SOBER AS F*CK

Sober as F*ck

Sober as F*ck is a raw, unfiltered podcast on sobriety, mental health, and personal growth. Hosted by Jess and Ryan, each episode delivers real stories, practical tools, and honest conversations about rebuilding your life with discipline, clarity, and purpose. From addiction and recovery to mindset, fitness, and relationships, this show is for anyone sober, sober curious, or ready to level up. Expect powerful guests, actionable insight, and real talk that actually moves you forward. New episodes every Wednesday.

  1. Bipolar, Addiction, Trauma, and the Truth About Recovery with Louise Barnett

    4d ago

    Bipolar, Addiction, Trauma, and the Truth About Recovery with Louise Barnett

    What happens when addiction isn't the root problem, but a symptom of something much deeper?In this powerful episode of Sober as F*ck, we sit down with recovery advocate, certified life coach, podcast host, and author Louise Barnett for one of the most raw and revealing conversations we've ever had. From growing up in a strict religious household to battling depression, self-harm, eating disorders, addiction, toxic relationships, and years of undiagnosed bipolar disorder, Louise shares the unfiltered truth behind the chaos that shaped her life. Her story is a reminder that many people aren't simply struggling with alcohol or drugs. They're fighting pain, trauma, mental illness, loneliness, and unanswered questions. Louise opens up about how bipolar disorder silently fueled years of destructive behavior, why traditional recovery isn't the only path to healing, and how sobriety became the catalyst for rebuilding her identity from the ground up. She shares the pivotal moment that ended her relationship with alcohol forever, how she transformed her mania into purpose, and why storytelling remains one of the most powerful tools for recovery and mental health awareness. We also dive into motherhood, self-worth, relationships, recovery without shame, the connection between addiction and mental health, and how healing often begins when we stop running from ourselves. If you've ever questioned your relationship with alcohol, struggled with your mental health, loved someone battling addiction, or wondered whether lasting change is possible, this conversation is for you. In This Episode: • The hidden connection between bipolar disorder and addiction • Growing up between cultures and feeling like an outsider • Depression, self-harm, anorexia, and early mental health struggles • Why alcohol became a form of self-medication • Toxic relationships, trauma, and searching for validation • Motherhood as a turning point for recovery • The reality of high-functioning addiction • Getting diagnosed with bipolar disorder after years of misdiagnosis • The exact moment Louise knew she was done drinking • How sobriety unlocked purpose, healing, and personal growth • Building a coaching business, podcast, and recovery community • Why recovery and mental health conversations must be accessible to everyone Connect with Louise Barnett: 🌐 Website: https://louisebarnett.com 📘 Book: Tainted Love: A Bipolar Memoir 🎙️ Podcast: Unmasking Sobriety and Mental Health 📱 Instagram: @louisebarnettcoaching 📱 Facebook Community: Unmasking Sobriety & Mental Health Community 🎓 Certified through Jay Shetty Coaching School Louise's story proves that recovery is about far more than quitting alcohol. It's about understanding yourself, healing what hurts, and creating a life you no longer need to escape from. 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck 📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan 🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok 🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck PodcastFollow. Share. Send it to someone who's ready to level up.

    1h 27m
  2. The Truth About Functioning Alcoholism, Trauma, ADHD, and Getting Sober with Denise Koch

    May 27

    The Truth About Functioning Alcoholism, Trauma, ADHD, and Getting Sober with Denise Koch

