What The Hell Do I Know w/JB

Jason Becker
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Faith, doubt, deconstruction, recovery, and real conversations for people questioning everything.

  1. 5d ago

    He Deconstructed Everything—But Still Clings to Jesus | Colten Barnaby

    What happens when a pastor’s kid, Pentecostal preacher and student of early church history begins questioning everything he was taught about salvation, politics, capitalism and the gospel? In Episode 96 of What the Hell Do I Know with JB, Jason sits down with Colten Barnaby, a writer and online creator known for exploring the complicated intersection of theology, politics, history and culture. Colten grew up in a strict Oneness Holiness Pentecostal tradition in North Philadelphia. His family’s church served people experiencing homelessness, addiction, poverty and incarceration while also teaching an intense, highly specific formula for salvation. He spoke in tongues as a child, interpreted messages in church and believed most Christians outside his tradition were lost. But when he attended Oral Roberts University and began studying biology, politics and early church history, the certainty of his childhood faith began to unravel. Today, Colten describes himself as an agnostic Pentecostal with Eastern Orthodox proclivities. He is no longer confident that God exists, but he remains deeply shaped by Christianity and continues to cling to the beauty of the incarnation, the resurrection and the radical witness of the early church. This conversation explores: • Growing up in Oneness Holiness Pentecostalism • Speaking in tongues and interpreting prophecy as a child • The fear of hell and formula-based salvation • How studying church history disrupted his certainty • Carlton Pearson and the gospel of inclusion • Christian universalism and salvation • Why Colton still identifies as Pentecostal • What it means to be an agnostic Christian • The incarnation and why Colten still clings to Jesus • Whether Christianity is compatible with capitalism • Why the word “gospel” was originally political • The early church sharing possessions and eliminating need • Acts 2, Acts 4 and Christian economic community • Socialism, communism and the kingdom of God • Why Christians should not simply baptize Republican or Democratic politics • Wealth, private property, generosity and costly grace • Whether Christian faith should put us in conflict with the dominant culture • Loving people who strongly disagree with us • Why being open to people matters more than being open to ideas Colten argues that Christians should not begin with a modern political ideology and then search Scripture for support. Instead, they should take seriously the teachings of Jesus, the prophets and the early church—and allow those teachings to challenge every political and economic system. The early believers held possessions in common, sold property and distributed resources so there was not a needy person among them. Colten asks a difficult question: if the church’s current way of life never puts it in conflict with wealth, domination or empire, has it truly embraced the narrow and costly way of Jesus? Follow Colten Barnaby on Instagram: @coltenbarnaby Read Colten’s work on Substack: Kensington Cohen Follow Jason Becker: @_jason_becker Learn more about Jason and Vintage Wisdom: [www.vintagewisdom.org](http://www.vintagewisdom.org) Special thanks to the sponsors who help make these conversations possible: Floorzz [www.floorzz.com](http://www.floorzz.com) TruNorth Pest Control [www.trunorthpest.com](http://www.trunorthpest.com) Subscribe, leave a comment and share this episode with someone willing to wrestle honestly with faith, politics, wealth and the teachings of Jesus. Do you believe the modern church’s relationship with money and political power reflects the early church? #ColtenBarnaby #ChristianPolitics #ChristianSocialism #ChristianDeconstruction #EarlyChurch #FaithAndPolitics #UniversalSalvation #ChristianUniversalism #Pentecostal #ChurchHistory #CapitalismAndChristianity #ProgressiveChristianity #ChristianPodcast #WhatTheHellDoIKnow #JasonBecker

    He Deconstructed Everything—But Still Clings to Jesus | Colten Barnaby

  2. Aug 11

    Outgrowing the Good Christian Girl Without Walking Away from Jesus | Tiffany Dawn | Ep. 95

