46 episodes

(Note: Blue Babies Pink is like an audio book. Start with the Prologue, then Episode 1, Episode 2, etc.)

For nearly a decade, Brett Trapp kept a secret journal of thoughts on being gay and Christian, knowing one day he'd shout the story he feared most.

On a Wednesday morning in late 2016, he logged on to Facebook and began shouting...

He started by publishing a Gossip Guide to his sexuality—a cheeky way to let friends know his secret. He then began sharing the vivid details of his story through a 44-episode memoir, published as one episode per day. He called the story Blue Babies Pink.

Within days, Blue Babies Pink began to spread through social media. Thousands of readers tuned in, eagerly waiting for the daily installment to be released. Readers resonated deeply with Brett's struggle with faith, loneliness, shame, singleness, workaholism, and uncertainty.

Called "the Netflix of blogs," more than 100,000 people have read Blue Babies Pink to date.

Blue Babies Pink B.T. Harman

    • Christianity
    • 4.9, 910 Ratings

(Note: Blue Babies Pink is like an audio book. Start with the Prologue, then Episode 1, Episode 2, etc.)

For nearly a decade, Brett Trapp kept a secret journal of thoughts on being gay and Christian, knowing one day he'd shout the story he feared most.

On a Wednesday morning in late 2016, he logged on to Facebook and began shouting...

He started by publishing a Gossip Guide to his sexuality—a cheeky way to let friends know his secret. He then began sharing the vivid details of his story through a 44-episode memoir, published as one episode per day. He called the story Blue Babies Pink.

Within days, Blue Babies Pink began to spread through social media. Thousands of readers tuned in, eagerly waiting for the daily installment to be released. Readers resonated deeply with Brett's struggle with faith, loneliness, shame, singleness, workaholism, and uncertainty.

Called "the Netflix of blogs," more than 100,000 people have read Blue Babies Pink to date.

    Epilogue • My Little Speaking Up

    Epilogue • My Little Speaking Up

    Brett's final thoughts on the journey of Blue Babies Pink...

    • 21 min
    Episode 44 • Love Storms

    Episode 44 • Love Storms

    NOTE: This is the finale of Blue Babies Pink. If you haven't read the previous 43 episodes, please do that before listening to Episode 44. Also, after listening to this one, be sure to check out the Epilogue for the final wrap-up. 

    • 20 min
    Episode 43 • Tears on a Boat Dock

    Episode 43 • Tears on a Boat Dock

    "I sprinted down that path, through the trees, all the way out to the boat dock—heaving, shaking, and sobbing as I ran. I felt like I might choke, fighting for breath. My face poured wet salt onto the summer grass below..."

    • 15 min
    Episode 42 • Someone to Run Home To

    Episode 42 • Someone to Run Home To

    "I began to think a lot then about the role of a spouse, of a companion. I'd never been in anything close to a meaningful relationship, and I'd slammed the door on love years before, so I was clueless about it all."  

    • 12 min
    Episode 41 • Questions for God

    Episode 41 • Questions for God

    "My whole life, I'd been taught that God's design for the world was men and women getting married and making babies. This formed family units which were the building blocks of society. So it made sense that the institution of marriage would lead to great human flourishing."

    • 13 min
    Episode 40 • Brain Blanks

    Episode 40 • Brain Blanks

    Brett appears on a Christian TV show and disaster strikes...

    • 12 min

Customer Reviews

4.9 out of 5
910 Ratings

910 Ratings

Chels920 ,

Love is love

This is one of those life changing stories you read (hear) and want to turn around and share with every single person you love. BT is a phenomenal story teller. I sobbed alongside him when he spoke of his father in episode 11. Episode 28 reminded me of how important it is to be a “Perm” to your friends, many tears there too. But there’s so much grace and joy too! If nothing else, this series evokes empathy and compassion for this articulate and kind man that just wanted to be like everyone else. We all just want to be SEEN and loved. This podcast reminded me how incredibly fortunate it is to be. Thank you for sharing your story, BT.

Hliz30 ,

Just finished the whole thing

Captivating storytelling and necessary voice from beginning to end. Really illuminating for me as someone very naive on the subject. I really appreciate the honesty and transparency and the invitation to be a part of BT’s journey. My life is better for having listened. I am becoming better.

DrMFDG ,

Brave, tender, and beautiful!

Such an amazing account of a life lived faithfully and ultimately led into fullness by LOVE itself! Thank you for this as an ally and a mental health professional - I know these insights will be influencing my faith, work, friendships, and church leadership for many years to come.

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