Figuring Sh!t Out

Vanessa Fontana
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This show is an exploration of what it means to be human, to seek truth, and to become who we’re meant to be. Hosted by Vanessa Fontana, an NYC-based writer, it explores the questions that shape us, the beliefs that challenge us, and the things that make us reconsider everything we thought we knew. Bridging spirituality, faith, philosophy, literature & lore, healing, and humor, this podcast is your companion in the messy, beautiful process of becoming, and a reminder that we’re all just figuring sh!t out. Stay Connected: IG: @byvanessafontana TikTok: butterflyfountain Youtube:@figuringshitout Join Metamorphosis, the Community for women seeking creative exploration, nervous system regulation, and support in their artistry. Partnership / Busines Inquiries: contactbutterflyfountain@gmail.com

  1. 16h ago

    140. the ache in your heart is holy: how to pray

    "and what can I say of prayer? except that it feels like clean air in my lungs. i sit and i vent and i cough up dirty water and blood and something holy makes me brand new. my heart aches and then it doesn’t. that is all I know." this episode is for anyone who has no idea how to hear God, talk to God, is confused about what they believe about God, isn't confused but is looking for new perspectives on interacting with the sacred and holy, and for anyone who knows that learning to commune + communicate with the Creator of all things might just be in their benefit but has no idea where to start. i share how prayer has evolved for me over the years and how it's become a life-boat, an anchor, something i cannot live without and i give you a framework to use prayer to invest deeper in a relationship with God. my prayer for you in listening to this episode - is that it inspires you to begin or deepen a dialogue of your own with God. something sacred, special, and just yours. - for meditations, workshops, conversations about God, & creative awakening tools join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary for women designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you in community.  learn more & hear what members are saying: METAMORPHOSIS inside you'll have access to: Journey's like the 10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey, 5 Day Somatic Expression Perfectionism Journey, 10 Day Heart Opening Journey, Digital Detox Journey's & more!!Bi-weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A library of 50+ meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats For $20 your first month, join with the code MAGIC - HERE - Mentioned in the episode: Traveling mercies - book by Anne Lamott Podcast on Unanswered Prayer  Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

    140. the ache in your heart is holy: how to pray

  2. Oct 24

    139. you were created on purpose

    learning to see yourself through God's eyes - "Fearfully and Wonderfully made Knit together Created - breath by breath and piece by piece Gifted and anointed Created Intentionally And on Purpose That is what your creator says about making you.  And yet - you make yourself small when you enter into rooms that feel like they can’t hold your loud laugh and big heart You shrink into smithereens when the person across from you darts their eyes to the other corner of the room while you’re in conversation You ask yourself  Am I smart enough? Interesting enough? Skinny enough? Pretty enough?  Am I Enough? And you forget  That you were fearfully  And wonderfully made Knit together Created breath by breath  Piece by piece Gifted and anointed Created Intentionally  And on purpose" What does it mean to be fearfully and wonderfully made, to know that you were created on purpose, and to see yourself through God’s eyes instead of the world’s? In this episode of Figuring Sh!t Out, we explore self-worth, identity, and the freedom of knowing you are deeply loved, intentionally created, and already enough. - for meditations, workshops, conversations about God, & creative awakening tools join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary for women designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you in community.  learn more & hear what members are saying: METAMORPHOSIS inside you'll have access to: Journey's like the 10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey, 5 Day Somatic Expression Perfectionism Journey, 10 Day Heart Opening Journey, Digital Detox Journey's & more!!Bi-weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A library of 50+ meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats / Free NYC events For $20 your first month, join with the code MAGIC - HERE Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

    139. you were created on purpose

  3. Oct 17

    138. maybe you can just... RECEIVE love & healing?? (instead of chasing it???)

    "tear your heart out of your chest - and give it to God. there is no other healing. i swear, there is no other healing." (Yasmin Mogahed) - what if healing isn’t about becoming the most "aligned" version of yourself, but learning to receive a love greater than your own and surrender to the path created for you? what if you could stop treating yourself like a project to complete, and let God meet you in the parts of yourself you still struggle to love? maybe we don’t just HEAL our inner child - maybe we learn to become children again. to surrender the exhausting responsibility of being our own healer, our own source of love, our own answer to everything. to let ourselves be held, guided, and transformed by a love we could never earn, but is freely given. - in case you missed the last episode: God? youtubespotify- for meditations, workshops, conversations about God, & creative awakening tools join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary for women designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you in community.  learn more & hear what members are saying: METAMORPHOSIS inside you'll have access to: Journey's like the 10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey, 5 Day Somatic Expression Perfectionism Journey, 10 Day Heart Opening Journey, Digital Detox Journey's & more!!Bi-weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A library of 50+ meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats / Free NYC events For $20 your first month, join with the code MAGIC - HERE Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

    138. maybe you can just... RECEIVE love & healing?? (instead of chasing it???)

  4. Oct 10

    137. the God i wasn't looking for

    plot twist: jesus. — For meditations, workshops, conversations about God, & creative awakening tools join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary for women designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you in community.  learn more & hear what members are saying: METAMORPHOSIS inside you'll have access to: Journey's like the 10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey, 5 Day Somatic Expression Perfectionism Journey, 10 Day Heart Opening Journey, Digital Detox Journey's & more!!Bi-weekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A library of 50+ meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats / Free NYC events Join at the lowest price ever HERE -- LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc im probably also having them), and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life. Socials: IG: @byvanessafontana  TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain inquiries: contactbutterflyfountain@gmail.com Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

    137. the God i wasn't looking for

  5. Jun 7

    136. im changing and i'm terrified of what it might cost me, wbu?