    Can you question what you were taught, outgrow fear-based Christianity and still hold on to Jesus? In Episode 95 of What the Hell Do I Know with JB, Jason sits down with Tiffany Dawn, host of the Outgrowing the Good Christian Girl podcast. Tiffany is an author, speaker, writer and mother of two who helps people move from a black-and-white understanding of faith toward a more honest, nuanced and grace-filled relationship with God. Tiffany grew up deeply immersed in a Pentecostal Christian community. Her childhood included powerful experiences of faith, sincere people who loved God and teachings that also created fear, pressure and an all-or-nothing understanding of Christianity. As Tiffany began asking harder questions and speaking publicly about the ways her beliefs were changing, she lost thousands of followers. But she knew she could no longer continue giving advice that she now believed could cause harm. This conversation explores: • Outgrowing fear-based Christianity without abandoning Jesus • Why questioning faith is not the same as losing faith • The good and harmful parts of growing up in church • Breaking free from black-and-white, all-or-nothing thinking • How Tiffany’s father taught her to think for herself • Listening to people on the other side of difficult issues • Losing followers after becoming honest about changing beliefs • LGBTQ+ inclusion and learning through personal relationships • Creating churches that are safe places of healing • Why some deconstruction may actually be revival • Loving people while still challenging harmful theology • The difference between bringing new life and simply burning everything down • Mental health, anxiety, therapy and moving beyond shame • Presenting Jesus as radical welcome instead of behavior management • Why the future of church may look more like circles, tables and shared meals than stadiums and stages Tiffany describes faith as something that can contain both beauty and pain. The same church can hold sincere love for God and harmful theology. Outgrowing one does not require denying the other. This is a conversation for anyone who has wondered whether there is still a place for them in Christianity, anyone who feels caught between certainty and doubt, and anyone trying to follow Jesus without pretending they have all the answers. Listen to Tiffany’s podcast: Outgrowing the Good Christian Girl Follow Tiffany Dawn on Instagram: @tiffanydawniqb Follow Jason Becker: @_jason_becker Learn more about Jason and Vintage Wisdom: [www.vintagewisdom.org](http://www.vintagewisdom.org) Special thanks to the sponsors who help make these conversations possible: Floorzz [www.floorzz.com](http://www.floorzz.com) TruNorth Pest Control [www.trunorthpest.com](http://www.trunorthpest.com) Subscribe, leave a comment and share this episode with someone who is questioning, untangling or rebuilding their faith. What parts of your faith have you had to outgrow—and what have you chosen to keep? #TiffanyDawn #OutgrowingTheGoodChristianGirl #ChristianDeconstruction #FaithDeconstruction #ChristianPodcast #FaithPodcast #ProgressiveChristianity #QuestioningFaith #ChurchHurt #Exvangelical #ReconstructingFaith #JesusAndDeconstruction #WhatTheHellDoIKnow #JasonBecker

    Outgrowing the Good Christian Girl Without Walking Away from Jesus | Tiffany Dawn | Ep. 95

  3. Aug 4

    The Justice of Jesus: Has the Church Put God in a Box? | Father Joash Thomas | Ep. 94

    What does the justice of Jesus actually look like—and has the modern church confused the way of Jesus with power, empire and control? In Episode 94 of What the Hell Do I Know with JB, Jason sits down with Father Joash Thomas, priest, theologian, speaker and author of The Justice of Jesus. Born and raised in Mumbai, India, Joash brings a perspective shaped by an ancient Christian heritage, his experience in American politics and public policy, his work in international human rights, and his journey through evangelical, Pentecostal, Anglican and sacramental traditions. This conversation explores: • Why Christians continually try to put God in a box • Whether humanity must be diminished in order to explain our need for Jesus • Original sin, generational trauma and the image of God • How colonialism shaped the Western church • Why Christians need the perspectives of the global church • Finding glimpses of Jesus in other cultures, traditions and art • Christian nationalism, violence and the teachings of Jesus • Why the Good Samaritan reveals the true meaning of justice • The importance of curiosity, humility and becoming a learner • Why following Jesus may require us to challenge the status quo Father Joash describes the justice of Jesus as radically inclusive, holistic, costly and nonviolent. This is an honest and challenging conversation about what happens when faith stops protecting power and begins standing beside people who have been pushed to the margins. The Justice of Jesus is available everywhere books are sold. Follow Father Joash Thomas on Instagram: @joashpthomas Follow Jason Becker: @_jason_becker Learn more about Jason and Vintage Wisdom: [www.vintagewisdom.org](http://www.vintagewisdom.org) Special thanks to the sponsors who help make these conversations possible: Floorzz [www.floorzz.com](http://www.floorzz.com) TruNorth Pest Control [www.trunorthpest.com](http://www.trunorthpest.com) Subscribe, leave a comment and share this episode with someone who is willing to wrestle with what following Jesus looks like in today’s world. What does the justice of Jesus mean to you? #FatherJoashThomas #TheJusticeOfJesus #ChristianPodcast #FaithAndJustice #JesusAndJustice #ChristianDeconstruction #ProgressiveChristianity #ChristianNationalism #FaithPodcast #GlobalChurch #Nonviolence #WhatTheHellDoIKnow #JasonBecker

