Recover To Flourish | Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast

Ciandra Birnbaum
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Welcome to the Recover To Flourish, The Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast, a show dedicated to exploring recovery from an eating disorder. I'm your host, Ciandra, an eating disorder recovery coach and nutritional advisor. Through this podcast, I hope to provide a safe and supportive space for people to learn about eating recovery, share their stories, and connect with others on a similar journey. In each weekly episode, we'll dive into various topics related to eating disorder recovery, including mindset shifts, self-care practices, and techniques for managing triggers. We'll also feature interviews with experts in the field, as well as people who have successfully overcome their eating disorders. Follow me at @recovertoflourish_pod and @flourishwithciandra.

  1. Jul 7

    The Weight Gain Questions Everyone Is Too Scared to Ask | Recovery Q&A #1

    You sent in your questions, and this is the first episode of a three-part Recovery Q&A series. These aren't quick answers or textbook explanations. They're the conversations I wish someone had had with me when I was recovering. In this episode, we're talking about one of the biggest fears in eating disorder recovery: weight gain. We're getting into the questions that keep so many people stuck, including whether weight gain ever stops, why your body can change even when you're eating what feels like a "normal" amount, how long it takes to trust your body again, and why feeling guilty for enjoying food is actually far more common than you think. If recovery currently feels scary, uncertain or completely overwhelming, I hope this episode helps you understand what's happening in both your brain and your body, and reminds you that you're not alone in feeling this way. In this episode we cover: Will I just keep gaining weight forever if I fully commit to recovery?Why am I gaining weight on what feels like a low intake?Why your body isn't broken after restriction.The psychology behind the fear that recovery will never end.How your body slowly learns to trust you again.Why confidence comes after recovery actions, not before.Feeling guilty for enjoying food and how to move through it.The small, ordinary decisions that create lasting recovery.Whether you're at the very beginning of recovery or you've been feeling stuck for a while, this episode is here to remind you that healing isn't about perfection—it's about consistency, compassion and learning to trust your body again. Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS: Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_pod TikTok: @flourishwithciandra Website: https://flourishwithciandra.com/ Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com 👉🏻 If you enjoyed this episode please leave a review and share a screenshot on Instagram by tagging me @flourishwithciandra and I'll be sure to re-share. FOR MORE SUPPORT: ❤️ Looking for more support and concrete steps to take to heal your relationship with food and your body? Apply to work with me 1:1 to recover from your eating disorder while improving your relationship with food and exercise, head to: https://rb.gy/o3i6t  ❤️ If you're not ready to commit to a coaching package, why not schedule a 90-minute kick-start session where we can get your recovery off to the right start: Apply here: https://rb.gy/i7srly ❤️ Get Eating Disorder Recovery Guides and Workbooks to aid your recovery: https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/FlourishTherapy ❤️ Download your FREE Self Care for Eating Disorder Recovery eBook by heading to https://bit.ly/44CKaRg

  2. Jun 23

    Feeling Out of Control Around Food? This Might Change How You See It

    Most people in eating disorder recovery spend years trying to get it right. The right amount of food. The right level of hunger. The right level of fullness. In this episode, we're talking about what happens when recovery feels messy. When you eat past fullness, feel out of control around food, or stop trusting your own decisions. What if you're not failing recovery? What if you're learning something your eating disorder never taught you: how to trust yourself? In This Episode: • Why feeling out of control around food doesn't always mean something is wrong • The perfectionism hiding behind "doing recovery right" • What eating past fullness actually means • Physical hunger vs mental hunger • Why self-trust is built through experience, not certainty • How to respond after a meal that feels "wrong" • The mindset shift that helped me stop treating recovery like a test If you've ever worried that you're overeating, losing control, or getting recovery wrong, this episode is for you. Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS: Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_pod TikTok: @flourishwithciandra Website: https://flourishwithciandra.com/ Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com 👉🏻 If you enjoyed this episode please leave a review and share a screenshot on Instagram by tagging me @flourishwithciandra and I'll be sure to re-share. FOR MORE SUPPORT: ❤️ Looking for more support and concrete steps to take to heal your relationship with food and your body? Apply to work with me 1:1 to recover from your eating disorder while improving your relationship with food and exercise, head to: https://rb.gy/o3i6t  ❤️ If you're not ready to commit to a coaching package, why not schedule a 90-minute kick-start session where we can get your recovery off to the right start: Apply here: https://rb.gy/i7srly ❤️ Get Eating Disorder Recovery Guides and Workbooks to aid your recovery: https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/FlourishTherapy ❤️ Download your FREE Self Care for Eating Disorder Recovery eBook by heading to https://bit.ly/44CKaRg

