recovered-ish with chloe cox

Chloe Cox
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Recovered-ish is where we talk about the real side of eating disorder recovery — the messy parts, the confusing parts, and the parts no one wants to say out loud. I’m Chloe — therapist, recovery coach, and someone who’s been through it myself. Every solo episode gets into the stuff you’re actually dealing with: the constant mental noise, the guilt after eating, the fear of fullness, the body image spirals, the pressure to shrink, and the moments where you’re convinced you’re “failing” at recovery. This isn’t about perfection or doing recovery the “right” way. It’s about learning how to feed yourself, trust yourself, and build a relationship with your body that isn’t rooted in fear. You’ll get practical tools, honest conversations, and the kind of support I wish I had when I was in it. If you want recovery that’s imperfect, human, and actually possible… you’re in the right place.

  1. 4d ago

    "I relapsed and part of me likes it" — ED recovery Q&A part 3 | recovered-ish ep. 35

    Episode Description Part three — the final installment of the listener Q&A before I head out on maternity leave. This one covers the long game of recovery: whether it's possible after decades, whether you'll always live with it in some capacity, relapse guilt, missing the control the eating disorder gave you, the physical side effects nobody warns you about, and how you actually know when you're recovered. In This Episode: Is recovery possible after decades of an eating disorder?Why hope matters more than almost anything else — and how to find it when you have noneThe access and privilege barriers nobody names honestlyWill you always live with an eating disorder in some capacity? My honest, slightly controversial take"I relapsed and part of me likes it" — why that's more common than you thinkWhat to do when you still want the control the rules gave youAmenorrhea — getting your cycle back and why it takes longer than you expectWhy you can't sleep in early recoveryWhen did I feel recovered? Gradual or a switch?Breaking the perfectionist mindset in recoveryBuilding self-esteem when you don't feel deserving of careHow I handle public conversations about eating disorders and bodiesAnd a fun one — baby name hintsTimestamps: 0:00 Intro + maternity leave countdown 2:30 The long game — recovery over years and decades 3:30 Is recovery possible after decades? 5:00 Access, privilege, and the barriers nobody names 7:00 Why hope is the biggest factor 9:30 Will you always live with it in some capacity? 14:00 "I relapsed and part of me likes it" 16:00 When you still want the control the rules gave you 19:00 Amenorrhea and getting your cycle back 22:00 Why you can't sleep in early recovery 25:00 When did I feel recovered? 27:00 Perfectionism in recovery 29:30 Building self-esteem when you don't feel deserving 32:00 Public conversations about eating disorders and bodies 35:00 Baby name hints 37:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me: 🎓 FREE masterclass — September 15th. Register now and get the workbook immediately: https://recover-with-chloe.myflodesk.com/masterclassInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: recovery after decades, relapse guilt, eating disorder control, amenorrhea recovery, perfectionism in recovery, when do you feel recovered, ED recovery Q&A, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

  2. Aug 26

    food guilt, triggering friends, and recovering without a team — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 34

    Episode Description Part two of the listener Q&A. You sent in your questions and I'm answering them honestly. This one covers body image and worth, food guilt, figuring out whether a decision is coming from you or the eating disorder, navigating friends who say triggering things, opening up to people you've hidden this from, and what to do if a treatment team isn't accessible to you. In This Episode: How to actually detach your worth from your body — and why de-centering works better than arguing with yourselfWhat to do when your body recovers faster than your mindGetting comfortable not knowing your weightCoping with guilt after eating something you've labeled "unhealthy"How to tell if a decision is yours or the eating disorder's — a values exerciseWhy you don't have to fight the ED voice when you're exhaustedHow I realized my eating habits were actually an eating disorderThe eating disorder as your "new boyfriend" — how that dynamic worksWhat to do when friends say triggering things around foodHow and why to open up to people you've hidden this fromMaking the most of residential treatmentTop tips for recovering when a treatment team isn't accessibleDo you need a formal diagnosis?Timestamps: 0:00 Intro + Quasi-Recovery Exit update 3:00 Q&A part two begins — body image theme 3:30 Detaching your value from your body 7:00 When your body recovers faster than your mind 11:00 Getting comfortable not knowing your weight 13:00 Food guilt and the "unhealthy" label 16:00 The ED voice — who's actually making the decisions? 17:00 The values exercise 20:00 What to do when you're too exhausted to fight the voice 22:00 How I realized it was actually an eating disorder 24:00 The eating disorder as your new boyfriend 28:00 When friends say triggering things around food 32:00 Family and friends who get mad at your behaviors 35:00 Opening up after years of hiding it 38:00 Making the most of residential treatment 42:00 Recovering without a treatment team 45:00 First therapy session — what do you even say? 46:00 Asking your dietician for food tracking 48:00 Do you need a formal diagnosis? Resources Mentioned: The Eight Keys to RecoveryEating in the Light of the MoonLife Without EdIntuitive EatingANAD — free online support groupsRecovery Record appResources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: food guilt eating disorder, triggering friends recovery, recovering without treatment, ED recovery Q&A, body image worth, eating disorder voice, residential treatment, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

