The Quiet Tension

Dr. Sharon Chirban

Every high performer knows the feeling. A layer of pressure, drive, doubt, or longing that hums along beneath the achievement, rarely spoken and almost never examined. That's the quiet tension. Sometimes it's the force that gets you up before dawn and pushes past what others consider possible. Sometimes it's what's quietly costing you — in relationships, in health, in the distance between who you perform as and who you actually are. Often it's both at once. Hosted by psychologist and executive coach Sharon Chirban, The Quiet Tension is a conversation about what really drives high performers, and what it asks of them in return. Through intimate interviews with founders, athletes, executives, and creatives, Sharon moves past the resume and into the questions most achievement culture avoids; What actually makes you tick? What does excellence give you — and what does it take? And what begins to change when you finally look at the forces running underneath your ambition? These conversations explore the emotional regulation beneath discipline, the identity questions beneath success, and the patterns shaping lives from below the surface. Left unexamined, that tension can harden into burnout, emotional exhaustion, perfectionism, or disillusionment. But when understood, it becomes something else entirely — Insight, choice, and a more sustainable relationship to ambition. This isn't a productivity podcast. There are no hacks or morning routines here. Just honest conversations about what it actually takes to perform at the highest levels and what becomes possible when you finally look at what's been running underneath. The Quiet Tension. Listen closely.

Episodes

  1. 3d ago

    "Sharing an Armrest” with Thor Steingraber

    Throughout life, we share armrests with strangers in all kinds of places: on airplanes, in stadiums, in rooms organized around commerce, competition, or conviction. But for this week’s guest, the performing arts offer something rarer. They ask us to sit beside people we did not choose, release our expectations, and enter a shared experience together.  In this episode of The Quiet Tension, host Dr. Sharon Chirban speaks with Thor Steingraber, opera director turned arts executive and incoming president and CEO of Vivo Performing Arts, about what live performance can make possible. As Vivo enters a new chapter in Boston, Steingraber is thinking not only about what appears onstage, but about who gathers in the room, what they experience together, and how art can bring people into proximity across differences. Before joining Vivo, Steingraber’s life in the arts has already moved through many chapters: choir, opera, and more recently his leadership at The Soraya in Los Angeles. Through each chapter, he has been drawn to the magic of how performance can gather strangers into a room, and remind them what can happen when they surrender to the experience. Listeners will hear Steingraber talk about:  (04:54) Many Voices Becoming One(10:12) Sharing an Armrest with a Stranger(17:27) Reimagining the Story in Front of Us(19:01) Leading Vivo Into Its Next Chapter(25:42) When Boston Becomes the Venue(28:52) Leading from the Back of the Pack (33:40) His Deepest ConcernsPhotos included are courtesy of Vivo Performing Arts / Robert Torres. New episodes of The Quiet Tension are released every other week. If you’d like to stay updated, subscribe on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, YouTube, or wherever you listen. To learn more about topics like today’s, follow Sharon on Substack or visit the show website.

  2. Sep 9

    “Not Just Mental Toughness” with Dr. Jessica Bartley

    An identity built on toughness and strength can make it devastatingly difficult to ask for help. That is why support can’t depend on athletes reaching breaking points; it must be built into the world around them. In this episode of The Quiet Tension, host Dr. Sharon Chirban speaks with Dr. Jessica Bartley, who leads psychological services for the U.S. Olympic & Paralympic Committee (USOPC), about the urgent work of building crisis response systems for Olympic athletes. Together, they explore how the invisible pressures that athletes face, such as income struggles, meteoric rises to fame, or mental health pressures, can easily rival the pressures they face in the games.  Before joining the USOPC, Jessica was already more than familiar with the demanding worlds of performance, from eating disorders and body image work to Colorado Ballet and professional bull riding.  Across these varied worlds, she saw the same need for care that reaches the person beneath the performance. As Jessica reminds us, everyone has performances, and the work of building healthier systems around them is never finished. Listeners will hear Jessica talk about:  (04:00) Building the system athletes needed(05:46) What crisis looks like at the olympic level(7:22) The difficulty of asking for help(12:01) The myth that Olympians don’t need help(14:06) When opportunity becomes just another pressure(20:14) Building healthy systems for every pivot (26:52) Behind the person building the system(39:33) Why everyone has performances New episodes of The Quiet Tension are released every other week. If you’d like to stay updated, subscribe on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, YouTube, or wherever you listen. To learn more about topics like today’s, follow Sharon on Substack or visit the show website.