    This episode is a confession, an homage to honesty, a bid of vulnerability on a deeply personal shift happening in my life that I've let through a couple of episodes but I haven't unearthed fully because - Well, I've been believing lies that have kept me scared and stuck. Yes, even (ESPECIALLY) Miss.FiguringSh!tOutYapsALotPodcastHost has fear and doubt that chokes her up. In this episode, I share what it’s like to find yourself standing between two voices: The voice of fear and the voice of truth. And how to discern between the two. We touch on healing, EMDR, perfectionism, somatic work, and these hidden lies that keep us stuck long after we’ve outgrown them. This is Figuring Sh!t Out - in it's deepest essence. A real-time reflection on what it looks like to be unraveling the stories you've told yourself about who you are expected to be in order to survive, knowing that life is more than just surviving, and honoring that most of the things that scare the sh!t out of you don't just scare the sh!t out of you because of all that you have to lose - But also, mostly, more importantly - because of ALL that you have to gain. -- EMDR Episode  METAMORPHOSIS: a creative nervous-system led sanctuary for women designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you - in COMMUNITY. Want to learn more about Metamorphosis? All you need to know is here. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

    136. im changing and i'm terrified of what it might cost me, wbu?

  6. May 31

    135. you DON'T actually have to show up perfectly to show up at all: A Revelation!

    and how much of ourselves have we lost deciding that how we are, as we are, is not enough? how much of our very nature has been stripped away, chipped away, from the gnawing need to be complete? complete by what measure, by what degree? by whose decree? where did we learn that if it wasn’t done perfectly, then it shouldn’t be done at all? that 0% until we can miraculously have 100% is better than 1% every day? what freezes within us that causes us to choke at the words we yearn to say and long to express but don’t trust will come out “right” or “perfectly?” what radical judgements have we internalized? who told us that we were wrong? why did we believe them? and why is it now, ourselves, who tell us we are wrong every day we begin something and learn we are bad at first, commit to something then let our second thoughts become our first, pine for freedom yet cut our tongue from speaking the words that free us?  - in this episode, we get real about the lie that is: "when i'm ready," and how it's really just code for: "when i'm willing to face the fear on the other side of pursuing something very real and very deep and very important to me," and i share with you how i'm navigating the exact same thing. -- Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary for women designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you - in COMMUNITY. HEAR WHAT MEMBERS ARE SAYING ABOUT METAMORPHOSIS Inside you'll have access to: Journey's like the 10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey and 5 Day Somatic Expression Perfectionism JourneyWeekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats / Free NYC events-- LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life. Socials: IG: @byvanessafontana  TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain inquiries: contactbutterflyfountain@gmail.com Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

    135. you DON'T actually have to show up perfectly to show up at all: A Revelation!

  7. May 24

    134. SELF DISCIPLINE? for FREEDOM??? unfortunately yes.

    The difference between your strongest desire and your deepest desire might just be what you're not seeing. ---- Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary for women designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you - in COMMUNITY. HEAR WHAT MEMBERS ARE SAYING ABOUT METAMORPHOSIS Inside you'll have access to: Journey's like the 10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey and 5 Day Somatic Expression Perfectionism JourneyWeekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats / Free NYC events LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life. Socials: IG: @byvanessafontana  TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain inquiries: contactbutterflyfountain@gmail.com Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

    134. SELF DISCIPLINE? for FREEDOM??? unfortunately yes.

  8. May 17

    133. One! Step! At! A! Mf! TIME!!! slow DOWN.

    for anyone who feels like they're behind: a path is formed by walking a path is formed by walking a path is formed by walking. -- Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary for women designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you - in COMMUNITY. HEAR WHAT MEMBERS ARE SAYING ABOUT METAMORPHOSIS Inside you'll have access to: Journey's like the 10 day Creative Awakening & Inner Child Healing Journey and 5 Day Somatic Expression Perfectionism JourneyWeekly live sessions (Artist’s Hours + Shadow-Workshops) (Also recorded)A growing library of meditations, practices, and resources (& Monthly Themes)A private community space for connection, expression, and collaboration25% off future retreats / Free NYC events-- LEAVE A COMMENT & let me know WHAT this episode provoked in you, what questions you have (bc tbh I may also be having them), what you want to hear next, and how Figuring Sh!t Out has impacted your life. Socials: IG: @byvanessafontana  TIKTOK: @butterflyfountain inquiries: contactbutterflyfountain@gmail.com Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brands Privacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

    133. One! Step! At! A! Mf! TIME!!! slow DOWN.
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This show is an exploration of what it means to be human, to seek truth, and to become who we’re meant to be. Hosted by Vanessa Fontana, an NYC-based writer, it explores the questions that shape us, the beliefs that challenge us, and the things that make us reconsider everything we thought we knew. Bridging spirituality, faith, philosophy, literature & lore, healing, and humor, this podcast is your companion in the messy, beautiful process of becoming, and a reminder that we’re all just figuring sh!t out. Stay Connected: IG: @byvanessafontana TikTok: butterflyfountain Youtube:@figuringshitout Join Metamorphosis, the Community for women seeking creative exploration, nervous system regulation, and support in their artistry. Partnership / Busines Inquiries: contactbutterflyfountain@gmail.com

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  • Creator
    Vanessa Fontana
  • Years Active
    2023 - 2026
  • Episodes
    139
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © 2023 Figuring Sh!t Out
  • Show Website
    Figuring Sh!t Out

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