  3. Aug 19

    [REPLAY] does the eating disorder voice ever go away? | the recovered-ish podcast

    Episode Description This is a replay of one of the most-listened-to episodes of recovered-ish. I'm taking the week off to prep for maternity leave, so no new episode this week — but this one is worth revisiting, especially if you're new here. One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from Instagram, from people deep in the trenches of recovery — is this: does the eating disorder voice ever actually go away? In this episode, I get honest about my own experience with the ED voice: what it sounded like at its worst, how it shifted through different stages of recovery, and where it lives now (spoiler: it's a lot more like an intrusive thought about tap dancing in a grocery store than a voice running my life). This isn't a tidy yes-or-no answer, because recovery isn't tidy. But it is a real one — and one I don't think the internet talks about honestly enough. In This Episode: What the eating disorder voice actually is — and why it feels like a separate voice in your headEgo syntonic vs. ego dystonic thinking, and why that shift matters in recoveryMy personal experience with the ED voice from its loudest point to where it lives nowWhy the voice often gets louder when you start recoveringThe beach ball analogy — why trying to "shut up" the ED voice backfiresWhat actually moves the needle: building your own voice, not silencing theirsWhy "if I can't fully recover, why even try?" is one of the most dangerous traps in recoveryPractical tools for when the voice feels all-consumingTimestamps: 0:44 Intro & life update  3:22 Episode topic intro: the eating disorder voice question  7:19 What is the "eating disorder voice"?  10:56 Who asks this & why  13:39 My personal experience: the voice at its worst  14:38 Do I still have disordered thoughts? My honest answer  20:42 How I got to where I am today  28:06 The beach ball metaphor: giving the voice less space  32:24 My answer: yes and no  36:54 Practical tips if the voice is all-consuming  40:03 Outro Practical Tools Mentioned: Name it: label thoughts as "eating disorder thoughts" without immediately fighting themHear it, don't obey it: acknowledge the ED voice and give yourself permission to have a different opinionIdentify the feeling underneath: fear, panic, sadness — and ask what you need that isn't a behaviorThe "noise" technique: when all else fails, say it out loud — noise, noise, noiseResources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: eating disorder voice, does the ED voice go away, eating disorder recovery, quasi-recovery, ED voice recovery, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, recovery tools, ego syntonic, ego dystonic Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

  4. Aug 12

    not sick enough, extreme hunger, and finding your why — ED recovery Q&A | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 32

    Episode Description You sent in your questions and I'm answering them — honestly.  This is part one of a two-part listener Q&A covering some of the most common and most loaded questions I get about eating disorder recovery. We're getting into ambivalence, finding your why, the "not sick enough" myth, comparison, extreme hunger, lost hunger cues, and how to sit with the panic that comes from increasing intake. In This Episode: "I want to want recovery but I don't" — what to do with thatWhy you don't need a strong why to start recoveryWill it ever feel like the right time to choose recovery?Am I sick enough? Does hospitalization determine validity?Is this recovery or just restricting in better packaging?Comparison in eating disorders — why it's never a fair fightWhy it's not about the food but eating the food is still so hardHow to order at a restaurant when calories are on the menuDoes extreme hunger really exist — or is it an excuse to binge?What to do when you've lost your hunger cues entirelyHow to sit with the panic that comes from increasing intakeTimestamps: 0:00 Intro — YouTube subscriber goal 2:00 Today's episode — listener Q&A part one 3:00 Ambivalence — wanting to want recovery 6:00 The stages of change and where you might be 7:00 Finding your why — what if you don't have one? 10:00 Calculated risk — why you can't wait to feel ready 12:00 Will it ever feel like the right time? 13:00 How to actually commit to recovery 14:00 Am I sick enough? Does hospitalization determine validity? 17:00 High-functioning and still severely struggling 19:00 Is this recovery or restricting in better packaging? 21:00 Needing the disorder to feel special 23:00 Comparison in eating disorders 26:00 Why it's not about the food — but eating the food is still hard 28:00 Ordering at restaurants with calories on the menu 30:00 Does extreme hunger really exist? 36:00 Lost your hunger cues — the friend analogy 39:00 Sitting with panic after increasing intake 42:00 Closing thoughts — part two next week Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/ code: PODCAST for $57 offInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@recoverwithchloeKeywords/Tags: not sick enough eating disorder, extreme hunger recovery, finding your why in ED recovery, eating disorder Q&A, am I sick enough, comparison eating disorder, hunger cues eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

