Can't Call Your Mom with Nicole Weston

Nicole Weston
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Welcome to Can't Call Your Mom, the podcast for women who are living, loving, and leading after losing their mom. For the motherless mothers who are raising babies, running businesses, and showing up for everyone else, all while carrying a grief most of the world doesn't have space for. I'm Nicole Weston, transformational life coach, mother, wife, business owner, and a motherless mother just like you. I searched for a place where I could bring all of me — the grief and the ambition, the healing and the hustle. I couldn't find it. So I built it.

  1. 3D AGO

    11. Heart Led and Living Her Next Chapter with Heather Haigh

    EPISODE OVERVIEW This episode is a masterclass in integration. Heather describes herself as a "well-integrated personal and professional human," a phrase that encapsulates the years of showing up for hard conversations, choosing love over being right, and allowing grief to evolve her. Heather began her heart-led journey 13 years ago, long before her parents became ill, because she wanted to show up better for her family. This early investment meant she could be present with her parents in their final years in a way that brings her deep peace. The conversation explores navigating profound ideological differences with her father, receiving her mother's hardest moments with compassion, grief as an ongoing practice, and the signs and symbols (owls, loons, music) that confirm love's continuation after death. WHAT YOU'LL HEAR IN THIS EPISODE How Heather's heart-led journey started 13 years ago because she wanted to show up better for her family. The story of navigating a profound values divide with her father and the conscious choice she made to love him for who he was. The weekly dinner practice with her mother, and what it meant to show up with intention every single time, even when it was hard. The moment her mother called her a bully, and how she transformed that wound into wisdom. What it looked like to hold her mother's final weeks with grace while also having somewhere to release the pain. Why "I am her and she is me" is a lived experience of continuation. The snowy white owl that appeared in her Toronto backyard the day her mom passed, and the loon that visits the cottage dock. Music as a portal to grief, release, and connection, and how Heather uses it to find her footing. The difference between holding onto who you were before loss and allowing yourself to evolve into who you're becoming. Her book Living by Heart and the collaborative chapter she wrote about her journey with inner guidance. A MOMENT THAT WILL STAY WITH YOU "We are forever changed. So how do we let ourselves evolve through the grieving process and become who we're meant to become in this new chapter of our lives?" Heather doesn't just answer this question with words. She answers it with her whole life. CONNECT WITH HEATHER Find Heather's book Living by Heart wherever books are sold. If you're ready to lead your life and your business from a deeper, more integrated place, Heather is the guide for you. The book's website is www.livingbyheart.ca Connect with Nicole →  Book a free 15-minute connection call:  https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection →  Website: www.nicoleweston.ca →  Instagram:  @thenicoleweston Produced by Nicole Weston Co-Produced by Hunter Blackett If This Episode Resonated: Please subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. You know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community.

    41 min

  2. APR 15

    #10 Healing Grief with The Dead Mom Club: Anxious Attachment, Mother Loss, & Soul Contracts with Miranda Malone

    Nicole sits down with Miranda Malone, the dead mom therapist and founder of the Dead Mom Club, for a profound and unapologetic discussion on transforming early life loss into deep, soul-led purpose. Miranda shares her story of losing her mother, Rosalie Ann Malone, at just five months old, and how that early trauma imprinted an anxious attachment style on her nervous system. This conversation explores the power of grief rituals like ordering coffee in a lost loved one's name, why "dying doesn't make someone a saint", and the crucial work of re-parenting your inner child. Miranda and Nicole delve into spiritual concepts like soul contracts and predestiny, discussing how their mothers' passing paved the way for their current missions. Key Discussion Points: The Power of Ritual: Miranda's practice of connecting with her mother, Rosalie, through daily rituals like buying flowers for her vase and ordering coffee in her name. Anxious Attachment: How early loss can lead to developing an anxious attachment style, resulting in self-abandoning, overperforming behaviors in relationships, and imposter syndrome in business. Inner Child Tending: Reframing inner child work by meeting the needs of the child at the exact age the loss occurred (e.g., a five-month-old) The Dead Mom Club: An overview of the virtual community offering monthly Griever Circles, workshops, a private "Griever Lounge," and guest speakers for any woman who has lost her mother, regardless of the age of the daughter or the time of the loss Resources: Register for Nicole’s free Masterclass: She’s Dead. Now what? April 15th @11am https://www.nicoleweston.ca/masterclassgrief Connect with Nicole →  Book a free 15-minute connection call:  https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection →  Website: www.nicoleweston.ca →  Instagram:  @thenicoleweston Produced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter Blackett Photography by Heather Whitcombe ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠ If This Episode Resonated: Please subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. You know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community.