    The Justice of Jesus: Has the Church Put God in a Box? | Father Joash Thomas | Ep. 94

  4. Jul 28

    Can You Question Christianity Without Losing Jesus? | Joe Smith ep 93

    Some conversations don't end with answers.They end with better questions. In this episode of What The Hell Do I Know with JB, I sit down with Joe Smith for one of the most thoughtful conversations we've had about faith, church, deconstruction, inclusion, politics, and what it actually means to follow Jesus. We talk about church hurt, LGBTQ+ inclusion, spiritual trauma, fundamentalism, certainty, grace, and why so many people aren't rejecting Jesus—they're rejecting harmful versions of Christianity. Whether you agree with everything we discuss or not, my hope is simple: Ask better questions. Because sometimes the deepest faith isn't found in certainty. Sometimes it's found in the courage to wrestle honestly. This isn't a debate. It's an honest conversation between two people trying to pursue Jesus while making room for difficult questions. If this episode challenged you, encouraged you, or simply made you think, I'd love to hear your perspective in the comments. Whether you agree or disagree, let's model the kind of conversation we wish existed more often. IN THIS EPISODE • Deconstruction vs. abandoning faith • Church hurt and spiritual trauma • LGBTQ+ inclusion in the church • Politics and American Christianity • Why certainty can become dangerous • The tension between grace and truth • Loving people without conditions • Following Jesus beyond religious tribalism CONNECT WITH JOE SMITH Instagram @therealjoe.smith Reasoned Reality Project Slippery Slope Shop [https://www.slipperslope.shop](https://www.slipperslope.shop) CONNECT WITH JASON BECKER Instagram @_jason_becker Website [https://www.vintagewisdom.org](https://www.vintagewisdom.org) THANK YOU TO OUR SPONSORS Floorzz Luxury Flooring Done Right [https://www.floorzz.com](https://www.floorzz.com) TruNorth Pest Control Protecting Homes Across the Emerald Coast [https://www.trunorthpest.com](https://www.trunorthpest.com) If you enjoy conversations that explore faith, culture, leadership, and life without pretending to have all the answers... 👍 Like this video 💬 Leave a comment 📺 Subscribe for more conversations every week. #JoeSmith #JasonBecker #Faith #Jesus #Christianity #Deconstruction #ChurchHurt #FaithAndCulture #SpiritualGrowth #Podcast #WhatTheHellDoIKnow #VintageWisdom

    Can You Question Christianity Without Losing Jesus? | Joe Smith ep 93

  5. Jul 21

    Episode 92 | April Ajoy: Is Christian Nationalism Driving People Away from Jesus?

    What happens when questioning your faith actually brings you closer to Jesus? In Episode 92 of "What the Hell Do I Know with JB", I sit down with author, speaker, comedian, and content creator April Ajoy (@aprilajoy) for one of the most thoughtful conversations we've had on the podcast. April grew up immersed in evangelical culture before beginning a long journey of questioning Christian nationalism, politics, church culture, and the beliefs she inherited. But contrary to what many assume, her journey wasn't away from Jesus—it was because of Jesus. Together we talk honestly about grief, deconstruction, LGBTQ relationships, church hurt, privilege, politics, and what it means to love people well while holding onto faith. This isn't a debate. It's two people asking difficult questions with humility and respect. Whether you agree with April (or JB), disagree with her, or find yourself somewhere in the middle, I hope this conversation challenges you to think more deeply and love people more generously. Topics include: • Christian Nationalism explained • Deconstruction and rebuilding faith • Church hurt and religious trauma • LGBTQ conversations inside the church • Politics and Christianity • Learning to hold convictions with humility • Why asking questions doesn't have to destroy faith • What Jesus looks like through a different lens April is the bestselling author of "Star Spangled Jesus", available wherever books are sold. 📚 Pick up "Star Spangled Jesus" today. Follow April: Instagram: @aprilajoy Follow me: Instagram: @_jason_becker Website: [www.vintagewisdom.org](http://www.vintagewisdom.org) A huge thank you to our sponsors for making these conversations possible: 🏡 Floorzz [www.floorzz.com](http://www.floorzz.com) 🛡️ TruNorth Pest Control [www.trunorthpest.com](http://www.trunorthpest.com) If this episode challenged you, encouraged you, or simply made you think, please subscribe, leave a review, and share it with someone willing to have honest conversations. #AprilAjoy #ChristianNationalism #Deconstruction #Faith #Jesus #Church #Politics #Podcast #WhatTheHellDoIKnow #JasonBecker #Christianity #ChurchHurt #ReligiousTrauma #FaithJourney