  3. Jun 9

    Your Eating Disorder Won’t Fix Your Bad Body Image: The Truth About Body Image and How to Cope

    In this episode, I’m talking about one of the biggest myths in eating disorder recovery: the belief that your body image will improve once your body changes. So many people believe that losing weight, changing their shape, eating less, exercising more, or achieving a certain look will finally make them feel confident and comfortable in themselves. The reality is that eating disorders often make body image worse, not better. I explore why body image struggles persist regardless of body size, how eating disorders distort the way we see ourselves, and why chasing the "perfect" body never creates lasting peace. I also share practical strategies for coping with bad body image days, reducing body checking, challenging appearance-focused thinking, and building self-worth beyond how you look. If you're tired of waiting to feel good enough, this episode will help you understand why recovery isn't about fixing your body. It's about healing your relationship with it.  Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS: Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_pod TikTok: @flourishwithciandra Website: https://flourishwithciandra.com/ Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com 👉🏻 If you enjoyed this episode please leave a review and share a screenshot on Instagram by tagging me @flourishwithciandra and I'll be sure to re-share. FOR MORE SUPPORT: ❤️ Looking for more support and concrete steps to take to heal your relationship with food and your body? Apply to work with me 1:1 to recover from your eating disorder while improving your relationship with food and exercise, head to: https://rb.gy/o3i6t  ❤️ If you're not ready to commit to a coaching package, why not schedule a 90-minute kick-start session where we can get your recovery off to the right start: Apply here: https://rb.gy/i7srly ❤️ Get Eating Disorder Recovery Guides and Workbooks to aid your recovery: https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/FlourishTherapy ❤️ Download your FREE Self Care for Eating Disorder Recovery eBook by heading to https://bit.ly/44CKaRg

  4. May 26

    Eating Disorders We Don’t Talk About: Chewing and Spitting

    In this episode of Recover to Flourish, I’m talking about an eating disorder behaviour that is rarely spoken about openly: chewing and spitting. This is something that can bring a huge amount of shame, secrecy, and isolation, yet so many people struggle with it behind closed doors. I explore what chewing and spitting actually is, why it can become so addictive and compulsive, the physical and psychological impact it can have, and why it often keeps people stuck in the eating disorder cycle. I also talk honestly about the emotions underneath the behaviour, the role of restriction, and what recovery can look like if this is something you’re dealing with. If you’ve ever felt alone in this behaviour, I hope this episode helps you feel seen and understood. Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS: Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_pod TikTok: @flourishwithciandra Website: https://flourishwithciandra.com/ Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com 👉🏻 If you enjoyed this episode please leave a review and share a screenshot on Instagram by tagging me @flourishwithciandra and I'll be sure to re-share. FOR MORE SUPPORT: ❤️ Looking for more support and concrete steps to take to heal your relationship with food and your body? Apply to work with me 1:1 to recover from your eating disorder while improving your relationship with food and exercise, head to: https://rb.gy/o3i6t  ❤️ If you're not ready to commit to a coaching package, why not schedule a 90-minute kick-start session where we can get your recovery off to the right start: Apply here: https://rb.gy/i7srly ❤️ Get Eating Disorder Recovery Guides and Workbooks to aid your recovery: https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/FlourishTherapy ❤️ Download your FREE Self Care for Eating Disorder Recovery eBook by heading to https://bit.ly/44CKaRg