    What happens when someone spends decades using alcohol to cope with trauma, grief, anxiety, identity struggles, and self-doubt… then finally decides to face all of it head-on? In this raw and deeply honest episode of Sober as F*ck, Denise Koch shares her journey from growing up in a culture where drinking was normalized to finding lasting sobriety later in life. Denise opens up about binge drinking, unresolved trauma, toxic relationships, chronic health issues, ADHD, grief, and the emotional weight of feeling disconnected from herself for years. From surviving a traumatic armed robbery and navigating infertility, divorce, and chronic stress, to losing her mother during sobriety and refusing to numb the pain with alcohol, Denise’s story is a powerful reminder that recovery is about far more than just quitting drinking. It’s about rebuilding your life from the inside out. This episode dives into:• Growing up surrounded by alcohol and generational drinking culture• The connection between trauma, anxiety, ADHD, and addiction• Cross addiction and chasing dopamine after alcohol• How Reframe, therapy, community, and routine changed her life• Grieving the loss of a parent without drinking• Why structure, self-awareness, and sober community matter• The reality of functioning alcoholism and emotional burnout• Learning how to actually enjoy concerts, sports, travel, and life sober Denise’s vulnerability, self-awareness, humor, and honesty make this one of the most relatable conversations yet for anyone navigating sobriety, mental health, grief, or personal transformation. Whether you’re sober, sober-curious, or simply trying to become a healthier version of yourself, this episode proves that healing is possible at any stage of life. 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    1h 8m
  3. The Hidden Cost of “Functioning” Alcoholism and How Jamie Holliday Broke Free

    May 20

    The Hidden Cost of “Functioning” Alcoholism and How Jamie Holliday Broke Free

    What happens when a high-functioning corporate professional realizes alcohol is slowly destroying everything he loves? In this raw and deeply powerful episode of Sober as F*ck, Jamie Holliday shares his journey from childhood trauma, addiction, and emotional survival to over 3,000 days sober. Raised in a chaotic environment filled with violence, drug trafficking, addiction, and instability, Jamie spent decades using alcohol to numb pain he never fully processed. From hiding alcoholism behind career success to standing on the edge of losing everything, Jamie opens up about the moment he realized sobriety was the only path forward. We dive deep into: • High-functioning alcoholism and hidden addiction • Childhood trauma and emotional survival • The connection between sobriety, mental health, and fitness • Why community and fellowship are essential in recovery • How scuba diving became meditation and healing • The role yoga and breathwork played in rebuilding his life • Therapy, vulnerability, and learning to process pain • Recovery after years of self-destruction • Breaking generational cycles and becoming a present parent • Finding peace after addiction Jamie’s story is honest, emotional, inspiring, and proof that recovery is about far more than quitting alcohol. It’s about rebuilding your identity, learning self-worth, and finally finding peace in your own skin. Whether you're sober, sober-curious, struggling with addiction, battling mental health challenges, or simply trying to become a healthier version of yourself, this conversation will stay with you long after it ends. Follow Jamie Holliday: Instagram: @yogafromtheheights Website: YogaFromTheHeights.com 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck 📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan 🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok 🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    1h 22m
  4. Marley Doran: You’ve Got Demons to Figure Out | How Alcohol Turned Me Into Someone I Didn’t Recognize

    May 13

    Marley Doran: You’ve Got Demons to Figure Out | How Alcohol Turned Me Into Someone I Didn’t Recognize

    From blackouts, rage, and shame spirals to full sobriety and radical self-awareness, Marley Doran’s story is one of the most honest conversations we’ve had on Sober as F*ck. In this episode, Marley opens up about growing up around generational alcoholism, navigating Hawaii’s heavy drinking culture, working in the restaurant industry while getting sober, and the moment her partner told her the words that changed everything: “You’ve got to get those demons figured out.” We talk about the neuroscience behind addiction, emotional regulation, intrusive thoughts, sober routines, relationship healing, recovery outside of AA, and what it really looks like to rebuild your identity after alcohol. Marley also shares why she recently gave up marijuana after over two decades and what it means to finally call herself “sober as f*ck.” This episode is raw, funny, emotional, and deeply relatable for anyone questioning their relationship with alcohol, weed, escapism, or self-worth. Topics include:• Blackouts and alcohol-fueled rage• Shame, anxiety, and relationship damage• Reframe and neuroscience-based recovery• Working in the restaurant industry while sober• Mocktails, NA drinks, and sober culture shifts• Quitting marijuana after quitting alcohol• Decision fatigue and rewiring the brain• Healing without perfection• Identity, grief, and emotional growth• Learning to feel instead of escape If you’ve ever wondered whether life actually gets better without alcohol, this conversation answers that question honestly. 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    1h 13m
  5. Jess & Ryan: Why Sobriety Still Feels Hard After 2+ Years | Peace, Burnout, and Real Growth