    Episode 92 | April Ajoy: Is Christian Nationalism Driving People Away from Jesus?

  6. Jul 14

    The Questions the Church Is Afraid to Ask | Summer Smash Up Pt. 3

    Welcome to **Part 3 of the Summer Smash Up**—a collection of four of my favorite conversations from this season of **What The Hell Do I Know with JB**. If you're new here, this is the perfect place to jump in. This episode brings together four incredible guests who aren't afraid to ask difficult questions, challenge assumptions, and remind us that truth is often found in honest conversation—not easy answers. 🔥 **Ellie Unbound** (@ellieunbound) shares her journey through deconstruction after growing up in the megachurch world and why asking hard questions doesn't have to mean abandoning faith. ❤️ **Quinn Padilla** (@itsquinnpadilla), therapist and abuse survivor, courageously explains the cycle of abuse, trauma bonds, and what healing can actually look like for survivors. 💪 **Nathaniel Blackburn** (@nathanielwblackburn), founder of **TruNorth Retreats** and former MTV *Real World* cast member, talks about why vulnerability isn't weakness—it's where real transformation begins. 📖 **Zack Lambert** (@zackwlambert), bestselling author of *Better Ways to Read the Bible* and Senior Pastor of Restore Austin, shares why context matters, why grace matters, and how reading Scripture differently can deepen—not diminish—your faith. These conversations don't ask you to agree with every opinion. They ask you to think. To listen. To have empathy. And maybe...to grow. Whether you've been in church your whole life, walked away from faith, experienced church hurt, survived abuse, or you're simply searching for honest conversations that matter, this episode is for you. 👇 I'd love to hear from you. **Which conversation impacted you the most?** Leave a comment and join the discussion. --- ### Connect with our guests Ellie Unbound Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ellieunbound Quinn Padilla Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/itsquinnpadilla Nathaniel Blackburn Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/nathanielwblackburn Zack Lambert Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/zackwlambert --- ### Connect with JB Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/_jason_becker Website: https://www.vintagewisdom.org --- ### Huge Thanks To Our Sponsors 🏡 **Floorzz** https://www.floorzz.com Whether you're building your dream home or remodeling your current one, Floorzz has you covered with exceptional flooring and customer service. 🐜 **TruNorth Pest Control** https://www.trunorthpest.com Keeping homes across Florida and Georgia pest-free with industry-leading service. Tell them JB sent you! --- 👍 If you enjoyed this episode, please Like, Subscribe, and Share. Every share helps these conversations reach someone who may need them. Thanks for being part of the journey. —JB #WhatTheHellDoIKnow #JasonBecker #Podcast #Faith #Deconstruction #ChurchHurt #MentalHealth #Healing #TraumaRecovery #Leadership #NathanielBlackburn #EllieUnbound #QuinnPadilla #ZackLambert #BetterWaysToReadTheBible

