Recovering Out Loud

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Sobriety you can actually use — from someone who lived it twice. I'm Anthony. I got sober in 2015, relapsed after 7.5 years, and rebuilt from zero. Now I'm an addiction counsellor-in-training sharing what actually works in recovery — not theory, real tools. Every episode covers the real struggles of staying sober: emotional sobriety, relapse prevention, identity, people-pleasing, shame, trauma, mental health, and the messy middle nobody talks about. If you're newly sober, years in, or supporting someone you love — this is your space. New episodes every week. Follow so you never miss one.

  1. 4d ago

    The Difference Between Me and a Normal Drinker | Borrowed Wisdom: Bob D.

    What's the real difference between an alcoholic and a normal drinker? Old-timer Bob D. has an answer. In this Borrowed Wisdom episode, Anthony breaks down a speaker talk from Bob D. on the disease of alcoholism — and why, in Bob's words, he didn't become an alcoholic because he drank; he drank the way he did because he's an alcoholic. We get into: The chicken or the egg — does drinking cause alcoholism, or does something come first? Bob believes he was born this way. Anthony isn't sure — and why that question matters less than the solution.The geographic cure — why moving cities never fixes it. Wherever you go, there you are.Two kinds of wiring — a normal drinker feels a buzz and backs off. An alcoholic feels the same buzz and hits the gas. "Losing control" vs. "about to get control."Never "just right" — the phenomenon of craving, chasing the dragon, and the stimulant/benzo cycle of trying to be your own chemist.Feeling normal only when half lit — the invisible wall at the party, and how recovery lets you feel "a part of" without substances.Restless, irritable and discontent — the dog circling the room, and "chronic malcontent": the new car that's the wrong colour three weeks later.Head vs. heart — the difference between admitting you have a problem and getting it in your innermost self. Watch your feet.The downside of getting better — how a good life can seduce you into a false sense of okayness, and how that played into Anthony's own 7.5-year relapse.When the obsession returns — why people who relapse after years often say they'd have bet anything they'd never drink again.This is lived experience and peer perspective, not clinical advice. 12-step, SMART Recovery, therapy, rehab, sober coaching — find the path that works for you, then do the work. Want the link to Bob D.'s full talk? DM me on Instagram. @recoveringoutloudpod If no one's told you today — we love you. Recovery is simple, not easy.

    The Difference Between Me and a Normal Drinker | Borrowed Wisdom: Bob D.

  2. 6d ago

    5 Things Alcoholics Still Do After They Get Sober

    Sobriety didn't switch off my alcoholic thinking. 5 things I still do in addiction recovery — and how I catch them. Putting down the drink and the drug was the start, not the finish. My problem was never just drugs and alcohol — it's me, my perception, and the way I try to escape pain. Left unchecked, that alcoholic thinking runs quietly in the background and turns into resentment, fear, anxiety and anger. And eventually, a drink. In this solo episode of Recovering Out Loud, I walk through five things I still catch myself doing almost two years into my second run at sobriety: More is better — swapping the bottle for something else. Coffee, sugar, vapes, the gym, scrolling, work. Cross addiction is real, and so is channelling an obsessive brain into something that helps.Right now or never — instant gratification, the text you shouldn't send, and why I make things worse every time I try to force an outcome.Resentment on repeat — rehearsing arguments in the shower, keeping score, and learning to just let them.Running the show — control, people pleasing, and the difference between being kind and being nice.The mask — image management, the highlight reel, and the gap between recovering publicly and recovering honestly.Plus: the best part of recovery (a 30-day text from a guy I'm working with), an update on my school situation and the "push or pivot" moment that came out of it, and three questions you can ask yourself about each of these. This is lived experience and peer perspective — not clinical advice. If any of these land for you, tell me which one in the comments.

    5 Things Alcoholics Still Do After They Get Sober

  3. Sep 24

    How to Stay Sober Through Hard Times (While You're Still In It)

    Staying sober through adversity while you're still in it — not the highlight reel after. This one's recorded from inside the hard middle. I'm in the middle of something with school right now that could change my path, and instead of waiting until it's tied up with a bow, I wanted to talk about what actually gets people through while it's still messy — and why so many come out the other side changed for the better. We get into pain versus suffering (pain × resistance = suffering), post-traumatic growth and the five places research says growth tends to show up, and the Stockdale Paradox — holding total faith that you'll get through it alongside the discipline to face the brutal facts right now. Faith without facts is denial. Facts without faith is despair. Then the practical stuff: four inner moves and four outer moves for getting through a hard stretch without picking up. Inner moves Accept what's actually here (acceptance isn't approval)Shrink the timeline to the next right thingDon't believe everything your mind says in a stormProtect the boring basics — sleep, food, water, movementOuter moves 5. Let people in 6. Ask for specific help 7. Do one thing for someone else 8. Find a thread of meaning — carefully, and on your own schedule Some adversity is just loss, and it stays loss. Growth is something you notice looking back, not something you owe anyone while you're hurting. Two things can be true. If you're in the hard middle right now: text one person the truth today. This is lived experience and peer perspective, not clinical advice.