  5. May 12

    Recovering from Movement Compulsions

    In today’s episode, we’re talking about recovering from movement compulsions and the fear of slowing down. The need to earn food, hit step goals, or constantly move can become exhausting and all-consuming. If rest makes you feel guilty or anxious, you’re not alone. Movement compulsions are often rooted in fear, control, and the eating disorder trying to make you feel “safe.” In this episode, we cover: 💛 Signs your relationship with movement may have become compulsive 💛 Why rest can feel so uncomfortable 💛 How eating disorders tie self-worth to exercise and productivity 💛 Practical ways to reduce compulsive movement 💛 What a healthier relationship with movement can look like Recovery is not about never exercising again. It’s about getting your life back from the rules, guilt, and constant pressure around movement. Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS: Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_pod TikTok: @flourishwithciandra Website: https://flourishwithciandra.com/ Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com 👉🏻 If you enjoyed this episode please leave a review and share a screenshot on Instagram by tagging me @flourishwithciandra and I'll be sure to re-share. FOR MORE SUPPORT: ❤️ Looking for more support and concrete steps to take to heal your relationship with food and your body? Apply to work with me 1:1 to recover from your eating disorder while improving your relationship with food and exercise, head to: https://rb.gy/o3i6t  ❤️ If you're not ready to commit to a coaching package, why not schedule a 90-minute kick-start session where we can get your recovery off to the right start: Apply here: https://rb.gy/i7srly ❤️ Get Eating Disorder Recovery Guides and Workbooks to aid your recovery: https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/FlourishTherapy ❤️ Download your FREE Self Care for Eating Disorder Recovery eBook by heading to https://bit.ly/44CKaRg

  6. Apr 28

    Postpartum and Eating Disorder Recovery: What No One Tells You

    In today’s episode, we’re having a really honest conversation about postpartum and eating disorder recovery. The parts people don’t always talk about. The body changes, the emotions, the identity shift… and how all of that can land when you’ve had a complicated relationship with food or your body. If you’re in the postpartum phase and finding it harder than you expected, you’re not alone. You might feel grateful and overwhelmed at the same time. Proud of your body, but also uncomfortable in it. This episode is here to hold space for all of that. We’ll talk about why this stage can feel so triggering, how old thoughts can creep back in even when you’ve done so much work, and what it actually looks like to care for yourself in this season. Not perfectly. Just gently. We cover:  Why postpartum can stir up eating disorder thoughts again  The reality of body changes and how to cope with them  How to support your recovery while adjusting to a new version of life This isn’t about “bouncing back.” It’s about moving forward. With compassion, patience, and a bit more understanding of what your body and mind are going through. Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS: Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_pod TikTok: @flourishwithciandra Website: https://flourishwithciandra.com/ Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com 👉🏻 If you enjoyed this episode please leave a review and share a screenshot on Instagram by tagging me @flourishwithciandra and I'll be sure to re-share. FOR MORE SUPPORT: ❤️ Looking for more support and concrete steps to take to heal your relationship with food and your body? Apply to work with me 1:1 to recover from your eating disorder while improving your relationship with food and exercise, head to: https://rb.gy/o3i6t  ❤️ If you're not ready to commit to a coaching package, why not schedule a 90-minute kick-start session where we can get your recovery off to the right start: Apply here: https://rb.gy/i7srly ❤️ Get Eating Disorder Recovery Guides and Workbooks to aid your recovery: https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/FlourishTherapy ❤️ Download your FREE Self Care for Eating Disorder Recovery eBook by heading to https://bit.ly/44CKaRg