    The Questions the Church Is Afraid to Ask | Summer Smash Up Pt. 3

  7. Jul 7

    4 Conversations That Will Challenge How You Think | Summer Smashup Part 2

    Welcome to Episode 90 of What The Hell Do I Know with JB! ☀️ Summer Smashup Part 2 is here. If you're new to the show, this is one of the best places to start. This special episode brings together some of the most powerful, emotional, and thought-provoking conversations we've had this year. Four incredible guests. Four completely different stories. One common thread...real people having honest conversations. In this episode you'll hear: 🎙️ Jim Pierce sharing his heartbreaking story of childhood abuse, healing, forgiveness, and why getting help can change everything. 🎙️ Valentina Piloneita (@leerparacrecersrb) discussing immigration, education, reading, and why every child deserves hope regardless of where they were born. 🎙️ Marla Taviano (@marlataviano) challenging long-held assumptions about faith, love, heaven, and what it really means to love your neighbor. 🎙️ Shawn Vinson (@svinson9999) opening up about addiction, recovery, fatherhood, and the moment that completely changed his life. These conversations don't all agree with one another—and that's exactly the point. At What The Hell Do I Know, we believe growth happens when we're willing to listen before we judge. If this episode makes you think, laugh, wrestle with something, or gives you hope... 👍 Like the video 💬 Leave a comment 🔔 Subscribe for more honest conversations every week. Follow Jason Becker 📸 Instagram: @_jason_becker 🌐 Website: https://www.vintagewisdom.org Guests 📚 Valentina Piloneita Instagram: @leerparacrecersrb ✍️ Marla Taviano Instagram: @marlataviano 💪 Shawn Vinson Instagram: @svinson9999 Huge Thanks To Our Sponsors 🏠 Floorzz https://www.floorzz.com Whether you're remodeling your home or building your dream house, Floorzz has you covered. 🐜 TruNorth Pest Control https://www.trunorthpest.com Protecting homes and businesses throughout Florida and Georgia with world-class pest control.\ Thank you for supporting the sponsors that make this podcast possible. Watch the entire What The Hell Do I Know Podcast Playlist for more conversations that challenge perspectives, inspire growth, and remind us that none of us have it all figured out. #WhatTheHellDoIKnow #JasonBecker #Podcast #SummerSmashup #Faith #Recovery #AddictionRecovery #Immigration #MentalHealth #PersonalGrowth #Leadership #Healing #ChristianPodcast #Storytelling #Hope

    4 Conversations That Will Challenge How You Think | Summer Smashup Part 2

  8. Jun 30

    Summer Smash-Up Part 1 | Marriage, Parenting, Faith & Mental Toughness

    ☀️ SUMMER SMASH-UP | PART 1 OF 3 ☀️ I'm taking a little summer break, but I didn't want to leave you hanging. So I dug through some of the most powerful, thought-provoking, and meaningful conversations from Season 3 and put together this Summer Smash-Up series. In Part 1, you'll hear four unforgettable moments: 🎙️ Meaghan Hampton (@soulcareforfamilies) on parenting, grace, discipline, and why fear-based parenting often misses the mark. 🎙️ Jason Becker (me) (@_jason_becker) reflecting on 25 years of marriage, the lessons learned through counseling, raising kids, faith, and the hard work that builds a lasting relationship. 🎙️ Doug Pagitt (@dougpagitt) discussing politics, faith, immigration, empathy, and what it means to truly see the humanity in people who think differently than we do. 🎙️ Dr. Brandon Orr (former Director of Sports Psychology for the University of Missouri Wrestling Program and attached to the 7th Special Forces Group Green Berets) sharing elite performance psychology, mental toughness, discipline, and one of the most powerful life lessons I've heard all year. This episode is about: ✅ Marriage ✅ Parenting ✅ Faith ✅ Leadership ✅ Mental Toughness ✅ Grace ✅ Personal Growth ✅ Becoming a Better Human Whether you're on vacation, driving to work, sitting at the beach, or just looking for something meaningful to listen to, I hope these conversations challenge and encourage you. Buckle up. This is Part 1 of the Summer Smash-Up. Special Thanks To Our Sponsors 🏠 Floorzz.com Whether you're building, remodeling, or upgrading your home, the team at Floorzz can help with flooring, design, and project planning anywhere in the continental United States. Visit Floorzz.com. 🛡️ True North Pest Control Serving the Emerald Coast, Central Florida, and Georgia. From ants and spiders to full-service pest prevention, True North Pest Control has you covered. Visit TrueNorthPest.com. #SummerSmashUp #WhatTheHellDoIKnow #JasonBecker #Marriage #Parenting #Faith #Leadership #MentalToughness #PersonalGrowth #Podcast #MarriageAdvice #ParentingTips #ChristianPodcast #SelfImprovement #BrandonOrr #DougPagitt #MeaghanHampton

    Summer Smash-Up Part 1 | Marriage, Parenting, Faith & Mental Toughness
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Faith, doubt, deconstruction, recovery, and real conversations for people questioning everything.

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  • Creator
    Jason Becker
  • Years Active
    2024 - 2026
  • Episodes
    96
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