  5. Aug 5

    stuck in ED recovery — things to try when nothing is working | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 31

    Episode Description If you've been doing all the things — therapy, dietician, meal plan — and still feel like you're spinning your wheels, this episode is for you. In this episode I'm sharing a practical, honest list of things to try when eating disorder recovery feels stuck. These are the gaps I've seen in standard treatment models, the things that have made the biggest difference for my clients and for me, and the approaches that might breathe some new life into your recovery if you're hitting a wall. In This Episode: Why recovering towards something — not just away from the ED — changes everythingEMDR therapy and trauma — and why addressing the root might be the missing pieceWhen to consider changing or adding to your treatment teamGetting assessed for neurodivergence, OCPD, or OCD — and why it mattersThe "acting as if" technique — and why fake it till you make it actually worksAuditing the information faucets in your life — what's helping and what's feeding the disorderReducing decision fatigue around food — and why surrendering control is actually strengthTimestamps: 0:00 Intro — burnout, pregnancy fatigue, and why I almost quit  5:00 Today's topic — what to try when recovery feels stuck  7:00 Recover towards something — adding non-recovery goals  11:00 EMDR therapy and complex trauma in eating disorders  17:00 When to change or add to your treatment team  21:00 Coaching as an addition to therapy  23:00 Getting assessed — neurodivergence, OCPD, OCD  28:00 The "acting as if" technique  31:00 Auditing your information faucets  34:00 Reducing decision fatigue — surrendering control is strength  38:00 Closing thoughts + availability for EMDR and coaching Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/One-on-one coaching intensives — 2 spots left before maternity leave: https://recover-with-chloe.moxieapp.com/public/recover-with-chloe-coaching-applicationEMDR therapy in California — reach out: https://www.socalwellnessgroup.co/contactInstagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: stuck in eating disorder recovery, ED recovery plateau, EMDR eating disorders, eating disorder treatment options, neurodivergence and eating disorders, OCPD eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

  6. Jul 29

    it's okay to miss your eating disorder | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 30

    Episode Description Nobody talks about this part. But it's real, it's common, and it doesn't mean you're doing recovery wrong. In this episode I'm getting into what it actually means when you miss your eating disorder — why it happens, why it makes complete sense, and what to do with that feeling when it shows up. In This Episode: Why missing your eating disorder doesn't mean you want to go backWhat the eating disorder actually gave you — and why that's worth acknowledgingThe grief nobody warns you about in recoveryWhy recovery can feel worse than the disorder at certain stagesRomanticizing the sick body — why it happens and how to protect yourselfThe two-list journal exercise for holding a balanced perspectiveWhy grieving the eating disorder is actually a sign of recovery workingWhat you're actually missing — and how to find it elsewhereTimestamps: 0:00 Intro  2:00 Today's topic — missing your eating disorder  3:00 Why this feeling is so confusing and so common  5:00 What the eating disorder actually gave you  10:00 When recovery feels worse than the disorder  13:00 If you're in that space — keep going  15:00 How this is showing up for me in this pregnancy  18:00 Romanticizing the sick body  22:00 What you're actually missing  25:00 Practical steps  27:00 The two-list journal exercise  28:00 Letting yourself grieve it  31:00 Recovering towards something  33:00 Closing thoughts The Two-List Exercise: List 1: everything you miss about the eating disorder. List 2: everything it took from you. Try to make the second list longer. If you can't — bring it to therapy. Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST57 for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: missing your eating disorder, ED recovery grief, eating disorder recovery emotions, romanticizing eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, grief in recovery Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

  7. Jul 22

    dating in ED recovery — what nobody prepares you for | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 29