    How to Stay Sober Through Hard Times (While You're Still In It)

  4. Sep 22

    The 5 Slow Killers of Sobriety — Why Relapse Is Emotional Before It's Physical

    Relapse is emotional before it's physical. The 5 slow killers that take us out — and how to get ahead of each one before it gets ahead of you. None of these five feel like drinking. They feel like normal life — a grudge you're nursing, a secret you're carrying, a Friday night with nothing in it. That's exactly why they're dangerous. By the time a drink is in your hand, the relapse already happened weeks ago, quietly, in your head. In this solo episode, Anthony walks through the five things he watches for in his own recovery — the quiet stuff that moves first: This is peer perspective and lived experience, not clinical advice — one person in recovery sharing what's kept him sober. Anthony has been in recovery since 2015, came back from a relapse, and is sharing the tools that help him stay ahead of his own disease.

    The 5 Slow Killers of Sobriety — Why Relapse Is Emotional Before It's Physical

  5. Sep 17

    6 Journaling Techniques for Recovery (and the Evidence Behind Each One)

    Everybody hands you a journal in early recovery and says "use it" — nobody tells you what to do with it. So this episode is the missing manual: six journaling techniques (plus a bonus), what each one is actually for, and what the evidence does and doesn't back up. This isn't "dear diary." Different methods do different jobs, and matching the technique to the day is the whole game. Bottom line: journaling is a tool, not a cure. The research is modest and mixed, not miraculous. It works with your program, not instead of it — and if writing about the hard stuff cracks open something you can't hold, that's the signal to reach for a person, not just a pen. Peer to peer, one alcoholic addict's experience — not medical or clinical advice. JOIN ME ON MY SOCIALS - FREE RECOVERY GUIDE AND RECOVERY COACHING⁠https://linktr.ee/Recoveringoutloudpod⁠ — Anthony

    6 Journaling Techniques for Recovery (and the Evidence Behind Each One)

  6. Sep 15

    The History of Addiction Treatment: Sin, Disease, Medicine & Harm Reduction

    How addiction treatment went from moral failing to disease to harm reduction — 240 years of recovery history, told through lived experience. This is a peer recovery podcast, not medical advice. I'm Anthony, an alcoholic and addict in recovery since 2015. In this solo episode of Recovering Out Loud, I walk the whole arc of how society has explained and treated addiction — moral failing, disease, medicine, harm reduction — and why every one of those models is still alive in the room today. You can meet all of them in one 12-step meeting, one hospital, one comment section. The 12 steps are younger than the telephone. Methadone is younger than television. Almost everything we call "treatment" was invented inside living memory. Here's the timeline: From sin, to disease, to medicine, to just keeping people alive — each model didn't replace the last. They're all still in the room, arguing. Recovery isn't one thing and never has been. Whatever door worked for you — 12 steps, medication, harm reduction, a fellowship — it exists because people before us refused to accept moral failure as the final word. The opposite of addiction is connection.

    The History of Addiction Treatment: Sin, Disease, Medicine & Harm Reduction

  7. Sep 10

    10 Things Another Sober Summer Taught Me

    Ten honest lessons from another sober summer — victimhood, relapse, isolation, service, and faith. Summer's over and I'm back to school for my counseling diploma, so this one is a reflection on getting another summer under my belt sober. If you made it through sober — congratulations, I'm proud of you. And if you didn't, I'm proud of you for being here and trying to do better. Coming back from a slip is the hardest thing I've ever done. These are ten things I've journaled and thought about over the last few months working a recovery program. They're not clinical advice — just one person's lived experience, out loud: Recovery is simple — not easy. And if no one's told you today: I love you.

    10 Things Another Sober Summer Taught Me

  8. Sep 8

    King Baby: The Ego Underneath Addiction

    My real problem was never the drugs or alcohol. It was King Baby — the toddler ego running my life. In 2015, in treatment at Hazelden, I read a little pamphlet by Tom Cunningham called King Baby. It rewired how I saw my whole problem. It made me realize I wasn't a victim — I was the problem. Not the drugs, not the alcohol. Those were symptoms. The disease underneath is perception: being stuck inside myself, unable to get out of my own head. This episode is my walk through that idea. We all start as King Baby — the infant at the center of the universe, every need met instantly. Most people grow out of it. Some of us never shed it, and the infant ego spends a lifetime trying to get that warmth back. Enter drugs and alcohol: the thing that made me feel like the center of the universe again — until it stopped working. I get honest about the "sheriff of the universe" in me (the one who's right, you're wrong, and everyone in traffic is breaking Anthony's law), the masks we wear so the real self can't get rejected, and why King Baby can't tolerate calm — how we rock the boat and manufacture chaos to hide a shrinking sense of worth. Then the way out: surrender (putting down a job I was never qualified for), humility, letting the community love me until I could love myself, and choosing — every day — whether King Baby or the program gets the mic. This is lived experience, not medical advice. I'm not a doctor or a clinician. I'm an alcoholic and addict in recovery. King Baby's still in there. He just doesn't drive the bus anymore. Would you rather be right, or free? I want to be free. FIND THE PAMPHLET HERE

    King Baby: The Ego Underneath Addiction
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Sobriety you can actually use — from someone who lived it twice. I'm Anthony. I got sober in 2015, relapsed after 7.5 years, and rebuilt from zero. Now I'm an addiction counsellor-in-training sharing what actually works in recovery — not theory, real tools. Every episode covers the real struggles of staying sober: emotional sobriety, relapse prevention, identity, people-pleasing, shame, trauma, mental health, and the messy middle nobody talks about. If you're newly sober, years in, or supporting someone you love — this is your space. New episodes every week. Follow so you never miss one.

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  • Creator
    ROL Productions
  • Years Active
    2025 - 2026
  • Episodes
    151
  • Rating
    Explicit
  • Copyright
    © ROL Productions
  • Show Website
    Recovering Out Loud

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