict’s struggle while minimizing the partner’s trauma. They explain that there is no clean finish line called “fully recovered,” and that healing is not about returning to life as it was before disclosure, but about moving through the grief, loss, and transformation this crisis has brought into the marriage. They stress that she must not abandon her own needs, boundaries, and healing in order to carry him, and that both individuals need qualified support, separate healing work, and a stronger relational framework built on truth. Mark and Steve are especially emphatic that this couple should not rush into having children. They explain that children do not fix instability—they magnify it—and that parenthood should never be treated as the automatic next step in a fragile, newly destabilized marriage. Instead, they recommend a deliberate pause on major life decisions, intensive recovery and betrayal-trauma support, clear stability markers, and a long-term pattern of proactive honesty, accountability, and emotional regulation. Their message is ultimately hopeful: the marriage is not doomed, and a healthy future family may still be possible, but only if it is built on a new foundation of transparency, healing, and integrity rather than on pressure, denial, or haste. For a full transcript of this podcast in article format, go to:   We Want a Family, But He Just Disclosed His Porn Addiction—Now What? Learn more about Mark and Steve's revolutionary online porn/sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing program at—daretoconnectnow.com Find out more about Steve Moore at:  Ascension Counseling Learn more about Mark Kastleman at:  Reclaim Counseling Services

    46 min

  6. APR 14

    He Says He Chooses Me... So Why Is He Still Thinking About Other Women?!

    In this episode (328), we address a powerful and heartbreaking question from a betrayed partner: how can her partner claim to love and choose her while continuing to have sexual thoughts about other women? We acknowledge the profound trauma this creates, especially given the timing during pregnancy and postpartum—a period of heightened vulnerability. The repeated disclosures of these thoughts have created a cycle of ongoing emotional injury, leaving her feeling humiliated, replaceable, and unsafe. We emphasize that her pain is valid and reflects real, cumulative trauma, not oversensitivity. We then explore the nature of these thoughts within addiction, distinguishing between occasional intrusive thoughts and deeply conditioned patterns of scanning and objectification that develop over time. While these patterns may be rooted in addiction wiring, they still cause real harm and must be addressed through meaningful recovery work. A major focus is placed on the “double bind” of honesty—where partners feel trapped between needing transparency and being retraumatized by it. We introduce the concept of therapeutic honesty, explaining that effective disclosure must be contained, structured, and focused on recovery actions rather than detailed recounting of harmful thoughts. Finally, we outline what true healing requires. For partners to heal, there must be stabilization—meaning the reduction of harmful behaviors and the end of ongoing re-injury. We also stress the importance of separating the addict’s thoughts from the partner’s worth, recognizing that his conditioning is not a reflection of her value. Rebuilding a sense of being “chosen” comes not through words, but through consistent, protective actions over time. We encourage partners to take control of the disclosure process, setting boundaries around what they hear, and remind them that their healing—not managing their partner’s recovery—is the priority. For a full transcript of this podcast in article format, go to:   He Says He Chooses Me... So Why Is He Still Thinking About Other Women?! Learn more about Mark and Steve's revolutionary online porn/sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing program at—daretoconnectnow.com Find out more about Steve Moore at:  Ascension Counseling Learn more about Mark Kastleman at:  Reclaim Counseling Services

    47 min

  7. APR 6

    He Turned Me Into Porn . . . Now I Don't Want Sex at All—Is This Normal?!

