Dani is joined by Mishi for an honest conversation about exercise anxiety, stepping away from movement during recovery, and what it really looks like to return to exercise without guilt, control, or obsession. This episode is especially relevant for women recovering from hypothalamic amenorrhea who feel unsure whether exercise can ever be healthy again — or who fear that rest and eating freely means losing a part of their identity. From Competitive Gymnastics to Exercise ControlMishi shares her background as a competitive gymnast for 18 years and how that identity shaped her relationship with exercise long after she retired. For nearly a decade, she maintained a high level of athleticism, but over time, exercise and nutrition became increasingly rigid and controlling. Through her HA recovery, Mishi realized that exercise was no longer serving her health. She made the difficult decision to take a 6–8 month break from structured exercise and gave herself unconditional permission to eat. She describes this realization as a massive emotional release — similar to the unexpected relief she felt when being laid off during COVID — as if a constant weight had finally been lifted. When Exercise Stops Being FunThe conversation explores how exercise can become transactional: something you do to earn food, manage anxiety, or control your body. Mishi opens up about moving to Florida in 2023 and experiencing a period of emotional numbness, regret, and disconnection from movement altogether. Instead of forcing motivation, she learned to reframe her past relationship with exercise with gratitude — recognizing that it served her at one point, but no longer needed to define her present. Rebuilding an Active Life Without ExtremesMishi shares how she slowly embraced a more active lifestyle in Florida, starting with something simple and accessible: walking a familiar 3-mile bridge-to-bridge loop. She talks about overcoming the mental barriers of inconvenience, lack of purpose, and the absence of weight-loss motivation. Together, Dani and Mishi discuss the challenge many women face after HA: How do you stay consistent with movement when guilt, fear, and aesthetic goals are no longer driving the behavior? Their answer isn’t perfection — it’s balance, flexibility, and rejecting extremes on both ends. Letting Go of Validation Through Exercise and FoodThis episode dives deep into the freedom that comes from no longer using exercise or food as a form of external validation. Mishi shares how grateful she feels to move through busy seasons of life without constantly thinking about nutrition or workouts, allowing her to focus on her business and personal priorities. Dani adds her perspective on how exercise often becomes meaningful again when it supports health or function, rather than control or appearance. Shifting to Health-Focused FitnessDani reflects on her own transition from competitive Olympic weightlifting to a more health-focused fitness approach — one that improved her posture, reduced back pain, and supported better body composition without obsession. They discuss normalizing food choices, including enjoying fast food without guilt, and why reducing stress around food is especially important for women dealing with hormone imbalances. Instead of hyper-fixating on ingredients or rigid rules, Dani emphasizes intentionality, flexibility, and context. Returning to Exercise With ConfidenceToward the end of the episode, Mishi shares how she’s recently returned to strength training at a CrossFit gym — intentionally avoiding high-intensity elements while rebuilding trust with her body. She also shares a long-term goal that feels exciting rather than punishing: regaining her gymnastics skills, including back handsprings, by 2026. The episode wraps with a lighthearted discussion about competitive sports, confidence, and identity, reminding listeners that movement can be playful, empowering, and self-directed again. Who This Episode Is ForThis conversation is for you if: You feel anxious about exercising during or after HA recoveryYou’ve taken a break from movement and don’t know how to returnExercise used to feel joyful but now feels controlling or drainingYou want a healthier, calmer relationship with food and fitnessThis episode offers reassurance that you don’t have to choose between health and movement — and that joy, strength, and confidence can come back on your own terms. Follow Mishi: https://instagram.com/itsmishigarcia https://instagram.com/danisheriff