  3. Aug 26

    "Relaxed Chaos" with Katie Uhlaender

    Content Note: Please note this episode includes discussion of grief, substance use, and moments of crisis in elite sport. Please take care while listening. Some athletes are extraordinary because they can hold pressure. The danger is that people keep asking them to hold more. In this episode of The Quiet Tension, host Dr. Sharon Chirban speaks with five-time Olympian Katie Uhlaender about the “relaxed chaos” of skeleton, and how the skill that made her extraordinary on the ice similarly helped her to move through the whiplash of grief, celebrations, loss, and advocacy. Katie’s career has taken her through some of the most defining highs and devastating lows an athlete can face. From losing her father while on tour, to grieving friends inside the Olympic world, to missing a medal because of a doping scandal, Katie reflects on what the Olympic system gave her without neglecting its costs. Despite this, she still believes strongly in the pursuit of excellence, and as she thinks beyond the track, Katie asks for the sports world to adopt greater honesty, understanding, and stronger systems for the athletes who come next. Listeners will hear Uhlaender talk about:  (02:53) Finding the “Relaxed Chaos” Zone(08:15) The Cost of Natural Ability(14:48) Grief Without Regret(18:10) When the System Misses the Person(21:22) HBO’s The Weight of Gold (27:59) Losing a Medal, Finding a Voice(37:25) What Comes After the TrackMental health resources: If you or someone you know is struggling or in crisis, support is available. In the U.S. and Canada, call or text 988 to connect with crisis support or visit 988.ca for more information. If you are outside the U.S. or Canada, please contact your local emergency number or a crisis line. New episodes of The Quiet Tension are released every other week. If you’d like to stay updated, subscribe on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, YouTube, or wherever you listen. To learn more about topics like today’s, follow Sharon on Substack or visit the show website.

  4. Jul 15

    When Knowledge Isn’t Enough with Stu McMillan

    What happens when someone who has built a career on expertise becomes more interested in curiosity, uncertainty, and asking better questions? In this episode of The Quiet Tension, host Dr. Sharon Chirban speaks with renowned sprint and performance coach Stu McMillan about what decades spent guiding elite athletes have revealed to him about the deeper work of coaching. Stu has spent his career coaching at the tip of the spear, working with athletes performing at the highest levels possible. As the CEO of ALTIS, he has worked with elite athletes across track and field, bobsleigh, and other high-performance environments, helping to shape Olympic champions and world-class performers.Listeners will hear Stu talk about:  (2:15) Finding his unique edge(5:55) Meeting Dan Pfaff, the mentor who reshaped Stu’s understanding of coaching(10:45) Seeing the human beyond the athlete(13:10) Coaching at the tip of the spear(19:37) Identity and reinvention: how athletes can get boxed into an identity(28:27) What Stu has learned from long-term relationships with athletes(33:45) Why Stu is energized by coaching, while questioning what he wants to carry forward(35:39) Stu’s honest reflection on where he turns for supportNew episodes of The Quiet Tension are released every week. If you’d like to stay updated, subscribe on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, YouTube, or wherever you listen. To learn more about topics like today’s, follow Sharon on Substack or visit the show website.

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Every high performer knows the feeling. A layer of pressure, drive, doubt, or longing that hums along beneath the achievement, rarely spoken and almost never examined. That's the quiet tension. Sometimes it's the force that gets you up before dawn and pushes past what others consider possible. Sometimes it's what's quietly costing you — in relationships, in health, in the distance between who you perform as and who you actually are. Often it's both at once. Hosted by psychologist and executive coach Sharon Chirban, The Quiet Tension is a conversation about what really drives high performers, and what it asks of them in return. Through intimate interviews with founders, athletes, executives, and creatives, Sharon moves past the resume and into the questions most achievement culture avoids; What actually makes you tick? What does excellence give you — and what does it take? And what begins to change when you finally look at the forces running underneath your ambition? These conversations explore the emotional regulation beneath discipline, the identity questions beneath success, and the patterns shaping lives from below the surface. Left unexamined, that tension can harden into burnout, emotional exhaustion, perfectionism, or disillusionment. But when understood, it becomes something else entirely — Insight, choice, and a more sustainable relationship to ambition. This isn't a productivity podcast. There are no hacks or morning routines here. Just honest conversations about what it actually takes to perform at the highest levels and what becomes possible when you finally look at what's been running underneath. The Quiet Tension. Listen closely.