    This episode (327) centers on a betrayed partner who, after uncovering her husband’s secret pornography use, finds herself increasingly sexually averse despite his apparent efforts toward recovery. Her experience is compounded by a history of childhood sexual trauma and objectification, making the betrayal not just painful, but deeply retraumatizing. When her husband admitted to mentally replacing her with pornographic images and even attempting to shape her into those fantasies, it reinforced a lifelong narrative of inadequacy and comparison. We make it clear that her reaction is not abnormal—it is a natural and protective trauma response from a nervous system that has learned to associate sexual intimacy with danger. We emphasize that while the addict’s recovery is essential, it is not the same as the partner’s healing. True healing for the betrayed partner requires consistent, long-term experiences of safety—not just effort or apologies. Any form of sexual pressure must be completely removed, allowing intimacy to be rebuilt from the ground up through non-sexual connection, emotional safety, and mutual respect. We also highlight the importance of the partner reclaiming her sense of self—developing body autonomy and recognizing her inherent worth independent of physical appearance or sexual performance, which are often distorted by both personal trauma and cultural messaging. Finally, we address the central question of whether sexual desire will return. While it often can, we stress that it cannot be forced or expected. Desire is the byproduct of restored safety, trust, and emotional connection, and it emerges gradually when those elements are consistently present. We also encourage both partners to consider broader relational dynamics, including boundaries, empowerment, and collaboration in daily life, not just in the sexual realm. Healing is possible, but it requires patience, intentionality, and a complete shift away from entitlement toward genuine, mutual, and safe connection. For a full transcript of this podcast in article format, go to:   He Turned Me Into Porn ... Now I Don't Want Sex at All—Is This Normal?! Learn more about Mark and Steve's revolutionary online porn/sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing program at—daretoconnectnow.com Find out more about Steve Moore at:  Ascension Counseling Learn more about Mark Kastleman at:  Reclaim Counseling Services

    43 min

  8. MAR 31

    The NECESSITY of Community in Recovery & Healing for Addicts and Betrayed Partners

    In Episode 326, we highlight the critical truth that both addiction and betrayal trauma are fueled by isolation and secrecy, making community an essential part of the healing process. Addicts often withdraw due to shame and fear of judgment, while betrayed partners frequently feel alone, confused, and unable to share their reality with others. This shared isolation deepens pain on both sides and reinforces destructive cycles. However, when individuals step into a supportive recovery community, they begin to break that isolation, realizing they are not alone and that others truly understand their experience. Community plays several vital roles in recovery. It normalizes the experience by helping individuals overcome “terminal uniqueness” and recognize shared struggles. It provides accountability, which is nearly impossible to achieve in isolation, and helps individuals stay aligned with their values and recovery goals. It also offers outside perspective, clears distorted thinking, and creates opportunities to learn and practice healthy relational skills. Additionally, connection with others has a direct biological impact, helping regulate the nervous system and reduce stress responses, which is essential for both addicts and partners navigating emotional triggers. Perhaps most importantly, community sustains hope when it is most needed. Recovery is a long and difficult journey, and there will be times when individuals feel discouraged or question whether healing is possible. In those moments, seeing others who are further along the path provides reassurance and renewed motivation. Community becomes a place where individuals can borrow strength and belief from others until they can stand firmly again on their own. Ultimately, this article reinforces a foundational principle: true and lasting recovery does not happen alone—it happens in connection. For a full transcript of this podcast in article format, go to:   The NECESSITY of Community in Recovery & Healing for Addicts and Betrayed Partners Learn more about Mark and Steve's revolutionary online porn/sexual addiction recovery and betrayal trauma healing program at—daretoconnectnow.com Find out more about Steve Moore at:  Ascension Counseling Learn more about Mark Kastleman at:  Reclaim Counseling Services

    40 min
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Two sex addicts in long-term successful recovery are ALSO world-class Counselors who specialize in porn and sex addiction recovery. Drawing on 40 years of combined personal and professional experience, Mark and Steve get RAW and REAL about HOW to overcome addiction, heal betrayal trauma and save your marriage. If you're struggling with addiction—we get it. Recovery is hard. We've been there. We'll help you take the fight to your addiction like never before. If you're married to an addict—we KNOW what it's like to nearly destroy a marriage! We'll help you understand the world of your husband's addiction and begin healing your betrayal trauma, regardless of what he decides to do. You don't have to stay stuck. You don't have to keep suffering. We've made all the mistakes so you don't have to. Take back your life. Take back your marriage. Let's do this together! This is the PBSE podcast. 

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