  7. Apr 14

    What to Do When You Have No Motivation to Recover from Your Eating Disorder

    In today’s episode of the Recover to Flourish podcast, we’re talking about something that doesn’t get said enough — what to do when you just don’t feel motivated to recover. When you know what you should be doing, but you don’t want to do it. Or you feel flat, stuck, or even a bit numb. If that’s you, I want you to know this straight away… it doesn’t mean you’re failing. It doesn’t mean you don’t want recovery. It usually just means you’re tired, scared, or overwhelmed. In this episode, we’ll talk about why motivation comes and goes, why waiting to “feel ready” can keep you stuck, and how to keep moving forward even when you don’t feel like it. Because recovery isn’t built on motivation. It’s built on small, repeated actions, especially on the days you’d rather not. We cover:  Why low motivation is a normal part of recovery  How to take action without relying on motivation  Small, realistic ways to keep going when everything feels hard You don’t need to feel inspired to recover. You just need to keep showing up, even in a small way. And that still counts. Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS: Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_pod TikTok: @flourishwithciandra Website: https://flourishwithciandra.com/ Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com 👉🏻 If you enjoyed this episode please leave a review and share a screenshot on Instagram by tagging me @flourishwithciandra and I'll be sure to re-share. FOR MORE SUPPORT: ❤️ Looking for more support and concrete steps to take to heal your relationship with food and your body? Apply to work with me 1:1 to recover from your eating disorder while improving your relationship with food and exercise, head to: https://rb.gy/o3i6t  ❤️ If you're not ready to commit to a coaching package, why not schedule a 90-minute kick-start session where we can get your recovery off to the right start: Apply here: https://rb.gy/i7srly ❤️ Get Eating Disorder Recovery Guides and Workbooks to aid your recovery: https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/FlourishTherapy ❤️ Download your FREE Self Care for Eating Disorder Recovery eBook by heading to https://bit.ly/44CKaRg

  8. Mar 31

    When Should I Stop Restoring Weight? And How Do I Eat “Normally” Again?

    I'm back after a short maternity break!  In today’s episode, we’re getting into a question that brings up a lot of fear and confusion in recovery — when do I stop restoring weight… and how do I actually eat “normally” again? If you’ve hit a point where things feel a bit more stable but also a bit uncertain, you’re not alone. Maybe part of you wants to hold on. Maybe part of you is scared of overshooting. Or maybe you’re just not sure what “normal” even looks like anymore. In this episode, we’ll talk through why weight restoration isn’t a fixed number, how your body decides where it needs to be, and what shifting toward more flexible, normal eating actually involves. This isn’t about flipping a switch overnight. It’s about gradually building trust, consistency, and a relationship with food that doesn’t feel so controlled. We cover:  Why there’s no clear “finish line” for weight restoration  What “normal eating” actually looks like in real life  How to move from structure to flexibility without slipping backEpisodes will likely be fortnightly moving forwards as I transition into motherhood.  Let me know your thoughts! SOCIALS: Instagram: @flourishwithciandra @recovertoflourish_pod TikTok: @flourishwithciandra Website: https://flourishwithciandra.com/ Contact: info@flourishwithciandra.com 👉🏻 If you enjoyed this episode please leave a review and share a screenshot on Instagram by tagging me @flourishwithciandra and I'll be sure to re-share. FOR MORE SUPPORT: ❤️ Looking for more support and concrete steps to take to heal your relationship with food and your body? Apply to work with me 1:1 to recover from your eating disorder while improving your relationship with food and exercise, head to: https://rb.gy/o3i6t  ❤️ If you're not ready to commit to a coaching package, why not schedule a 90-minute kick-start session where we can get your recovery off to the right start: Apply here: https://rb.gy/i7srly ❤️ Get Eating Disorder Recovery Guides and Workbooks to aid your recovery: https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/FlourishTherapy ❤️ Download your FREE Self Care for Eating Disorder Recovery eBook by heading to https://bit.ly/44CKaRg

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Welcome to the Recover To Flourish, The Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast, a show dedicated to exploring recovery from an eating disorder. I'm your host, Ciandra, an eating disorder recovery coach and nutritional advisor. Through this podcast, I hope to provide a safe and supportive space for people to learn about eating recovery, share their stories, and connect with others on a similar journey. In each weekly episode, we'll dive into various topics related to eating disorder recovery, including mindset shifts, self-care practices, and techniques for managing triggers. We'll also feature interviews with experts in the field, as well as people who have successfully overcome their eating disorders. Follow me at @recovertoflourish_pod and @flourishwithciandra.

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