    55 min

  3. APR 8

    #9. Finding Glimmers in the Grief with Kelsey Reidel

    Kelsey's mom, Heather, was a gatherer of people. She watched the Food Network all day, wrote recipes on cards for friends and family, and never sat down at her own dinner party because she was too busy tending to everyone she loved. When Kelsey describes her mother, you can feel her mom flowing through her — in the way Kelsey gathers her community, loves her coffee, and shows up for the people around her. Kelsey lost her mom just over four years ago. About a year after, she felt an overwhelming pull toward motherhood — a pull she now believes was her mother's hand guiding her. Her son Freddy was born on Christmas Day, her mother's favorite holiday, and that timing cracked something open that had felt broken ever since her mom died. WHAT YOU'LL HEAR IN THIS EPISODE The story of how Kelsey's son Freddy came into the world on Christmas Day — her mom's favorite holiday — and what that meant for healing What it felt like to be a motherless woman who also wasn't yet a mother, and how that quiet, dual identity created an internal darkness she hadn't expected Her honest reflection on finding silver linings versus toxic positivity — and why searching for glimmers was the only thing that kept her going How her family each dealt with grief completely differently: her sister consumed by the past, her dad running toward the future, and Kelsey learning to live in the present The quote that changed everything: "When you're depressed, you live in the past. When you're anxious, you live in the future. But when you're at peace, you live in the present." How losing her mom shook Kelsey's belief that everything happens for a reason — and how she found her way back to that belief What she has learned about love, expansion, and choosing to live with more of it A MOMENT THAT WILL STAY WITH YOU "I would do anything to have her back. But this is what it is — so how can we expand it into more?" Kelsey shows us that finding meaning in loss isn't about pretending loss is good. It's about refusing to let love stop growing. Resources: Save your spot for my free Masterclass: She's dead. Now what April 15 at 11:am https://us02web.zoom.us/meeting/register/9a_gJj1VTluuXdxIdDDJWw Download the free Can't Call your mom Anger Workbook Guide to begin taking care of yourself and moving stuck emotions: nicoleweston.ca/workbook. Connect with Nicole https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection www.nicoleweston.ca @thenicoleweston Produced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter Blackett Photography by Heather Whitcombe ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠

    1h 2m

  4. APR 1

    #8 Grief, Boundaries & the ME First Framework: How to Stop Abandoning Yourself After Loss

    Nobody prepared you for this. Not the grief itself, and definitely not the impossible weight of trying to show up as a mother, a business owner, a partner — while silently carrying a loss that has no timeline and no rulebook. In this deeply personal solo episode, Nicole coaches her younger self through one of the most overlooked conversations in grief: how do we take care of ourselves when everything and everyone around us still needs us to show up? This episode introduces the ME First Framework — ME standing for Mental and Emotional — a compassionate, practical approach to understanding what you need, communicating it clearly, and giving yourself permission to be exactly where you are on this journey without shame. If you've ever felt like a fraud for struggling, judged yourself for not bouncing back faster, or said yes when everything in you was screaming no — this one is for you. In this episode, Nicole covers: Why grief feels like an invisible wound — and why the world doesn't give you space to heal it The ME First Framework: what it is, why it matters, and how to start using it today The mindset shift from "I should be able to handle this" to compassionate permission A step-by-step guide to setting boundaries from a place of love — not resentment The three questions to ask yourself before saying yes to anything How to communicate your capacity to the people who love you most Why boundaries always start with yourself first How to honor grief anniversaries, death anniversaries, and emotionally loaded seasons with intention A reminder that your emotions do not define you — they are indicating what you need *Saying No:  If you have difficulty saying no and someone is requesting something from you, typically your time, your energy or money, and you have a hard time saying no,  I want you to ask yourself, am I saying yes because I fear the person's disapproval?  If you answer yes, say no to the person's request. Ask yourself, am I doing this because I have a need for this person's approval?  If the answer is yes, you must say no. Ask yourself, am I doing this because I genuinely want to, from the bottom of my heart?  If yes, then say YES! A note for wherever you are on this journey: Whether you're in your first raw months of loss or years down the road still figuring out who you are now — this episode meets you where you are. There is no timeline. There is only the next step. Resources mentioned: Nicole's free Anger Workbook Guide: nicoleweston.ca/workbook Book a free 15-minute connection call: n https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection Connect with Nicole: Instagram: @theNicoleWeston Website: www.nicoleweston.ca If this episode resonated: Subscribe, leave a review, and share it with a woman in your life who is trying to hold it all together while quietly grieving. She needs to hear this. Produced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter Blackett Photography by Heather Whitcombe ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠ *Saying No steps are modelled after Avalon Empowerment