    Episode Description This is the episode I've been asked for since the beginning of this podcast — and the one I never thought I'd actually record. Dating in eating disorder recovery is complicated in ways nobody really talks about. The body image stuff. The intimacy stuff. The validation-seeking that can look a lot like the disorder wearing a different mask. And eventually finding someone who makes you feel like a whole person. In this episode I'm sharing all of it — including things I've never told the internet before. In This Episode: Why the eating disorder became my "new boyfriend" after a breakupThe validation loop I fell into when I first started dating in recoveryWhat it felt like to show up in a recovered body — body checking, disconnection during intimacy, comparisonHow I finally flipped the script on datingHow I met my husband — including the text I sent trying to end it after date twoHow and when to tell someone about your eating disorder historyWhat to do when a partner's food behaviors are triggeringThe self-inquiry practice that helps when body image comes up in intimacyTimestamps: 0:00 Intro 4:00 Today's topic — dating and intimacy in ED recovery 5:00 My high school relationship and self-worth 8:00 The breakup that contributed to my ED escalating 10:00 What dating looked like when I was deep in my disorder 14:00 The validation loop of dating apps 17:00 How that loop mirrored the eating disorder 19:00 What it felt like to date in a recovered body 23:00 Realigning to values in dating 27:00 How I met my husband 29:00 Telling someone about your ED history 33:00 When a partner's food behaviors are triggering 36:00 What my husband did differently 41:00 Self-inquiry for body image in intimacy 44:00 Closing thoughts Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST57 for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: dating in eating disorder recovery, intimacy and eating disorders, body image and dating, ED recovery relationships, telling a partner about eating disorder, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

  8. Jul 15

    the truth about life after eating disorder recovery | the recovered-ish podcast ep. 28

    Episode Description This one was unplanned. My son was in the hospital, life threw a curveball, and I had twenty minutes between sessions to record something real. So that's what this is. In this episode I'm sharing something I've never talked about on the podcast before — and getting honest about what life after recovery actually looks like. Not the highlight reel. The real version, where hard things still happen and you have to figure out how to keep showing up anyway. This is a shorter one, but I think it might be one of the most honest episodes I've recorded. In This Episode: What I never expected about life after eating disorder recoverySomething personal I've never shared on the podcast beforeHow recovery showed up for me during one of the hardest seasons of my lifeWhy recovery doesn't mean life stops being hard — it just means you have something real to hold onto when it isWhat it actually looks like to choose yourself when everything is falling apartHow to hold two completely opposite feelings at once — and why that's actually the skillWhat recovery gives you that the eating disorder only promisedTimestamps: 0:00 Intro — a mini episode, recorded between sessions  2:00 Why this episode looks different this week  3:00 Something I've never shared on the podcast before  6:00 I thought the eating disorder was my big life battle. I was wrong.  8:00 How recovery showed up when life got really hard  12:00 What I did in the hospital cafeteria — and why it mattered  15:00 Recovery doesn't mean life stops being hard  17:00 What recovery actually gives you — control, safety, presence  19:00 How to hold hope and hardship at the same time  22:00 Closing thoughts — sending love to everyone doing this alongside hard things Quotes from This Episode: "Recovery doesn't mean everything in life is solved. It just means you are able to take care of yourself through it — and not compound the suffering that's just gonna be there because we're humans." "The eating disorder promises you control and peace and safety. Recovery actually puts you back in the driver's seat for all of those things." "There's gonna be hard times and there's gonna be good times. That's what it means to be a person." Resources + Connect with Me: Recovery Skills Training + Summer Workshops — use code PODCAST57 for $57 off: https://recoverwithchloe.thrivecart.com/recovery-skills-training/Instagram: @recoverwithchloeLeave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTubeKeywords/Tags: life after eating disorder recovery, what recovery actually looks like, eating disorder recovery and hard times, recovered-ish podcast, chloe cox, ED recovery podcast, eating disorder therapist, holding hope in recovery, recovery and life challenges Resources + Connect with Me: Instagram: @recoverwithchloeRecovery Skills Training: use code PODCAST for $57 off!Leave a 5-star review on Spotify or Apple PodcastsSubscribe on YouTube!

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Recovered-ish is where we talk about the real side of eating disorder recovery — the messy parts, the confusing parts, and the parts no one wants to say out loud. I’m Chloe — therapist, recovery coach, and someone who’s been through it myself. Every solo episode gets into the stuff you’re actually dealing with: the constant mental noise, the guilt after eating, the fear of fullness, the body image spirals, the pressure to shrink, and the moments where you’re convinced you’re “failing” at recovery. This isn’t about perfection or doing recovery the “right” way. It’s about learning how to feed yourself, trust yourself, and build a relationship with your body that isn’t rooted in fear. You’ll get practical tools, honest conversations, and the kind of support I wish I had when I was in it. If you want recovery that’s imperfect, human, and actually possible… you’re in the right place.

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  • Creator
    Chloe Cox
  • Years Active
    2026
  • Episodes
    35
  • Rating
    Explicit
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    © 2026 recovered-ish with chloe cox
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