    Apr 29

    Jess & Ryan: Why Sobriety Still Feels Hard After 2+ Years | Peace, Burnout, and Real Growth

    Most people think sobriety is the finish line. It’s not. It’s the starting point. In this raw and unfiltered episode of Sober as Fck*, Ryan and Jess break down what actually happens after the milestones, after the routines, and after the chaos starts to fade. Ryan opens up about approaching 3 years sober and the unexpected reality that comes with it: peace. Not the fake kind. The kind that comes from letting go of control, slowing down reactions, and finally accepting that life is unpredictable no matter how much you plan. They unpack: Why reacting vs responding can change your entire life The truth about burnout in sobriety and why it hits harder than expected How journaling becomes a high-level tool for emotional control and clarity The shift from chaos addiction to calm, and why that transition feels uncomfortable at first Why discipline and routine eventually need evolution to avoid stagnation The real impact sobriety has on relationships, communication, and conflict How independence, boundaries, and self-responsibility shape the next generation This episode also dives into a major mindset shift most people avoid:You are not in control of everything, and peace comes from accepting that. Ryan and Jess also share: Their upcoming May “Level Up” Challenge focused on mental, physical, environmental, connection, and discipline growth Milestone moments with Ryan hitting 3 years sober and Jess approaching 2 years How small daily changes, not massive overhauls, create long-term transformation If you feel stuck, burned out, or like you’ve lost momentum in your sobriety or personal growth, this episode will reset your perspective and give you practical ways to move forward. Because real growth isn’t about perfection.It’s about awareness, adjustment, and continuing anyway. 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    31 min
  6. Rethinking Alcohol and Redefining Your Life with Catherine Gray

    Apr 15

    Rethinking Alcohol and Redefining Your Life with Catherine Gray

    This week on Sober as F*ck, Jess and Ryan sit down with Catherine Gray, Sunday Times Bestselling Author of The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober, author of Sunshine Warm Sober and her newest release Little Addictions, plus a globally recognized speaker and leading voice in the sober-curious movement. Catherine Gray has helped reshape how people view alcohol, identity, and mental health. Her work has reached millions worldwide, empowering people to rethink their relationship with drinking and step into a more intentional, high-performing life. In this episode, Catherine shares her personal journey and the mindset shifts that allowed her to walk away from alcohol and completely rebuild her life. This conversation goes beyond sobriety. It’s about identity, clarity, and raising your standards. We get into: • Why you don’t need a rock bottom to make a change• How alcohol subtly impacts confidence, mental health, and identity• The shift from using alcohol as a reward to seeing it as a limitation• How to recognize when alcohol is no longer aligned with your life• The psychology behind lasting change and self-control• What actually happens when you remove alcohol and level up your life Catherine also breaks down the emotional side of letting go, including identity shifts, internal work, and how to build a life that feels clear, grounded, and fully aligned. If you’ve ever questioned your relationship with alcohol or know there’s more available for your life, this episode gives you a direct and powerful perspective. Connect with Catherine Gray: 📸 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/unexpectedjoyof🔗 Linktree: https://linktr.ee/CathGrayBooks📚 Books:• The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober• Sunshine Warm Sober• Little Addictions (out now) 🎧 LISTEN & WATCH ON OUR WEBSITE - SAFPODCAST.COM 🔗 Linktree: linktr.ee/Soberasfck📸 Instagram: @safpodcast_jess.ryan🎵 TikTok: @soberaftok🎥 YouTube: Sober as F*ck Podcast Follow. Share. Send it to someone who’s ready to level up.

    55 min

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Sober as F*ck is a raw, unfiltered podcast on sobriety, mental health, and personal growth. Hosted by Jess and Ryan, each episode delivers real stories, practical tools, and honest conversations about rebuilding your life with discipline, clarity, and purpose. From addiction and recovery to mindset, fitness, and relationships, this show is for anyone sober, sober curious, or ready to level up. Expect powerful guests, actionable insight, and real talk that actually moves you forward. New episodes every Wednesday.

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