    23 min
  5. #7 My Mom died during COVID let's talk about guilt and grief

    MAR 25

    #7 My Mom died during COVID let's talk about guilt and grief

    In this raw and necessary solo episode, Nicole unpacks the unique and complex grief of losing a mother during the COVID-19 pandemic. This is a shared experience of loss where the inability to say goodbye, hold a hand, or gather for a funeral created profound, lasting impacts.1 Nicole discusses the unexpected public scrutiny and judgment she faced after sharing a viral video about the guilt of how she spent her mother's last holiday. She shares why this experience highlights a critical need to change the narrative around grief and challenge societal expectations. Key Takeaways from This Episode: The Weight of Forced Isolation: Explore the impact of not having a choice in skipping the rituals of grief, like funerals and community support, and how that absence affects the grieving process. Guilt vs. Shame: Using the insights of Brene Brown, Nicole breaks down the difference between guilt ("I did something wrong") and shame ("I am wrong") and how this confusion can prevent self-care and interfere with moving forward. Your Emotions Are Information, Not Identity: Learn the transformative truth that your feelings do not define your worth or who you are. Your emotions are simply information letting you know what needs to be moved from your body. Moving Complex Emotions: Grief is experienced every day, across life’s joys and challenges. Nicole shares her invitation to stop the opinions and "shoulds" and give yourself permission to feel and move anger, rage, and guilt to find self-love on the other side. Resources: Download the free Can't Call your mom Anger Workbook Guide to begin taking care of yourself and moving stuck emotions: nicoleweston.ca/workbook.1 Connect with Nicole →  Book a free 15-minute connection call:  https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection →  Join the Can't Call Your Mom community: https://www.instagram.com/channel/AbZEHq7v2zWhwJfc/ →  Website: www.nicoleweston.ca →  Instagram:  @thenicoleweston Please subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. If you know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community. Produced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced Hunter Blackett Photography by Heather Whitcombe https://www.whitcombecreative.com/

    16 min

  6. MAR 18

    #6 Moving With Grief, One Friday at a Time with Tara Porter

    In honour of Tracy- Tara's mom Tara is the creator of On Fridays We Dance, a movement born from heartbreak, healing, and the courage to finally feel it all. For the past 15 years she has been fostering connection through her design business, helping people create spaces that feel deeply personal and alive. After losing her daughter Harper, and then her mom just one year later, Tara spent years pushing her grief down — before learning to honor it in the way it deserved to be seen and felt. She began sharing her story and a weekly dance as a way to process her pain and rediscover her joy. Through honest storytelling and unapologetically offbeat dance breaks, Tara helps others feel seen in their own grief and trauma — reminding us all that healing isn't about moving on. It's about moving with. EPISODE OVERVIEW In this episode, Nicole sits down with Tara for a conversation that is raw, real, and deeply moving. Tara carries compound grief, the loss of her daughter Harper followed just one year later by the loss of her mom, and she brings all of it into this space without apology. This is a conversation about what it looks like to grieve in layers, to numb and then finally feel, and to discover that joy and grief can exist in the very same moment. Tara shares how five years ago she quit drinking, and when the numbing stopped, the real healing could finally begin. She talks about the kitchen dance parties she had with her mom, and how On Fridays We Dance grew from a moment of silliness between friends into a deeply healing, community-building practice that has touched thousands of people. WHAT YOU'LL HEAR IN THIS EPISODE Tara's experience of compound grief — losing her daughter and her mom within a year of each other How she spent years in survival mode, pushing her grief down to hold her family together The turning point that came five years ago when she stopped numbing and started truly feeling How On Fridays We Dance was born from kitchen dance parties with her mom — and became a healing movement The truth that grief is not linear — it comes in layers like an onion, and the body knows when you're ready for more Why joy and grief can live in the same hand at the same time The power of being witnessed — and why "I see you" can be the most healing words someone can say How her community on Instagram became a lifeline: "I don't feel so alone" A MOMENT THAT WILL STAY WITH YOU "Healing isn't about moving on. It's about moving with." Tara's story shows us that grief doesn't end on a timeline. Fifteen years in, she is still dancing with it — and that is not a sign of failure. It is a sign of love. CONNECT WITH TARA Follow Tara on Instagram and join the On Fridays We Dance movement, a community that shows up every week to feel it all, laugh through it, cry through it, and dance through it together. https://www.instagram.com/taraporterofficial/ Resources: Download the free Can't Call your mom Anger Workbook Guide to begin taking care of yourself and moving stuck emotions: nicoleweston.ca/workbook.1 Connect with Nicole →  Book a free 15-minute connection call:  https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection →  Join the Can't Call Your Mom community: https://www.instagram.com/channel/AbZEHq7v2zWhwJfc/ →  Website: www.nicoleweston.ca →  Instagram:  @thenicoleweston Produced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter Blackett Photography by Heather Whitcombe ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠ Please subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. You know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community.

    43 min

  7. MAR 11

    #5 The anger I didn’t expect to feel after my mom died

    Nobody warned you about the anger. You expected sadness. Maybe tears. Maybe missing her at the holidays or reaching for your phone to call her out of habit. What you didn't expect was the rage. The fury. Looking at her picture and feeling something that had nothing to do with softness. And then — the shame of feeling it. In this episode, Nicole Weston goes to the place most grief spaces won't touch: the anger we carry at the person we lost. The "f**k you" that lives in your chest. The emotion that doesn't fit the image of who you are — and why it showed up anyway. This is not a pretty episode. It is a true one. In this episode: → Why the anger after mom dies can be more shocking than the grief itself → The shame spiral — being angry, then judging yourself for being angry → Why anger in grief is actually your nervous system protecting you → What happens when the anger has nowhere to go — and where it ends up instead → Four rage rituals to move the anger through your body safely and with intention → Why your emotions are not defining you — they are indicating what you need → What lives on the other side of the anger when you finally let it move Free Resource: Grab the Workbook Let’s move it: The Anger That Nobody Warned Me is Nicole's free guide to moving anger and rage out of the body — without judgment, without needing to have it all figured out, and without anyone else needing to hold it for you.  Download it here: https://www.nicoleweston.ca/anger-guidebook  Work with Nicole Ready to stop managing the symptoms and get to the root? The Quantum Change Process™ is a single deep-dive session where women release decades of grief, guilt, and anger — in one session. If you're ready, I would love to connect. Book a free connection call: https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection Connect with Nicole Website: www.nicoleweston.ca  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/ Can’t Call Your Mom Facebook Community: https://www.facebook.com/groups/3961590940746387 Apply to be on the show and share your story: https://nicoleweston.as.me/applypodcast I would be honoured if you could share this episode: Please subscribe, leave a review, and send this to a woman in your life who needs permission to be angry. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community and doesn't know it exists yet. Can't Call Your Mom, a community for women who are living, loving, and leading after losing their mom. Produced byNicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter Blackett Photography by Heather Whitcombe ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠

    40 min

  8. MAR 4

    #4 The Anger Nobody Warned Me About

    Nobody warned you about the rage. Not the sadness — you expected that. But the anger? The kind that makes you look at a picture of your mom and say *f**k you for leaving me?* That part, nobody talks about. In this raw, honest solo episode, Nicole Weston opens up about the grief emotion she was least prepared for — the rage that followed her mom's death and refused to move no matter how many books she read, groups she joined, or therapy sessions she attended. Five years out, from a deeply integrated place, Nicole reflects on what that anger was really doing for her, why it's okay to be furious at someone you love who died, and what happens when your inner spark starts to go quiet. This episode gives you full permission to be exactly where you are — and offers real, practical tools for honoring your anger without letting it define you. There's not a lot of spaces where you can openly talk about how angry you are at your dead mom. I'm the one that's living. I'm the one going through the emotions. And if I don't move it, it's going to move me" - Nicole Weston In This Episode - Why Nicole was blindsided by the intensity of her grief rage — even as a trained coach who teaches emotional processing every day - The second year: why it hit harder than the first, and how perfectionism made it worse - What to do when the books, groups, and therapy aren't moving the anger - How survival mode creeps in slowly — and how your spark starts to go out without you noticing - Why being angry at your mom for dying is not a character flaw — it is love with nowhere to go - The moment Nicole realized: *thank you, rage. You kept me alive. - Practical tools to release anger safely, without judgment - Why your emotional map is one of the most powerful tools you have in grief Connect with Nicole Website: www.nicoleweston.ca Instagram:https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/ Connection Call: https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection Love This Episode? Rate, review, and subscribe — every review helps reach another motherless mother searching for this community. Take a screenshot and share it on social. Tag Nicole at @thenicoleweston Know someone who needs this? Send it to her. About Nicole Weston Nicole Weston is a transformational life coach, trained social worker, podcast host, and Quantum Change Process™ practitioner. She works with women navigating grief, motherhood, and major life transitions — helping them move from survival mode into integration, so they can lead their families, businesses, and communities from a place of wholeness. She is a motherless mother, a wife, a business owner, and she built this podcast because she couldn't find the community she needed — so she created it. Can't Call Your Mom is a movement for women who refuse to grieve quietly, and who refuse to choose between healing and ambition.* New episodes every week.

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Welcome to Can't Call Your Mom, the podcast for women who are living, loving, and leading after losing their mom. For the motherless mothers who are raising babies, running businesses, and showing up for everyone else, all while carrying a grief most of the world doesn't have space for. I'm Nicole Weston, transformational life coach, mother, wife, business owner, and a motherless mother just like you. I searched for a place where I could bring all of me — the grief and the ambition, the healing and the hustle. I couldn't find it. So I built it.

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